Waks Fruit

Fine writings and printings from the Waks Fruit Micro-press 

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Silk Skirts

i remember wondering 

what it may be like

knowing

i would never be 

“that”

person

thinking i was just 

“one of the gang”

well

i guess not

and now what,

am i really all that great now.

now that 

i can be categorized

like the halloween costumes, 

at value village 

,at the end of October.

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Only if you want it

hands around my throat,

pelvic bone crushing mine

blood on the floor

anything for you

i fucking jump through hoops for you

and yet

every morning

the alarm goes off on your i-Phone

and i need to prove myself again. 

This shit is hard

i need to start eating more than coffee time cruellers

seriously tho.

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So cool.

-your so cultured, listening to those vice documentaries staying current.

-yo man

i have to contribute to the ever changing zeitgeist

-yeah , sure

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Excerpt 2.

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Perfect

When i get home

the dishes are all in their place

the floor is somewhat clean

the garbages are half full

still

there is a resounding echo in-between my ears

-its not perfect yet

i clean a little more, before i move to the bathroom hoping to clean up the bleeding gash on my knee

Its just a scratch

meanwhile the echoes are loud now

they are no longer encouraging me to clean

- YOU, are not perfect, You do not deserve this, Get rid of yourself, clean up the mess before they get home, 

I start cleaning the floor

filling the bathtub with bleach

none of the knives are sharp enough to cut.

Fuck Me.

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1:51

all the strings that held me 

together

have unfolded and now

its just a mess

tonnes of yarn on the floor

soaked in tears

trying to sleep 

you hide your face

The room lights up in a way it only can at this time of day

you are listening to the RuPauls Drag Race Finale Season 7

i am hoping that the words are soothing you into deep sleep

i start to expect that this may be a lie

i start to expect much more than i deserve

and this is when all those strings

snap

and we are just puppets plastered in sparkles

limp on a stage.

this is my fault

somehow i know it it

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New diets

- half tab of either 110 or 150 ug LSD-25

-Lots of water, as much as i can carry and drink at the same time

-donuts: 1-3 Original cruellers from Coffee-Time every 24hrs

-6/8 .5 Mg Clonazepam tablets (suggested dosage 1mg total daily)

- 2 eggs fried, 

- 1 Tablespoon Heinz Ketchup

- 1/2 Tablespoon Sriracha

- 4 litres black tea (earl grey or orange pekoe if lucky)

-New mirror (curved to make me seem more like my “true” self)

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Beauty Queen,

Sam Nolan

Acrylic and Ink on Canvas

2015

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2:57 AM

you are in psychedelic slumber in the next room,

i can smell the sex that is fresh on our bodies

i hear you breathe in

allowing a pause

you breathe out

i hope to be wrapped in the same dreams as you

lost in this world of lysergic dissolution

I know this to be

impossible

for two people,

 having lived two lives are by definition

seperate

yet somehow,

i want to know all of you,

every heartbeat

and every moment in between

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Another 3:12 Eternity

listening to indie house of the Toronto flavour

not above the lyrics, or their lack of complexity

I get it

if i had to do what is asked of them in three weeks 

over the span of a year

i would feel raked over the coals

yet

thats how it has to be

in the industry

you let the hours “worked”

outweigh the monies provided

as long as theres a little bump left for mary

as long as theres a little left for 

tomorrow

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Oh. so the very sensitive boy zine is in the makings, i hope you all enjoy the fruits of our labors.

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My secret adventure

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Binary

it is not about UFO’s

I think i saw you

in the dark woods

in my future

maybe it is just a guess

maybe I am too drunk to make that judgement

but i swear

i saw us together

here

in warm arms

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Samples

if we add

just a little bit more reverb

just enough dynamics processing 

it no longer belongs to them

it belongs

to everyone now

 to use

abuse

to skip through without care

its just noise anyway

at least 

at this point it is.

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Want

all i have 

is this box of

firecrackers

all of them are lit

one by one

by some crisis i make

with

or maybe for us

this is the trigger

the exposed screen door

that lets the heavy rain push through 

it was my mistake

so naturally

its my fault

I should not keep this up, its not safe

for us.

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Seat 26 B

No one 

Sitting next to him

 all i want

is to kiss his hands

lay my head on 

his shoulder 

he would

Allow me

to fall asleep 

in his  arms.....

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"about men you leave in other countries" - Marie Andersson