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Just Broken

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Rain only falls because the clouds can no longer handle the weight

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There are no words

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When you get on my mind I get migraines.

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When shit hits the fan I hit my vape

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I'm Sorry

You entered back into my life

And brought the light

You made a deal

And I felt my heart heal

The past is done

Your demons once won

You broke my heart

And pulled it apart

I have a fear

Of falling for you, dear

It fucks me over every time

I ignore every sign

Right person wrong place

You might be a little too late

I stood ready to die

And I constantly lie

I don't think you quite know

How much I put on a show

I block everyone out with a smile

It keeps them around for a while

I'm broken and have a bad mind

I wish I could just rewind

Go back and change it all

And just let myself fall

Break me once and I can forgive

Break me twice and I'll live

Break me any fucking more

You'll catch me on the floor

Blood dripping from my arm

The physical appearance of the harm

I'm a time bomb baby and when I blow

I'll of pushed you far away that it won't of been able to fucking touch you because I can't blow up my precious love....

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There will always be a special place for that person who hurt you the most. Because they wouldn't have hurt you so fucking bad if you didn't love them. The people we love have the most fucking power. They can bring blubbering happiness. Or the screaming silence of depression.

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We had that tragic kind of love. You know the one where she falls for him and he falls for her and they both think that life will end up great. But then things get hard and toxic and then... Then they're gone to nothing. Now we pretend like we don't even know each other and bringing up the name just brings us pure agony. Yeah... That kind of tragic love.

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Trying to get you out of my head is like trying to get a unicorn to do a belly dance. It's impossible.

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Confession #2

It's really just sad that I'm living out the dream you dreamt up.... With someone else.

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“I guess that’s what saying good-bye is always like–like jumping off an edge. The worst part is making the choice to do it. Once you’re in the air, there’s nothing you can do but let go.”

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Lauren Oliver

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Confession #1

I am honestly tired of feeling like I'm dying because of one person. I hate that they still have control over me and my feelings. They're not even in my life

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things people do in real world dialogue:

• laugh at their own jokes

• don’t finish/say complete sentences

• interrupt a line of thought with a sudden new one

• say ‘uh’ between words when unsure

• accidentally blend multiple words together, and may start the sentence over again

• repeat filler words such as ‘like’ ‘literally’ ‘really’ ‘anyways’ and ‘i think’

• begin and/or end sentences with phrases such as ‘eh’ and ‘you know’, and may make those phrases into question form to get another’s input

• repeat words/phrases when in an excited state

• words fizzle out upon realizing no one is listening

• repeat themselves when others don’t understand what they’re saying, as well as to get their point across

• reply nonverbally such as hand gestures, facial expressions, random noises, movement, and even silence

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I just want to be able to look back at this

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Dear Sam

Happy New year.... I guess. Not that I really care if you have a happy new year. The pain you fucking put me through tears me apart almost daily. Luckily for me the guy I'm with I love. And I know you loved me in your own fucked up way. You loved me and blinded yourself just like I blinded myself and we ended up with an extremely toxic relationship. You pushed the pain you had onto me. And sometimes you would take it too far. You knew I was never going to fight the grabs to my leg and leaving bruises. I'd never fight the ripping my hair almost out and the fact you ignored my yelps of pain. You ignored the tears falling from my face most of the time. And I always, always just fell for you. Just forgave the fact that you fucked me over.

I cried almost daily over you and half the time you didn't get to see. But I guess you know didn't notice how the light in my eyes died or the hope in my heart slowly deteriorating. With each day I felt my heart getting more and more empty and my soul becoming more and more numb.

I hope you never come across this page. Or... Maybe I hope you do. Either way. One day I guess you'll figure the pain you actually put people through. But for now. I'll let your utter disregard for everyone else in the world to continue to fuck people around you up.

~The Girl You Turned Into a Mess~

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When you see the start of someone getting insane, it’s probably the beginning of a battle between the heart and the brain. Then you will have two options to go for. Either to stay and support or make it worse and walk through the door.

The guide for dealing with madness, I.c.f.