Zozo

Recovered hobby baker :))

[wanttobeaesthetic]

Hi anyone reading this!

I made this blog while I was anorexic. I couldn't admit at the time that I was sick.

It's almost been 3 years since I started recovering, and I just want to tell you, that it was all worth it.

I am happy, I am healthy. I love to cook and eat and when I go out with friends for dinner the only thing occupying my mind is what next delicious thing will I find on the menu.

The weight that I gained in the first part of recovery eventually balanced out and the excess dissappeared. At first I was always bingeing and felt out of control, but you need to know that that part will not last forever! Eventually it will pass and one day you will realize that you can eat the cake in your fridge or leave it alone until you feel like eating it, and it will not feel like a big deal.

This post is not about me bragging about how I was able to overcome my ED, not at all. It is an encouragement to anyone reading this that though it may feel scary at the beginning, recovery is absolutely worth it!

It will probably never leave me completely. I can still look at a plate and count the calories. The other day I was explaining to a friend how 1g of fat, carbs or alcohol each have x, y, z calories in it and she looked at me horrified. I still only drink coke zero. Somedays I still catch myself thinking "oh if I was thinner", "if I only stopped and starved for the day", but I now know that I am stronger than these fleeting moments, and learnt how to shake them off. You will learn too.

There is so much joy in this life. 3 years ago I couldn't see or enjoy even the smallest of happy things. But we all deserve happiness. You deserve to not care about the calories of a cocktail when you go out to party with friends. You deserve extra fries, you deserve another slice of cake at your birthday.

If you've read this far, I want apologize for rambling but also thank you for reading. I love you all, and hope you will join me in recovering eventually.

I was thinking about deleting this blog, but on second thought I think I will stay. So if you ever need someone to talk to who understands, I will be here. I will always listen. You are strong amd beautiful and have a bright future ahead of you that I cannot wait to see.

<3

[bor-ealis]

Hi guys!

Let's help Anas and his family!

Hello I am Anas from Gaza. I am in my final year of engineering. I was supposed to graduate a few months ago, but because of the war, that did not happen. My sister is a nurse. We are now living in a bus in the street. The university has introduced distance learning (online). Despite this, we want to complete our education despite the war, genocide, and hunger. Therefore, I sent you a message. We need your help so that we can complete our education and provide food and what my family needs, because this campaign is for my education and my sister’s and to provide food for my family.

https://gofund.me/a0699773

[cinnabuncrumbs]

elon musk should kill himself elon musk needs to kill himself elon musk would make society as a whole better if he killed himself now

[a-tenno-called-prin]

Sorry to break the theme of the blog but a lot of people who post their incredible works here use Twitter so

[a-tenno-called-prin]

Reblogging this for a second time because your art will also be used in AI training models, apparently.

[coldalbion]

Artist pals, heads up

[laramieslims]

I call this one "what if salmon just kept getting worse"

[drmajalis]

The British Empire is collapsing before our eyes in real time <3

Critical support to Charles in his efforts to destroy the empire :) /s

[merlintheenchanted]

psychic: *reads my mind*

my mind: those new shoes?

you talkin’ about these?

those puppies new?

you’re wondering if these are new shoes.

you got some new shoes?

Oh I get the sense you’re wondering if these are new shoes

New shoes.

Are we speaking about these?

I *pshh* I’m talking about

those babies

They look pretty new

I see

Patrick

Patrick

Patrick

New shoes?

those are new.

these babies?

I’M. TALKING. BOUT. THOSE. KICKS.

ah... I...

oh, you’re talking about these.

what you got at the end of those stems?

you’re asking me about these shoes?

your sneaks!

Uh... yeah you by the sink

hi, uh, thanks so much for taking my question, my name is uh, Brian, I’m a — been a fan a while, just wanted to know, um, when, uh, when did you get those shoes, are they new?

Uh, we’re not taking questions about the shoes right now.

OOH BABY BABY ITS SOME NEW SHOES

(ah-ti dah BUH)

I WANNA KNOW IF YOU GOT SOME NEW SHOES

(Shoes! Huh!)

Looks like somebody’s feet made some new friends, I’m talking about shoes.

Those babies new?

Yeah I got them like two weeks ago.

Then I guess they’re...

Well they’re not new, are they?

You... garbage hole.

You sssssack of a man.

You pshhjust pile of ropes on a trash heap.

You human toilet.

psychic: what the fuck

[milfmaekar]

I’m worried

[everydaylouie]

hello, world (a test of some virtual singer software!)

(soundcloud)

[babyfairy]

[melodramaticsoprano]

why does this have so much emotion? melancholy? I dunno why but this slaps and makes me feel sad

[xmagnet-o]

A bop

[constant-confusion-is-all-i-know]

[sparcky]

me, looking back on it all:

[theteapotofdoom]

I feel like The Mandalorian really understands what’s attractive in a man more than any other show I’ve ever seen. They really said "here’s this quiet but kind man in a sexy armor who is competent and good with kids and also he likes dogs" like they really did it.

[usersukuna]

#i’m so used to giving and now i get to receive

[giulsallaloneii]

MAGIC SPELL EVERYONE

💫💥💫💥💫💥💫💥💫💥

Reblog to lose 7 pounds in a week

💥💫💥💫💥💫💥💫💥💫

Reblog to weight less than yesterday

[kiyotakadearbreeze]

;-; I really need this

[wanttobeaesthetic]

Tbh, I don't even want to be thin so I'm more beautiful, or feminine. I just want to be bony, with sharp angles. I want to look intimidating and scary, and hope that when I get there, no man will ever think of touching me again.

[wanttobeaesthetic]

Coffe for breakfast, 

tea for lunch,

 nicotine for dinner, 

fuck it, I wanna be thinner.

[wanttobeaesthetic]

#14daydeficit: Day 2

Breakfast: coffe with soy milk ~50 kcal

Lunch: 5 ravioli and 4 cottage cheese balls ~ 350 kcal

Dinner: 4 cottage cheese balls ~250 kcal

Snack: 1 piece of cake :(( ~ 300 kcal

Overall, approximately 1000 kcal, and I couldn't work out today, but it's still a defecit, so I'm okay.

[wanttobeaesthetic]

#14daydeficit Day 1

Breakfast: coffe with soy milk ~ 50kcal

Lunch: green tea ~ 0 kcal

Dinner: some penne with tomatoes and scrambled eggs ~380 kcal

Overall, today was great, I drank a lot of teaaaaa, and I didn't even feel hungry.

Sorry, I'm still too afraid to weigh myself.

[wanttobeaesthetic]

Hiiii

So I want to do a thing that's like a "14 day deficit" program/challenge idk. I uh... feel fat. And these past few weeks I kinda got my bingeing under control, so I want to try being in a deficit again.

I'll post my calories on here everyday, starting tomorrow ✌ My goal is to reach 50 kgs again because thats where I felt the best. You can join if you feel like, and we can try to motivate each other 😊😊