Unspoken Words

26. Washington D.C. I will always be your person.

[2ishesitation]

I knew I’d never find someone who made me feel the way you do.

I just learned to live without it.

[wordsbyblaise]

i never wanted to let you go, but i didn’t want to hold you back.

—to the one i still love dearly.

[a-song-about-apple-pie]

I’m starting to get to the point where your silence isn’t making me sad anymore ... it’s just pissing me off.

[dontcallmeidontexist]

I will never know what it feels like

To be loved by you

Sometimes I’d like to think I’m alright with that

But the truth is

I stay up some nights

Thinking about how it must be

Seeing your eyes glimmer with joy

When I do something silly

Or watching you be happy

Just because I’m holding your hand

Getting your good morning texts

And your fresh out the shower selfies

Your I love yous

Your spontaneous gifts

Your sad stories

Your forever and ‘til we die

[wlwdaydreamms]

sometimes i wonder if im always going to go back to you. i feel bad for all the people i have pushed away for you but my mind won't stop calling your name. i lay awake at night wishing for things to be different, wishing my presence is the one you crave. i pray to whichever God for our paths to cross again and i imagine all the sentences i'll say in an attempt to make you like me again.

but do you ever feel that way about me when you're with him?

[wlwdaydreamms]

though we didnt have a happy ending, i never once regret the time we spent together. i dont think neither of us expected our future to be this way, none of us thought we would get separated from each other. i wish we had more opportunities but at least i got to experience what its like to be loved by you.

[girlslikegirlxs]

It's you. It was always you. You're the one I want. You're the one I wanted to come home to. The one to be there after you had a long day at work as I take care of you and you tell all about your day. I would prepare you a warm bath, your favorite food and order your favorite coffee. Buy your favorite chocolates and flowers. I would play with your hair and make you laugh as we watch your favorite shows so you forget about the bad things for a while. I would hug you and kiss you and say "You will never be alone. I'm here my love. I'm so so proud of you." You're the one I wanted to roll over to in the middle of the night, to cuddle and wake up next to everyday, for the rest of my life and more. To see your beautiful sleepy eyes, your perfect smile, your hair falling perfectly and your natural smell all over me. You're the one I wanted to go on late night walks to see the stars and the moon. To laugh. You're the one I wanted to take on cute little dates like to a movie, to a dinner, or to an early morning breakfast before we both have to go our separate ways for the day. You're the one I wanted to take to aquariums, zoos, amusement parks, water parks, museums, picnics (specially late ones where we stay all night watching the stars and we dance under the moon), go to a rooftop and drink some red wine as we laugh and have deep talks about the universe until morning and see the sunset while kissing and holding each other. You're the one I wanted to go to travel the world, go to road trips while we sing loud our favorite songs, the one you sit with on a afternoon in the living room as we watch your favorite old series to remind you of your favorite moments of your childhood. To go on fun adventures with such as a day at the lake, camping, skydiving and so much more. You're the one I wanted to build a cute little fort while we watch your favorite movies under it and eat our favorite foods. Cuddle on a rainy day while drinking hot cocoa. Cook in the kitchen together while we dance, sing. To play video games together while I'm between your legs. To take care of you when you are sick or with any pain. To surprise everyday with romantic gestures. To go on our favorite singers shows. To build a snowman that would ended it up in a cute snowball fight. To make you see that fairytales do exist and the love in story books or movies are real. You are the one I wanted to sing to me everyday as we are lying in bed and I look at every perfect detail of you and I tell you how much my heart is beating too fast, I would probably be having an heart attack because your voice is the most beautiful sound of this universe. You're the one I wanted to make happy for the rest of my life. Really happy and feeling completely loved, supported, understood. I want to hold you when times get tough for you. When your world feels like crashing down. I would be your shoulder to cry on. Hug you tight. Wipe your tears and hold your hand while looking into your eyes making you understand that I would be there in your good days and all your bad days too. Always. It's you. You're the one. And I swear to you I have never been so sure about something in my entire life. It's you, and I say this without a single doubt in my mind. It will always be you. Forever

[aretherestarsinhell]

“tell me to move on. i’m always going to be thinking in possibilities; possibilities that we can get back together, possibilities that things can go back to the way they were, possibilities that you love me, still. and that’s going to drive me mad. so, please. tell me to move on. for my own sake. i can’t unless i hear you say it.”

-tell me you don’t love me like you said you did. c.r.

[theseasideblonde-deactivated202]

“When people fall out of love with you, there’s nothing you can do to change their mind. They just don’t love you anymore.”

Taylor Swift

[chained-heart-deactivated202311]

“I have to say, I miss you like crazy right now. But there’s something in me stopping me from reaching out to you, something subconscious that’s telling me it’s time to let go. Two months ago, I would’ve. A week ago, I wouldn’t even hesitate. 3 days ago, I would’ve done it in a heartbeat. But right now, I think that even if I did, I know nothing between us would ever change.”

— c / do you miss me?

[goldenangelll]

and i’ve know for a while now that someone like me isn’t meant to be with someone like you. i am simply too much for you and in some cases, not enough. you wanted a light drizzle and i am a raging hurricane. once again you have bit off a lot more than you can chew. you thought you could swallow me whole but you didn’t realize i’d make you explode.

- l.r // i will always be too much for you to handle

[goldenangelll]

i have always been too much for someone or not enough. i’m either too loud or not loud enough. i am a walking contradiction. a full glass or an empty one. there is no balance in me. tell me, what made you leave? my devastating fire or my lack of heat?

- l.r // i am never half empty

[shmwrites]

Maybe this is it for me. Maybe I don’t ever stop loving you. I don’t get upset as much anymore but I still miss you. I don’t cry like I used to about you and I think about you less but you still cross my mind and it feels like you never really left it at all. Maybe I have to just live with the fact that you have rooted yourself in my brain and I cannot weed you out. So maybe I don’t ever fully get over you, maybe I never will. Maybe I won’t ever stop wondering what you’re doing and who you’re with. Maybe I just have to live with it. Maybe I have to live with not being able to stop loving you. And maybe I have to learn to accept that you have already stopped loving me.

my life is full of maybes but you used to be the one thing I was sure about.

[quotexcerpts]

“This is not goodbye, my darling, this is a thank you. Thank you for coming into my life and giving me joy, thank you for loving me and receiving my love in return. Thank you for the memories I will cherish forever. But most of all, thank you for showing me that there will come a time when I can eventually let you go.”

— Nicholas Sparks; Message in a Bottle (via quotexcerpts)

[malleficarvm]

“Now I know why I was drawn to you. We have the same darkness inside.”

— Leah Raeder, Unteachable (via wordsnquotes)

[luckylluminati]

“I think in the end all I really wanted was for you to see how much I could have loved you.”

[vodkakilledtheteen]

Sometimes I want to forget about what happened and just move on. Make pretend like nothing happened. I wish I could make our memories stop tasting like old apples. Maybe erase the night we fought in your car while a stupid love song played in the background. I wish I could stop remembering your scent everywhere I go. It’s like you’re always next to me, but instead you’re elsewhere doing something else with someone else. I can’t forget about us or what we were before our reality burned like if it was a sin. Quite honestly I wish you could apologize. Go down on your knees and tell me that I’m the only person you need. But that’s a crazy thing to imagine because even though we once were something special, it’s obvious that I was the only one who saw it.

— Alexa Evangelista, the book I’ll never finish writing