joanna ☆

i'm an emotional wreck and in love with jamie volk // she/they & 18 :)

[volkjoanna]

Back from the dead for the end of The RWCH

It’s the end of an era.

I honestly regret not being here for a long time but I wanted to say how happy that I am to have been a part of this fandom. 

The Rosewood Chronicles mean the world to me and I know it’s the same for you all. I would not have survived high school without this series keeping me going. I read Undercover Princess when it came out and I was 13 finishing my first year of high school. I am now 18 and will be starting University next week. I really grew up with this series and matured along side our beloved characters in this magical universe Connie created. I honestly can’t believe that we are at the end. To be honest, I am not ready for it to end but all great things must come to an end. 

Being a part of this fandom has been so amazing. You feel so welcomed and loved by everyone and you get to create life-long friendships. Through the RWCH, I met @rosecolouredsecrets and I have to say, our friendship is just as chaotic as her account LOL. I love her to bits and if it weren’t for this fandom I would’ve never met her. It’s crazy to think that if I had never picked up Undercover Princess, I would’ve never had the joy of reading the books, interacting with all of you and feeling happy altogether. Also, I remember the early days of this fandom and I’m so happy to have seen it grow all these years. Thanks to @maradovan and @rosewoodconch along with many others for pioneering this fandom. I am so happy to be a small part of this community. 

Thank you for everything and I hope we all continue to create memes, reread the series and support Connie on her next endeavours <3 

And as always, 

Be kind, be brave, be unstoppable! 

- Joanna also known as @/joannayxv lurking on instagram 

[maradovan]

I'm actually gonna start crying if I say too much but I can't believe the last book is out today. I know I haven't been as active on Tumblr lately but it was really important for me to post it here, where it all began. Thank you all for going on this journey with me

[volkjoanna]

❤️💛💜

[lottiepumpkinofficial]

Crackle

There was a fire inside her. There always had been. Ever since she was little she noticed things her parents did, unfair things.

It started as a little spark, ever so small, just enough to keep her eyes open to the injustice, but as she grew, the flame grew. It wasn’t just about injustice now, it was everything. Even the tiniest thing could make that flame rise higher.

At the age of ten, she knew she never wanted to be a princess, she wasn’t made for the world of sparkly dresses and stealing people’s rights. But her parents continued to try and mould her into the perfect shaped princess.

At the age of fourteen, she was finally allowed to leave the palace, go to her dream school. She even made a friend. More than a friend, maybe. Then Jamie came into the picture and things started to crumble again.

Ellie sat, thinking everything through. She was meant to be picking out a dress for her debut as the real princess of Maradova, but the thought made her heart ache so hard she thought it might burst.

Lottie. Things had started with Lottie. The first flicker of happiness in Ellie’s life. The flame had died down, just a little, when Lottie walked into that room. But it was too late, the flame was too strong. She had burnt Lottie, multiple times. And yet, every time Lottie had forgiven her. Ellie knew Lottie couldn’t forgive this time though.

Ellie had really fucked it up this time. She changed Lottie’s life, made her the princess, ruined her friendships, and then taken it all away. Ellie’s path was determined, it always has been, but Lottie. Lottie could never go back to normal now.

The flame was too high. She had burnt the only person that ever actually cared about her.

And Jamie. He was used to it, being burnt by Ellie, but that doesn’t mean it didn’t still kill Ellie from the inside out.

Rosewood Hall. Ellie realised she’d never be able to go back there. Not only would her grandmother deem it “too dangerous, far too dangerous”, but she couldn’t face every single person that she’d hurt.

What surprised Ellie was how bad she felt about Anastacia. Ellie’s existence automatically made her life harder. Especially with Saskia.

Ellie wanted nothing more but to renounce her title, go and hold Lottie, cry and say sorry. She wanted to leave this world of selfishness, burning it away behind her. But she couldn’t.

Ellie’s grandmother was the only one happy about Ellie’s decision, if it was even capable for her to be happy. “Look who’s finally stepping up her role.”

Sitting on her bed, Ellie could feel the flame burn even brighter. It was no longer one single flame, but a city on fire. It crackled up deep inside her. It burnt her insides. Her body now engulfed in her guilt.

This time the fire had burnt her.

She had no intentions of putting it out. She was now destined to walk through life, burning up, turning into ash.

The only one who could save her now was Lottie.

[lottiepumpkinofficial]

Pop

Lottie sat in her dorm room, alone. Ellie left. Jamie left. This room was hers and hers alone now. There was a damp patch on her pillow from tears, which was not unusual for Lottie.

This time felt different though. It wasn’t a feeling of embarrassment or sadness. It was a hollow ache in her chest, not dissimilar to when her mum slipped away. Although it was years ago it still felt like yesterday to Lottie.

The thought of her mum made Lottie feel even worse, the cavity inside her eating away at her lungs, her heart, her everything.

“Mum, I’m sorry,” she started sobbing “I didn’t do what I promised to you. I’m not happy like you told me to be. I tried, I really tried, I promise.”

The tears became overwhelming and she couldn’t speak anymore. The last time she had cried so much about her mum, Ellie and Jamie had been there to keep her safe and make her feel better. But this time she was alone. And it was her fault.

Jamie had gone. He joined Leviathan and Lottie couldn’t get him back. She couldn’t reach him. Her heart ached for him and wished he’d open the door, tell her not to be silly and that him going to Leviathan was just a test. But the door didn’t open.

Ellie was gone too. Lottie wasn’t enough for her. She’d given up her life for Ellie, promised to love her, protect her, and Ellie tossed it away. She didn’t want to be near Lottie so much that she accepted her role as princess, her worst nightmare. There was nothing Lottie could do about it, except accept she would never see Ellie again other than on the news.

Being a Portman had been her life for so long now, it was her identity. She started to wonder what she would do now. She had no life left to go back to. Her mum was dead, her dad and stepmother didn’t care even a little about her. She couldn’t stay at Rosewood, not now everyone knew she wasn’t the Princess. Ollie was probably angry beyond belief and wouldn’t want anything to do with her.

All Lottie wanted was for things to be the way they were back when they were fourteen, back when the biggest threat was Saskia. But things would never be the same.

She curled up even tighter, and tighter, and clenched her body until it felt like it was going to break.

There was nothing left for Lottie, nothing. She let the anger build up inside her. Anger at Ellie.

Why do you hate me, Ellie? All I wanted was to be with you. How could you leave me like this?

Anger at Jamie.

Why couldn’t you just stay? Jamie, why couldn’t you just let me be your family?

But mostly anger at herself.

Why did you let them go? How could you be so stupid? You ruined your own life. You’re so useless. Pathetic. Worthless. No wonder everyone left you.

Pop!

This was it. Lottie could no longer go back to the Lottie she was before, so she would no longer be Lottie. She’d already failed her mum so she had no more obligations to be kind, brave or unstoppable.

She’d change her name. Viola. She couldn’t help but pick a Shakespeare character, even in her darkest moment.

She didn’t have many ties left to the world, and the little she did, she was going to cut.

She no longer cared about being kind to her friends, as they weren’t her friends anymore.

This was a new era. Her chest filled with poison.

She was going to inflict pain on the world the way it did to her. And there was nothing that could stop her.

[volkjoanna]

In honour of the end of The Rosewood Chronicles and Princess Ever After, I re-recorded “Süß Aber Bitter” from Princess in Practice.

The first time I posted a video of this song was when Princess in Practice first released. You probably all know me through that post lmao. The first time I was merely a Grade 5 pianist who hadn’t done a single exam. Fast forward to today, Princess Ever After, the final instalment releasing, I am a Grade 7 pianist practising for the final 8th grade. It’s so surreal and crazy how time moves so fast.

This song brings me a lot of happiness and determination. Without it, I probably don’t have as much as I do now to further my music education and piano playing. It’s a song that means a lot to me and so I wanted to replay it for you all in honour of the end of an era. Just like the title, it’s sweet but bitter, bittersweet.

[wannabe-anastacia-alcroft]

was your first thought after reading the end of pah about raph's reaction to his friends lying to him and keeping their true identities secret, as well as his two housemates, the two people he sees the most being in on it and not telling him, on top of his best friend, who he's also shown romantic interest in, leaving (seemingly forever) without even a goodbye or are you mentally okay

[volkjoanna]

this was such a sad realisation. he’s been constantly kept in the dark. remember PIP? why did it have to be this way

[volkjoanna]

still thinking about this, i am not ready to read it 

[binahfaes]

COMING OUT OF MY SLUMBER BECAUSE THE LAST BOOK OF THE RWCH IS OUT IN LESS THAN TWO WEEKS?????

im aware ive HARDLY been active for a while now, but i can't tell u all how much this little community means to me and how much this book series has meant to me. i started reading rwch when i was 14— i'll be 18 this year and SO much has changed, but my love for these characters remains the same. i feel like i've grown up with them it's wild! i've written stories for this series, i've written songs for these characters, i've made amazing incredible friends who still mean the world to me (even if it's been a while since we've talked, and god knows im terrible at keeping in touch) and i've had the chance to escape into the magical world connie has crafted.

i don't even know what else to say, like with every change these books have been a constant in my life, and i know my heart will break a little to say goodbye to it.

[stringcage]

Rampion Crew full set

[fairiesfromspace]

IDK ANYTHING ABT THIS SERIES OTHER THAN THE FACT THAT MY BEST FRIEND IS THE MOST TALENTED ARTIST

[wannabe-anastacia-alcroft]

rwch is ending this month.

[maradovan]

RWCH IS ENDING THIS MONTH

[olliesmoreno]

in literally TWO WEEKS ??

[maradovan]

Ten…. Days????

[volkjoanna]

TOMORROW ??? 

i can’t believe this is the final book

[maradovan]

[volkjoanna]

Sayuri being a dox-er feels so accurate and its scary  

[maradovan]

Manifest with me that pea will be a breakdance

[volkjoanna]

I came back from the dead in hopes that we will be getting a breakdance instead of a breakdown.

don’t get me wrong, i will be breaking down anyway 

[volkjoanna]

i would also like to mention that for my my English seminar assessment i used Princess at Heart as my text to compare to.

the assessment was to write about how a text used literary theories to change/challenge your view on the text and society as a whole.

i decided to write it on PAH three days after i had read it. it took me forever to write because there are so many ideas to unpack in the RWCH. many sleepless nights and trying to record my seminar all in one go later, i finished with an 18 minute seminar.

it was best decision i made because PAH/RWCH got me the highest grade you could get and my English teacher enjoyed it !

there’s a lot to unpack on and analyse from the RWCH as a whole series and just the books individually. it’s super interesting.

if anyone wants to read a bit of my seminar script, please feel free to reblog this :)

keep in mind that this seminar has major spoilers from Princess at Heart.

hope you’re doing well :))

[volkjoanna]

i’ve never been so busy in my whole life. i keep saying that i’m back and then i leave for ages. i am deeply sorry. i will be on hopefully :)

[wannabe-anastacia-alcroft]

was your first thought after reading the end of pah about raph's reaction to his friends lying to him and keeping their true identities secret, as well as his two housemates, the two people he sees the most being in on it and not telling him, on top of his best friend, who he's also shown romantic interest in, leaving (seemingly forever) without even a goodbye or are you mentally okay

[volkjoanna]

this was such a sad realisation. he’s been constantly kept in the dark. remember PIP? why did it have to be this way

[maradovan]

Ani: Lottie, what is the first rule of the Ellie Wolf emotional support task force?

Lottie: Don’t let her get a tattoo.

Ani: What the hell happened?

Lottie: I couldn’t help it! She’s so cute when she’s coming up with destructive ideas

Ani: *sighs* Never send a girlfriend to do a best friend’s job. Out, Pumpkin.

[maradovan]

This aged so well

[volkjoanna]

omg

[marahmartian]

ellie wolfson

[conchetttecurls]

[volkjoanna]

please