#sad vent

[sweetnekoheart]

Goodbye Hellpark Blog :( (Sad Vent)

Sad News For Hellpark Fans, Me And Hellpark Characters Are Crying It Is Because Hellpark's Blog Is Now Gone And Taken Away For Good, I Use To Enjoy It In 2019 But Now It's Gone For Good! Now, I'll Never Read This Webcomic Anymore, First The AU Was Cancelled In 2021 And Now The Blog Is Gone! 😭💔

R.I.P. Hellpark's Blog, Thank You For The Memories Of My Childhood/Teenhood! I'll Miss You Very Much 😭💔

[helix-enterprises117]

My kitten died.

[lexarainy]

Sad vent I made a lil while ago. Inspired by the song "Clouds" by slayyyter 🍓🦄🐕💗🩷💚✨🐾☁️

[gt-zel]

Why I’m Quitting Art

Its been brought to my attention that my art has become triggering to people and that because of my leniency on censors people have been hurt. I never intended to cause people pain with my art, its my way of expressing my feelings so sometimes when i draw things that are potentially triggering towards others i don’t think about how it may affect different people.

Its never been my goal to cause others distress discomfort or pain through my art and the idea that some have had serious mental issues that have been triggered from my art causes me an immense amount of heartbreak.

Ive been in an art rut for months and havnt been able to create anything i can be remotely proud of. Ive been struggling with my own mental health and its been nothing short of an uphill battle for me. Ive lost basically all of my passion for my art and i cant even bring myself to pick up a pencil anymore.

Through the past few years ive done nothing but push myself, pressure myself to be as good as my peers and its done nothing except lower my self esteem drastically, make me loathe the creative process, and now im hearing that even though i push myself to make art, the end result is something that triggers others and causes people distress.

Honestly ive been in a state of constant dissociation for a while now regarding anything i try to be creative in, and i think this is just the final straw thats broken my will to create anything at all. Im sorry to all those whom i have hurt through my art. I hope that by quitting i will help in some way to make up for the harm i have done, please forgive me for using my talents in a way that has spurred hate and pain to others.

Im going to continue working on commissions strictly because i cant financially afford to close them at this moment, but i wont be doing art outside of that. My deepest sincerest apologies to everyone i have hurt with my art, i hope you can find it in your hearts to forgive me for these wrong-doings.

Thanks for reading through all this, its been a journey, but i think its finally come to its end.

[sapphire-heart-tippy]

I would love to find more Jojo selfship mutuals but... I get s c a r e d...

I am a non-sharer and I get very uncomfortable around doubles. I have some mutuals who share 2 of my f/os (not Vanilla, Vanilla is a dealbreaker for me, he is extremely special to me. /not mad), so I just suck it up and deal with it as best as I can. However, I would very much prefer just politely ignoring when mutuals are doubles with the other 2 f/os. (Not ignoring the mutuals COMPLETELY obviously!! But just pretending I don't see the doubles/ships, you know?)

I also do not interact with doubles (who are not already mutuals) involving those 2 f/os (and only block when I get really nervous). I do definitely block other Vanilla shippers though, just for my own comfort.

I'm worried that when I might be in a new group of Jojo mutuals, they'll all prefer somebody else's selfships with [shared f/os] instead of mine, or might even ask me to stop shipping with him because [blank] is "THE" [f/o] shipper...

I hope it's just me being anxious... I would love to talk about Jojo with others and maybe even do some "selfship double-date" collabs, and ask games, and headcanons and stuff like we used to a few years ago...

I really miss it... I wish I wasn't so afraid.

Reasons I'm afraid:

The feeling of abandonment/being replaced when I see doubles

Worry that I might upset them or hurt their feelings if I block them

Worry that if they are a sharer and they want to interact with me and be my friend, I will look like the meanest person in the world (I have had to politely tell 2 others that I am a non-sharer and I'm not mad at them and it's not their fault. They took it very well thankfully.)

Worry that I'll make a friend but their best friend is a double and we're both non-sharers, but the best friend is very hostile about it

Worry that a new double essentially replaces me and the friend group doesn't want to hang out with me anymore

It's nobody's fault... I just feel kind of left out sometimes because I'm not really sure what to ask when sending asks to those who have f/os from media I'm not familiar with. I feel like I'm extremely annoying and others just really do not want to see me post about my Jojo f/os (which are the only f/os I have). Not just because it's Jojo and I've been infatuated with the series for over 8 years, but also because it's the same guys over and over.

I do appreciate those who send me kind anons though. I understand most of you are shy or socially anxious, and I hope you know that it really does mean a lot to me. Even if a lot of my posts get barely interaction, I still appreciate the asks.

I guess it all just comes down to abandonment issues... I pretend like I'm fine all the time, but I'm actually hurting... maybe it's actually obvious i'm hurting, idk

I'll be okay though, just needed to get these thoughts out!

Edited to add: I also very much appreciate and cherish my current mutuals, Jojo or not!! I just wanted to vent out some sadness is all

[creativeandblessfulpegasus]

Мое представление о новой серии по Зелёным Обрубкам

Кстати какая ваша любимая серия по ЗО? Моя любимая с Ивонном

[twistedkiwiz]

when it hits you again and again that your dad genuinely has no idea who you are, what you like, or what’s ever going on in your life and will never truly understand you because he isn’t a father.

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i feel like such an idiot every time i enjoy the rare time i get to spend with him. how can i actually be happy around the man who is the reason my life and my mind is the way it is? i feel like the little girl who just wanted to see him in the audience at her awards show again and i hate it. it’s so much easier to be mean about him when he’s not right fucking in front of you. i can’t ever bring myself to make boundaries with him because i love him so much even though my body and my mind are begging me not to and because i never choose when to see him, i just basically get ambushed. i don’t have a way to contact him, which means i never have a way to speak to him privately. the only way to actually have a conversation with him like that is to get myself alone with him and i would never ever go out of my way to do that because i’m not stupid. i wish i could just get away from him forever but i also i wish i could just have a real dad who has never hurt my body or my heart and is actually around.

[aliengelic-princess]