Dear C
These days have not been easy for any of us, but they helped me to look back and see everything that we went through. I can only thank you for all the good times and all the lessons you gave me. You showed me there is goodness in this world, I've never met anyone with such a pure soul.
I cannot forget all the good memories I have with you. From your brother's wedding, where I met all your family; Thailand, seeing you on the boat on the way to Phi Phi with a pretty smile on your face and all that excitement, looking at all the plants and trees and wondering if we could sneak one of them through the border and take it to Luxembourg, or the time at the elephant sanctuary when we had that beautiful connection with those magnificent animals; Alonissos, where I had one of the best and most relaxing holidays of my life in those clear waters by your side; Mauritius where we could eat and dance a lot of Hindi music, we relax at Pereybere Beach and see the sunset together; and Lisbon ridding the coast with the patinets, the wind in your face, the fun time with my family. It feels so weird to think that all these memories will now be part of a "past life."
Thinking that I might not see you again breaks my heart. The idea that you are leaving my side and I will never see you again, opening our apartment's door and being able to kiss you, the mere notion of hearing that you are leaving the country and moving somewhere else, makes me sad. I genuinely love you.
When I say that I cannot see my life without you, I am not lying; you are the part I always miss. You keep my head cold and my feet down to earth. I love the way you hold the house organised, and I love cooking for you; I am used to driving you and always having you by my side, the same that I am used to seeing you every morning and giving you a morning kiss.
I don't know what will happen. But I can tell you that I will always keep you in my heart, and if one day you make up your head and you would like to see me again, I will gladly take you back to Um Plateau and then afterwards to far away gas station in the middle of the highway to get a nice ice-cream and see you smile again.
In the meantime, I want to share something that I read:
"You're going to realize it one day-- that happiness was never about your job or your degree or being in a relationship. Happiness was never about following in the footsteps of all of those who came before you; it was never about being like the others.
One day, you're going to see it-- that happiness was always about the discovery, the hope, the listening to your heart and following it wherever it chose to go. Happiness was always about being kinder to yourself; it was always about embracing the person you were becoming.
One day, you will understand that happiness was always about learning how to live with yourself, that your happiness was never in the hands of others. It was always about you.
It was always about you."
I hope with all my heart that you find what you are looking for. Even though things didn't work out the way we planned, those memories we made together were pure magic. Every laugh, every moment together, it all meant the world to me. The warmth of your love will forever stay with me.
Life is full of surprises, and who knows what the future holds? Maybe our stars will align again, and when they do, I'll be here with open arms, ready to hold you close. Until then, please take care of yourself. Find happiness, and know that you'll always have a special place in my heart. I'll miss you more than words can say, especially your smile and the incredible bond we shared.
This is goodbye for now, C, but until we meet again, may your life bring you the happiness and love you deserve.
Grateful for you always












