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"Heated Rivalry" Fic Recs (Hurt/Comfort, Angst w/ Happy Ending)

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Ilya Rozanov/Shane Hollander

Whump (Hurt No Comfort)

So Close by @Baybee00

~ A devastating on-ice collision changes everything for Shane Hollander, Ilya Rozanov, and everyone who loves them. Pure angst. No happy ending. Suicide, major character death.

i draw a line across the ice in your blood by @mai_love

~ Shane Hollander dies and Ilya Rozanov’s grief is laid bare for all to see. (Aka Ilya has an Achilles moment and refuses to surrender Shane’s body after he dies in the middle of a game.)

Angst with Happy Ending (Hurt/Comfort)

the soviet montage (6/6) by @pressuretoparty

~ Set during the Cold War era (1970s-1980s), Red Army superstar Ilya Rozanov defects from the Soviet Union and joins the Ottawa Centaurs.

something you can fix by @some1_around

~ Shane’s conversation with Rose is secretly recorded. Months later, after the All-Star game and Ilya’s confession in Russian, the video gets leaked online. Shane is outed to the world while Ilya is in Russia, and must now finish the 2016-2017 season with the entire world in on his secret.

the skyline falls as i try to make sense of it all (2/2) by @Literal_Multifandom_Trashcan

~ Character study of Shane's relationship with food.

Before The Whistle by @alimariereads

~ A moment of hesitation during a heated game changes everything, leaving Shane unconscious and Ilya reckoning with the truth he never meant to face.

they got no idea about you and me by @rachelrae

~ What if Cliff Marlow had hit Ilya in a game against the Ottawa Centaurs and had to deal with the confusion that was his crazy former captain and best friend high on pain meds. At least those meds were hopefully the reason for his craziness. Why else would Rozanov be calling Shane Hollander his sweetheart?

the hill i know by @chahakyn

~ Exploration of Shane's identity as a mixed race individual.

rabbit holes by @Who_Needs_Reality

~ When Shane can't sleep, he goes down Wikipedia rabbit holes. or: if you can't figure out your situationship.... Google him.

Don't Poke the Bear (7/7) by @meetmebythelilactree

~ After Shane and Ilya are outed in the events of The Long Game, Montréal and Ottawa play seven games against each other in the Eastern Conference. The Centaurs still love their captain, of course. The Voyageurs, however, are not so united.

blood on the ice by @ghosttotheparty

~ Ilya gets injured while on the ice.

found heaven by @mrsrumbles

~ Soulmate AU. Ilya's soulmark reveals itself after he's been drafted into the NHL. One problem: Shane Hollander does not have the matching mark.

there you are, morning star (7/7) by @ingberry

~ Soulmate AU where your soulmarks grow stronger as your bond grows. Shane signs to the Centaurs at the same time as Ilya.

You Call and I Come (Running) by @Kelethin

~ Shane calls Ilya for help after sustaining a concussion and Ilya comes running.

Side by Side (Shield Me From My Fears) by @ItsSoLine

~ Seeing Shane Hollander laid out on the ice was one of the worst moments of Ilya Rozanov's life. But it made him realize that he could not hide the truth anymore, no matter the aftermath.

i've never needed a reason for keeping secrets from myself by @blongblong

~ Soulmate AU where you collect objects personal to your soulmate.

the heart is hard to translate (3/3) by @catknives

~ Soulmate AU! In a world where you can understand whatever language(s) your soulmate speaks, it takes Shane and Ilya an embarrassing amount of time to realize they’re soulmates.

It Grows Down Deep by @a_stray_thief

~ Shane develops Hanahaki disease after running from Ilya post-tuna melt.

Babe for the Weekend (8/8) by @Wellington28

~ Childhood best friends! AU with fake dating and a company retreat at a ski resort.

somewhere i lost all my senses by @syddd28

~ Character study of Shane in his first year as a Centaur married to Ilya. Disordered eating, references to depression.

The Shape of Absence (3/3) by @RimsHiddenQuill

~ Shane loses his memory of Ilya following the collision. But he has a lingering sense that he's missing something very important.

light reflects the chain on your neck by @silverandshells

~ Ilya goes through seeing Shane unconscious on the ice again, and people try to convince him that they are going to be okay. Temporary amnesia.

Wild and Fluroescent (Come close to my heart) by @iwritesometimes777

~ Shane cuts ties with Ilya after Vegas. Ilya finds a drunk Shane.

the velocity of seconds

~ Shane gets hit by Marleau. Ilya freaks out, and accidentally outs himself in the process.

when the world sees (we run toward each other) (4/4) by @pucksandpower

~ Ilya's path to love, found family, and Canadian citizenship after being outed by a leaked security video at the Olympics.

fear moves me by @4hollanov

~ Shane is attacked while home alone. Married!Hollanov

Four Minutes (3/3) by @UnicornFlowers

~ Ilya's complicated family relationships are further complicated with married life and the introduction of a new homophobic player. Pay attention to tags! Temporary character death, hate crimes, panic attacks.

Last Call by @HollowIsTheWorld

~ AO3 account accessible only. Shane gets into a car accident where he is stuck in a car rapidly filling with water.

say you'll always keep me by @writingcap

~ What if Shane's plane was the one to almost crash in The Long Game?

And I'll still see it, until I die (4/4) by @hollzy81

~ What if Shane was the one that almost died in a plane crash in The Long Game? Alternating POV

Oh, To Love Loudly by @acollectionofbeautifulbutgravemistakes

~ Shane realizes that he no longer wants to hide his relationship with Ilya as his plane plummets down to earth.

What if it were you (and then it was) by @Nituaii

~ Shane's plane goes down. Ilya loses his shit.

we didn't even kiss by @suguruus

~ Shane accidentally sends the text, and Ilya literally chases after him.

The Cold's Got a Hold on Me by @Skaboom

~ While driving back to Montreal from Ottawa, a white-out blizzard comes out of nowhere, trapping Shane. Cold, alone, and afraid, Shane calls Ilya, wanting to set the record straight on a few things...just in case.

When the Ice Breaks (3/3) by @LeviosaWitch

~ Shane hides a career ending injury from Ilya for months, terrified of disappointment and loss. When his body gives out, so does his carefully constructed facade.

The Secrets We Kept (21/21) by @Larissa_liest

~ Shane Hollander disappears from the NHL at twenty with a career-ending “injury.” Four years later, he’s the new assistant coach for the Ottawa Centaurs when Ilya Rozanov signs with the team. His former rival. His secret hookup. The father of his daughter. Ilya doesn’t know Lily exists and Shane plans to keep it that way. But three-year-olds don’t keep secrets, and neither do pale blue eyes. (Check tags! A rare mpreg fic because I usually hate mpreg)

i love you, i love you, i love you by @seariarly

~ When Ilya proposes he could marry Svetlana to get citizenship, he did expect Shane to be a little surprised. However, what he didn't expect was for Shane to look away from him without saying anything. Ilya had never regretted anything more in his life.

You Have Reached Lily by @ItsMayBiTheWay

~ Hayden calls Lily after Shane's injury.

have I found you, flightless bird? by @clockworkaim

~ Shane Hollander has wings. Ilya Rozanov loves him. There's no 'despite' about it. (Wings as a metaphor for autism - trust me, the author pulls it off very well.)

Collide (3/3) by @pendr_gon and @phoenixortheflame

~ Sci-Fi/Space AU! The year is 2184. An asteroid 60 kilometres wide is on a collision path with the Earth. As a last-ditch effort to save humanity, the EEU (Eastern European Union) launches four cosmonauts each carrying 300 embryos into space. Only one makes it off planet alive.

the river of my arms have found the ocean (4/4) by @vivianno

~ Mermaid AU! Hayden thinks the new wild mer in the aquarium, Ilya, is trying to murder his best fish friend, Shane. Turns out he's got it all wrong, and murder is the last thing on their minds.

Missing Hours (10/10) by @ravenkira

~ Ilya loses his memory of the past ten years due to a bad hit right as the COVID-19 lockdown shuts down Canada.

Reveal Themselves (One Star At a Time) by @ashes2ashes15

~ A character study of Yuna Hollander. Yuna tries to understand Shane's love life for years, until she finally does.

Melting a Winter King by @nj_1996

~ Royalty AU w/ arranged marriage! Prince Shane Hollander arrives in the frozen kingdom of Rozanova as a political sacrifice, a foreign prince married off to a man raised to hate everything he represents.

Not Alone (2/2) by @deadwizardskinnie

~ Shane ends up in the hospital. Ilya panics. David understands feelings. Yuna adopts another son. Hayden loses his shit (but then gets it back).

( i am done ) trying for beauty by @hcneymooners

~ University AU! College hockey player Ilya and nursing student Shane become reluctant roommates after Ilya suffers a 'family crisis.' Character study exploring grief, the immigrant experience, and the terrible beautiful thing that is falling in love.

a world brought together as one by @tofuflower

~ A/B/O with Beta!Shane and Alpha!Ilya that offers surprisingly insightful commentary on Japanese-Canadian internment, racial tokenization, and multi-generational immigrant families.

the cadence of a secret (8/8) by @marigoldens

~ Soulmate AU! Ilya and Shane are soulmates, and their bond prevents them from both talking and being apart. Unfortunately, the only thing that’ll make the pain stop is confessing the one thing they can say: that they’re in love.

Day 90 by @kuragin

~ Shane gets stuck in a time loop of the day where Marlow hits him. 

By Halves by @tmp93

~ Yuna and David meet Ilya Rozanov at the hospital after Shane’s injury.

loser, lover by @kalonvk

~ University AU! Shane Hollander is what you call a prodigy. Incredibly smart. Talented. Captain of the university's hockey team. He has no opponents. That's it, until a mysterious exchange student, Ilya Rozanov makes a surprise appearance. He storms into his life, taking everything Shane has diligently vowed to protect. Even his own heart.

After the snow fall by @penpen_xo

~ Shane slips and falls on ice while out walking Anya, and Anya is just your everyday Lassie.

Boring Moments Between Life & Death by @Acinonyx1

~ Death! Shane and Life!Ilya AU! 5 times Shane and Ilya meet for work, and one time they meet for themselves. 

we were together. (i forgot the rest.) (3/3) by @foxriverblues

~ Bartender!Shane and Mafia Boss!Ilya. Mild angst in third chapter, but otherwise very fluffy.

We Both Go Down Together (8/8) by @NotALonelyTraveler

~ Ao3 user accessible only. Shane is one of the lucky few humans in the world predisposed to Hanahaki disease. He copes with it as well as you might expect.

Root Rot (4/4) by @Content_Scrapbooker

~ Hanahaki disease AU! Shane Hollander loved Ilya Rozanov, so much that it was going to kill him. He has to make the most of the time he has left after the Olympics, before the roots really take hold.

The Second First Time (24/24) by @Allive

~ Shane Hollander wakes up in a hospital room convinced it’s 2016 — and that Ilya Rozanov is still his biggest rival, someone he’s supposed to hate. But the world has changed. It’s 2025. They play for the same team, live in the same house, and Ilya Rozanov is wearing a wedding ring. Now Shane has to relive nine lost years, learn to trust his ‘enemy,’ and find out whether he can fall in love with his own husband all over again.

(and i want these words to) make things right (11/11) by @xianvar

~ Marriage of convenience AU! After the NHL 2012-2013 lockout, the KHL threatens to keep Ilya in Russia and forbid him from returning to the NHL. Shane finds himself pulled into a harebrained scheme to make sure his rival is safe – and it might just work. It’s not like there are feelings at play that could get in the way, right?

fall in love again and again (2/2) by @Ehlihr

~ Time loop AU! Shane wakes up on the same Tuesday over and over again after leaving Rozanov in a rush. Tuesday is his second least favourite day of the week, so he's not really happy about it.

underneath my skin is all you see by @sapphicblight

~ Ao3 user accessible only. Soulmate AU! In which Ilya Rozanov is the name on Shane’s wrist, but Shane Hollander is not on Ilya’s.

Etched Skin by @staticsilencee

~ Soulmate AU! Ilya has lived his life knowing he would never find a soulmate, and Shane has lived his life waiting for his soulmate to acknowledge him.

it's a dance (we know the moves) by @anne_with_an_eth

~ Groundhog Day/Time Loop AU! Shane and Ilya are trapped in the same time loop, and have to figure it out together.

where nobody knows you (12/12) by @dottie_wan_kenobi

~ Yuna Hollander POV-centric! Yuna and David find out about Lily, while he's in the hospital. It's a while before they find out about Ilya.

Proof of life by @cloudberrysoda

~ In which everything is the same, except Shane is a vampire. He’s not very good at it. Kind of porn with plot ngl.

The Consort of Crown and Blood (15/15) by @house_of_lantis

~ Vampire Modern Royalty AU! When a human head of state publicly insults the ancient Vampire King, the price of peace is a political union. Shane Hollander, high school teacher and assistant hockey coach, is one of the only humans in the world with a rare bloodline. He’s given an impossible choice: become a Tribute Consort to vampire Crown Prince Ilya, or watch the human race burn. (Incredible world building and geopolitics, by the way.)

These Icy Waters (5/5) by @jeejaschocolate

~ Cursed!Ilya and Folktale Creature! Shane. Ghosts and monsters AU. When Cliff Marleu mysteriously drowns, all fingers point to Ilya Rozanov. But something darker and more sinister may be at play, something that is steeped in curses and family secrets, and Shane has his own secrets to protect.

there's no pretending by @moonsock

~ The term, he’s told, is temporary retrograde amnesia. Ilya doesn’t need the direct translation to understand: he forgot things. Ten years of things.

it's always been you by @guusmin

~  Ilya and Shane have played on the same team for years. Ilya confesses his love to Shane in Russian while unbelievably drunk in a bar bathroom.

If You're Scared (I'm On My Way) (3/3) by @kanekicure

~ Zombie apocalypse AU! The zombie apocalypse starts when Rose is breaking up with Shane (luckily at his apartment). Ilya travels the span of America to try to reach Shane's side.

Back to the egg (it's crimson and gold) (3/3) by @passacig

~ University AU with FTM! Shane! Shane and Ilya once knew each other in what feels like another life. Years later, Shane has transitioned, buried his past and finally embraced his truest self. He comes to McGill to play on the men’s hockey team—only to find his roommate is Ilya Rozanov.

The People I Knew (They Got Me Surrounded For A Mile or Two) (7/7) by @icetealuvr

~ Shane gets diagnosed with cancer. He is still determined to win the Stanley Cup. Ilya Rozanov is down so bad for Shane Hollander. He doesn't know Shane has cancer. No one does.

Mama's Boy, Mama's Boy (5/5) by @WhimperSoldier

~ Shane can see ghosts AU! Shane's first mistake was going to talk to Ilya Rozanov before their game. His second was immediately, stupidly, meeting the eyes of Rozanov’s very much dead mother hovering at his side. (I truly cannot recommend this enough.)

Fractured Lights (15/15) by @shredded_potato

~ University AU! Shane’s preferences are simple: older, rougher, married men who lie to their wives and gone before morning. Ilya Rozanov is nineteen, Russian, and already moving into his dorm. Cue in covert hookups, stupidly questionable life choices, and a rookie who stares at Shane like he’s a particularly fascinating bug under a microscope. Now he has to explain why he keeps getting texts from "Mr. Chicago" while trying to teach this kid how to use the campus laundry without melting his sweaters.

white whale by @cutshot

~ University AU! Best friends to lovers Shane and Ilya, throughout the years. (Really well written, and the payoff is sooo good.)

i've been stuck for so long (we just got the start wrong) by @beagoldfish

~ Groundhog Day AU! After the tuna melt fiasco, Shane Hollander wakes up in a time loop.

Scars left behind (3/3) by @silvermoongirl10

~ 4 times Shane thinks someone on the Centaurs is telling him he isn't good enough - just like in Montreal. +1 time Ilya sees the scars Montreal left on Shane and tells his husband he has always been more than good enough. It was Montreal who was never good enough.

pink shallop shells (2/2) by Anonymous

~ Lighthouse keeper Ilya Rozanov tries to drown himself in the Newfoundland Sea. Luckily or unluckily for him, a certain merman saves him from the depths.

you saved me from myself (and i didn't even realize) by @xarahinthedark

~ Hanakaki AU! Shane doesn't eat much—he attributes it to watching his carb intake and needing to stay light and speedy, and for no other reason at all. And definitely not because of the flowers that keep him full these days.

a sound is still a sound around no one (9/9) by @dykeries

~ Amnesia AU! In 2023, Shane takes a bad hit on the ice. When he wakes up, the last thing he remembers is a tuna melt. There’s a lot to get used to.

the lines are all but drawn by @bluerosebouquet

~ Shane keeps seeing his ex on dating apps, and it's driving him insane. (This is not a sign to get back with your ex LOL.)

Borderline (5/5) by @Wintersbane

~ After ignoring his phone in favor of getting split in two by his situationship, Shane is stranded in Boston at the start of the zombie apocalypse. Ilya is left with nowhere to go, and Shane refuses to leave him behind. In order to survive, they have to cross the Canadian border and get to the cottage, together. But getting to Canada is far easier said than done. When Ilya is badly injured, their road-trip becomes a race against the dead—and the infection spreading through Ilya’s leg. (Eventual happy ending, trust!)

twenty stitches in a hospital room (10/10) by @hollidayparty

~ Shane's injuries during the Boston/Montreal game are much more life-threatening than in canon. Ilya's quick thinking and bone-deep instincts are the only reason he survives.

i've been playing dead by my whole life by @writerintheory

~ Soulmate AU! The last words you ever hear from your soulmate are tattooed on your chest. Ilya and Shane still argue over the party in Game Changers, Ilya still already chose Shane, and everything goes so much worse after Shane leaves. (NO MAJOR CHARACTER DEATH, ANGSTY AF BUT HAPPY ENDING)

a year safe in your heart (6/6) by Anonymous

~ The summer before Ilya joins the Centaurs, Shane wakes up nervous. It doesn't stop from there. OR Shane has already lived a timeline in which Ilya died in a plane crash after joining the Centaurs. He's determined that it doesn't happen again. (SUPER ANGSTY!!)

Lily and Judith (6/6) by @Finally_Facing_Failure

~ After Shane Hollander's career ending injury in 2014, he lives a quiet life at his cottage with his two daugthers. His life is turned upside down when his youngest accidentally texts Ilya Rozanov, Shane's former lover and secret crush. Can Shane find a place for Ilya in his new life? (Single Dad Shane AU)

i'll believe in anything (11/11) by @bisoubug

~ Ao3 user accessible only. Shane is a ghost, Ilya is a collegiate hockey star part-time ghost hunter who can see dead people, and it's entirely possible that they once knew each other in a past life.

Night Changes (3/3) by @proseandpulse

~ Shane is drunk, concussed, and hiding in a phone booth when he calls the only number he knows by heart. The man who answers is not Hayden Pike.

one day i'll watch as you're leaving (and life will lose all meaning) (15/15) by @hollidayparty

~ What if Shane and Ilya don't make up so easily after the Boxing Day fight? The Centaur's plane never malfunctions, so Shane never proposes. Instead, Ilya gives him an ultimatum on coming out and going public. It backfires spectacularly. (TW: Suicidal ideation)

The Importance of Strawberries (20/20) by @lostinpinerocklands

~ Amnesia AU! In 2031, Shane wakes up in the hospital certain that it's 2010. Ilya is there to remind him of the two decades he's missed and the life they've built along the way. Kid fic, no smut, married Hollanov.

love in exile has nowhere to go by @justhockey

~ Shane doesn’t get hurt, they break up, and they don’t talk for five long years. Until Shane is traded to Ottawa.

Have Fun and Come Back Safe (2/2) by @Rainbow_Femme

~ One earthquake, two lost phones, and many articles citing a mistranslated headline later and Shane needs to get a message home that he and Rose are alive. But he and Rose are millennials and whoops, they haven't had to memorize a phone number since they were kids.

The Knockout Lockout (3/3) by @PillowForte

~ Established relationship! Ilya gets knocked out during a game and it fucks with his memory. A hospital stay in which Ilya moons over his husband despite not knowing it's just husband. (He thinks it's doomed yaoi but it's not doomed yaoi.) Still angsty because Ilya is very confused and sad and Shane ain't having a good time either.

falling into you by @quinnfuhbeay

~ Tunameltdown AU where Ilya makes him tuna melts and says his name and Shane doesn’t freak out and run away. Well, he does freak out, but he also stays. Or the one where Shane doesn’t realize that Ilya’s his boyfriend for a solid three months. (Somehow both a fix-it fic and uniquely angsty in its own right.)

keep a place for me (3/3) by @agetwellcard

~ Childhood friends to lovers AU! When Shane is in junior high, Ilya's family moves to Canada. Instead of meeting as adults, they grow up together. Shane learns Russian and Ilya spends a majority of his time at the Hollander household. When they start their professional hockey careers, they have to learn how to be opponents instead of teammates, but also how to be apart for the first time in their lives. When Ilya suggests that they sleep together, Shane has to balance their friendship and their casual relationship.

change like the sky (5/5) by @cupocoffee

~ Shane gets outed and accidentally hurts himself, the world thinks he's tried to end his life, and Ilya struggles to come to terms with mortality in more than one sense of the word.

i want a scar that looks like you by @angel_deux

~ Soulmate AU! Shane has been covering up his soulmark for as long as Ilya has known him. Ilya doesn't have a soulmark at all.

so you must like me for me (2/2) by @alasse

~ Shane wants to figure out if he's gay before he gets drafted. Unfortunately, the random guy he hooks up with to try and make sure one way or another takes a picture, and Shane gets outed before the draft. In the ensuing scandal, he goes seventh overall, to Ottawa. It turns out having the worst thing you can think of happen to you when you're seventeen years old can end up being pretty liberating. (Best friends to lovers.)

[mikeywaylesbian]

i find destiel sincerely hard to explain to the uninitiated bc it’s like. it’s an accident it’s on purpose they didn’t want it to happen they made it happen it’s a cruel joke it’s essential to the canon it’s queerbait it’s a sincere love story it’s homophobic it’s written by a gay writer it’s subtext it’s text it’s an offhanded dig it’s the centre of the universe you’re crazy you’re not crazy. and all of that is true at once

[valsayshowdy]

GUYS

GUYS

ELLE WOODS IS SMARTER THEN SAMMY

[devotioncrater]

not yet seeing confirmation of trent returning for s4….

[urmyhuckleberry]

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[carisstiel]

castiel: dean is so beautiful, he is the most lovely thing I’ve ever known in my millennia of existence. but I have hurt him so many times, in my constant misguided efforts to be good. I have missed my chance, if there ever was one. unrequited love is the best I can have. at least I get to be near him.

dean, openly staring at his lips, pupils dilated: god he’s so hot … I Have to make him a playlist

[dean-winchesters-leather-jacket]

supernatural alignment chart

[tannisroute]

isn't it crazy that a woman being gender nonconforming literally just requires her to exist in her own body without making any changes whatsoever. why does the fact that i don't wear makeup and i don't shave and i don't wear a bra have to be some political act. why can't i just fucking exist

[ughhhdavid]

💙❤️

[bachaboska]

Ted Lasso x Trent Crimm for FTH2024

[urmyhuckleberry]

This will fuel my TedxTrent ship for eons.

[drulalovescas]

It's Supernatural for YOU.

It's Brokebacknatural for me.

[worrynoodle]

I'd only ever seen two of these comparisons oh my god

They were SCREAMING at us

[snevinsspn]

don’t get me wrong i am a finale hater at my core but there’s something poetic about how it’s thoroughly established throughout the show that cas was the “malfunction” in the system that caused the story not to go the way chuck wanted it to by developing free will and rebelling from heaven and then the moment he dies the story ends with dean dying and sam living an “regular life” the way it would’ve if the series never happened at all

like the series spends a lot of time saying cas is NOT the way he’s supposed to be. he rebelled the moment he saved dean from hell. he turns the narrative on its head by developing free will and making his own decisions. chuck even tells him that this is the only universe in which cas “didn’t do as he was told”. he ruins chucks plan for the brothers at every turn by caring about them.

then moment cas was gone the story went back to the way it would’ve ended if the show never happened and he had never affected anything. like the “error” was deleted and it reverted to the way it “should be”. dean died tragically and stupidly on a hunt way too young doing a job for his father. sam got out and lived an “apple pie life” and died old. they went to heaven with their family and it’s all The Way It Should Be, not matching up with the message of found family the show developed and instead returning to the blood family vibe of the early seasons pre cas. like he died and the story stopped resisting chucks wishes. idk i’m just yapping but it feels like something

[gerardways-mcr]

This has me on the ground pulling my hair out

[bobwess]

[disabled-dean]

Truly the way this scene would have hit so much harder if Mary was the right age. Like Dean, girl, you're 40! You sound crazy!! That is a truly crazy thing to say to her!! She's 29! She's been dead for decades! She was brutally murdered! Her marriage was arranged by heaven! Her babies are now fully grown men! She just learned what tiktok is!

But this dynamic also validates Dean's feelings sooooooooo much more imo. If Mary really is 10+ years younger than he is, and if she's given the internal life in the narrative to process everything that's happened to her and to grieve and figure things out on her own, then what he wants is truly something he can't have!

It's not just an issue of Mary being able to meet his needs and choosing not to or needing more time, she really truly cannot give him what he's asking for and that is so painful! And it's so real. That kind of grief and the struggle to accept that your parent is never going to parent you the way that you need them to.

Dean really did lose his mother, and even though she's back, it doesn't change or fix that, it just forces all these feelings to the surface. It's messy. It isn't fair. And it isn't either of their faults. It's that kind of family trauma that you don't really have anywhere to put, it just carves out a space in you.

Anyways stream Ten Minutes From Home: Lebanon Coda to play in the 29 year old Mary space with me <3

[urmyhuckleberry]

Yes! Mary deserves some grace!

[magnificent-winged-beast]

This change my life to a molecular level 🤣

[dotthings]

This cannot be said too often--Dean reached out again and again. Dean cared the most about Cas personally. Dean went through the most anguish over Cas. Dean is the one who related to Cas and saw a kindred spirit and when Cas was hurting, it hurt him, when Cas was vulnerable, it scared him, Dean kept reaching out while Cas often ran away, Dean kept showing Cas he wanted Cas to stay, Dean forgave Cas again and again. Dean has the high emotional IQ and Cas, who is very loving and feels too much but doesn't know how to process the emotions flooding through him, is the one who has the most to learn about relationships and the emotional impact of his choices on others. Dean who had to explain to Cas he wasn't mad, he was worried when Cas doesn't answer voicemails and texts. Cas who thought he wasn't loved, who discovered how loved he was all along.

Don't tell me all Dean does is yell and how he's so ~mean to poor helpless Cas. Dean's heart was bleeding out on his sleeve for Cas all the time and he cares SO MUCH and I'm tired of how Cas stans are the actual biggest denialists in the fandom about it.

[drulalovescas]

Dean Winchester has a type...

...and it sure as hell isn't Ketch