God, I have such a bad habit of leaving these long ass comments. @dhumavati wrote a post asking everyone to share what they hate about their placements in the comment section, but nah, I couldn’t just comment this or even reblog this. I had to delete the comment because THIS deserves its own post in its own right.😤
You have no idea how f-ing relieved I am that they asked this.
So, what do I hate about my chart?😁
For starters, my whole chart. Literally.😐
And before anyone says I’m being dramatic and accuses me of being a “pick me," I have Moon and Lagna Lord in the 8th house (which is my AK too) and a 12th house stellium (two planets with Ketu sitting there). Only three, THREE, planets sit outside of a dusthana house. One of these planets is my Venus in the 11th house in its own sign, which you might look at and think, “well, that’s got to be your happy ending!🥰 What could go wrong with this one at least?😅” But it did NOTHING except rope in all of my 8th and 12th house placements together and made them fight each other because of my stupid Mars. Like, not even my “best” placement is saving me. People believe in all of that astrology brainrot and say how Venus and Mars conjunction makes you sexy, but F*CK those pop astro bitches. It just made me lazy, greedy, and soulless. It’s the reason why I’m struggling at all.😭 You would think the 8th and the 12th houses are the culprit here, but don't take any placement for granted. Not even a Venus and Mars conjunction.
And omfg, whenever you look up anything about the dusthana houses, especially the 8th and 12th house in particular, it’s just the same bs over and over and over AGAIN. Like, pls, write something new. I'm not talking about everyone. If you're reading this, it's likely not you. You know who you are. It's the one poisoning the town’s water supply here in the community, writing the same AI bullshit that any five-year-old can write. Breaking news! There is nothing profound about telling me that I’m basically just destined to be a bald monk meditating on some random ass mountain in Nepal, but they polish that turd and add all of this fancy, verbose preservative to essentially state that my suffering is for a "spiritual" cause. Every damn book, article, and video says the same thing and they fear monger you into believing you will be doomed to be miserable for life but they're just "stating the facts" ofc. I guess I am miserable at least, but I can think of so many people who are far more miserable than me, and they don’t have any placements in a dusthana house at all. And please don't use the word "spirituality" beyond referring to the 12th house as the house of Moksha. What does “spirituality” even f*cking mean? That word alone could mean anything in this day and age. It's lazy writing, and just because these are the houses related to "moksha," that does not mean you can just slap that word on and call it a day. They never even elaborate on that if I disagree with them. And if I tell them that my experience is different, they give me some “mysterious” response with fancy wording to package it which is basically trying to make me look dumb because they’re too butthurt to admit that they were wrong. GIRL…They even claim “psychic” abilities, but you want to know what’s funny? How tf am I supposed to have these powers let alone understand what these “psychic” powers are if I have aphantasia???😭
If you saw my placements, you would think “oh, she’s an old soul” or “this native will have razor sharp intuition who can quickly call people out on their bs” or she will be some doctor or a psychologist who gets overworked for hardly any pay. It’s always something about some damn intuition whenever I read these too, but I have no idea where mine’s gone because I keep on getting involved with the wrong people, and I keep upsetting everyone else around me for no reason. I don’t even know that someone has been mean to me until years later, when I lay in bed in the middle of the night, and I finally figured out what they were actually saying, and then I start punching my pillow and crying because I was too dumb to tell. Or I give a compliment to someone, and it accidentally offends them because I said they looked like a praying mantis because even though I’m terrified of praying mantises, I love how all the models I see look like one. Like I just meant you’re gorgeous…😭 I don't understand people at all, and I could care any less when I'm out here fending for myself. I don't want to sit in some stuffy office to act like the mother you never had in your life because she refused to breastfeed you cuz all I'm gonna tell you is, "sorry, better luck next life ig." And if anyone says to check the aspects, signs, divisional charts or whatever nonsense, f*ck y'all. Been studying Vedic for two years now and still didn't find anything. At the end of the day, I’m just an everyday girl who’s trying to earn a living. In real life, I just want my paycheck, and I want nothing to do with this world.🖕I’m not as “deep” as they make these houses make me seem. I'm empty, but it's not even air on the inside because it’s purely a vacuum. I have no soul, and people can feel that. People avoid me in real life because I just talk, talk, and talk, and I’m not even talking to anyone. I’m just talking to myself! You really want to know what these houses are doing? I have no f-ing clue. I just feel like a bimbo who wants to go shopping all day and ride dick all night. Ok, I think I'm done.
Oh, wait, and I’m Anuradha Sun and Purnavasu Moon, so yeah, Dhumavati was right about what she said at least. Kudos to her. I’m pretty much evil incarnate who will stare at you back with bulging, wide eyes in horror because I traded my soul with the devil.
Traded my soul to be the next Kurt Cobain, but the devil didn't call back. Plot twist, turns out it was God in disguise, and that donkey ran away with my soul, y’all. Even stole my broken Fender guitar and pawned it for some angel dust. Not even the devil would backstab me like this without a good f*ck with aftercare and a blunt. But idk, Daron Malakian is my spirit animal atp. May Dhumavati guide my soulless bum. Ameen.🤲
Anyways, here’s the aftercare that God did not give me when he screwed me for my soul. In all seriousness, I will say that there is truth to Vedic. There is still a bit of content out there that covers these houses brilliantly, like VicDicara’s video on the 8th house. I actually started studying Vedic out of irony because I didn’t resonate with my placements, but I started to realize that it is true, but we’re not seeing the truth for what it is. As someone who has these placements, I think I’m more than qualified to speak about the dusthana houses before some of y’all jump at me for being immature or opinionated. Not because I can speak on behalf of everyone who has similar placements, but because I believe that the whole point of Vedic is the insight we can gain into our lived experiences. I’m living these placements as you read this (if you’ve read this far enough😑). If I say this happened to me, then isn’t that what matters the most? I feel like we get so caught up trying to figure out what a placement means that we forget what the whole point was. It’s just incredibly callous how these astrologers believe they’re just “telling the truth” and that we don't know what we're talking about because we're too blinded by ego. Yeah, some people will live out their misfortune no matter how hard they try, but then what’s the whole point of knowing what’s going to happen to me if I can’t do anything to change it? I don’t want to know what’s going to happen. I want to know what I can do to make the best of it. That’s why I choose to speak about these houses as someone who has these placements because maybe that insight will help me understand myself better, and isn’t that where liberation truly lies?
