We couldn't agree on the name of the blog.

20+ system any prns

[whathaveyoudid]

Hi 👽

This pin post is a complete mess, but It is what it is

This is a side blog where *we* talk about DID and other mental stuff. Feel free to ask pretty much anything to host, but not ask alters please

About whole system: russian, adult, have DID (self diagnosis), MADD (official diagnosis), ADHD (official diagnosis), Autism (self diagnosis). Csa and incest survivor. Connective tissue dysplasia (Unspecified. I have no idea how it is possible to not clarify. But that's what they gave me.)

I don't want to touch on politics in this blog, but I must say - Free Ukraine. Russia is a terrorist state

Alters:

We call ourselves "personalitie", "person" but "alters" and "headmates" also okay

Host - adult, genderfluid, want be a furry hare. Always here

Lisa - adult, female, furry fox. Tricky, "responsible" for social stuff

Timofey - adult (or teen?), male, human. Protector, but aggressive.

Bonnie - child, furry bunny. Scared of everything, rarely "wake up"

??? - 1-3 alters that sometimes show up, and host never had a proper convertion with them

[femaleperpsurvivors]

the resources for these spaces werent made for me

i was a boy

i was a little boy.

i wasnt a pretty pink girl who played with horses and barbies

i was a rough little boy who loved dinosaurs and nature and the color teal

and it wasnt an evil man who did it

it was my mother

it is never spoken about. people do not percieve it. ever. it might as well have never happened. if i could just die from it already

[ferventlyviolentsecret]

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[ferventlyviolentsecret]

all you have to do is rewind

[whathaveyoudid]

I start posting more because im Unemployed right now

[whathaveyoudid]

«We need to start bullying people» «Bring back bullying» - i will kill you with a hammer

[faesaint]

DID sucks because in the morning you think "maybe I'm actually normal and I should stop overanalyzing my experiences and just enjoy life" and in the evening you get possessed by the ghost of yourself from 2018

[blakesreefium]

for those out there who feel like their dissociation 'isn't enough' and feel like they're faking because of it, hey. maybe it's because you lived your entire life with this experience and got too used to it. but here's the thing, dissociation isn't just 'suddenly blacking out and having no memory of the entire past day' no matter how much its painted as that. not all dissociation is sharp and obvious.

forgetting passwords, forgetting names and people, forgetting your dreams, having too vivid dreams, insomnia, brain fog, face blindness, remembering your days like a blur, struggling to remember your schedule, school/work day gone too fast, forgetting to eat, forgetting to drink, derealization, depersonalization can all be caused by dissociation. i know its hard to accept but it is, just because you don't black out doesn't mean you don't dissociate; if you sit on your computer stopping for a second doubting your password or if you wake up feeling like that was a trainwreck of a dream then suddenly it stops being visible is caused by dissociation. if you're awake, looking around but having the feeling that something with the existence of the surroundings is wrong is also dissociation. if you suddenly remember that you forgot to eat that day, that you forgot to drink that day, the time is 3 am and even though you never blacked out and you were always there, is still dissociation.

if you grew too used to constantly living these little things, then you are probably ignoring your symptoms. so please stop the doubting. you're not fake, your dissociation is real, your amnesia is real and you are not lying. please remember this. you are a system, and it's okay to dissociate. it's not your fault.

[whathaveyoudid]

«I think my dissociation isn't that bad!»

«You're forgot what year it is now»

[mindwrms]

your system literally can look like anything. it can have only introjects, it can have no introjects, it can have only non human members, it can have only members that look exactly like the body, it can have only littles, it can have only ageless members, it can have a full system of members that all have only one type of role, it can have a million members, it can have only two members. there is no set way systems have to look! they can present however your brain deems necessary for you!

[starsweets]

it's march 5th, which is dissociative identity awareness day!! i seldom talk about being plural on here, but i am, and i've had this comic idea for quite a while now... i have P-DID, which is a label under the OSDD umbrella that not many people know about! i think these little infographics can be helpful to anyone who might be questioning or newly-realizing/diagnosed as plural, i know talking to other systems was one of the things that helped me out the most when i was learning all this stuff about myself. hopefully it might help you, too- or maybe you'll just get to learn something new!

the colors here are from this flag, just with a few adjustments to make it work better for something like a comic. i'll also link my sources under the cut, for anyone interested in reading more!

reblogs are appreciated!

SOURCES: https://pluralpedia.org/w/Partial_Dissociative_Identity_Disorder https://www.isst-d.org/publications-resources/public-resources-home/fact-sheet-iv-what-are-the-dissociative-disorders/ https://icd.who.int/browse/2025-01/mms/en#988400777 (as a note, i don't particularly like the language used in the ICD-11. i think presenting any form of dissociative disorder as inherently alarming and destructive, especially toward anyone other than the plural individual themself, is... questionable, at best. but it's the most official and academic source i can provide on the matter, so i figured i'd include it. i much prefer pluralpedia as a source for learning about these things- it's made by and for systems, and the language used is a lot more focused on the individual(s)!)

[whathaveyoudid]

I want to run away

[whathaveyoudid]

I can say I've forgiven you. I can think l've forgive you

But there always will be a part of me that wants you dead

[whathaveyoudid]

Plural pals, do your also was falsly been suspect/diagnosed with schizophrenia? I was. Despite I dont have half of the symptoms. I tried to take the prescribed medications for a while, but they only harmed me. Eventually, I developed an allergic reaction and panic attacks (!) to that medications, so I stoped taking them.

I'm about 95% sure that I don't have schizophrenia, as it was a few years ago and my condition hasn't gotten worse since then.

I also know the reverse situation. My friend was suspected of having a DID, but they started having hallucinations and fake memories, so the diagnosis was revised (later, after six months of taking pills, they completely recovered)

[dogteeth-and-deerantlers]

I wish every incest victim a long fulfilling life

[dogteeth-and-deerantlers]

I hope we all get whatever is best for us, whether that be cutting contact with our abusers, safely mending things, taking legal action, or simply leaving their household. I hope we all get out.

[whathaveyoudid]

Sometimes (wery often) I doubt that what happened to me was "real" SA. But then I imagine - if it happened to someone else would I consider it as SA?. Most likely yes

[whathaveyoudid]

Being ask by your incest rapist "Do you ever was assaulted by relatives? You can always tell me, I will do something" Is very weird experience

It's comical, even

[whathaveyoudid]

Constantly forced to wearing mask (pretend to be cis, pretend to be straight, pretend to be healthy, pretend to be Normal™) while being born biologically less adapted to wearing masks (Autism™) is sad and exhausting, but also kinda funny in dark way

[whathaveyoudid]

My personalities are very different from the alters of other people with DID here on Tumblr. They don't like it when people talk to them (mostly), and are literally against me talking about them.

They also push me pretty hard as The Host and The Main One here (although maybe it's just to avoid responsibility for their actions - they'll still get control when they want) I feel a little lonely in the community =_=