another vent blog

[godsworms]

self destructive thoughts eating me up from the inside

[fox-teeth]

What I was saying on the “Living Wild: LGBTQ Animal Comics” panel at the Queers & Comics Conference in a nutshell.

Thank you so much to my fellow panelists Jac, Aim Ren, Nicole, Penina, and Coyote; Kiernan for being an awesome moderator, and to everyone that came out to see us speak!

[dilemmaq]

I feel like making everything worse just by being me.

[sofuckingheartbroken]

I’m never good enough for anything. I wasn’t enough to make him stay after everything. Clearly the problem here is just me.

-H

[writingplayingliving]

“I can be there for you

when you are sad and alone and desperate.

I can hold your hand and hold you together

through your darkest times.

I can come to you when no one else would

and care for you like no one else could.

But I cannot make you love me.”

[histinkerkitten]

So true. I can do and be all these things but I can’t do that which I want most of all. 😢

[alex-is-fragile-deactivated2019]

going back

back to obsessing.

back to late night thoughts.

back to self destruction.

back to compulsive behaviors.

back to wasting time.

back to procrastinating.

back to spending most of my time in bed.

back to self sabotage.

back to ruining everything i touch.

back to not getting shit done.

back to posting on all my accounts.

back to overthinking.

back to spending too much time on my phone.

back to feeling helpless.

back to oversharing.

back to feeling lonely.

back to feeling worthless.

back to spending too much time my socials.

back to feeling hopeless.

back to realizing i don’t have a purpose.

back to binging.

back to being fat.

back to having urges.

back to being stuck in a cycle.

back to going too far.

back to my bed.

i’m going backwards instead of forwards.

i can’t be who i was before.

what if i become worse than that?

[itsalla-masquerade-deactivated2]

trauma didnt make me soft it’s made me angry and empty

[depresseddisneyprincess]

[thelostintrovert]

I always felt so invisible.

Maybe, they’ll only notice my existence when I am finally gone or dead.

[worthless-misery]

I feel like I’m being forced to live.

I don’t even want to.

[orange-julieus]

I’ve wanted to die for so long that now I’m afraid to live

[depression-healthy-carrier]

do you ever just sit there and realize that you mean nothing to anyone and you start feeling lost, alone, unloved, and truly unwanted.

[darkestrellas]

you ever wanna cry but there’s too many reasons on your mind at once so you just sit there numbly bc same

[dankmemesreasonforliving]

[unpredictablememes]

[somethingtohopewith-blog]

me: i am totally rocking this whole coping thing, i don’t even feel like myself! Sometimes i don’t feel anything at all! Isn’t that great??

my therapist: …you’re dissociating…. 

me:

[venting-deer]

reminders

[sempiterna-luminiscencia]

Algunas cosas nunca se irán por completo.

Pero tampoco volverán por completo.

[venting-deer]

I love this addition ❤❤ for my non Spanish speakers, it says "Some things will never go away completely. But they will not come back completely either."

[hemipta]

boy I sure do love adhd and the way it makes me wanna just *clenches fist*

give up on everything I’ve ever cared about for immobilizing painful fear of not doing it right