Complete and Utter Bullshit

I don't fucking know anymore. Bisexual, She/they, INFP, Pisces, Slytherin, Horned Serpent, Witch of Void

[a-mel0n]

reblog if you’ve had an online friendship that’s lasted more than 2 years

[zombinx]

happy halloween 🃏

[v01d-ch1ld]

Got bored again and drew Dickface, any tips on anatomy appreciated, love you guys <3

[v01d-ch1ld]

Got bored and started drawing again lol

[v01d-ch1ld]

It’s been years since I’ve posted, but this song describes somewhat where things are heading.

Characters I feel like this song describes somewhat:

Bruce Wayne

Tim Drake

Artemis Fowl

Uraraka Ochaco

The Wolf of Wall Street

Kaiba Seto

Patrick Bateman

Heathcliff

Mr. Darcy

Mr. Burns

Ebenezer Scrooge

Ootori Kyoya

Jay Gatsby

Chuck Bass (pre Blair)

Ciel Phantomhive

[v01d-ch1ld]

So AO3 might be down......

[v01d-ch1ld]

What am I supposed to say?

I hate this. I am so tired. I am so weak. I have been fighting for so long but I am starting to break down again. I don't want to be alive. I never did. I don't want to die either. I can't win. I need a break. Just one span of time where nothing horribly wrong happens to me. When I can stop failing and succeed for once.

Feel loved just once.

Feel happy just once.

All I've ever wanted was to feel happy just once.

I want someone to hold me willingly, tell me that they are proud of me, and mean it.

I want someone to look at me and actually know who I am.

I am starving. For love, for touch, for sympathy. No one likes it when you beg for those things, but no one is giving them to me anyway. So I go without.

I want to be understood and not undermined or dismissed.

I come from a family made of problems. My problems are just the ones that don't matter.

This wasn't supposed to sound like a note, but I am dying on the inside and no one seems to be listening to me. No one seems to care.

"get over it." "live your life" "it was in the past"

I was a child. I was still developing. It will never just be the past to me. It is every person I meet from now on. I am damaged goods and there is no fixing the things inside me that are broken. I'd know I've tried and nothing ever works.

I really hope the meds make it better or this will be my note.

I am so tired.

[v01d-ch1ld]

Existential Crisis #4

You love your family, you do. You don't.

Spending time with them is awful.

Spending time with them is great!

You really miss them.

You really miss your privacy.

You love them, you really do.

You feel so loved and warm and safe.

You're so cold and alone.

[v01d-ch1ld]

Existential Crisis #3

Emotions? You don't know her.

Well, actually you do.

You have an abusive relationship, they flip flop and change and take your energy and it takes *weeks* to get it all back.

They ruin your relationships and make you cry, laugh, and rage at the wrong times.

They make you unable to focus on anything.

They lie to you about how you actually feel.

So you tell them to "shut up!" and try to will them away.

They don't go away and you're stuck like this forever.

[v01d-ch1ld]

Existential Crisis #2

You're sad.

You don't know why (or you do but it happened so long ago no one knows why it still hurts), but it's always there.

Everyone tells you to fix it because it sucks for them.

Don't they know that if you could, it would be fixed?

Why would they care?

They don't help you fix it.

[v01d-ch1ld]

Existential Crisis #1

You don't know who you are.

You can't ask anyone else because they don't know either.

[theprideful-deactivated20251201]

no more homework. abolish it

[theprideful-deactivated20251201]

we do not need to spend our entire childhood and early adulthood doing hours and hours of work in overdrive with no reward or even a break, exhausting ourselves mentally and physically for a letter grade. homework isn’t even necessary. it helps no one learn and has actually been proven to be a detriment to school work and health. people flourish with time for creativity rest and imagination. our capitalistic school system is destroying that for the sake of creating some worn-out and beaten down little machines. not to mention the ableism and classism in expecting every student fo have the same amount of time and ability to do assignments to the standards of the school.

[v01d-ch1ld]

It could be the gifted kid burn out or the fact that i am currectly taking an accounting class but yeah, i agree.

[stunningpicture]

So proud of my mother for doing her own research after I sent her that meme. A sign she hung in her car window.

[jettestblack-deactivated2017080]

Stay woke

[pual1010-deactivated20150723]

Is this true?

[mallninjacode-deactivated201812]

Not only is it true, it gets worse. The Susan G Komen For The Cure Foundation has actually successfully sued “competing” charities, because (paraphrasing) their “message or branding was infringing.”

You read that correctly: they took money that people had donated to cure cancer, and hired attorneys with it, to sue ANOTHER group of people trying to find a cure for cancer, who, in turn, had to us their donated money to hire their own legal counsel to defend themselves.

[redbloodedamerica]

[spacemohawks]

Yeah signal boost because not enough people know about this and seriously FUCK SUSAN G. KOMEN THEY ARE THE ACTUAL WORST

[beanmom]

Some links…

http://thinkbeforeyoupink.org/

http://www.somethingawful.com/feature-articles/for-the-cure/

http://thestir.cafemom.com/in_the_news/132728/susan_g_komen_foundation_has

(reblogged in honor of my mother, who died of breast cancer, 11/13/97)

[hello-missvixy-deactivated20160]

Reblog every time I see it. Roughly once a month.

[blockmind]

Also please never forget the pink fracking drill bit

that’s right fracking you know, a process using chemicals known to cause cancer that leech into the water supply

http://www.triplepundit.com/2014/10/baker-hughes-fights-breast-cancer-pink-fracking-drill-bits/

http://www.nbcnews.com/health/cancer/pink-drill-bits-bring-complaints-komen-tie-fracking-n223166

[alexithymia42]

It’s that time of year again, please remember Komen is the actual worst

[sofia-ciel]

Komen For The Cure is pretty much awful.

[imaginarycircus]

My mother died in 1996 from breast cancer. Most cancer charities are scams, in that people throw fancy parties and get rich off them and very little money goes into research or support for patients. Here are some vetted cancer charities that get good scores on Charity Navigator and pay medical expenses or fund research:

Breast Cancer Research Foundation

Cancer Research Institute

Dana-Farber Cancer Institute

63 four star rated cancer charities on charity navigator

[spacey-sandwich]

Signal boosting this

[emmalily]

Reblogging from myself because it’s October now

[v01d-ch1ld]

This charity is a fraud and deserves to be exposed. Three women in my family have died from this.

[bakusoftie]

if you stan

bakugou

shigaraki

dabi

shinso

aizawa

you either have daddy issues or low self-esteem

[v01d-ch1ld]

The way all of my kins are on this list....

[v01d-ch1ld]

Where are the x readers where the reader has an attitude? The ones where y/n is a rebel? Where y/n struggles with eating three meals a day or drinking water and sleeping? Where are the ones who don't accept toxic energy and cries but returns that shit to sender and watches them burn? Where are the reader fics where the reader isn't accepting any shit and actually will chew the love interest out?

[v01d-ch1ld]

To the person currently staring into the same void as me,

How are you? You haven't been sleeping so it can't be great. You're currently trying to resist the urge to jump into the immaterial and stray away from the living world into the darker. Don't. I've visited and there's nothing there. Simply wade through those insinuations of worthlessness to your destination of conquest.

[v01d-ch1ld]

Everytime I leave my mom's house my mantra becomes "no combination of coffee and weed is ever gonna fix this but I'mma keep trying"