hii! I’ve suddenly fell back in love with bg3 & was wondering if I could request astarion x ace!reader. Maybe reader worries in the beginning that he’d be upset they wouldn’t want to have sex; how would astarion respond? But overtime reader becomes more comfortable & wanted to try only if he did.
I'm a sucker for realistic situations, so I'm going to admit that it took me a bit to figure how she'll tell him. In the end, I just went with it. No big changes to the rest of the story.
Also, I approve of your pfp 👏
The first time you told him, it had been more of a rushed confession than anything else.
You’d been sitting at camp together, the firelight dancing across his pale skin, throwing shadows that made him seem even more like a painting than a man. He’d been leaning close, teasing, lips brushing your ear in the way that always made your heart trip but this time, your body locked up.
You blurted it out before you could think better of it.
“I don’t… want sex. Not like that. I’m – ” Your throat tightened. “I’m ace.”
For a moment, silence. You swore you could hear the flames crackle louder. You couldn’t look at him. You knew what men thought of that word, of what it meant. You braced yourself for disappointment, for mockery, for the practiced charm to turn cold.
And then… he laughed.
Not cruel, not bitter. Just a soft, amused sound that held none of the sting you expected.
“Oh, darling.” He tipped your chin up with a finger so you had no choice but to meet those red, knowing eyes. “Do you think that’s what I want from you?”
Your breath held. “Isn’t it?”
He tilted his head, lips curling into a smirk, though there was something tired beneath it. “Believe me, I’ve had more sex than anyone could possibly want. I’ve given my body to others until there was nothing left of me. And what did it earn me? Chains. Bruises. Nightmares I’ll never truly be free of.” His voice lowered, the humor slipping away. “I don’t want that with you.”
The words cut through your fear like a knife through cloth.
“But – ”
“No.” He leaned back slightly, still keeping his finger under your chin, gentle. “If that’s all you fear disappointing me with, then consider yourself absolved. You are not here to be my bed warmer, my pretty distraction. You are…” He trailed off, searching for the words, eyes softening in a way he’d never allow in front of the others. “You are the only person who’s ever treated me like more than a tool. That’s worth far more than fumbling about under the blankets.”
Your chest tightened. He made it sound so simple.
“But what if you – want it?”
“Then I will want it with someone who wants it too.” His smile turned sharp again, teasing, though you could see how deliberately he chose to mask the sincerity that lingered. “Don’t look so worried, darling. I assure you, there are countless other ways to keep me entertained.”
It was the first time you breathed easy.
•••••••••••••
With time, the two of you grew into your own rhythm. Astarion was patient in ways you hadn’t expected. He enjoyed touching, yes, but only as much as you enjoyed being touched. He’d curl against your side by the fire, hand draped casually on your thigh, tracing idle patterns with his thumb. He’d press kisses to your hairline, your shoulder, the back of your hand with exaggerated reverence that made you laugh.
And he never pushed further. Not once.
Still, a quiet doubt lingered in the back of your mind. Maybe you were holding him back from something he craved. Maybe he lied to protect your feelings. Maybe he was pretending.
Until one night.
•••••••••••••
It was late. The others slept. You and Astarion sat together by the dying embers of the fire, close enough that your knees brushed. He was telling one of his stories. Ridiculous, probably embellished, but his voice made every word fascinating. And then you interrupted him.
“Astarion?”
He arched a brow, amused at being cut off. “Yes, darling?”
Your throat went dry. “I think… I’d like to try. With you.”
For the first time in a long while, Astarion looked caught off guard.
“You – ?” He blinked, lips parting. Then, just as quickly, his mask slid back into place. “Are you certain? Or is this guilt talking?”
“I’m certain,” you said, steadier than you felt. “I trust you. I… want to know what it would be like. But only if you want it, too.”
For a moment, the silence was so heavy you almost regretted saying anything. Then he reached for you, cradling your face in his hands, and his expression was unlike anything you’d seen before – raw, vulnerable, almost reverent.
“You precious fool,” he whispered. “Do you have any idea what it means that you’d offer me this? After everything I’ve told you? After everything I’ve been?”
You swallowed. “I just know it’s you.”
Something broke in him then. His smirk faltered, and he kissed you. Not with the practiced seduction he used on strangers, not with the hunger of someone who needed to prove himself. But soft. Gentle. Careful.
He pulled back almost immediately, searching your face. “If you ever change your mind, even halfway through, you tell me. Do you understand?”
“I understand.”
His smile was small, trembling at the edges. “Then, my love… we’ll go at your pace. Always.”
•••••••••••••
Later, when you lay together – clothed still, tangled in blankets, his arm wrapped protectively around you – you realized what he meant.
For Astarion, intimacy wasn’t about the act. It wasn’t about sex, or desire, or the games he played with others. It was about choice. About freedom. About finally having something he never thought he’d be allowed to have.
And for the first time in your life, you didn’t feel broken for being who you were. You felt cherished.
Because Astarion – sharp, wounded, wickedly charming Astarion – looked at you like you were the only thing he’d ever truly chosen.
Astarion's Book of Hungers is finally here... And it's suprisingly decent!
TW: Spoilers I guess
So as the one who put a Hermaeus Mora on her pfp (with a reason!) I of course ran to check the book and swallow it in one take read it ASAP, and what I can tell you, it provides some enriching lore for our lovely bloodthirsty vampire.
And by the way, Stephen Rooney is listed in credits as text designer!
I will very shorlty write important snippets from it (related mostly to Astarion).
Cons of the book:
- Unfortunately, the book focuses mainly on pre-BG3 timeline and custom campaign in that particular timeline, so there are zero addittions for post-BG3 canon and lore.
Pros of the book - everything else! Which is:
- Lots of vampires: it was shown that vampires are indeed super common among the nobles in the High Society. They attend balls and dance among the mortals.
- Astarion's timeline: we finally have the proper dates.
1261 DR. Astarion Ancunín is born in Baldur’s Gate.
1300 DR. The vampire Cazador Szarr turns Astarion into a vampire spawn.
1492 DR. The events of Baldur’s Gate 3 occur.
- Introduction of Rat's Run: Astarion's favourite tavern where he was "hunting" the most.
Rat's Run is a tavern with bad reputation - the laws of city don't work there, the tavern's master is a disguised rakshasa, it's a place sailors and smugglers and any other criminal of all kinds loves to visit, it's their own little haven. We remember Astarion's words from the game that on most part his victims were all like this, now we also have more info on that.
- A bit more of the information about Cazador and his other six spawns.
I think this won my attention for good, because there is a lot to uncover.
1. Cazador Szarr is listed as vampire mage infernalist who worship Mephistopheles, and because of that Harvester devils were regulartly visiting him. (to prevent any argument I think it's worth to point out: It was Cazador Szarr who sold his own soul to the Archdevil, thinking that the consequences won't reach him because of his vampirism. Mephistopheles loves to prove such arrogant individuals wrong. Ascended Astarion does not sell his own soul by performing the ritual, because just performing the ritual does not create/sign a contract, and AA never signs anything, as the "selling one's soul" performs only with the name's sign, paper and ink with the devil witness, as we saw in Mizora's scene with breaking Wyll's contract). (upd: It is not written in this precise book, I forgot to warn, but rather as a conclusion of all the canon information I gathered. I will write sometime later a proper post about it!)
2. An illustration of spawn Violet flirting with a Harvester Devil (with Astarion, exasperated, standing behind).
Proper introductions of other spawns with interesting details, such as:
1.1 Astarion wasn't the first spawn of Cazador, but actually his second one.
1.2 First spawn was Aurelia, a tiefling. Third - Pale Petras, was human. Fourth - Violet, was an elf, ''She relishes tormenting her siblings and strives to please her master''. Others listed as "recent spawns": Leon, Dalyria and Yousen.
1.3 Confirmed that Astarion indeed was once an elf magistrate.
(also, noticed how in this book DnD alignments are still used all over the stats, everybody is evil lmao)
There is also an illustration of Aurelia and Violet who lured a victim specifically for Cazador to feed upon, them all smiling.
- Little insight into the relationship between Cazador's spawns.
Honestly, I've been thinking about writing a big post about them and now I have even more material for that. Because if you ever imagined them all being friendly or at least tolerating each other's existence, or all "being victims in one dire situation"... forget about it lol. One of the scenarios for custom campaign in Rat's Run is that Astarion can hire some vampire hunters to kill Violet, but her revealing this plan and turning them back on Astarion.
Or it is Violet from the starters plans to kill Astarion by the reason of "her jealosy", according to Astarion himself. Astarion says "she thinks I want to humiliate her at every turn".
Just like I imagined - you cannot expect rainbows and sunshines blooming between them all. We had bits of proof in game too, and again, even more info now.
- Astarion is friendly with one of the Rat's Run tavern patrons, a kenku agent of the Guild named Roka. "The vampire spawn occasionally hunts individuals Roka has designated for elimination."
- And just bunch of Astarion's quotes I think many will find funny or just enjoyable lol
So, that's somehow it. Overall I think it's quite good addittion to what we already have. And I will run preparing a post about other six Cazador's spawns with more lore now presented.
you don’t realize how important lunch is until you’re wandering around thinking about how unloveable and untalented and uniquely cursed you are and then it’s 4pm and you finally eat lunch and you go Oh. oh right.
a vampire professing their love goes unmatched. what’s the point of modern dating vernacular when vampires always do it better. give me the yearning give me the craving.
