La Alma

Too many things to feel and always conflicted.

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Have to much yearning that I fear I ended up on Wattpad writing fiction.

https://www.wattpad.com/story/409572287?utm_source=ios&utm_medium=link&utm_content=story_info&wp_page=story_details&wp_uname=PrionDisease

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See, the thing is id move—

But if only, and really only, if he stops smiling like that.

If when he giggled I wouldn’t look around to remember his face.

The way he lectures me in topics I don’t know very much about.

The way he’ll say “I thought of you” or “I thought you’d like it”

The constant banter that seems never ending and also, I fear, the main thing I worry will give it all away.

The way he walks when we go on hikes and the way he moves.

The arms he has and the forearms right there, the chest with some belly, his thighs and his calves— his hair.

His thoughts and his words, his jokes and his bits, his mannerisms and his actions.

They’re all part of you, which is why I don’t think I can move on so easily and leave this silly little crush behind.

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I feel bad for all the wives who don’t know that their husbands are off getting dug out by some rando on Grindr :(

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Feeling like S4 Will Byers after telling my friend to go and text the girl from last night

“You’re the heart, Mike!” Just kill me. 🫩🫩🫩

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Episode 3 of Heated Rivalry was beautiful asf and cured my seasonal depression momentarily

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I want a husband. I want a house, something in the mountains of Oregon, maybe even a house the two of us designed. I’ll have a dental office and I’ll drive some family- SUV kind of car. My husband will probably be either in the Arts or even something with engineering or computers. He’s has a home office for his stuff— a studio if you will. We’ll be DINK’s for a couple of years, eventually have maybe 2-3 kids. Ideally one boy, one girl. They grow along side our Corgi and Cat. For the Holidays, we host, obviously. We’ll have family fly in from the east coast and Kansas, and we’d have a Christmas like ones from our childhood’s. I’d have a person to kiss at the start of every year, and a person to end every day with. We take family vacations every summer so that the kids will have something to write in their back to school essays. We have family photos decorating our whole house. After work we’d have family dinner and talk about our days. Maybe him and I have some alone time after and watch something, who knows.

I know all of this, but I just don’t know who, and I want it to be you.

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The song Finn used wtf you guys 😭😭😭

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And also, Euphoria season 2 used this when Nates dad was having his gay moment with his friend at a gay bar ‼️😛

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and here i was thinking episode 7 is the lowest rated episode because they fucked up the coming out scene for will and it was so unfair to his character

WHOLE TIME ITS THE HOMOPHOBES 😭😭😭😭😭

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Oh! 😭😭😭 and here I was thinking “wow so everyone’s upset about how it was handled” 😭😭😭

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I’m so broken I don’t even know where to begin

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Yea.

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Laying on my stomach, kicking my feet in the air, smiling at the FUCKASS DELETE CANVAS BUTTON

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I hope he’s straight, I can handle that more than him being gay

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They say time is money, and if that’s the case, you’re gonna run me dry

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Prove me wrong the way I know you like to and come out already!!!

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I feel like a burden but I can’t let anyone know/reassure me that I’m not a burden without feeling like a burden but if I don’t open up I’m still a burden because I refuse to express myself but I want to but also don’t wanna be a burden. Yknow

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I wonder if you smile at our messages the same way I do.

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When someone asks me what is love and I tell them about a guy I never dated