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Friendly reminder I wrote a very gay poetry book after I came out a few years ago thatās really good and you should read it
Qurious At Least, Naked At Last
Monterey Bay Aquarium

oozey mess
d e v o n
will byers stan first human second
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Sade Olutola

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NASA
Three Goblin Art

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Lint Roller? I Barely Know Her
PUT YOUR BEARD IN MY MOUTH
I'd rather be in outer space šø
KIROKAZE
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Jules of Nature

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Happy Prideš³ļøāš
Friendly reminder I wrote a very gay poetry book after I came out a few years ago thatās really good and you should read it
Qurious At Least, Naked At Last
My new poetry book is available for preorder here!
Releasing on September 27th!
I have a new poetry book coming out and I made a commercial for it
My website
Please read my short horror story, itās very H.P Lovecrafty. And if you like it, please reblog/share with your friends!
A Painted Ireland: The Memoir of Luther P. Oā Drer
Update: Life Gets Better
I wanted to make another update because things in my life keep changing for the better and maybe itāll bring some hope to other people who are currently struggling through anxiety/depression etc.
I wanted to update this blog because this blog use to be a massive part of my life, I used it as my diary, it was my safe place to vent and rant and socialize. Iām deeply thankful for tumblr and to everyone Iāve met on here, especially to a certain girl who I met on here in 2014.
We grew really close really fast and soon we were best friends, to each we were that one person we could turn to. We even fell in love. She struggled with anxiety and depression too. I wonāt get into it fully but things changed and we stopped talking. Things changed but feelings didnāt, I want to make that clear.
Fast forward to 2019, Iām very depressed and suicidal and making very ācry for helpā posts and she messaged me, concerned. She still cared about me, I still cared about her. We picked up right where we left off, it all felt natural and normal.
She helped me battle my mental illness, I helped her with hers. The last update I did can attest to that and how far Iāve come.
Fast forward to 5/10/20, we officially started dating. A week later she flew down here to see me and was here for the rest of that month and nearly all of June and Iāve never been so happy. Weāre planning our future together, a future I never thought Iād have. I had convinced myself a very long time ago that I would most likely kill myself or die so I never picture an actual future of any kind, especially not a happy one but here I am. Iām not there yet and I still have progress to make but I look back and see how far Iāve come and Iām amazed how everything turned out and fell into place.
Hang in there, ok? Life gets better, it actually does, thatās not just something people say to make you feel better.
Iāve been thinking for a few days now that I wanted to do an update post on this blog, I feel itās the right time to with everything thatās happened since I abandoned this blog. So first of all I moved in November, from my grandmaās house where there was giant holes in the ceiling that let every bit of cold air in from the winter while letting what little cool air we had out in the summer and poured rain so heavy we regularly had to leave tall buckets under all of the holes. Plus there was the mold, the mildew and the dust. Regularly losing water from our well or power from the busted breaker box. The house had four bedrooms but only one wasnāt packed floor to ceiling with junk and that one I shared with my mom. That mixed with the strain of living with my somewhat mean and spiteful grandma, to say it was stressful is an understatement. But in November I moved from there into a spacious trailer with my mom, sister, her boyfriend and their new baby! I have my own room, the place is well kept and not falling down. Itās amazing. Money has been more tight and as a result we havenāt gotten wifi yet, which has been a little tough since YouTube and twitch was my main coping mechanism for my anxiety and agoraphobia but Iāve actually been managing without it well! Not only that but pretty much every day since Iāve moved Iāve maybe only spent 2 days where I didnāt leave the house. I always go with my mom to take my sister to work, which is only 5 minutes away but I gradually have been staying out more, going further and staying for longer! Just the other night we all went to the laundry mat thatās a good 20 minutes or more away and we stayed there 3 hours to do laundry! No anxiety, no panic attack. A few weeks ago I went with my mom to the old house, my grandmas house, which is at least a 45 minute drive there and 45 back and I accomplished that! The most exciting thing so far was I asked my mom to take me to GameStop to trade in PokĆ©mon Y and Majoraās Mask for a new game. I hadnāt been into a GameStop in a decade, I basically grew up there as a kid and it was so incredible to go back after all this time! I ended up trading in those two games and getting Harvest Moon The Lost Valley, which I've been enthralled by. Iāve also been to Walmart, which I found at first to be a major sensory overload but every time since Iāve been ok. I got to pick out my own snacks for the first time in forever, helped pick out movies from redbox. Itās just been so amazing going places again! My stomach has even been better, I guess from the lack of stress. It hasnāt been hurting as much, Iāve also made a point to start eating more fiber which I think has helped. Iāve been walking a mile almost every day with my mom, weather permitting. My poetry has been published in the local newspaper, thatās really cool! Iām even gaining weight again. I still find myself drifting into deep sadness and loneliness some nights, I still sometimes get anxious and Iāve had a couple of panic attacks since moving but I think thatās normal, it doesnāt happen too often. I havenāt cut since either. So Iām actually doing great! Things have really turned around for me! All I need now are two things, wifi, Iāve been without it since November and Iāve been missing out on so much YouTube and twitch and even just talking to friends! And dating/a relationship, I think that ones a bit too hopeful though tbh. It seems no one ever really pays me much attention while weāre out, like no one checks me out or even acknowledges me besides the rare glance or when you make eye contact with someone and you both smile or nod. Anyways, thatās the update on my life! Iāve gotten so much better and Iāve actually been really happy!
On a side note, today my mom and I stopped at this gas station that weāve never stopped at before who sold their gas at an astonishing $1.99 a gallon (I actually know proper prices for gas now!) we heard a rumor they sell it so cheap because they mix water in it but idk if they do. I bring it up because inside the store (I went in!) they had this really nice bike, it was teal and orange and was sturdy, it looked like a bike from the 50s and they had a sign on it that you could enter a giveaway to win it! But you had to buy something to enter, now at the time I thought āwell weāre not buying anything so I canāt enter so I might as well not even askā but when I told this to my mom after we left she said that technically we bought gas so we might of been able to enter so Iām gonna have my mom call and ask tomorrow and if so maybe we can go back there to get more gas and enter and if so I feel like Iām gonna win it! It feels like destiny, Iāve been talking about wanting a bike literally ever since we moved here and now here one is? In a gas station we never use that we just happen to stop by that day? Gotta be fate, if anything comes of this Iāll make another update, until then, see ya ā¤ļø
New poetry collection about my love of Moon Pies in many different poetic forms, READ IT HERE
Plz read
I kind of miss you. You were like my agoraphobic buddy, as strange as that sounds. I didnāt realize how less alone you made me feel until you were gone. Mainly because a lot of people that have agoraphobia (on forums, Reddit, etc) donāt seem to be on the same page as I am with their age or circumstance but you are
Awww, Iām sorry ā¤ļø Iām still here
Probably the best short horror story Iāve written, Iām like H.P Lovecraft but less racist and prettier
A Painted Ireland: The Memoir of Luther P. Oā Drer
I wrote this! Read it plzzz
Can someone please help me Iām panicking right now! I made an eBay account the other day, I spent the last of my money in my paypal on this Japanese gameboy game for my collection ok? I paid and they shipped it and then today I tried listing something to sell, an old PokĆ©mon card and they suspended my account!?!! I donāt understand and every time I try to use the support/help center it asks me to log in but when I do this pops up
But then logs me out, it SAYS to verify my info and my account activity directly to fix it but THEY AUTO LOG ME OUT AND YOU CANT USE THE SUPPORT UNLESS YOURE LOGGED IN WHAT DO I DO?!?!!!!????!!
Will I still get my game???? Are they just gonna keep my money?!??? Iām freaking out and Iām insanely frustrated because they suspend my account, say I need to verify my info then not let me sign in or contact them TO VERIFY MY INFO
I hate eBay Iām never using it again
The only support email I could find was one you use to report suspected fake emails of people trying to steal your account info so I sent them the angriest email
āYou suspend my account, say I need to verify my info but I canāt access the custom support part of your help center unless Iām signed in but when I sign in, all it says is Iāve been suspended and LOGS ME OUT. Who thought this was a good system to help customers? I want my account reinstated to make sure the auction I won, AND PAID FOR, is followed through with and I receive my item, THAT I PAID FOR, and then Iām deleting my account and never using eBay again.
And Iām very aware this isnāt the correct support email to use but again, YOUR SYSTEM SUCKS AND YOU DONāT PROVIDE A NORMAL SUPPORT EMAIL LIKE EVERY OTHER BUSINESS. NO INSTEAD LEAVE IT UP TO FORUMS FROM OTHER CUSTOMERS TO HELP ME, GOD FORBID A MASSIVE COMPANY ACTUALLY PAYS SOMEONE TO, IDK, ASSIST THEIR CUSTOMERS.
Jesus Christ.ā
Can someone please help me Iām panicking right now! I made an eBay account the other day, I spent the last of my money in my paypal on this Japanese gameboy game for my collection ok? I paid and they shipped it and then today I tried listing something to sell, an old PokĆ©mon card and they suspended my account!?!! I donāt understand and every time I try to use the support/help center it asks me to log in but when I do this pops up
But then logs me out, it SAYS to verify my info and my account activity directly to fix it but THEY AUTO LOG ME OUT AND YOU CANT USE THE SUPPORT UNLESS YOURE LOGGED IN WHAT DO I DO?!?!!!!????!!
Will I still get my game???? Are they just gonna keep my money?!??? Iām freaking out and Iām insanely frustrated because they suspend my account, say I need to verify my info then not let me sign in or contact them TO VERIFY MY INFO
I hate eBay Iām never using it again
Oh my auction on eBay got removed for some reason????? Omggggg I canāt catch a break lol
PokƩmon Shining Noctowl / Neo Destiny / Secret Rare 110/105 Holographic. Condition is Used. Shipped with USPS First Class Package.
Iām selling my shining noctowl PokĆ©mon card on eBay if anyone wants to buy it/make an offer! Currently trying to get some money together to help my mom out
So yeah itās been fun but Iām gonna spend my time on the new blog so follow me over there plz ā¤ļø
my first post uhh
The new blog!
Iāve made a new blog! @uhhhdeej I havenāt done anything with it yet but thatās gonna be my new main blog very soon
Oh oh Iāve thought of a new YouTube idea for a Minecraft series but since I play on console I need $2.99 for a skin pack and $5.99 for a map thing, I shouldnāt be considering this I need to focus on the football series and that game is gonna be $30, tbh both ideas seem wildly impossible to get money for regardless but idk!