from heaven above

and hell below

[watermemorie]

[watermemorie]

Why should I give up anything for life? If life hasn't given up anything for me?

When they saw me draw- they said I wanted to be an artist, when they saw me write- they said I wanted to be a writer.

I grew up without expecting any dream of my own. I could never love anything just to love it, it always had to be give and take.

"that's what you need in order to survive" I keep thinking, I don't want to survive, I want to live. If I tell them I want to live they'll give me this tired look and say "then you need money".

I guess I've always been too much of a child to care. Living never meant money, it meant fairy houses and bioluminescent flowers.

I've never been smart. I know. I'm a stupid child with an overgrown body. I can't wrap my head around reality, I am not strong enough to survive this world.

If this is what living truly is, I'd rather not live at all.

[demoncity]

借りぐらしのアリエッティ — THE SECRET WORLD OF ARRIETY 2010 | dir. Hiromasa Yonebayashi

[joyousrulerrr]

[zegalba]

Telephone booth surrounded by snow in Hokkaido, Japan (2021)

[midnightinthemagicmicagarden]

Exquisitely Falling

Watercolor On Black Paper

2022, 10"x 14"

Weeping Cherry Tree

[dailykafka]

— Franz Kafka, Letters to Felice

[2001hz]

'Wong Kar-Wai' (1997)

[lesbianashleywilliams]

RANPO EDOGAWA IN “LONE SWORDSMAN AND GREAT DETECTIVE”

[disease]

JENNY HOLZER / TRUISMS / 1984 [metal, light emitting diode units and plastic | 6.6 x 60.5 x 6.3″]

“In 1982 [Holzer] blazed these messages across a giant advertising hoarding in Times Square, New York. The Truisms are deliberately challenging, presenting a spectrum of often-contradictory opinions. Holzer hoped they would sharpen people’s awareness of the ‘usual baloney they are fed’ in daily life.”

[happymiko]

花火のようなリコリス

[zegalba]

Raf Simons: Skeleton Hand Bracelet (2022)

[uroko]

[feral-ballad]

Linda Pastan, from The Five Stages of Grief: Poems; "Because"

[Text ID: “because life seemed so short; / because life stretched before me / like the darkened halls of nightmare; / because I knew exactly what I wanted; / because I knew exactly nothing; / because I shed my childhood with my clothes— / they both had years of wear left in them;”]

[tapireye-deactivated20220708]

Various Antique “Lover’s Eye’ Jewellery Pieces, c. late 1700s

[gilgamis]

Cat, Mouse and Me - Susumu Yokota (1997)

[uroko]

Hydrangea Village, Shingu あじさいの里