my life crumbles yours does too

[what4disgrace]

[what4disgrace]

Burned that stupid Polaroid that was mocking me

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When

When you first meet someone ,as a friend

When do you give them attention

When do you intentionally ignore them for a but

Im so confused by how this works.

Not everyone is the same and the more I keep trying to give myself to people the more im too clingy

The more I back away the less of a chance ill ever be friends with them

When you are basically invisible in all situations the less you have a chance

A chance to be a friend

To be a lover

An acquaintance at least

No matter how I push or pull my whole being is at this neutral state.

No matter what choice I make to strengthen a relationship with another I fail........

When can I be like everyone else?

Normal

[apocalyptic-bliss]

After a while you get over it and you stop checking up on them.

[apocalyptic-bliss]

You’re so fucking precious when you smile

[drugsandshit666]

[what4disgrace]

Ugh

I just wanna get wild someone bring me coke to my job

[what4disgrace]

Ugh

She literally looks like if lana del rey and tove lo had a baby. Goddamn her face was the shit.

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So there was this girl

I met her on this app conveniently called Her. Lets call her Erica. I was so fricking excited to talk to someone new. My relationship with my fiance was going sour and I was dying to meet someone who could show me Im worth more. Erica and I hit it off pretty great. We talked for 2 hrs then she drove to see me. I was so close to having a panic attack. But things went pretty smoothly. We talked and shared a blunt. She made lots of eye contact and that was good. We didn't even kiss or anything that night. But i did get a hug. We texted and she told me she liked me. And i thought that was awesome. I liked how we had so much in common. From being Pisces to similarities about growing up. We talked about nonsense too but it didn't matter. Her company is always welcomed.

[what4disgrace]

Hey there. This is a venting blog. I just need a space to escape.

I ruined a big relationship over the fact that i couldn't communicate properly. Then over the course of a week after that I messed up even more by doing something so stupid. And putting my self out there and becoming my clingy self. To no avail I was rejected because im a manipulator and i send people on guilt trips.