Laura Hell

  I love bands when they're playing hard  

[viciousqueen]

lately every movie is two hours long or even more. what the hell dude. I miss when movies were 90min long

[viciousqueen]

the guitar in my desire by interpol is like a highway to hell for me. It's there the whole song no matter what, I'm addicted to that tempo, throughout the whole song, it's like an evil guitar, like sth haunting you. 'I've been there I've been here"

[viciousqueen]

love the color of these cds

[auntymurda]

[viciousqueen]

doing cocaine on your Interpol cd is a vibe

[viciousqueen]

reality is my bitch

[viciousqueen]

I think there's nothing wrong if you like multiple people at once, and I think you deserve to pull each and every one of them. And that's totally fine.

[viciousqueen]

nothing has fucked me harder than my nervous system when I was on meth for six days in a row

[viciousqueen]

I remember when the devil was on my back for six days. I could feel my spine breathing. I could feel every nerve in my hands. My lips were so dry at some point I didn't feel them anymore. I got a fire inside my chest burning more every time. Everything was going around in circles. That day the paranoia got so bad I had to leave work early. I looked in the mirror and my eyes were two black holes. I couldn't find myself. A million thoughts running through my mind. But nobody at home and no one at work seemed to notice what was going on.

I listened to music at full volume but he was still there. I worked out so hard but when I stopped nothing had changed and I wasn't tired at all. I couldn't even enjoy a meal, all my nerves were suffocating me and I didn't finish my food, he was so powerful . He was breathing on my spine, breathing on my fingers, burning in my chest every time I try to relax. Dammit I could even feel the neurons in my brain. I went for a ride on my bike and for a moment I was relieved, then I Iooked at the sky and I saw the clouds were moving. I wanted to cry a lot. I was making mistake by mistake at my job. I had no patience. I could feel the anger in my whole body. I only slept two hours but it was all okay. I drank a lot of water but that made no difference. I tried to run from it by solving my starry night puzzle but it was impossible to put my mind into it being like this. I was so desperate. I didn't know what to do, I was so fucking scared and I thought he was never going to leave me. Only time I could sort of see myself was every time I looked in the mirror and focus only on my eyes. It was only then when I knew there was still a part of me here, screaming, trying to survive. There were some times when my eyes were black holes again. My mouth was still so dry. I began to grind my teeth without realizing.

On the third day I could finally sleep for thirtheen hours. I woke up hoping it was all over but once again, I wasn't by myself. I was afraid my only options were the doctor or suicide. I was really thinking of telling my mom what was happening, but I just didn't have the guts. On the sixth day I was giving up, I wasn't capable of doing my work like I used to and I wanted to quit cause his presence was unbearable. This wasn't living. It was merely surviving. It was running from myself.

[viciousqueen]

being a barista + Interpol + LSD was really a vibe. Those were the good old days. I'd love to capture that forever in some sort of art.

[viciousqueen]

dude, I finally slept with her. so private, so casual. this moment stays with me till I die. She gave in totally. nothing will ever change what happened. It is done and in moments like this is when I'm grateful for my perfect memory. No one can take this from me, ever.

[viciousqueen]

right now my hair is so curly and beautiful I feel like a goddess I feel divine

[viciousqueen]

When I left I didn't turn but I had the guts to say that I don't love you like I did yesterday.

[viciousqueen]

I remember that night when i played i follow rivers (the magician remix) in the coffee shop. Then I saw the costumers and my coworker singing along. that put a smile on my face.

[lustcannibalism]

do you want to play substance abuse with me after work

[classycookiexo]

[sanscest69]

I just realized that many many people have jobs

Rb with your job, wtf do you people do while offline???