dear diary, today i lost my fucking will to-

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feels real shit to know someones been online like fully engaging but doesnt reply to u and u dont know when they will coz u left things kind of awkwardly last time

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making friends on tumblr was a mistake coz i cant vaguepost about them 😖😖

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my friends autistic special interest being katya for a year and a half vs my adhd brain not being able to talk about the same thing for that long and keep interest = unstoppable force vs immovable object

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i really did try the first few months, i even got into it wih her after the first month but after about six i thinj i couldnt stand it anymore and its just been growing on my nerves ever since aaaaa

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my friends autistic special interest being katya for a year and a half vs my adhd brain not being able to talk about the same thing for that long and keep interest = unstoppable force vs immovable object

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@ that one friend that i keep complaining about. i love them i really do, i want to be able to talk to them and feel their energy and their sOUl but they just want to talk about k*tya zamo and her pussy :| girl this has been the only thing u will talk about for two year i am begging for you to talk to me how we used to. like. why does every conversation we have turn into u sending me a picture of k*tapya and going pussyyyyy like STOP im here for YOU im here to talk to YOU not katya fucking hell im going insane

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i love when i tell my friend about how much i want a game and cry coz i cant get it til may and then she fucking buys it for herself before me 🤪👊🏼

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ok like i get that we all have a type but going imnot into the thpical lesbian aesthetic like girl be a bit kinder? there is no thpical lesbian aesthetic like i get that we joke about gay aesthetics but i wish u wouldnt insult one? like butches are girls too? u talk about loving girls and soft and pretty but then butches are almost looked down on? idk its grinding my gears

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genuinely how can i tell my friend that her telling me how horny she is and how much she wants to squish a drag queens fake pussy makes me super uncomfortable? ive tried already but she took it as me telling her shes disgusting and then continued to do it :///

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im really sorry to my friend but i dont want to hear about how horny u are for k*tya zamos pussy? please please let me be. i know u mean well but i beg of me put the horny somewhere else.

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learned today that sudden loud noises scare me. a lot.

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had a discussion about sacrificing and canibalising a member of my usual art table. whether we were joking is soon to be determined...

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today at a church meeting (i dont believe in it but i cant escape til i move out) a man accidentally announced to everyones children that santa is not real and now my mum is pissed at him on behalf of all the parents out there

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last night i dreamt that a shadowhunters convention was happening at my house. none of the cast could make it so binging with babish was there teaching the ten people who came how to make sushi

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when i was 13 at church camp, a girl i had been friends with for two days straight out told me i was “kind of annoying”. i think thats when i started distancing myself from forming close relationships with people.

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today i was depressed so i looked at some frogs riding some snails and felt so overwhelmed by the serenity of these frogs that i started crying