pretty hate machine

i like to say that if you’re seeing me you’re having the worst day of your life

[venacaava]

⛧ luka/lou ⛧ agender, all pronouns (they/them preferred) ⛧ italian ⛧ aspiring filmmaker ⛧ lover of weird and freaky stuff ⛧ occasional writer ⛧ blog with occasional fandom content

> fandoms/interests

cinema, fashion, vampires, cannibalism, nightcrawler (2014) (#📹), gregg araki, david cronenberg, saw, heathers (1989), knives out, fight club, midnight mass, mr. robot (#🤖), nine inch nails, devil may cry, silent hill, resident evil, no i’m not a human, pikmin, sally face, postal, jake gyllenhaal, christian slater, millenium trilogy books, the creep franchise + others.

> music

nine inch nails, static-x, the neighbourhood, ethel cain, depeche mode, genitorturers, kmfdm, death grips, jeff buckley, massive attack, lords of acid, combichrist, cold + others

(this for hyperfixations/fave interests and this for current interests)

> some other miscellaneous things:

i have bpd (only diagnosis i currently have) and possibly other disorders. i vent on here, but i always put a warning beforehand. sometimes it might take me a while to get to dms because of my mental state

i am taken, so please (unless you’re not close and i know you're joking) don’t flirt with me even if it’s a joke.

i dont really have a DNI. just dont be a horrible person or an asshole and i’ll pretty much interact with ALMOST everyone. i’m simply gonna block you if i dont like your vibes

some posts on this blog might contain gore and/or suggestive content, and talk about adult themes in general. if you don’t feel comfortable with that don’t interact.

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[venacaava]

vent

looking through pictures on my old camera and sometimes i wonder how i would’ve turned out if i had a better childhood and if people were nice to me. i literally have so many photos of me and my old classmates in elementary school and i tried my best to get along with them even though so many of them bullied me. jesus christ i wish i turned out normal

[venacaava]

i hate being perceived i hate being perceived i hate bein

[goddess--cannibal]

putting him in his place (six feet under)

[nygmatic-wound]

[bleedingspiral]

[✯]

[venacaava]

even though we now have a very good relationship the physical and emotional absence of my father during my developmental years really did damage me and affected my behaviors and thoughts when it comes to relationships in the most awful way immaginable

[prec1ousboy]

I'm sorry but I cannot jerk it to horny posts where the premise involves ignoring a movie

[gauzerolls]

may (2002) japan poster

[penguintm]

Gotham 2016.

[venacaava]

updates on my mr. robot tomodachi life island (i only got elliot, tyrell, mr. robot, darlene and dom but also thinking about making angela and whiterose)

- darlene got a crush on dom and they’re living together. darlene wants to confess

- elliot got a crush on tyrell. BUT. tyrell got a crush on mr. robot

- i gave elliot a goldfish so that he thinks of qwerty

[big-nothing]

[apjvff]

Remember the Golden Rule: Treat others the way you want to treat them.

[venacaava]

yeah darlene and dom didn’t run away to budapest in canon but at least they went on a trip to hawaii in tomodachi life

[venacaava]

whoever said that kinks can also generate from traumas was lowkey onto something because why am i slowly getting into medical play while being afraid of hospitals since i was little

[scissorsaint]

was gonna say something like, [pointing at a car crash] "this too is sex" but then i remembered that Cronenberg beat me to it 30 years ago

[venacaava]

rewatched nightcrawler with my bf because he wanted to rewatch it for some reason…….. not gonna log it on letterboxd cause people will genuinely think i’m insane cause it’s like. my fifth rewatch in a little more than a year so i’m yapping on here. i think it’s insane that even though i basically know the whole movie by memory i’m still not tired of it in the slightest and i enjoy it more and more on every rewatch. it makes me so mad that this movie ended up in the wrong hands and a good percentage of the fans are people that completely missed the point of the movie and idolize lou bloom for the shit he did when it’s not the fucking point even though the narrative kinda makes you want to root for him !!!!!! someday i’ll find the strength to sit down and write the big ass analysis of the movie i’ve been meaning to write for almost a year now because it makes me so mad that some people completely missed the point of it and the message it sends. ughhhh no one will ever like this movie more than me i genuinely love this movie so much in every way. i wish i could go back and watch it for the first time.

[venacaava]

I FINALLY HAVE THE NEW TOMODACHI LIFE I’m GONNA HE THE MOST INSUFFERABLE PERSON EVER