Dec 2, 2023
It’s already been a few months since I had hallucinations; I don’t even remember the last thing I saw or heard or felt. I wish I remember and knew at that moment that it was the last and tell goodbye for good. I don’t even know if it was the last one and won’t happen again.
But whatever comes I hope I don’t wish to not exist anymore, won’t try to lock in the bathroom and end myself, won’t become depressed and miserable. And I’m writing this post because I want to remind myself in the future that, despite constant anxiety which I don’t give a second thought anymore for the things I went through, I will remember that there was a single moment in my life, when I felt content with myself.
Whatever comes next, I’m ready.