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the way my blades are flirting with me has me blushing ngl

#self h@rm #switch blades with lighter lol #it's not as bad if i don't go back to cutting right guys

putting constellations on my body with a lighter and goddamn if they aren't beautiful

back on my bullshit (self h@rm)

#sad vent #self h@rm #angry vent #anxious vent

rediscovered a great way to not leave much evidence either so nobody needs to know and i stick around a lil while longer

#self h@rm

what's a lil self relapse if it prevents an alcohol relapse???

#self h@rm #alcoholism vent

wanna fuck and wanna die

#su!cidal vent

can't drink can't die but my god do i want to drown myself in whiskey till the last breath leaves my body

#suic!dal ideation #self h@rm #sad vent

kinda useless nobody needs me but ig i have to keep going

#sad vent #suic!dal ideation

sad and numb and want different pain to replace whatever the fuck this feeling is

#sad vent #sad #self h@rm #self h@te

i am adrift in these winds and my god i never get less afraid, i buzz and hum with the electricity of terror and not once can i find rest

#anxious #anxious vent #can't move too anxious can't sleep either #my body is feeling it so fucking bad rn #and has been #i wish i had an awake friend lol #then i would know someone is real and i'm not alone #anxiety

can’t sleep too anxious can’t drive anywhere no gas no one is awake to talk to and i am dissolving into the night

#anxious #anxious vent #fuck #i just need to talk to someone #i need to cope but my skills arent working and i cant calm enough to access them #anxiety

craving a drink for the first time in months and that...is very not good

#sad #sad vent #drinking triggers me now so i don't want it #but today has been so awful #that i want a drink #which terrifies me tbh

the scary things in my head never go away do they they just hide sometimes and grow ever older with me

#scared #scared vent #sad #sad vent #anxious #anxious vent #i don't want to be me another year #i am so afraid of what it will bring

i hate being another year older i hate being another year older i hate being another year older i’m not ready to grow up i’m not ready what have i done what have i fucking done

#scared #scared vent #sad #sad vent #i'm not ready #i can't do this

i want to go home but that is not a concept that currently exists

#sad #sad vent #wistful #wistful vent #defeated #defeated vent #no safety no solitude

this is not a happy birthday and it is ending alone in tears on the couch

#sad #sad vent #anxious #anxious vent #i am so fucking sad #and so anxious #and so despondent #i would like one (1) death pls

i do not want to turn another year older i did not plan or prepare for this

#scared vent #anxious #anxious vent #ugh #just had to stop at 36 pills

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