Hot Tubs & Tool Sheds

Inconsistency is my constant. I never presume to be any more then an afterthought. I hate Boston, but it's the closest city to me and that's still 5 hours away. I work at a truck stop and am happy with that for now. It's impossible for me to sit still. I love bands that scream and yell. Along with sing and dance. I love to argue and debate over anything from religion to politics. I never hold a grudge. I love to entertain. Traveling is my passion. I dislike the sound of my heartbeat. It scares me to know that's the only thing keeping me alive.

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Chasing Cars 'If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me And just forget the world?

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Sweetache

He’s another pretty face with a vacant stare. I make a humorous jab at the person on the screen and he mutters a fake laugh, and I can see behind his eyes that he’s trying to search for why it would be considered funny.

But his lips taste like candy and his physique reminds me of the stone statues in gardens.

So I’ll keep him around, until my sweet tooth starts to ache.

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I Will Steal You Back

There’s an empty space in my bed. It’s been there for quite a while, and even when it wasn’t, it was never completely filled.

I hold tight to the empty space in the quiet hours of the night when all I can hear is the quiet whir of my aging fan. My hands graze the cool area, warming it for only a moment.

I never wander over toward the empty space. I revere it with a respect I’m not sure it…

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No Pity Party Here "Your sister got married at 19?" "Oh wait, so you're the oldest?"

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Lovely Molecules

Why are you surprised dear girl when that boy asks to see you again? Do the deep, darkish, lines on your skin make you feel like you don’t deserve his attention?

Why do you feel relief when he looks into your eyes and grasps your hand tightly? Is it the extra skin that stretches further than other girls in the pages of magazines that makes you hesitant to accept his devotion?

Why when he…

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Shameful Confidence Have you seen this clip from Louie? If not, it's a must see. Louie has been a comedian I have always had lukewarm feelings about, I find some of his act hilarious and some completely uninteresting.

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Worthy Love You are worth more than the second glances and tired touches he gives. You are worth more than the 12 a.m.

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You are worth more than the second glances and tired touches he gives. You are worth more than the…

You are worth more than the second glances and tired touches he gives.

You are worth more than the 12 a.m. text message he sends when his blood is swimming in alcohol.

You are worth more than the last minute cancellations.

You are worth more than the guilt he replaces your love that you once felt with.

You are worth more than the tired sighs he gives when he feels your gentle touch.

You are worth…

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I'm sorry I hate Nutella...and douchebags. #onlinedatingprobs #openingline #smooth #dating

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Preview of my night. #tattoo #stillsinging #saturdaynight #thisprovidence

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Shiny, Blue, You

We've all went through embarrassing phases when we were younger, it's just ditching that style when you're older that can be difficult.

(Shiny, shiny, shiny!)

I knew it as soon as I saw it. This was the jacket. This was the coolest jacket ever put into existence and my twelve year old self just knew that if I owned this jacket I would be as equally cool and maybe everyone would forget the uncool ‘homeschooler’ label that followed me around.

In reality, being now twenty-six years old and no longer wearing a headgear or covering my…

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My Favorite Way To Say I Love You

A friend made an observation the other day that I don’t have an issue with dating, I have an issue…

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It's Never Over

The aftermath of rape isn’t always what you read about in sensationalized fiction. There isn’t…

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Goodbye, My Almost Lover

The two stood facing each other, one boy and one girl. Slowly they each wrapped one arm around…

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Broken, Scared, Unsure, Magnificent Generation

I am part of a generation that is struggling to have what our parents had but failing miserably in…

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The Stages of Falling into Crazy

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It's been a while since I've shared Goodwill finds. Found these two tonight, a grand total of $5! Excuse the blurriness, I was lazy. #goodwill #secondhand #finds #dresses