just a ghost song on the wall

sam, 27, she/her - yes, i'm a ghost. and i talk in lyrics. and i like to duplicate words. and use random full stops as well. and i am also putting everything in queue. and it's always full. or i'll probably just speed running through old posts because i got busy again. so. i'm sorry for spam. i guess. it is what it is. which is nothing. and of course i'm rambling on my own bio. this blog is a haunted mess! hockeyblogging @gritizen. also @interlagos2008 for motorsport.

[goodscreencaps]

[kudeita]

too big to capture

[frankhermann]

actually annoyed by long distance friends again. i want to go for a walk i want to get drinks i want to sit in the grass and write i want to go to the fucking store together

[madmonksandmaenads]

I wish I could make white people(and not just white Americans) understand how diverse the pre-columbian Americas were. The history, religion, culture, politics was at least as complex as Europe's. There was the full gamut of religions, from monotheists to animists to ancestral religions. There were city building empires, village farmers, nomadic traders, and so many other ways to live. This is all just based on what we know, the fragments left behind and the stories of survivors of an apocalyptic plague. All this before the most extended campaign of genocide in history was waged in an attempt to wipe out those survivors.

Over 500 years spent trying to cut down a whole trunk of human culture.

Do you understand how much poorer our whole species is because of it? Can you imagine where art, religion, and science would be if we still had these vast bodies of knowledge? The stain of the colonial project will never be fully washed clean. We owe more than just the land to those we stole from. We owe them a whole future, a future that could have been brighter for all of us. If only greed and fear weren't allowed to rule this land.

[st-hedge]

what a beautiful, beautiful phrase

[can-i-make-image-descriptions]

[Image ID: Tumblr tag reading: not usually my ship but. i can appreciate the hull. /End ID]

[inthejunipergrove]

Worship the hand that beats you or whatever

[kerouacette]

Bob Dylan on the best and worst things about being 80

[sculien]

THE X FILES 4.03

[passerinearts]

When it comes to chronic illnesses, mental illnesses, and disabilities, I've noticed that a lot of able-bodied people either don't take names seriously, or don't understand and ask you to explain what it is to them.

Now, if you have any kind of disability, you know it's fucking annoying go have people make you explain something over and over again, or have people go "oh, you have X? You mean, like the [awful stereotype] thing?"

So, I have realized recently that being Vague As Shit is great for making people leave you the hell alone.

I have autism and anxiety, and with that comes the symptom of selective mutism. If you don't know what that is, Firefox is free. But I had an episode where I couldn't speak today in one of my classes, and knew I would have to explain it to my partner and probably my professor.

This usually goes with me writing that I can't speak, them asking why, me saying selective mutism, and them asking me what that is. Then I have to painstakingly write out an explanation. And, obviously, I'm tired of this. So I tried something new. When he asked, I simply told him I couldn't speak, and when he asked if I physically couldn't or just didn't want to, I just opened my mouth and unleashed the terrifying, awful, broken stuttering that comes out when I try to speak while mute.

His response was "OKAY OKAY OKAY YOU CAN STOP NOW" and he did not question me for the rest of class, and even explained to the professor what was wrong when she tried to make me popcorn read.

This also works on doctors. When I tell doctors I have PCOS, POTS, or hEDS, they usually hear "oh the crazy women self diagnosis disabilities" and treat me accordingly. So, instead I drop unhinged symptoms until they leave me alone.

"Yes, my last menstrual cycle started on December 12th, 2025 and ended January 28th, 2026." "I have experienced several events where I have passed out randomly, yes." "My hip has subluxated six times in the past week."

It's like in the principles of writing horror. If you name and describe the problem, it's easier for people to minimize and ignore. Don't let them. You live with this fucking bullshit every day. Let your symptoms haunt people. They don't need to know everything about you. Besides, it makes them treat you better than when you give them names.

[tinyuglyworld]

Gavash, Western Armenia, 1974🇦🇲

Photo credit: Peter Carapetian (source)

[birdsareblooming]

thinking about this tag on my post again. i'm saying this all the time forever

[deaddolin]

[free-my-mindd]

[maxxie-or-smth]

no one else twists the knife as good as u come over

[rimouskis]

we gotta make writing fic uncool again to remove the incentive to use AI to cheat at it/clout-farm and brother, I've been working at this noble goal for years

[catastrophicbleus]

forehead tattoo that says "the consequences of not checking your email are always bigger than the consequences of checking your email"

[tall]