I'm Actually Emo Trash

Ask me I guess Porn bots need to fuck off and not follow me Dec 1996, I need a lot of things

[whenimsoberifeelpain]

Almost 30 years old and this is the first time in my life ive experienced loops like this xD

[snurm]

[whenimsoberifeelpain]

Hello, it is I, the frenchiest fry, i have returned (a lot less emo than i used to be)

[nube-1-deactivated20210117]

[northofcorpis]

That fuckin smile at the end

[bettsplendens]

To the worried person in the comments: 

No, a hummingbird’s heart will not stop if it stops moving. You’re possibly thinking of Spoink, which is a Pokemon that supposedly powers its heart by bouncing, and as such can’t stop moving. Hummingbirds don’t sit often because they’re busy looking for food, but they can and do sit. The females sit on eggs in nests, after all, and they do have to sleep. 

[sindri42]

Fun fact: the leg muscles of a hummingbird are so stripped down to save on weight that they cannot walk. They can step sideways along a branch or other perch, but they cannot go forward without taking flight.

However they absolutely do stop moving. In fact, hummingbirds hibernate! Overnight. Instead of sleeping. Because if they tried to sleep like a normal animal their hyperactive metabolism would mean that they starve to death before breakfast.

Unrelated fun fact: the primary Aztec god of war would take on the form of a hummingbird, and the souls of the bravest warriors were said to turn into hummingbirds in order to join him after death, presumably because every hummingbird is approximately four grams of pure concentrated asskicking which fears no man nor beast and will gladly throw down with somebody seventeen thousand times their size if offended.

[ubercharge]

this is a really cool post and i love seeing such a small bird but reading “No, a hummingbird’s heart will not stop if it stops moving. You’re possibly thinking of Spoink” killed me 

[beholdersus-deactivated20200710]

Hi, i’m micha. Im a trans woman and also very very poor. i live with my family in an apartment we rent. and we owe a little over 7000 pesos in taxes, which is around US 400 dollars. we dont have any way to pay for this and if we dont pay soon the landlords gonna kick us out. my aunt is disabled, i go to school and mom works minimum wage, there is no way we can pay for this ourselves and were running out of time. when they cut the electricity the landlord WILL kick us out.

Please help us, any dollar helps and a reblog helps as well. This is my paypal email  

[email protected] 

and this is my Donation Button 

https://www.paypal.me/michsonor

Please keep in mind that by default this is set to mexican pesos so make sure if youre sending me US dollars, or any other currency, to properly input that. if you send me like, a dollar or five and you dont set it to US dollars you will actually be sending me 1 or 5 pesos, which since its so low, paypal will take the entire thing as comission. Anyway, please help me by donating or signal boost this,.

[yoonggi]

[yoonseok-deactivated20190701]

“i can’t live like a dog when i’m born to be a tiger”

[haetsukoi-deactivated20181111]

Agust D • 160816 2 year anniversary trans: @ktaebwi

[whenimsoberifeelpain]

What is it about love

That I can feel an uncontrollable amount of passion towards someone

That it possesses me so entirely it’s like an obsession

And in the end what I feel is so intense that when it ends I’m absolutely devastated

Those feelings are so intense I feel like I’m going to die if I have to live without them

So why can’t I feel this way about literally any other aspects of life

I feel no excitement for anything else, no commitment, no passion, no love

Why for people who will never love me?

[whenimsoberifeelpain]

I wish I didn’t miss you

You don’t even talk to me consistently but I wait every night for you to text me

And any time you text me I wait for you to ask me to hang out because I know if I ask you to it won’t happen

And any time we do hang out I wait for you to make the first move because I worry that if I do you might have changed your mind about me

You’ve promised me nothing not even friendship but I also act like I expect nothing from you when it’s not what I actually feel

I love you so much and I’m afraid to say it

I’ll tell you’re cute and tell you you’re hot but admitting my feelings would be weak of me

Knowing how I feel would burden you since you don’t feel the same and that would mean the end of us

That’s not what I want though

I want you to be with me

I want to see you happy and I want to hear you laugh

I want to listen to your problems and support you through them

I want to hold you in my arms so that you might feel safe and loved

I want to learn more about you and make you feel as happy as I feel

I want you to know how I feel without it destroying our relationship

I know this view is really messed up

And this is not a healthy relationship

But I want it to keep going

Cuz I really miss you

[whenimsoberifeelpain]

I don’t want to go to work anymore

Today I felt really sad

I wanted to cry

Not for any particular reason

I just kept thinking about dying

Even though I hadn’t thought about that in some time

Today I felt empty

And lonely

And bored with my existence

I feel angry

And tired

And impatient

But not with anyone

Or anything specific

I just feel bad inside

Like I want to vomit

I keep wanting to sleep more than half the day

I have trouble going to sleep before midnight even though I wake up for work everyday at 5am

I feel disgusted with myself

I hate myself

And my current situation

Thinking anything seems difficult

Caring about things seems inconvenient

Nothing interests me

I just want to disappear

I don’t know what’s wrong with me

Or how to fix it

Does anyone know how to make this stop?

[cartnsncreal]

Super disgusting! People are FUCKED UP. 

It’s racial discrimination to treat someone less polite than someone else would be treated in the same circumstances, because of race. We can’t ignore the case of blatant racism. We MUST draw public attention to such cases. We must ensure that racists are identified and socially discredited. There are no reasons or excuses for racism. It’s just disgusting.

[locohost]

from the KTLA news article:

When Suh said she would report the action to Airbnb officials, the host replied: “It’s why we have Trump.”

Suh said that comment made her painfully aware of how threatened minorities have become under the Trump administration.

“For me personally, to now have someone say something racist to me and say it’s because of Trump, it was my fears coming true,” Suh said. “That people who held these racist beliefs felt emboldened.”

The host went on to say she would “not allow this country to be told what to do by foreigners.”

Suh is an American citizen who has called the U.S. home since she was 3 years old.

“If this is my experience as a light-skinned Asian woman, what is it like for people who have darker skin than me or are Muslim?” Suh wondered aloud. “What is it like for people who are undocumented or not U.S. citizens yet?”

[charizord]

BLESS HER FOR BEING VOCAL ABOUT THIS DO PEOPLE REALIZE HOW REAL THIS IS YET!?

[spaceshipsandpurpledrank]

Ok so i work for Airbnb. And they actually don’t fucking play with discrimination. At all. We were banning people who were going to Charlottesville for the riot. But they can’t do anything unless we are told. And the most common thing i hear is “i don’t want to start a ruckus or cause any trouble” but.. in order to prevent this stuff… we need people to. Don’t stay silent.

[mirab3lle]

Reblogging again for that! ^^^^

Also apparently the host was fined $ 5,000 and was forced to attend a class on Asian Americans, as well as apologize and serve community service. Which is awesome.

[whenimsoberifeelpain]

I’m so confused

So I fell asleep at like 6pm and somehow managed to follow 3 people on accident and message a blog I follow with like 4 letters and nothing else????? But my iPod was locked when I woke up? I honestly just don’t know

[whenimsoberifeelpain]

Also managed to block my sister??? My bad @2dou

[whenimsoberifeelpain]

I’m so confused

So I fell asleep at like 6pm and somehow managed to follow 3 people on accident and message a blog I follow with like 4 letters and nothing else????? But my iPod was locked when I woke up? I honestly just don’t know

[imnobodyyouwanttoknow]

I got forcibly transferred to a new store and my dm was like it’s only 15min away from the other store that’s near my house and like legit at low traffic time it’s 25 min, but I’ll be going during peak traffic hour in the am WHICH IS NOT FIFTEEN MINUTES I HATE THIS SO MUCH

[filthygum]

so, i gathered just a handful testimonials from replies and messages revealing just how unprofessional they are with their commission work by leaving their commissioners in silence for months. do not commission ghost-oakes unless you want to wait for months, watching them pump out other commissions and art while you twiddle your thumbs 

i have my own testimonial too: i had tried to order a holiday icon back when they were offering them. weeks went by and i heard nothing, no updates. all the while, they were creating gift icons for friends for free and other such art. when i finally did hear back, the holidays were over and i still got no visual progress (but i was told it was being worked on). they said they would finish it in a week - nothing. i asked them about it again, another week - still nothing. it wasn’t until i threatened to backdraft them (which in most cases i would NEVER do, but i felt it was my only option) that i got my money back.

[psshaw]

God, the amount of people who have mentioned getting no or rushed work from him after needling him for months. He’s apparently now blocking some people he owes.

On top of that— I dunno if he still has this policy, but his TOS on FA at one point said that if you filed a chargeback, he got to keep your character to sell off as an adoptable.

That’s. Insane. Especially considering his work ethic.

Dude was fully ambulatory and able to work when I knew him in 2014 (despite claiming things like cancer, kidney problems and sepsis THE WHOLE TIME… SEPSIS, which shoulda had him hospitalized or dead) and combined with a history of lying about being a victim of other events and people, I’m very skeptical of his ever-evolving health claims.

In my experience, under stress he will basically read half a sentence and decide what the second half means on his own. Fact-checking isn’t his thing when threatened. My theory is that once he has a worry or concern, it becomes reality to him, and he defends the lie because he finds comfort in having a confirmation that the world is out to get him with minimal responsibility on his part.

[goolfriend-moving]

HOLY SHIT HE SAID WHAT IN HIS TOS???? He was literally out there setting things up so that he could steal characters??? Because of COURSE people are gonna try to chargeback after waiting MONTHS to receive what they paid for. Wow. WOW! Jesus christ I’ve known about this dude for years, its amazing how I can /still/ learn about vile shit he tries to pull.

[goolfriend-moving]

So I dug around and apparently this is STILL in his TOS

Ghost-Oakes will take your commissions that he has no intention of fulfilling, and if you charge him back because He Is Not Doing His Job

He has set up his TOS to have the right to take your character(s) for himself to use and sell for his own profit

Ghost-Oakes will take your money, not do your commission, and then will steal your character if you attempt to get your money back

[vvarhound]

The screencap’s kinda hard to read since tumblr likes to mysteriously resize things so I archived the page.

[filthygum]

WHAT THE FUCK

[spartanlocke]

He’s a con-artist and a thief, and not even a subtle one. 

Even if it doesn’t fit your blog, please consider boosting this. Tell everyone you know. If you hear someone supporting him, shut them down. If someone’s talking about commissioning him, warn them of this. Petitions don’t do shit, the only way to stop people like this is to stop their income. Drag his reputation through the dirt until no one would even consider speaking to him. That’s the only way to end this. 

[kaijuno]

I’m just super fucking bitter that once the flint water crisis got it’s 15 minutes of fame people stopped giving a shit. The water is still poisoned, people! Donations have plummeted and people have been forced back into drinking and bathing with the water! The medical effects of this are astounding, cases of legionnaires disease have skyrocketed, people are having seizures, people are having weird rashes break out over their body, people (including me!) are having their blood poisoned, and it’s not just lead! it’s coliform bacteria! it’s THMs! it’s all in the water and it gets into the bloodstream and breaks down blood vessels, causing bruising and petechiae and internal bleeding and no one gives a shit anymore and it’s only gotten worse like how many people are going to have to die until people realize this is still a problem

[contemporary-petroleuse-deactiv]

I would like to add that the people of Flint cannot sell their houses, because selling a house with leaded water is illegal. Additionally, households with children can’t stop paying for the water because living in a house without running water is cause for CPS to take their kids. Flint has been living this way for over two years. 

The people of Flint are trapped by the legal system. And it is only the most high profile case out many cities with a similar problem. 

Because the government has abandoned them, they are dependant on help from the outside. Donate here

[babypinkb1tch]

If u can’t donate, reblog so someone else can!!!