wilde_foxgloves

[wilde-foxgloves]

okay this isn't as fancy as I want it but temporary pinned post / directory:

@wilde-foxgloves is my main blog that I am doing. whatever on @bluediocasach is my poetry blog @skyldefoxgloves is going to be my sky blog. going to slowly reblog queue style my sky posts from this one AND also any sky content henceforth is going there @wilde-foxgloves-art is art blog. also going to slowly reblog most of my art posts there and also any of my art content henceforth will either be posted to or reblogged to there. other people's art is staying here @reclaimed-worlds is for my work on my comic project @reclaimed-worlds-comic is going to be where the actual comic goes (if I ever actually get around to the actual comic) @pvc-pipe-dreams is gonna be for my current writing project if I post anything related to that @mizzy-miauvery is my cat

sorting!

my pronouns are they/them. 21. my name is ardence wilde, wilde to y'all (I have also been called foxgloves and I will accept that also I'm fine with that). previously echo wilde (also wilde to y'all) was the guy, I'm host now. we're also sort of the same person though so 🤷 #convolutedandconfusing

uhh things about me. I am autistic (moderate, low support needs), also have a small slew of trauma disorders (PTSD, trauma induced psychosis, FND, DID (I thought OSDD-1b but my friend was looking into it and evidently we qualify for DID diagnostically. we're plural and distinct idk)). last psychiatrist I was evaluated by also said she was like 99% sure OCD she just couldn't diagnose me because we didn't have an official test. I am an early childhood educator and have been for a while. I've been informed I experience interest very weirdly by multiple people so I can't rightly tell you what it will look like I'm into if you're on here. that's a lot of personal information but you could probably figure it out if you looked anyways

my old commission sheet still stands I just don't like the art examples I did for it so I'm not pinning it anymore. I need to make a new one. will I. we don't know

[thegaymertrainer]

Ribbon dancing I was not aware of your evolution 🤯

[sm-64-luigi]

Aren’t you’a tired of going Apeshit?

Don’t you’a just want to be nice?

[wilde-foxgloves-art]

Working on making a mask for pride this year. First time doing that! Once this layer solidifies I'm going to sand it and then fix whatever I fucked up sanding with more layers

[wilde-foxgloves]

the problem with doing any sort of looking into aids or accommodations for your conditions is that you will be filled with the wanting

[wilde-foxgloves]

okay but seriously why did I have to find out that one of the tasks that service dogs can do is watch your 6? I can't stop thinking about how much that would improve my life now and I almost definitely cannot have it

[wilde-foxgloves]

serving the vital purpose in my community of going "do it" when people mention stuff. pursue your joy darling <3

[grahamkennedy-deactivated202411]

[applesforthis]

[Image dscription: A simple line drawing of a human facing a mirror, looking pleased, with their hands on their hips. Caption reads, "Be so completely yourself that everyone else feels INSATIABLE LUST." End image description.]

[crabussy]

shirt that says I HATE WHEN CHARACTERS WITH UNUSUAL BEHAVIOURS AND MANNERISMS DUE TO NEUROLOGICAL DIFFERENCES GET "CURED" AND BECOME "NORMAL" on the front and "bye" on the back

[crabussy]

the ONLY time I'm fine with this is when the character is STILL unusual after whatever event changed them, just in a different way. bonus points if they're upset about the change. EVEN THEN YOU (pointing my fingers around at no one) ARE ON THHHIIINNNNN ICE

[crabussy]

"but why do you hate this? isn't it a good end to a character's arc?" my actual physical neurological structure deviates from the norm in ways that CANNOT be "fixed" and I like it when characters are like me and can still have fulfilling story arcs and loving friends [:

[crabussy]

this includes characters who say things that don't make sense, have memory issues, behave irrationally, and more. I'm talking about characters who represent a wide range of neurological differences. not just autism or adhd!

[wilde-foxgloves]

something about my freezer makes my food taste like rubbing alcohol sometimes. I'm eating pasta my friend made me and it would be so wildly out of character for him to poison me and yet

[schizopositivity]

Happy pride to everyone who is schizo-spec/psychotic and lgbtqia+ !!!

We are real. Our mental illness doesn't invalidate our identity. Our identities aren't the reason we are mentally ill.

We are a crucial part of both communities and we are a tough ass group of people.

[contemptible-scoundrel]

no way your narrow ass cloaca laid this egg

[writing-is-a-martial-art]

truly some people have no genre savviness whatsoever. A girl came back from the dead the other day and fresh out of the grave she laughed and laughed and lay down on the grass nearby to watch the sky, dirt still under her nails. I asked her if she’s sad about anything and she asked me why she should be. I asked her if she’s perhaps worried she’s a shadow of who she used to be and she said that if she is a shadow she is a joyous one, and anyway whoever she was she is her, now, and that’s enough. I inquired about revenge, about unfinished business, about what had filled her with the incessant need to claw her way out from beneath but she just said she’s here to live. I told her about ghosts, about zombies, tried to explain to her how her options lie between horror and tragedy but she just said if those are the stories meant for her then she’ll make another one. I said “isn’t it terribly lonely how in your triumph over death nobody was here to greet you?” and she just looked at me funny and said “what do you mean? The whole world was here, waiting”. Some people, I tell you.

[echosblanketfort]

I don't think I'm ever going to stop being pissed at how everyone abandoned free the nipple.

Even feminist friends I know irl who used to support it have taken the stance in the last few years that seeing topless breasts when you don't expect it could be traumatic so we should be careful not to expose our chests and I just -

NO! Free the nipple damn it. if someone can see into my bedroom and gets upset that I'm changing my shirt, that's a them problem!

I should be able to walk around topless in the summer if I want to. Breasts are not evil and tbh if seeing breasts traumatizes you, that's not my responsibility.

[alpaca-clouds]

Something I keep thinking about is how a lot of people consider it a good thing that children cannot by themselves consent (or refuse consent) to medical treatments. Some people do kinda get it that maybe it might be a problem with stuff like kids not being able to access trans healthcare, or kids being refused vaccination by antivaxx parents. But in general I see that most people are actually okay with this idea for the most part.

And like... you do get that that is kinda insane, right?

Because this is something that so often leads to suffering. And I am saying this as someone disabled, who had so many issues due to this in his childhood.

Just three examples: when I was 7, I was supposed to get checked for autism. My mother did not want an autistic child. Since she just could have a "neurotypical" child by refusing diagnosis, she did just that.

When I was 12, my mother had decided I needed a certain plastic surgery (one that had a minor health benefit, but still was largely a beauty thing). I did not want it. I really, really did not want it. We still went through almost the entire process until thankfully there was a doctor who went: "Wait, this is elective. I am refusing to do this on a child that does not want it."

And when I was 14 my mother refused to get me to the hospital when I had severe food poisoning. She refused me hospital treatment for almost two weeks. By the time I got actually taken to the hospital I was almost dead.

And here is the thing: all of this should just not happen. The doctor when I was 12 was cool, but... he refused to do the surgery because he had the right to make a conscience call. Legally my mother was in the right to force me into that elective surgery. And that just should not be the case.

A lot of children die and suffer due to their legal inability to consent - or refuse consent - to medical treatments. And I wish y'all would understand that.

Whenever this is brought up, people will go: "Oh, but parents will decide what is best for the child." And here is the thing: No, they are not. There is so much stuff out there showing that indeed, a lot of parents suck at this. Some out of malice, some because they are religious nuts, and some because they literally treat their kids like some sort of doll or some shit.

[depsidase]

[thisis-suicidism]

I was passively suicidal as a teen. The way I reasoned my way out of that mindset is that suicide is always an option, so I can put it off until later. I can try other things first. I can wait and see if things get better. If things get absolutely intolerable and nothing helps, I can always just kill myself to escape that situation. So, I can afford to do scary/risky (to me, I’m naturally very risk-averse) things that might make my life more enjoyable. I can take a leap of faith for something better, because I know it has no chance of trapping me in some horrible situation for the rest of my natural lifespan.

If I had ever attempted suicide, and people who love me were all too eager to incarcerate me if I showed a hint of depression, I wouldn’t have that assurance. I would have to commit *now* because I might not be able to later. That’s also another reason I never attempted, because I was afraid I’d fail in a way that left me permanently disabled, and then I’d be institutionalized in a care facility for the rest of my days.

I wonder if mandatory reporting laws about suicidal people have caused more suicides in the long term. Like, great job doc, you institutionalized someone who *may have* killed themself if you didn’t. Now that they’ve lost their job and housing, and that they know it’s not safe to reach out for help, they’ll just cut to the chase and *definitely* kill themself the next time they feel this way.

This is Suicidism. yeah it's been shown that people are often MORE suicidal after being institutionalized. almost like putting people in the torture prison doesn't make people feel better.

[xalatath]

You misused thou/thee in a joke post and provoked my ire.