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[vomitinmyheart]

intro

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vent account. DNI if you're uncomfortable with that.

BYF and DNI below

ENDOS AND WILLOS PLEASE DIE

I have DID, NPD, I suspect moral OCD, and I struggle with intrusive thoughts (violent and paraphilic)

I am also physically disabled, trans ftm, queer, and angelkin

BYF:

-this is a vent account. I don't care about being nice (unless you're very nice and lovely)

-I will talk about things I struggle with, such as eating disorders, self harm, but mostly I will vent about my NPD, and DID too, but less

-I will not post unwarned stuff and uncensored pictures, there will always be trigger warnings if I ever post thinspo/cuts, but I don't think I will

-I vent a lot through drawings, so that's mostly what I will post in pictures

-I do insult people, but I never say the names/usernames of these people UNLESS I want to warn others about them, but I'll probably do so on my main (and i will warn about people posting uncensored stuff, sending threats, doxxing or strobes)

-i reclaim slurs I personally apply to, but I won't use them on others, only on myself (I call myself a faggot often, basically). I don't use the R slur anyway even if I technically could

-if I talk about sensitive subjects such as rape, predators, ect I will NOT censor the words. I'll give a warning but I'm not calling CSEM "cheese pizza"

-this account is Shigaraki themed. I will try to make it pretty

DNI:

- are uncomfortable with any subject I might post about (duh)

-believe in narcissistic abuse or any disorder specific abuse

-if you think fiction is comparable to reality, call fiction "cp" or think someone can't cope with fiction (it's ok if you're uncomfortable with it tho)

-misuse serious/medical terms

-think paraphilias are inherently negative

-pro-contact for any harmful paraphilia

-anti recovery

-wanna tell me what alters in my system can or cannot do, or try to police me on anything

- pro endo or endo neutral, anything close to non-traumagenic systems

-fakeclaimers

-radqueers

-against furries, therians, transspecies and transcultural (≠rq or transID)

-transrace or transdisabled

-T.R.A.S.H

-don't believe in transmisandry or transmisogyny, engage in bioessentialism, ect

-joke about abusing men (literally fuck off abuse isn't a joke)

-may add in the future but idrk

[lynzwayistotallyrad]

self undiagnosing. im fine

[vomitinmyheart]

"you're white before you're disabled so you're privileged" are you actually fucking dumb.

[vomitinmyheart]

all this "this is ableism" blogs piss ke off because they have this idea of a solution that is completely accessible to everyone in every single situation.

Let's make an example. I am a wheelchair user, not ambulatory. I cannot use a staircase. Let's say I am also claustrophobic. I cannot use the elevator.

Let's take, now, my grandma. her legs hurt much more if she tries to take a ramp, so she either needs the stairs or an elevator. We need all three options in order for everything to be the most accessible, but sometimes, that just isn't an option. Maybe it's due to lack of space, or funds.

another example:

Let's say I am a service dog owner/user. Let's also say I am going on a plane and I need my service dog. Let's also say there's another person coming on this plane who is deathly allergic to dogs, and this allergy is airborne. There is no situation where we both take the plane at the same time (assuming the plane doesn't have separated areas or rooms).

I'm not ableist for needing a service dog and that other person is not ableist for being allergic. It's all a matter of perspective on who is right and who is wrong. none of us is!!

there's this whole debate whether or not service dogs should have a registry or some other identification tool and apparently I'm ableist for thinking they should. Like. do you know why there's ID for disabled drivers? because then people can't just claim to be disabled and take a reserved spot without actually being disabled. but ONE person in the comments said it's ableist for whatever reason because disabled people shouldn't have to prove they're disabled. I agree!! but we are not living in fantasy land?!!!!!!

[vomitinmyheart]

im not saying I want people to be harassed or harmed I'm saying that as long as it's me doing it then I am justified

[orionsbeltsys]

HOW MANY FUCKING ENDO BLOGS DO I HAVE TO BLOCK TO GET THEM OFF MY FUCKING DASH I HATE ENDOS I HATE ENDOS I HATE ENDOS I HATE ENDOS I HATE ENDOS I HATE ENDOS I HATE ENDOS I HATE ENDOS I HATE ENDOS I HATE ENDOS I HATE ENDOS I HATE ENDOS I HATE ENDOS I HATE ENDOS I HATE ENDOS I HATE ENDOS I HATE ENDOS I HATE ENDOS I HATE ENDOS I HATE ENDOS I HATE ENDOS I HATE ENDOS I HATE ENDOS I HATE ENDOS I HATE ENDOS I HATE ENDOS I HATE ENDOS I HATE ENDOS I HATE ENDOS I HATE ENDOS

[vomitinmyheart]

please all endos, I hope you get all the trauma you need to actually become a system and possibly not survive it :)

[loserferret]

hot boys sleep with plushies and imagine they're cuddling another man

[vomitinmyheart]

it feels so good when, I correct someone and instead of defending themselves they just block me

yeah, you know I'm right, don't you?

[mizukiisweet]

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[vomitinmyheart]

I am an older brother who never had his little brother

[whyenn-reader]

firm believer you can't be a ''good person''. too much niuance to life.

[vomitinmyheart]

this is actually something I brought up to my therapist!

I believe there is mo good or bad in thw world, nothing is universally evil because you can always do worse, and nothing is universally good because you can always do better. I also believe good people or bad people don't exist, just people who have been manipulated, or are uneducated, and people who have gone out of that mindset, one way or another.

I usually describe myself as a bad person who has never done anything wrong on purpose, and who has fixed what they knew they did wrong as best as possible, and in the eyes of others, I am just a good person who has done mistakes. and the two cancel each other out, because neither mine or the perceptions others have of me are correct

[shimmeringterroroblivion]

[vomitinmyheart]

"no i don't have brother issues" i say, crying because I found a video of two brothers playing together

[vomitinmyheart]

I want to kiss a boy the way a boy kisses a boy

[winged-rabbits]

I will never be loved outside of sexual desire.

[jimmys-shite]

I despise people who spread lies about their ex as soon as they get blocked by them, just get over it and be the bigger person.

[vomitinmyheart]

tw slight vent - that's why it's going on my alt account and TW for SA and ED!

my ex legit accused me OF FAKING MY ED AND OF RAPING HIM after we broke up. bro looked at me passing out at school because I wasn't eating and turned around to say I was faking it.

he also accused his other ex of raping him, just so he could say he was a virgin when he took mine. I didn't even care about it