Rant: No Valko, No Storage, No Word. I don't want to leave my three mains, but my phone (and me) can't physically take this stress. Im so disappointed. I had to buy usb's to put my photos and other stuff just to try and make room for this app! I don't have room for a kitchen of all things either! (Mind you we haven't even opened up the second floor in the home system) I've put down a good amount of money as well for what I get to enjoy and its heartbreaking I gotta either sit this out or crash out at 2pm to order a tablet for a game that honestly needs its own electronic system and power grid with how my phone heats up. Im so glad that so many people are fighting for valko, though. It's just too bad if we bring him in imma need more than half of my phone storage along with the rest of the updates. I want to hear y'alls opinion on this whole thing. It's so frustrating, but at least we are all in this house fire together. ๐ค๐
How are you taking this Valko Fiasco?
I'm Heartbroken๐
BRING HIM BACK๐ซ๐บ
I'm just sitting back & waiting to see what happens ๐
I'm actively protesting๐ซก
I got no storage either๐ญ๐คณ
It is what it is๐ซ
Mixed Feelings๐๐
Hope they give access to Global Players at least๐ฅบ
I want my money back๐ธโน๏ธ
Remaining time: 4 days 23 hours
Please, if you're willing, I'd like to hear your thoughts on the last almost 2 weeks of this. I'd appreciate others' perspectives cuz im super down in the dumps. Thanks Hunters!
How do you FEEL about the NEW 6th love interest, Valko?
Hot๐ฅ
Awoooo-ga๐บ
Mid๐ซค
Should've stopped at Caleb๐โค๏ธ
Honestly Don't Care ๐ฅฑ
What's up with the Eng Voice ๐ค
Looks like Caleb & Sylus w/Red Hair ๐คจ
Finally Something New ๐ ๐ฅณ
It's a Furry Loca! ๐พโ๏ธ
Voting ended onJun 29
I wanted to see people first impression of the guy before we actually get to "meet" him. Im gonna be honest I woke up and busted out laughing upon opening up insta, I just cant lol
If you have your own opinions pls leave them in the comments I'd love to read them
I cannot believe there's absolutely no way to watch free shows and movies anymore, there are too many paid streaming platforms and pirating websites have viruses and ads preventing you from watching it uninterrupted((.)) id rather follow the rules and purchase media moving forward because it is too inconvenient. Seriously, free and no ads or viruses with 1080p streaming is DEAD.
Exactly! It's freaking annoying when I want to watch movies but I would have to subscribe to like 24 different services . Just to watch the shows that I like.
i like using streaming apps but there are waaaay too many and they're all stealing my data .i wish there was a secure and organized way to have millions of shows and movies available one one app. but alas. we've truly gone full circle back to cable + now it spies on you. its a real shame. i dont want to fill my device storage with tons of boring and stupid cash grabs.
i know, it's so annoying for everything to be paid nowadays, especially movies and tv shows. it would be perfect if i could watch them without getting infected by some virus or some shit. i'm fine with ads, they gotta run themselves somehow, but i want to watch stuff and .live! if they have to use different domains i'm okay with that too, because free media is .top dog either way.
for mobile users, it especially sucks, because you can't just use websites and you have to not only pay, but you have to download a billion apps just to find what the thing you wanna watch is on. it doesn't help that the streaming services take up...so much space. so much.
โ--- summary: Your childhood best friend, Zayne, had always been there for you, loyal, supportive, and understanding. So, when you realized you had a crush on Caleb, you turned to him for help. Taking it upon himself to be your guide, Zayne offered to teach you a few lessons in love. But as the lessons progress, you start to wonder... was Caleb really the one you wanted all along?
โ--- word count: 9.9k
โ--- warnings: mdni, oral sex, fingering, missionary, zayne is literally so jealous, caleb is kinda the boy best friend you tell your boyfriend not to worry about ngl, reader is inexperienced, soft!dom zayne, size kink if you squint, zayne knows you so fucking well it's sickening (he's just so sweet), no protection is used (wrap it before you tap it)
โ--- a/n: loosely based on nightly rendezvous (yes im doing a childhood best friend au for everyone... i fear im obsessed)
โณ xavier | sylus | caleb | rafayel
Some part of you felt like it was a bad ideaโyou knew better. Even after all these years, it felt surreal that Caleb was one of your closest friends. In your small town, there werenโt many people to bond with. The tight-knit community had shrunk over time, and most people you knew were just memories now. But youโd never forget the two boys who lived next door. One was more charming, the other more reserved, but both were just as kind and reliable.
Years later, that sense of community felt like a distant dream. It was why you jumped at the chance to move closer to Caleb and Zayne after they relocated to the city. The passing of your grandmother had made staying in the countryside unbearable. But as you stood ankle-deep in snow, staring at the truck piled high with your belongings, you wondered if you were in over your head.
The cold wind bit through your gloves as you trudged inside the apartment building. Your eyes darted nervously to the heavy furniture that needed to be moved. You shifted your weight, glancing at the door every few seconds. If any of the boys decided not to show up, you would be screwed.ย
โY/N!โ Calebโs voice rang out, and your head snapped up. Relief surged through you as you saw him approaching. Without thinking, you rushed into his arms, your cheeks burning as his warm embrace enveloped you.
โItโs good to see you too,โ he teased, his playful grin tugging at the corners of his lips. His hands rested lightly on your back as he pulled away, studying your face. โHow long were you standing out there?โ
โNot long,โ you lied with an awkward laugh. โI justโgot lost in thought.โ
How he looked at you made it hard to breathe, as if he still saw the same girl from all those years ago. The creak of the lobby door saved you from spiraling further.ย
Zayne strode in, his dark coat dusted with snowflakes. His sharp gaze flicked from you to Calebโs hands, still resting on your waist. For a moment, his jaw tightened, but he quickly smoothed his expression.
โYouโre late,โ Caleb called out, smirking.
โIโm here now, arenโt I?โ Zayne replied, his tone dry as his eyes settled on you. โI almost thought you forgot about me.โ
โNever,โ you said with a grin, stepping forward to hug him. His arms wrapped around you briefly, his touch warm but hesitant. You smiled before turning and walking over to the elevator. You missed your family, and now it felt a little closer to being pieced back together.ย
You gave a debrief of the plan for the day, as there was plenty you could do on your own later. Though you were grateful to Xavier for helping you get a place, it neededโฆtlc. The boys agreed to help you move bulky items and clean up the remnants of a bug treatment.ย
The boys retreated to the lobbyโthey had to move a couch and some other, far too heavy things. The three of you had been friends for years, bickering and fighting like siblings, but never with ill intent. Though Caleb and Zayne constantly teased each other more recently than anything, you werenโt sure what was a joke anymore.ย
Your body jolted. A sound of a shout came from the hallway, distracting you from sweeping.ย
โDamnโZayne, pull up the couchโโ Caleb strained and bit out.ย
โYouโre the one whoโs not paying attention,โ Zayne shot back calmly.ย
You walked up to the unfolding scene, your hands resting on your hips when you approached them. The couch was now on the tile of the apartment hallway. You were glad they didnโt break your stuff while they messed around.
โAndโฆ Why is my couch on the ground?โ you asked, your gaze shooting between them.ย
โIt seems Calebโs grip slipped,โ Zayne quipped. You could feel the air quotes around the last portion of his statement. His hands were resting on his hips as his breathing slowed and evened out.
โI just need a secondโIโm sweating over here,โ Caleb said, a deep breath coming from his lips.ย
You watched as he lifted his shirt. His jeans rested low on his hips as he lifted the fabric, you could see faint trails of hair leading down his abdomen. He had a vein running above his hip to below his pants.ย
Your eyes betrayed you as you shamelessly traced his body. Fuck, he looked good.
Zayne watched you in silence, observing, watching the surprise on your face when Caleb lifted his shirt. And he did not like it. First, why did Caleb always do shit like that, but besides, why did you seem to like it so much.
The three of you worked together to tackle the chaos of the moving day. With the bulky items moved, Caleb helped you clean the kitchen while Zayne focused on the living room. You stood on your tippy toes, wiping the cabinet the best you could, stretching to reach the top shelf. Caleb moved in behind you, his body brushing against yours.ย
โLet me get that,โ he said, his voice soft as he grabbed the cloth from your hand.
Your breath hitched as his warmth seeped through your back. His fingers brushed yours briefly, sending a jolt through you. You moved aside, trying to compose yourself. He stepped to the side after finishing, leaning onto the counter, โWhy donโt I take over this part, since youโre so small?โ a playful grin played on his lips, as he winked at you.ย
โAlways picking on my size,โ you joked, your voice shaky. โMaybe youโre just too tall.โ
His grin widened, but something in his gaze lingered a moment too long. โ...Maybe,โ he murmured, his voice low.
From the corner of the room, Zayneโs gaze flicked toward the kitchen. His hand paused mid-swipe on the wall, his eyes narrowing at seeing Caleb leaning close to you. His grip on the rag tightened, but he quickly looked away. This wasnโt the time.
You noticed all his progress when you made your way to Zayne. He almost successfully cleared the living room. โCan I help?โ you said, approaching his side.ย
Zayneโs lips quirked into a slight smirk. โI figured youโd be too busy with Caleb to remember me.โ
โWhy does everyone keep saying that?โ you shot back, an uncomfortable laugh leaving your lips.
He attached the extended handle before handing you the mop, his fingers brushing yours slightly. โGuess Iโll have to remind you why Iโm the favorite,โ he said, his tone light but his eyes serious.ย
โ
You fell into a routine in the following weeks, trying to adjust to your new life. Weekly meetups with Caleb became a ritual, and today, you waited for him at a quaint coffee shop Zayne had introduced you to. The warm smell of coffee and pastries filled the air as you spotted Caleb walking in, his black coat framing his tall figure.
โY/N!โ he called out, his smile lighting up. He hugged you tightly, lifting you off the ground for a moment.
When he set you down, his eyes held yours for a beat too long. Your stomach flipped as you sat across from him, trying to steady your thoughts.
You began your catch-up over a coffee and some food. Your discussion filled the silence, and you shared a laugh while discussing the latest work drama. You clued Caleb into the details about your coworker, and how the Hunterโs Association locked his file.
It was pretty peculiar in your field; most hunters had a public record, released by the organization they resided under, but in his case, it wasnโt as easily accessible, making him a high-profile individual. Which just made you curious. As talented as you were you couldnโt help but notice the difference in skills between the two of you. It was so obvious heโd been at this longer than you.ย
Caleb listened intently as you shared the latest work news, his fingers tracing the rim of his coffee cup.
โAnd what are you going to do about it?โ he asked, his voice teasing. โDetective work?โ
You shook your head, biting your lip. โI donโt know. It feels like Iโd be invading his privacy. I guessโIโll wait for him to tell me when heโs ready.โ
Calebโs gaze softened. โThatโs just like you,โ he said quietly, his purple eyes glinting in the light.
Before you could process his words, your watch buzzed with an alarm. โI gotta get back to work,โ you said, grabbing your things in a rush.
โIโll take care of this,โ he said, gesturing to the table. โSee you later.โ
It was a lighter cold today, and no heavy snow blocked your path. As you walked back to work, you were honestly heavy in thought. You couldnโt stop thinking about Caleb. His smiles and touches felt deliberate, and you had no idea how to handle it. Dating had always been a mystery to you, and your nerves werenโt helping.ย ย
This wasnโt the first time these nerves graced your presence. When you were much younger, you recall the party, the smell of alcohol, the loud music, and unfamiliar faces. You knew Zayne and Caleb of course, but them being a bit older than you made this crowdโone you hadnโt been exposed to before.
Making your way through the door was the worst. Caleb knew everyone, saying โhellos,โ โhiโs,โ and โwhatโs up, dude,โ as he led the way. Making your way through the moving bodies was a challenge. You were thankful for Zayneโs hand holding onto yours as you made the way. You scanned the crowd, and everyone was dancing. The number of people grinding on others was mesmerizing, and you wanted in.
The music thudded through the walls, pounding against your ears. You remember making your way up the stairs, following closely behind Caleb, as Zayne sandwiched in behind you, finally letting go of your hand. Honestly, this didnโt seem like Zayneโs type of crowd, and he wasnโt the most outgoing.ย
When you reached the room, it had fewer people than the rest of the house. You walked in, sitting on the couch while Zayne stood near the corner of the room. Some people sat in a circle with a bottle in the center, obviously playing a game. One of the girls asked if you and the boys wanted to join.ย
You could feel the eyes of two important men in your life shift to you. Both were curious about your response.ย
โ...yeah.โย
Caleb also joined the game, sitting directly across from you. A girl with blonde hair spun the bottle, and before you knew it, it was your turn.ย
Placing your hand on the bottleneck, you spun the bottle, watching its turning motion with curiosity. When it stopped on Caleb, the purple of his eyes glinted as he looked between you and the bottle.ย
You could hear the circle of people urging you both on. It was just a kiss. You could do this. Heโs your friend. You sat up on your heels, your hands burning as they rested on your knees.ย
He got close to you and whispered, โReady?โ only for your ears to hear, and he kissed you, his lips connecting with yours softly, sweetly. Some people teased him for the gentleness at which his lips touched yours, but something shot through you when his lips touched yours. He softly bit your bottom lip before he pulled back from you.ย
He kissed you. Zayne saw, everyone saw, and you liked it.ย
You needed adviceโsomething solid to guide your next move. Youโd already admitted to yourself that you liked him, but how were you supposed to approach this? What did you even say? Zayne helped you through that kiss, reminding you it was just a game. But all these years later, you wanted to be more than a game to Caleb. Even in your shared youth, he had good advice for you, so why wouldnโt you trust him?
When you arrived at the office, your mind was still a tangled mess, buzzing with uncertainty. You decided it was no use overthinking it; it was better to rip the bandaid off.
You pulled out your phone, hesitating for a moment before texting Zayne:
You:
โCan I call you? I need some advice.โ
When his reply came moments laterโโI have a patient right now. Iโll call you after.โโyou let out a relieved sigh. You trusted him, and you needed his help.
Relief washed over you as you read his reply, your heartbeat finally slowing to a steady rhythm. You let out a soft sigh, tucking your phone away. All you had to do now was organize your thoughts.
While you waited, you turned to your caseload, focusing on the profile youโd been compiling for a new wanderer-type youโd encountered during a hunt weeks earlier. Using old files as templates, you typed furiously, the steady rhythm of the keyboard pulling you into the zone. Minutes turned to hours as you worked, the world fading into the background.
The buzzing of your phone jolted you back to reality. You glanced at the screen and barely caught the call before it went to voicemail.
โYou want me to teach you how to date?โ Zayneโs voice drawled through the line, laced with amusement.
Heat rushed to your face as you groaned audibly. โThatโs notโitโs not like that!โ you blurted, but Zayne only chuckled softly.
You spent the next ten minutes stumbling through your explanation, your words tangling as you tried to paint a coherent picture of your situation. When you finally stopped, waiting anxiously for his response, all he said was:
โOkay.โ
That one word was enough to knock the wind out of you. โOkay?โ you repeated, your voice barely above a whisper.
โOkay,โ he confirmed calmly.
Your heart soared. โOkay, then,โ you echoed quickly, trying to mask your nervous excitement. You rushed to thank Zayne before ending the call, clutching the phone to your chest. Relief and joy bubbled inside you. You knew Zayne would come through for you. You trusted him completely.
On the other end of the call, Zayne set his phone on his desk, his lips quirking into a faint smirk. He began packing up for the day, shaking his head in amusement. The idea of you coming to him for dating advice was equal parts endearing and intriguing.
Of course, he would help you. That much was never in question. But who had caught your interest so suddenly? The thought gnawed at him, tempting him to ask outright, but he resisted. Heโd figure it out eventually.
As he picked up his phone to draft a response, a quiet laugh escaped him. โLessons,โ he murmured, the word rolling off his tongue with amusement. He couldnโt help but smirk as he began typing out a plan. Lessons in dating and seduction? If anyone was going to help you succeed, it was him.
โ
Your phone buzzed with details for your first lesson. You had to admit you were quite excited. When you open the message, you read simple instructions:
Zayne:
โIโll pick you up at 7 pm. Wear something nice, but comfortable.โย
A quiet scoff escaped your lips as you gripped your phone, its cool metal grounding youโway to give me nothing, Zayne. Still, you couldnโt help the small smile tugging at your lips as you typed back.
You:
โGot it.โย
With a rare day off, you had more than enough time to overthink this dateโor, well, lesson. You'd been on dates before, but this felt differentโimportant. You wanted to impress Caleb later, but you also wanted to enjoy this with Zayne and learn from him.
Determined, you took your time getting readyโa long bath, smooth and refreshed skin, natural hairstyle, skipping the heat of flat irons. Your makeup was subtle, accentuating your best featuresโyour eyes and lips. The outfit? Simple, with an effortless elegance: a black skirt, a beige sweater, and knee-high black boots. Something nice but comfortable, you echoed mockingly in your head.
The doorbell rang. Your pulse quickened. Taking a deep breath, you cracked the door open.
โIโm grabbing my bagโgive me a sec,โ you said quickly before shutting it again.
Zayne chuckled softly on the other side. You looked nervous, and he thought it was cute.
When you finally stepped out, his eyes swept over you, approval flashing in his gaze. โReady?โ His voice was warm, familiar.
You swallowed, heat rushing to your cheeks. โYeah.โ
Locking up, you stepped beside him, weaving through the apartment halls. The elevator was packed when it arrived, leaving just enough room for the two of you to squeeze in. When the doors slid shut, the crowd's pressure pushed you toward the back corner of the elevator.
Zayne stepped in after you, his body instinctively blocking the others from pressing too close. His warmth enveloped you, a wall of quiet protection. When his chest brushed against yours, your head shot up, startled by the contactโonly to knock it against the cold metal wall behind you.
A low groan slipped from your lips, and Zayne chuckled. โCareful.โ His hand came up, cupping the back of your head gently.
You stilled. Zayneโs touch was light but steady, fingers warm against your scalp. You let yourself settle into it for just a second, your cheeks heating.
Then, with a soft ding, the doors slid open. The moment was gone.
You followed him out quickly, slipping into his car. The silence was thick but not uncomfortable. Still, you were the first to break it.
โSoโฆ where are we going?โ you asked, anticipation bubbling beneath your skin.
Zayneโs grip tightened subtly around the gear shift, veins visible against his skin. His lips curled into a faint smile. โYouโll see.โ
โ
You hadnโt expected this.
The setup was breathtakingโcandles flickering softly, a picnic blanket spread on the grass by a lake, and wildflowers scattered around like natureโs own confetti. The crisp spring air carried the scent of earth and blooming petals, a reminder that winterโs grasp was finally loosening. The sun had just begun its descent, casting everything in golden light.
Zayne stood behind you, watching. He caught how your breath hitched and how awe softened your features. The faint flush that always seemed to bloom when he was near. He reveled in it.
โLesson one,โ he murmured. โA date.โ
You turned to him, eyes wide. โZayne, this isโฆโ Your voice wavered with something close to wonder. โThis is perfect.โ
A small, knowing smile touched his lips.
You hesitated. โIโve never reallyโโ You exhaled. โSoโฆ what do we do now?โ
He motioned for you to sit. โFirst? We eat.โ
You obeyed, watching as he unpacked the meal. Your gaze flickered over the assortment of sweets tucked beside the entrees, and you bit your lip. He remembered your sweet tooth.
Your heart squeezed.
He handed you a sandwichโone of your childhood favorites. You took a bite, savoring the familiar flavors and the quiet thoughtfulness behind it.
The evening unfolded like something out of a dream. The conversation was easy and flowing, as it always was between you two. You talked about everything and nothing, letting the city fade away, and the wine in your glass disappeared far too quickly.
At some point, you made the mistake of looking at him.
The sunset bathed him in amber light, the gentle hues accentuating the sharp cut of his jaw and the faint green specks in his eyes. He looked beautifulโeffortlessly so. The sleeves of his powder blue dress shirt rolled up, revealing strong forearms, veins pronounced as his fingers idly toyed with the rim of his glass.
His gaze lifted, catching yours.
You panicked. Tipped your head back, draining the last of your wine, pretending to admire the sky.
And so the night went on.
Laughter. Warmth. The kind of company that made the world feel a little less lonely. It had been too long since youโd felt this way.
Maybe that was whyโ
โwhy you ended up tipsy.
The last thing you remembered clearly was Zayneโs hands on your waist, steadying you as you stumbled at your door. His voice, amused and gentle, coaxing you inside.
And thenโ
"You're drunk."
His voice was strained.
Your skin burned. โN โm not,โ you murmured, reaching up, fingers clumsily ruffling his hair. โI wโnted to kiss you, Z-Zayneโฆโ
His breath hitched.
You wobbled onto your tiptoes, pressing a sleepy, featherlight kiss to his cheek. โGโnight, Zayne~โ
Darkness.
And thenโmorning.
Your head throbbed. You groaned, pressing your palm to your forehead, and thenโ
The memory came rushing back.
Your stomach dropped.
Shit.
What did you do?
You kissed Zayneโjust a kiss on the cheek, but no less a kiss. And you didnโt know how you felt about it. Maybe you liked it. And when you checked your phone, your heart skipped a beat.ย
Zayne:
โAre you feeling better?โ
It was a simple question, but your body felt warm, and a smile tugged at your lips as the cold metal burned your hand.ย
You:
โYes, Iโm still a bit warm, but much better :)โ
And from there the conversation flowed.ย
Zayne:ย
โSo youโre ready for your next lesson?โ
You:
โDuh.โ
โ
This lesson was set up differentlyโas a more casual experience. Zayne held the door open, allowing you to enter as the scent of perfumes and faint traces of liquorโsomething you planned to avoid tonightโfilled your senses.
Zayne trailed closely behind you, his eyes drawn to your fitted black dress. It hugged your curves just right, and while you were always beautiful, tonight, you looked divine. His gaze lingered, but he didnโt say a word, instead committing the image to memory.
You settled into the plush velvet seat, crossing your legs as you waited for him to join you. The slight pressure of the fabric against your skin and the low hum of jazz music set a tone of subtle sophistication.
โLesson two,โ he murmured as he sat beside you. โBody language.โ
A sly smile crept onto your lips. This time, you were ready. Beyond your carefully chosen outfit, you had mentally prepared to hold your ground. Tonight, you would stay in control.
โSo, whatโs the plan today, Zayne?โ you drawled, leaning forward as your fingers lightly brushed his bicep. You pretended it was a casual touch, but the way his muscles flexed beneath your fingertips sent a jolt through you.
Zayne tilted his head slightly, studying your face. A flicker of amusement danced in his eyes. โYouโre already ahead, princess,โ he whispered, his voice low. The words felt like a direct hit to your resolve.
Your breath hitched, and for a moment, your lips parted as you scrambled to regain composure. โHead start?โ you echoed, tilting your head and trying to sound nonchalant.
"I want to see what you've learnedโthink you can charm me?" he said simply.
The lounge was an upscale dream: dimly lit, lined with high-end paintings, and filled with the smooth rhythm of jazz. The swaying figures on the dance floor moved in tandem with the music, and for a moment, you let yourself get lost in the scene.
Leaning in closer to Zayne, you brushed your lips near his ear. โShould we dance?โ you whispered, your hand steadying yourself on his knee.
The scent of his cologneโclean with a faint hint of jasmineโenveloped you. You felt his gaze sharpen, and when you pulled back slightly to meet his eyes, the faint green specks in them seemed to glow under the low light.
โShall we?โ he asked, his voice smooth, as he stood and offered you his hand.
On the dance floor, your movements flowed easily, the music guiding you. You pulled him closer, and your body pressed flush against his. His hands rested on your lower back, firm and grounding, while your fingers trailed up his chest. The hard muscle beneath your touch sent a thrill through you.
โYou look so handsome tonight, Zayne,โ you said softly, your lips curving into a small smile.
โOnly tonight?โ he teased, the corners of his mouth lifting.
Your finger traced lazy patterns on his chest. His heartbeat was steady initially, but you noticed the slight quickening as your touch lingered. You looked up at him, your gaze filled with something unspoken but deeply felt.
โYou always do,โ you whispered.
The air between you was charged, the tension pulling you closer. You could feel the heat radiating from his body, grounding you while simultaneously making you feel like you might float away.
When the tempo picked up, you spun away from him, creating a bit of distance as you swayed more freely. He matched your rhythm more stiffly than anything. You couldnโt help but smileโthis was fun.
โYouโre way too stiff,โ you said, getting close to him. Watching him try to whine his hips to the upbeat tempo was amazing. A laugh left your lips as your hands gripped his hips. โWhy are your feet so close together?!โ you choked out.ย
โI was never a dancer,โ he said flatly, unamused by the tears in your eyes.ย
โMove to the beat,โ you said again, trying to show him the way, but he didnโt get it. If you asked him, heโd rather watch you move your body. You moved beautifully, rolling your hips with precision.
When the lounge prepared to close, your cheeks ached from grinning, and your legs were deliciously sore. You shivered slightly as you walked side by side through the chilly night air.
โYou look cold,โ Zayne said, shrugging off his jacket and draping it over your shoulders before you could protest.
The warmth of the fabricโand his scentโwrapped around you. A soft, rich aroma of jasmine and something distinctly him made your heart flutter.
You nudged his arm, a soft laugh escaping your lips. โYou knowโฆ I think this was the best night Iโve had in a long time.โ
โI havenโt danced like that in forever.โ you said.
โHow could I forget?โ he replied, his eyes briefly flicking to the stars above. โItโs your favorite thing.โ
His fingers brushed against yours, tentative at first. You took the leap, intertwining your fingers with his. The warmth of his hand sent a pleasant shiver down your spine, and you caught the faint blush dusting his cheeks.
This man was everything.
โ
Later That Week
You had agreed to meet Caleb for a more eventful hangoutโto meet downtown and do whatever caught your eye.ย
You spotted him easily. His tall figure towered over most people. You walked up to him, and he hugged you tightly. The warmth of his body covered yours, but it didnโt raise your heartbeat.ย
When he loosened his grip on you, his hands rested on your shoulders, โLong time no see, pipsqueak,โ he said, his voice full of joy.ย
Your cheeks felt tight from smilingโyou were happy to see him, but not for the same reasons as before.
โI know, itโs been a few weeks,โ you said, pulling back from him and looking into the purple of his eyes. โLetโs get back on schedule,โ you breathed, a light smile plastered on your lips.ย
Work had been busy, but the truth was that your lessons with Zayne had occupied your thoughtsโand your time.
While you started your walk downtown, plenty of things caught your eye. The first thing you did was enter a record shop. The store was in the basement off of a side street. It was a little creepy, but it looked like an underground studio once you got inside. Records were all over the shop, on the wall, and in little baskets stacked in rows.ย
He browsed next to you, shuffling through the records occasionally showing you one he thought youโd like or an album youโd enjoyed. And in spending this time with him, you realized that you enjoyed this.ย
The simplicity between you, the light air, and the lack of expectations for anything more was all you needed. Calebโs fingers softly brushed yours as he placed a vinyl behind the one you held up for him.
โFind anything good?โ you asked, your feet planted evenly on the ground as you turned to face Caleb.ย
His eyes bore into yours, something flickering over them before he answered you.
ย โNahโlet's get some food,โ he said quickly, his demeanor suddenly returning.
Exiting the store, you joined in step beside him, exploring the city's night scene. Your options were endless as you scanned the shops that lined the streets. You spotted a food truck and the smells coming from it were amazing.ย
Altering Caleb, you both sat at the outdoor seating, waiting for your orders. The chill of the evening air seeped through your clothes, making you shiver slightly.
โDo you want my jacket?โ Caleb asked, his tone playful. โYou look like youโre freezing.โ
โOnly if you have an extra,โ you said, bouncing your leg under the table to keep warm.
With a smirk, he reached into his bag and handed you a spare coat. โYouโre my best friend, You know I always do.โ
You slipped it on, grateful for the warmth butโฆ that was it. There was no spark, no flutter of excitement. You tried to convince yourself otherwise, adjusting the collar and wrapping it tighter around yourself, but it felt like just a jacket.
In the quiet moment that followed, your mind drifted back to Zayne. His jacket had enveloped you in warmth and scent, and your heart raced when he was near. You glanced at Caleb, who was busy watching the street outside.
Nothing. That kiss wasโjust a kiss. Years ago, you wouldnโt have believed anyone. Not even Zayne could have convinced you it was a fleeting crush. But it really was. You felt proper chemistry, companionship, and care and wanted to keep experiencing that with Zayne.
The weight of your realization was crushing. All the time you spentโwasted on this man. You cared for him, you truly did. But, what about you? Why were you so pent-up and focused on this person you didn't even really like? Was it really him you missed? Or just how he filled your time and made you feel smallโsafe, even?
That's the point. Youโre not small. You're a grown woman who can stand independently, make her own decisions, and provide her own entertainment. Relief washed over you in waves because what were you even doing? Holding onto a version of the past that no longer fits?
But right behind it, sadness crept in. Not for Caleb, but for the time lostโchasing something never meant to be yours. But you didnโt truly waste time if it led you hereโto someone real. To Zayne.
You forced a smile, staring down at your lap, and tried to push away the sinking feeling in your chest. You used to admire Caleb. It should feel special, especially his attention and time, butโit doesnโt.ย
Caleb was the person you had wantedโthe reason for the lessons.
The contrast was stark, undeniable. And for the first time, you realized the answer had been clear.
โ
You had admitted to Zayne that you wanted a cozy evening. Work had drained you, but more than anything, your recent realization had knocked the wind out of you. It wasnโt just an idle thoughtโthe truth that settled deep in your bones, undeniable yet terrifying.
You knew what you needed to say and do, but the effort of voicing itโof being honest with Zayneโmade your nerves coil tight.
Your lessons have helped. You felt more confident, more self-assured. You understood what a date was supposed to be now, what it meant to be courted and wanted. But more than anything, you wanted something real.
With him.
So, he invited you over after work.
Zayne:
"How about I cook you dinner, and we watch a movie?"
You:
"How do you always know exactly what I need?"
โฆ
Zayne:
"Make yourself at home. I just finished setting up."
When you arrived at his house, the living room instantly warmed you. The room glowed softly from the candles he had lined along the tables, their flickering light casting gentle shadows against the walls. The scent of something rich and savory drifted from the kitchen, mingling with the faint traces of his cologne.
But the sight of something familiar made your heart catch in your chestโsmall plushies, the ones you had won years ago, still resting on the couch.
He had kept them.
Your fingers grazed one absentmindedly as you took it all in, a lump forming in your throat.
You didnโt miss the sound of the shower running from the other room, and heat bloomed across your face. The thought of him stepping outโsteam rising, droplets tracing the planes of his skinโsent your mind spiraling. He had just gotten off work, yet he still made time to set everything up for you.
As if on cue, the water stopped. A moment later, the door cracked open, and Zayne walked out, a towel slung low on his hips, another in his hands as he ruffled it through his damp black hair.
โDonโt be a stranger,โ he said casually, his voice smooth. โHave a seat.โ
Then, as if completely unaware of his effect on you, he strode into his bedroom and shut the door with a soft click.
You swallowed hard. That lasted less than a second, but it was enough.
His physique was unrealโhis lean yet defined frame, the way his skin still glistened slightly, the tantalizing trail of hair disappearing beneath the towelโฆ and God, you wanted to know where it led.
This was new. You had never felt this way before.
And he was making you crazy.
You forced yourself to move, settling onto the couch, trying to calm your racing heart as you waited for him. You distracted yourself with the snacks he had spread across the table, but your mind kept replaying that brief glimpse of him.
When he finally reappeared, dressed in a fitted shirt and sweatpants, looking effortlessly breathtaking, your breath caught in your throat.
Something about this momentโthe candlelight, the scent of dinner lingering in the air, the sheer intimacy of being here with himโfelt so real. So domestic. So much like something you wanted forever.
Zayne disappeared into the kitchen, leaving you in the glow of candlelight. A few moments later, he emerged with two plates in hand, setting them down on the dining table before motioning for you to sit.
โDid you make all of this?โ you asked, raising a brow as you took in the spread before you.
โOf course,โ he replied smoothly, settling across from you. โI figured youโd appreciate a home-cooked meal after the week youโve had.โ
Your heart ached at how thoughtful he was.
The meal was warm and comfortingโjust like him. You took a bite, letting the rich flavors settle on your tongue and savoring the moment. Zayne watched you carefully, his gaze flicking to your lips before he took a bite of his own food.
โThis is really good,โ you admitted, breaking the silence. โYouโre full of surprises.โ
He smirked slightly, tilting his head. โYou act like you donโt already know Iโm good with my hands.โ
Your fork stalled mid-air. Heat crawled up your neck as your eyes snapped to his.
Zayne smirked slightly, taking another bite as if he hadnโt set your whole body on fire with that one sentence.
Your stomach twisted, and it had nothing to do with the food.
โIโโ You cleared your throat, trying to regain composure. โI suppose I do.โ
His gaze flickered with amusement before he leaned back in his chair, his fingers drumming lightly against the wood. Something was intoxicating about the way he watched you. It was like he was reading every thought running through your head.
The tension built slowly, lingering between every glance, every soft smile exchanged over the rim of your glasses.
At some point, his foot brushed against yours beneath the table. It was barely a touchโso light it couldโve been an accident. But when you met his gaze, you knew it wasnโt.
Neither of you spoke on it. Neither of you moved away.
It was almost unbearable, the weight of the moment, the way the air grew heavier, tighter.
After dinner, you both moved to the couch. The flickering candlelight cast shadows across his sharp features, making him look even more devastatingly handsome than usual.
You curled next to him as he flipped through the streaming options before settling on something. Not that it really matteredโyou could barely focus because of how close he was.
The movie played, but you werenโt watching.
You were too aware of Zayneโs presence, the warmth of his arm resting along the back of the couch, fingers occasionally brushing against your shoulder. Every tiny touch sent a current through you.
Then, in the middle of a scene, Zayne suddenly reached for the remote.
Click.
RingโฆRingโฆRingโฆ
Your phone started ringing, now of all times, and you dropped your gaze to the device at the same time as Zayne.ย
Caleb calls all the time, but the timing of this was justโit couldnโt be a coincidence. And you werenโt sure if you should answer.ย
โDonโt pick it up,โ was all you heard, as you gripped the metal of your phone tighter.ย
โWhy,โ you whispered, your voice small now. The confidence you had before flickered, unsteadyโlike a candle caught in the wind. You felt tender, exposed. Unsure if you had the strength to do what needed to be done.
โI know you wanted lessons, because of Caleb,โ he started, his eyes meeting yours. The air felt cooler now, and goosebumps ran over your skin.ย
"I canโt do this if youโre still holding onto him," he murmured, his voice steadyโbut stretched thin, like he was barely holding himself together.
โI canโt bear to see you with himโnow that your presence has graced me, I see small pieces of you everywhere I go,โ he admitted, his voice soft and tortured.ย
Zayne exhaled through his nose,ย running a hand through his dark hair before finally speaking.
โI donโt want you to want CalebโI want you to want meโ he breathed.
The screen froze mid-ring. A silence stretched between youโthick, suffocating. Heavy with everything left unsaid.
Your brows furrowed as you turned to him, only to find his gaze already on youโserious, searching.
Your breath hitched.
The weight of his words settled deep in your chest, heavy and unshakable.
You swallowed. Say it.
โI thought I wanted to be with another man, Zayneโฆโ you admitted, your voice barely above a whisper. He tensed slightly, his jaw tightening, but you reached for his hand, your fingers brushing against his.
โBut I donโt,โ you continued softly, eyes searching his. โI want this. I want you.โ
The words left you in a breath, raw and real.
Zayne didnโt move, didnโt speak right away. But you saw how his eyes darkened, and his throat bobbed as he swallowed.
โPlease, Zayne,โ you whispered, your voice breaking slightly as you leaned in.
Your breath stilled, heart hammering. He was too closeโhis scent, the warmth radiating from his skin, the slight tremor in his breath. And thenโฆ finally, you leaned in, and he met you halfway.
You pulled back slightly, your breaths intertwining in the room's dimness. Your eyes opened tentatively, and you saw Zayne staring at you, his chest heaving from the kiss you had just shared.ย
โAgain,โ you murmured, a silent plea because now that you were here you couldnโt let this pass. And Zayne obeyed, kissing you again. You could feel him shifting your position. His hands found your back, and he briefly disconnected your lips to lay you on the couch.ย
His knees straddled your hips, as he just watched you, โBeautiful,โ he whispered before tasting your lips again, the weight of him on top of you was not only delicious but welcome. You gasped at the pressure, and he slipped his tongue in your mouth. A groan escaped your mouth when his tongue entered your lips.ย
โWait,โ you said, your hands resting on Zayneโs chest as he lay on you.ย
โIโve never done this before,โ you said, noticing the clench of his jaw, flushed face, and swollen lips.ย
He waited for a beat, watching you silently, โIโll take care of you, princess,โ he exhaled.
โI donโt have much experience,โ he admitted, his gaze shifting from yours.
Your eyes widened with shock at his admission. You had assumed he was experienced, and that was part of the reason you asked him for help.ย
You took a breath, smiling at him. " Let's learn together,โ you whispered in his ear before leaning your head back and resting it against the pillow.ย
You pulled him flush against you, his weight pressing you into the couch. He began his thorough search kissing your temple, to the crux of your ear, โAnother lesson, โฆhm?โ he whispered. And that caused you to writhe beneath himโthe sound of his voice in your ear, and the soft vibrato of his confirmation.ย
He began his steady exploration with his lips and hands. Stroking up and down your body, though most of it covered, the cool of his hands made your skin get chills when he touched you.ย
โCan I take this off?โ he asked, gesturing to your t-shirt.ย
โYes,โ you said too quickly, embarrassed by your eagerness.ย
You adjusted your body, allowing him to pull the fabric over your head. You lay there sitting up on your forearms, just watching his explorative touch. His pointer finger traced the outline of your bra, hovering just above your skin.ย
โYouโโ you started, biting the fat of your lip, โZayne, I want you to take this off too.โย
And those emerald eyes watched you. In his head, he couldnโt believe you would be hisโalready prepared to memorize your every reaction. His hand trembled before steadying against your skin. The contact of his hand caused you to arch away from the couch. Click.
The bra fell forward as you shrugged it off your arms. Your whole body felt warm as you guided Zayneโs hands to hold your breasts. Your hands rested on his before you moved them back to the couch. His thumbs felt the hardening peaks beneath his hands, and he gave them a tentative flick, watching your face. You squirmed beneath him.ย
Sensitive here. He made a mental note, before rubbing the hardened nub against his thumb at a steady pace.ย
He moved his mouth to your other breast kissing it, before watching your face as his tongue made contact with it. Your hips jerked forward gently when he flicked it with his tongue. You bit your lip watching him play with your nipples.ย
โCanโyou touch me there?โ you whimpered. His lips parted from your nipple.ย
โWhere?โ he asked, and both of you just looked at each other.ย
Before you took his hand and brought it between your legs. You held it there rubbing yourself on his hand through your pants, but you didn't miss the way Zayne trained his eyes on you. Watching each little reaction you had when he touched you. Even the lightest of touch made his lips part slightly even with the furious flush of his skin.ย
His cock was straining in his pants, but he waited, wanting to learn you first.
He laid you down, your hands threading into his hair. Pulling him close to you he buried his face in your neck. The smell of jasmine filled your senses, as he groaned beneath you, breathing in your scent. You leaned back into the couch, shaken by the idea of him on top of you.
Your breasts pressed against his chest, the cool fabric causing a shiver to roll through you. He ran his face up and down your neck leaving a trail of light kisses. It was as if he was savoring you, imprinting your smell, your presence in his mindโas if youโd be done with him after this.
โYouโre beautiful,โ he groaned against your throat.
Zayne steadied himself on his hands on either side of your head, his gaze trailing over your body to where he would find himself next. His eyes stopped between your thighs, he watched intently as you squirmed beneath him, your body shifting under his gaze.
Your heartbeat felt loud in your ears, and the cold stillness of the air sent a shiver through you. His lips found your jaw, kissing a slow line tracing to your throat. Each touch of his lips sent heat between your legs, and you tilted your head to give him more access, a whimper escaping your lips.ย
Zayne was just a friend, someone who supported and loved you but someone you felt you couldnโt have. Your change of heart made you act on a whim to take advantage of your time with him. You wanted him, and no one else could have him but you. He was a high you couldn'tโdidn't want to get rid of.ย
You grasped the blankets on the couch, trying to ground yourself somehow, while he worked slow kisses down your chest with light scrapes of his teeth.
His hands ran down your sides, caressing your breasts to your hips, his thumbs brushing the naked skin beneath your sweatpants. It was a maddening sensation, and you only wanted him to keep going.
You could see his erection pressed firmly against his pants, and you felt tempted to reach forward, to touch it. To pull him closer firmly against you, to feel him where you needed him most.ย
One of his hands left you cupping you over your pants. The pressure against your clit stole your breath. A quiet groan of approval left his lips, while you felt a pulse between your legs.
You ground your hips upwards into his hand. A breath left your lips as you moved your hips.ย
โTouch me, Zayne,โ you breathed, you felt like you were in a dream.ย
He paused, his breath hitching at your words. His gaze darkened, the green of his eyes barely visible, as he searched your face. His jaw clenched, his voice dropping, rough with restraint. โSay that again.โ
You observed him, grabbing the drawstrings of his pants. โTouch me Zayne, โฆPleaseโ Your voice came out small, pleading.ย
He exhaled slowly, his fingers twitching against your skin. He traced your pussy through your pants, his fingers burning through your pantsโthat you wished heโd taken off already.ย
"You have no idea what you do to me," he murmured, his thumb brushing over you, his touch reverent, like he was memorizing you.
You had never been undressed like this. And you wanted it, you wanted to be touched by him, to feel him grabbing you.
He gripped the waistband of your pants, adjusting his position to push them down your thighs, dropping them to the floor. You sat there in only black underwear while he sat across from you, still in his t-shirt and sweats.ย
His attention was all yours, and it was thrilling.ย
Your hands still gripped the blanket beneath you. Your feet were tucked next to your bottom.ย
โLet me see you.โ His voice was low and deliberate. His fingertips grazed your knee before applying the faintest pressure. His eyes searched yours, waiting. โSpread your legs for me.โ
You took in an unsteady breath, and you did it.ย
His hands ran up your legs, his fingers pressing into your thighs, making your stomach tighten unexpectedly. The cool of his hands felt good against your soft skin.ย
The cool air brushed against your panties making you aware of how wet your panties were. Zayneโs gaze met you there, shooting warmth through you.
Your breath hitched when his thumb pressed down on your clit through the fabric. His other hand was steady on your thigh, pressing your thighs open wider. The brush of his thumb up and down sparked a heat in your lower stomach.
You leaned your head back and started to rock under his touch. And then he kissed your nipple, sucking it into his mouth. He groaned, licking and sucking your breasts with a slight scrape of teeth. A high-pitched moan escaped your lips, one of your hands gripping his hair.ย
His mouth was so hot, and he kept licking you, how youโd never felt before. You felt like you could die. So, when he removed his mouth from your breasts, you thought you were going to scream.ย
He removed your underwear, leaving them in a pile with the rest of your clothes, spreading your legs once more as his gaze fell between your thighs.ย
His fingers glide gently along your inner thigh, his touch warm and deliberate, but never rushed. His gaze softens as he takes you in, his breathing slow, controlledโlike heโs memorizing every part of you.
"Are you sure?" he murmured, his voice hushed, almost reverent. His thumb stroked lazy circles against your skin, a silent reassurance, a quiet promise that he wonโt rush you.
When you nodded, his lips part slightly, his eyes locked onto yours, searchingโmaking sure.
"Let me take care of you," he breathed, his hands smoothing up your thighs as he leaned in closer, pressing a lingering kiss just above your knee. "I want to make this good for you."
He wrapped his arms around the back of your thighs, pulling you closer to him, and his head lowered between them. You shuddered at the first touch of his tongue, pleasure running through you. Each soft lap of your clit rolled through you.ย
His arms held you so securely that you couldnโt move your hips while he licked you. As much as he said he wanted to take care of you, it felt like he was doing this for himself.ย
โZayne,โ you moaned, digging your hands into his thick black hair.ย
He swirled his tongue over your clit before sucking. His eyes were on you, watching you writhe beneath him. His finger filled you, sending a tremor through you, with his mouth on your clit, licking and sucking, while his fingers moved in and out of you. And he did it with such ease, deep noises of satisfaction falling from his lips.ย
He was taking his time, slowly working you out and the pressure was building up in you. You bucked your hips, feeling the heat growing throughout you.ย
โZayneโฆI need more,โ you cried out, your voice trembling with desperation.ย
His name fell from your lips like a prayer, and he answered it with slow, calculated movementsโhis pace steady, yet devastating. He added another finger, stretching you further, his touch unrelenting as he pressed deeper, curling just right. The pleasure was unbearable in the best way, a wave crashing over you with no hope of escape.
Your breath hitched as his dark, heated gaze met yours, watching, reading every reaction like it was the only thing that mattered. His free hand smoothed over your thigh, grounding you, soothing youโonly to bring you higher moments later.
A choked-out plea left your lips, your body arching, back curving as the heat coursed through your veins, pooling low in your stomach. You clenched around him, muscles tightening as that sharp, dizzying pleasure built to a breaking point.
โThat's it,โ he murmured, voice thick with something unreadable, something possessive yet achingly tender. He pressed an open-mouthed kiss against the soft skin of your inner thigh, his breath hot and teasing, sending shivers up your spine.
And thenโrelease.
Your body trembled, pleasure crashing into you in relentless waves. He didn't stop, not right away, working you through it, coaxing every last aftershock from your sensitive body until you were completely spent.
You collapsed against the couch, fully fucked out, limbs heavy, your mind hazy with bliss.ย
A shaky breath left your mouth, as you sat up slowly running your fingers through his hair.
Neither of you spoke. You didnโt need to.
The air between you was charged, thick with something unspoken, something dangerous. Something real.
His jasmine scent invaded your senses as his body wrapped around yours. You closed your eyes, surprised by the sudden upward jerk of him holding your naked body. You held him close as he carried you to the closed bedroom door.ย
He laid you on the bed gently, holding your stare, he slipped off his shirt and sweatpants, your cheeks growing warmer even as he stood before you in his briefs. You glanced at his erection pressed through the fabric. He was so hard, and it was hot. And all for you.ย
Goose bumps spread across your skin, as he opened the nightstand drawer, pulling out a condom.ย
โDo you want me?โ he whispered, his gaze meeting yours, as he dropped his briefs.ย
โYes,โ you breathed.
He crawled over you, kissing your stomach and breasts as he did. His body covered yours, so heavy. It made your skin sing with satisfaction. He kissed your neck, bracing his hands beside your head.ย
Your fingers trailed the line of hair, you'd been desperate to touch. You hesitated, unsure how to touch him.ย
Zayne felt your hesitation, and meeting your gaze, he whispered, โYour touchโฆ I need it.โ
Your heart fluttered with uncertainty, but you slid your hands down gripping his erection. His forehead fell on the side of your neck, encouraging you further.ย
You wrapped your hand around his length. And he groaned. You ran your hand down to the base and all the way back up.ย
"Donโt make me waitโฆplease" you whispered in his ear, placing a kiss there.
"Tell me how much you need me,โ he rasped, nipping at your neck.
"Iโve always needed you, Zayne," you said softly, dragging your hands through his hair. "I need you in every wayโฆ not just tonight."
His eyes met yours before kissing you while you stroked him again. Your breasts brushed against his chest, sending pleasure through you.ย
โ...Pleaseโ you breathed.ย
He rolled onto the bed next to you, slipping off his briefs, the sound of the wrapper crinkling in his hands drawing your attention. You watched as he poised to tear it open, his gaze flicking to yours for confirmation.
โWait,โ you whispered, your voice soft but resolute. He paused instantly, his eyes searching yours.
โI want to feel all of you,โ you said, vulnerability lacing your tone, the weight of your trust hanging in the air.
His expression softened, his brow furrowing with both tenderness and concern.
โIf itโs too much, just say the word,โ he murmured, his voice low and steady, a promise woven into each syllable. โI wonโt do anything you donโt want.โ
He leaned down to press a gentle kiss to your forehead, lingering as though to reassure you. Positioning himself at your entrance, his movements were deliberate, his focus entirely on you.
He took the head of his erection and rubbed it against your pussy. The tip caught your clit, causing your breath to hitch. He started to slip the head inside you, and it stung. A shudder rolled through you as you exhaled. Your fingers curled on his chest as he stayed still inside you, watching your face.ย
He pushed deeper into you, his gaze dark and unwavering as he watched the way your lips parted, a soft whimper spilling free. The sound sent a shudder through his body, his breath coming out ragged as he struggled to hold himself together.
The stretch burnedโa slow, intoxicating burnโone that sent heat rolling through your veins. You felt so full, every inch of him fitting into you as though he was meant to be there.
When he finally bottomed out, a cry tore from your throat, your back arching, pressing you flush against his chest. His arms wrapped around you instinctively, his weight solid, grounding, overwhelming in the best way.
He didnโt move right away.
Instead, he stayed buried deep, letting you adjust, letting you feel every inch of him. Your arms wound around his neck, and he exhaled against your skin, his breath warm and uneven.
For a moment, there was only the sound of your mingled breathing, the slow rise and fall of your chests as you both tried to catch air. He was everywhere, his presence consuming, intoxicating.
And then, he moved.
A slow, deliberate roll of his hips.
You gasped at the sensation, at the way he dragged against your walls with aching precision, each thrust filling you completely. Your nails raked down his back, and he shuddered at the sensation, his control fraying at the edges.
โYou take it so good,โ he praised, his voice thick, rough with something raw, something reverent.ย
Every time his pelvis ground against yours, his head spread throughout you. The friction sent sparks up your spine, every movement of his body against yours pulling a new sound from your lips.
He was watching you, utterly captivated by the way you unraveled beneath him. His thrusts remained slow, deliberate, as if savoring every reaction, every little gasp and moan that escaped you.
His fingers traced down your side, over the curve of your waist, gripping you tighter as his pace deepened, intensified. His gaze burned into yours, filled with something you couldnโt quite name.
His eyes locked onto yours, his thrusts slow and deliberate. โSo beautiful for me,โ he rasped, his voice low, dripping with need.
The words ran over your skin, filling you with warm satisfaction, your head tilting back as another moan escaped you. Zayneโs lips hovered above yours. With each slow thrust, they brushed yours lightly.ย
His pace faltered, his rhythm stuttering as he fought for control, his breath ragged against your skin. But he didnโt dare rushโhe wanted to feel every second of this, every shudder, every tremor that wracked your body beneath him.
โYouโre mineโฆ all mine,โ he groaned, voice thick with possession, his body tensing, muscles drawn taut as he drove his hips deep one last time.
A choked moan escaped you as you shattered beneath him, pleasure crashing over you in waves. His grip on you tightened as his own release followed, a deep, guttural sound leaving his lips as he buried himself fully, claiming every inch of you.
For a moment, there was nothing but the sound of your ragged breathing, your hearts hammering in sync as he collapsed against you, his weight a comforting warmth pressing you into the mattress.
Neither of you spoke right away.
Zayne traced slow, lazy circles on your bare skin, grounding himself in the feel of you, the reality of you. His forehead rested against yours, his breath still uneven but calming, syncing with yours.
Then, in the quiet, his lips tipped into a smirk against your temple.
โSoโฆ does this mean I can finally call you my girlfriend?โ His voice was lower now, teasing but laced with something realโsomething hopeful.
He pulled back slightly, eyes searching yours in the dim light. โOr do I have to seduce you all over again?โ
His grin was cocky, but there was something vulnerable in the way he looked at youโlike he needed this answer.
Your fingers tangled in his hair, a slow, tired smile spreading on your lips as you exhaled softly.
"I think you already have," you whispered.
The tension broke as he let out a satisfied hum, pressing a kiss to your shoulder before pulling you closer, holding you like he never wanted to let go.
Warnings: MDNI, sex, virginity loss, threesome, oral (m rec), clit play, childhood friends to lovers trope. Liberties taken with the timeline, this is not the canon timeline, ages have been changed for story convenience. ANGSTY.
A/n: Caleb got me ya'll. I tried, I tried really hard, I promise. And now this is what my ovulating brain has cooked up. Please enjoy it. I know this wasn't on my upcoming but I couldn't help it. Also please note, reader, Caleb, and Zayne are all the same age aka 18 here. Not proofread, expect raw text and descriptions.
It had been a few weeks since youโd joined UNICORNS and Tara invited you over to her place for a girlsโ weekend. All of you were comfortably laid out in different parts of her living room, drinking wine and eating slices of pizza from the box.
The night had been fun, and with an entire bottle now empty, the women were loosening up and the topics were getting more and more risque. From complaining about exes to sex, to size measurements, they had finally arrived on the subject of virginity.ย
โSo, what was your first time like?โ All eyes are suddenly fixed on you and you feel self-conscious. Taking a sip of your wine, you try not to flush as you vividly remember all the details like it was yesterday.
โOh, you know. Awkward. Shy. The usual.โ You try to act nonchalant but Tara leans forward with a gleam in her eye.ย
โOh come on! Tell us!โ
Looking at the crowd of eager faces, you empty your glass before confessing, โMy first timeโฆwas with two people.โ You wait with bated breath, and slowly, one by one, everyoneโs eyes widen with comprehension.
โExcuse me?โ Tara squeals and sinks her fingers into your arm. You wince and pry her off.
โA threesome for your first time?โ One of the other women joined in, a huge grin on her face. โDid it hurt?โ
โWhy a threesome? Was it something you fantasized about?โ
You shake your head no at all the questions. โNo. Growing up, I had two best friends and I loved them dearly. I justโฆcouldnโt choose between them both.โย
โTell us everything.โ Tara sits down on the carpet and all the women gather in a tight circle looking eagerly at you. You sigh and extend your glass.
โGet me more wine.โ
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~Flashback~
It was the summer after graduating senior year. You were enjoying what would possibly be the last summer before everyone went their separate ways. Life had been rough for you, losing your family several years earlier. But now, you had a grandmother, and 2 best friends who had been through everything with you. Still, the memories brought back a sense of bittersweet nostalgia. Your nextdoor neighbor Zayne, and your grandmotherโs other ward Caleb, were your inseparable companions since you had moved in with Josephine after the devastating wanderer attack that had destroyed most of Linkon City.ย
Zayne and Caleb were alike, yet different. Both of them were tall and intelligent. Zayne was stoic and introverted, whereas Caleb was extroverted and easygoing. Somehow, the three of you became a unit, never seen without the other two in tow. Any escapades or shenanigans were always done together. Youโd done homework together, fell asleep on the living room floor watching cartoons, and shared many meals in the last few years. The idea of being without them seemed unthinkable. Impossible in fact. Youโd assumed you would all stay together in Linkon forever.
That had all changed last year, the summer before your senior year. You had been looking forward to spending the summer with Zayne and Caleb. But as the three of you had sat down at your usual boba tea spot, Zayne became very quiet as you started discussing plans for the summer.ย
โWhatโs wrong with you? Is your tea not cold enough? You can just use your evol right?โ Caleb had teased, sipping his drink. He gives Zayne a playful jab and Zayne glares at him, adjusting his glasses that had slipped down his nose.ย
โZayne?โ You reach out and cover his hand with yours, hoping heโll talk. There was a strange expression on his face. โTalk to us.โ
โYeah, Zayne. Talk to us.โ Caleb widens his eyes and covers your hand with his. โWeโre here for you boy,โ he says with a tinge of mockery, making his voice sound high and feminine and you give him a withering look, pulling your hand out of the pile.
Zayne sips his milk tea, then quietly says, โI might not be here for most of the summer.โ Caleb and you exchange a look before glancing back at Zayne.ย
โWhat do you mean?โ
Zayne looks apologetic like he regrets not sharing this news earlier. โIโll be touring colleges most of the summer. And my parents decided to make it a road trip.โ
โColleges?โ Caleb looked intrigued. โYou already started applications?โ
โI did. Andโฆseveral of them have already sent in offers for next fall.โย
โWhat?!โ Youโre louder than you had intended to be. Zayne winces and you lower your voice. โYouโve already received acceptance letters and didnโt bother telling us?โย
โIโm sorry.โ Zayne holds up his hands in a gesture of peace. โI just didnโt know how to bring it up. Neither of you had mentioned college and I didnโt want to talk about it if you werenโt ready.โ
โBut Zaynie!โ Caleb puts a hand on his chest looking wounded. โWeโre a family bro! Why wouldnโt you tell us?โ
Zayne shakes his head and drinks his tea. Youโre about to as well when realization washes over you. โWait. You said you had several acceptance letters.โ
โI do.โ
โWell, where are they? Youโre staying in Linkon right?โ You ask, and for some reason, your heartbeat is increasing. You wait for Zayne to say, of course, one of them is in Linkon and thatโs his first choice.ย
โI did receive an offer from Linkon Medical University. Howeverโฆthere are better programs.โ
โReally? So you might move for college?โ Caleb regards Zayne passively.ย
โItโs not out of the question.โ
An unnatural silence falls at the table as the three of you drink your teas. This was wonderful news for Zayne. You were happy for him, but inside, it felt like your heart had been tied into a painful knot. You knew Zayne was the smartest of your group and that he was destined to be a doctor. But you hadnโt even thought it would mean Zayne might not be in Linkon City anymore. From a professional standpoint, it made sense. He deserved to go to the best college. But it left you feeling hollow like his impending departure had fractured the carefully crafted life youโd built since youโd been taken in by your grandmother.ย
โWhen are you leaving?โ Caleb breaks the silence and youโre relieved.ย
โSometime in July.โ
โOh, great! We still have a month then.โ
โWellโฆโ
Calebโs eyebrows knit together in dismay. โWhat?โ
โI have some extra classes I need to take. Iโm hoping to get a head start on the pre-med requisites.โ
โSo, youโre going to be in school all of June?โ You try to hide your disappointment.ย
Zayne sighs. โUnfortunately. Iโll still be around. We can make time to hang out.โย
You nod unenthusiastically, then hiss as you feel Caleb step on your foot under the table. His purple eyes give you a sharp glance and he gestures towards Zayne and you realize this wasnโt about you; Zayne had shared news that he knew would affect your dynamic but had done so thinking he would have the support of his friends. Caleb reminding you of your manners was humbling and you lowered your gaze.
โIโm really happy for you Zayne.โ You murmur, then rearrange your features into what you hoped was a pleasant look of approval. โCongratulations.โ
Zayneโs eyes seem to lighten at your appreciation. โThank you. It took me by surprise actually.โ
โSeriously Zaynie. Thatโs really impressive. So weโre gonna have a doctor amongst us. Hey, you better give us the good drugs if we ever come to you.โ Caleb pats Zayne on the shoulder in an acclamatory fashion. Zayneโs demeanor visibly relaxes and you try to keep up a happy face for the rest of the evening.
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The sun was starting to set by the time you got home, the lazy streaks of tangerine painting the sky vivid shades of pink and orange. There was a feeling of uneasiness in your stomach as you changed into pajamas and brushed your teeth. It had taken years for you to get some semblance of a family, and now someone was going away. AGAIN.
You try to reassure yourself that this wasnโt the same thing. Zayne might be going away for college but it wasnโt until next year. You still had your senior year left to build some precious final memories. Somehow, he seemed older all of a sudden, like he had become an adult within a few hours of telling you about his acceptance letters. You knew youโd be going to college too but hadnโt given much thought about any of it. After the Linkon City disaster, you had decided you didnโt want to wander too far away. You didnโt want to leave Grandma Josephine all by herself. Although Zayne seemed to have made up his mind about attending a college somewhere else, you reminded yourself that you still had Caleb.ย
Caleb hadnโt talked about college much, but you knew he wanted to attend. He didnโt know what he would major in, but he was naturally gifted in mechanics. You assumed he would be an engineer or something similar. He and Zayne had inherited the math skills, and youโd managed to get a decent grade by studying with them, or rather, getting bullied by them, with Zayne trying not to snap explaining how he got the answer versus Caleb taunting you saying youโd never graduate high school if you were this stupid. It was then you had decided perhaps a career in science wasnโt for you. But perhaps something in the arts, or communications. Perhaps languages. You wondered if maybe you were kidding yourself by not already sending out applications, or at the very least, making a list of where youโd like to attend.
Restless and unable to turn off your mind, you go next door to Calebโs room and knock.
โEnter at your own risk!โ
Rolling your eyes, you walk in and see Caleb sprawled out on his bed, holding his Switch over his head as he gamed.ย โOh, pipsqueak. Itโs you.โ
You sit on the edge of his bed, fiddling with the corner of the quilt as he continues to play. As you waited, you looked up at the ceiling, where little airplane models, all built by Calebโs own hands, had been carefully strung up using fish wire and hooks. Little glow-in-the-dark stars littered the spaces in between. You sigh and draw your knees up to your chest, wondering what would happen to the models if he left for college.
Noticing your morose expression, Caleb exits the game and sits upright. โWhatโs the matter with you?โย
You shake your head and squeeze the bridge of your nose. โItโs Zayne. Did you know he had already applied to colleges?โ
โNo.โ Caleb leans on his bed assessing you. โBut Iโm not surprised. And he has a point.โ
โWhich is?โ
โColleges are really competitive these days. Like even with excellent grades and extracurriculars, some people still have to take a gap year because they didnโt get in or they got put on a waiting list.โ
You consider his words. โDo you think we should be applying too?โ
โIf we were smarter, weโd have already applied.โ Caleb runs a hand over his face. โBut itโs ok. We have the whole summer to plan. I think applications reopen sometime over winter break. We can apply then. You know, like normal students, and not nerds like Zayne.โ
You laugh weakly, giving Caleb a reprimanding look. โThatโs not a nice thing to say about our friend.โ
โHeโs not around is he? Anyway. Donโt fret pipsqueak. Youโll get in somewhere too.โ
โYouโll stay close to Linkon right?โ You lean closer to Caleb, your eyes boring into his. โWe canโt leave grandma by herself.โ
โOf course. Donโt worry.โ Caleb puts an arm around your shoulders and pulls you towards him. Your head rests on his shoulder as he traces circles into your arm. The action is comforting and familiar, and a sense of calm washes over you.ย
โI donโt like it when people leave.โ You confess quietly and Caleb sighs.
โI know. You used to cry all the time when you first came here. You cried when grandma left to get groceries. You cried when I left for soccer practice. You cried when it was time for Zayne to go home. Honestly,โ he smirks and pinches you, making you yip in surprise. โYouโre such a crybaby that Iโm surprised you want to attend college at all. You know youโre gonna have to live with strangers in the dorm right? Are you gonna cry into your little bear plushie?โ
He grins and dodges a blow from you, a bark of laughter escaping him as you try to roughhouse. He indulges you for two missed attempts then leaps and pins you to the mattress. You squirm and shriek under him, trying to escape as he tickles you relentlessly.
โCaleb! Caleb stop!โ There are tears in your eyes from the hilarity of the situation.
โAw, are you gonna cry when youโre being tickled now too? Crybaby crybaby!โ Caleb continues to mock you before you pull a dirty move; you angle your knee against his crotch and grin as you instantly feel him go still.
โYou wouldnโt dare.โ Calebโs breathing has stilled, and heโs warily looking down at you as you prepare to play your trump card.ย
โIโve done it before and wonโt hesitate to do it again.โ Knowing you had him in the palm of your hand, you look him deadpan in the eye.
โGet off.โ Caleb complies immediately and you sigh, trying to calm your unsteady heart.
โYouโre really heartless sometimes ya know?โ Calebโs voice is heard near your head and you turn to face him.
โI had to learn.โ
A moment of peace falls between you both and Caleb softly cups your cheek. โEverything will be ok. I promise. You wonโt be left behind. Youโll always have a family. Weโll never be too far away from you.โย
โYouโd better not.โ You huff and suddenly feel exhausted. โCaleb?โ
โYou can stay here tonight.โ
โI didnโt-โ
โI already knew. I knew from the second Zayne said heโs not going to be around this summer.โ Caleb shifts and pulls you under his quilt. You bury your nose into his chest and close your eyes.
โThis doesnโt mean Iโm not independent.โ You quip and a rumble emanates from Calebโs chest.
โOf course not pipsqueak. Miss independent.โ He strokes your hair and your eyelids grow heavy. Caleb tucks your head under his chin. โBut you can be as dependent on me as you want.โ Those are the last words you hear before falling into a deep slumber.
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You barely see Zayne for the next few weeks. His classes kept him busy and he always had homework. Caleb had suddenly become secretive after the night youโd spent in his room though he kept reassuring you that he was fine. You sulk as you watch TV by yourself, Caleb having locked himself in his room again. You wondered what had made him behave so differently. The last few times youโd tried to talk to him, heโd unceremoniously shoved you back out.ย
โBoys need their privacy sometimes,โ Grandma had reassured you, noticing the way you were glowering at the TV. โWould you like to help me run errands?โย
Josephine's list wasnโt terribly exciting, but you were still bitter from being snubbed by Caleb, so you went anyway. Several hours later, you return feeling accomplished. Just as youโre about to help Josephine put away the groceries, you hear footsteps on the stairs and Caleb finally makes an entrance.ย
โOh look at that! Our groundhog has made a rare appearance!โ Josephine teases as Caleb grins sheepishly.ย
โOoh, apples!โ He says zealously seeing you unbag the bright red fruits. As heโs about to grab one you smack his hand and he withdraws with a yelp.ย
โWhat was that for?โ He rubs his hand looking offended.ย
โOnly people who helped buy the groceries are entitled to eat them.โ You put them away neatly into the fruit basket on the counter, refusing to look at Caleb. With Zayne being awol you had thought Caleb would be a little more sensitive towards you and you were still quite annoyed at his lack of consideration. Caleb huffs, then hoists himself onto the kitchen counter, his long legs dangling off the edge.
โWhat were you doing all this while anyway?โ Josephine asks as she puts away more groceries. โSummer vacation usually means I canโt get a hold of you two even if I needed to. I thought you were planning to go to the beach? Play volleyball with some of your friends?โ
โYeah, and we will. Even if this little gremlin is mad at me.โ Caleb hesitantly looks at you, hoping youโd simmered down but you shoot daggers at him and he shakes his head. โI need to talk to you both.โ
Your heart skips a beat at his words. You turn to look at him but Calebโs eyes are fixated on Josephine, whoโs looking curious.ย
โWhat is it? Nothing serious I hope?โ The old woman sits down at the kitchen table.ย
โNo, itโs not serious. But. Itโs kind of sudden.โ Calebโs refusal to make eye contact with you was now starting to scare you. โGrandma, we told you about Zayne and him already getting ready for college right?โ
โYou did. I always knew Zayne would excel at whatever he put his mind to. Clever boy that one.โ
โWell, his news was sort of a wake-up call for me. What I was doing all these days was looking at colleges, and I think I know what I want to do.โ
The evening summer sunlight falls charmingly on Calebโs face, illuminating his smooth skin, the dark hair falling elegantly into his eyes and for a moment, you feel the same sensation you had felt after Zayne had told you about college. You heart was already twisting into nervous knots, and you waited with bated breath as Caleb continued.ย
โIโve decided I want to be a pilot.โ His eyes are lit up with ambition as he says the words. Josephine cups her cheeks with her hands, a smile growing on her wrinkled face.
โThatโs wonderful Caleb! Iโm very happy for you.โ
โYeah. And. Thereโs something else I found out while doing my research.โ Josephine immediately leans forward attentively. You listen quietly, but you canโt help but feel a slight sense of betrayal. Why would Caleb need to hide this from you? It wasnโt a secret that he wanted to go to college, and he loved talking about planes and jets. You felt like there was a piece he was hiding, saving it for fear of losing their attention.ย
โThe Deepspace Aviation Administration has an apprenticeship-based degree which guarantees Iโd graduate as a pilot. Itโs a degree in Aviation Engineering. Grandma.โ Calebโs voice has softened, and he looks at her beseechingly.โTheyโre offering a month-long crash camp this summer. A lot of the students that go have better chances of making it into the program. Thereโs one slot left. Can I please go?โ
There it was. Thatโs what heโd been hiding. A month. Without Caleb. Silently, you resume unpacking the groceries, turning your back to Caleb as you do so. Josephineโs face was lined with delight.ย
โOh, Caleb! Iโm so happy youโve figured this out. Of course, you can go!โ She rises from her seat and makes her way to Caleb who slips off the counter to hug her. She barely came up to his waist but sheโs brimming with pride.ย
โGo fill out the application before someone else gets it! Go!โ She slapped him on the back and Caleb, looking like heโd just been told heโd won the lottery, sprinted back upstairs. Silence fills the small kitchen. Pretending to act normal, you start gathering ingredients to prepare dinner.
โAnnoying loser.โ You mutter under your breath. โHe hasnโt even offered to help cook dinner the last few days.โ You feel a hand on your shoulder and turn to see Josephine standing right behind you.ย
โItโs ok to be upset.โ
โIโm not upset.โ You start washing the potatoes at the sink. Josephine sighs, then wraps her arms around your waist, giving you a gentle hug.
โTake your time. You know where to find me if you want to talk.โ The woman hobbles out of the kitchen, and you put the washed potatoes on a cutting board. Your hand trembles as you pick up the knife, and the backs of your eyes feel hot and prickly. You didnโt understand why you felt like this. It was just a month. Caleb hadnโt applied for college yet. And even if he ended up at Deepspace Aviation it wasnโt too far away. But why did you feel like you were being left behind? Like everyone had their future planned but you? And none of their plans seemed to involve you at all?
You angle your knife to slice the potatoes, then let out a frustrated huff; memories of being a little girl, while Caleb held your hand in his as he taught you how to quickly dice your vegetables, patting your head with praise as he did so. You werenโt quite sure why potatoes were making you feel this way. Unbidden, a tear rolls down your cheek and you dash it away with your finger.
โDidnโt even offer to help with dinner.โ More tears stream down your face and you let out a quiet sob.ย
โThereโs no one to help me make dinner.โ
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โCโmon pipsqueak, at least say goodbye to me!โย
Caleb was standing at the door, ready to leave for camp. You stood, arms crossed, refusing to speak to him. Josephine softly gives you a push.
โGo on now. Youโll regret it if you donโt.โ
โNo, I wonโt. Besides heโll be back in a month. Itโs not like heโs staying there forever. Like theyโd let him. Theyโll probably call us begging to to take him back within a week.โ Your snarky attitude hadnโt improved since heโd announced his acceptance.ย
Josephine looks at Caleb and shakes her head helplessly. Sheโd attempted to ameliorate your temper for the last 2 weeks and had gotten nowhere. You had avoided Caleb altogether, even when heโd come knocking on your door to talk. There was a vindictive satisfaction in knowing that your ignoring him was bothering him. A little taste of his own medicine. Didnโt feel so good to be shut off from your best friend now, did it? The thought made your lip curl even as your stomach churned from the knowledge that you would be by yourself for the next month.ย
Caleb checks his watch and runs a hand through his hair. โIโm getting late. Pipsqueak please.โ Caleb opens his arms, giving you the most apologetic look he could muster. โCome say goodbye.โ
You stood firm, even though every fiber in your being was burning to leap into his arms and hug him tight.ย
โThe bus wonโt wait forever.โ Caleb quickly strides towards you and before you can step away heโs wrapped his arms around you, and youโre stuck in his embrace. Tears form in your eyes but you refuse to let them fall. Your arms remain stiff at your sides even as Caleb continues to hunch, silently bidding you farewell. When he finally lets go, he ruffles your hair. โIโll see you next month. You can always reach me on my phone.โ With a final wave, Caleb sprints out the door to board the bus.
You spend the day coming up with various ways to kill the time but nothing works. Video games felt lackluster and your mind refused to engage with the book you tried reading. For dinner, Josephine ordered burgers from your favorite restaurant to try and cheer you up. You sat quietly, unable to savor the food. Finally, before bedtime, you cave. Anything was better than this crushing, empty feeling in your stomach. You walk into Calebโs room, and curl up under his quilt, inhaling the familiar scent. It was hard to believe he had been there just a few hours earlier, and you hugged his pillow, regretting your earlier actions. You pull out your phone and make a video call.
โPipsqueak! Miss me already?โ Caleb grins widely at you. The background is filled with activity, filled with high school students wandering around and acquainting themselves.ย
โShut up.โ You say but your voice quivers. โCaleb Iโm sorry.โ
Calebโs eyes soften. โItโs ok. You donโt have to be.โ
โBut I was so mean to you.โ
โYeah, you were. But what can I say? How can I be mad at my family?โ His words break the shield youโd built around yourself and you sniffle, letting the tears fall.ย
โPlease donโt cry all over my pillow. Itโll get soggy.โ Caleb tries to joke but your tears are eating away at him. He knew what this would do to you, which is why he hadnโt told you his plans before they were solid. โIโll be back before you know it. Be good for grandma ok?โ
You nod, a lump forming in your throat. โI miss you, Caleb.โ
โI miss you too. Please donโt be miserable the whole time Iโm gone. Try to focus on things important to you too. Maybe make your list of colleges.โ
โYeah. I will.โ You wipe away your tears. โWill you make dumplings for me when you come back?โ
โIs that all I was good for?โ Caleb asks in an offended tone but heโs grinning. โYeah I will. I promise. Now go to sleep.โ
He hangs up and you find the knot in your heart has loosened slightly. Caleb was right. You needed to focus on you. You turn over and are about to go to sleep when a text lights up your screen.
โIce cream tomorrow?โ
It was from Zayne. You smile. Theyโd never really leave you all alone. You text him a yes and fall asleep contentedly.
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โHow are you feeling with Caleb gone?โ
Youโre seated across from Zayne with a huge banana split sitting on the table between you. You twirl the spoon between your fingers, thinking.
โItโs strange. I miss him of course. The house feels empty.โ You sample some of the ice cream. โItโs even emptier without you.โ
Zayne looks guilty as he also takes a bite of the sundae. โIโm sorry. I know it must seem strange given how much time we all spent together. Believe me, if I had known Caleb wasnโt going to be here I would have put in more effort to check in on you.โ
โItโs not your fault.โ You lay down your spoon, contemplating. Zayne cocks his head.
โSomething on your mind?โ
You twitch your mouth to the side and try to explain. โWell, I recently realized I seem to have a problem with being by myself. And Iโm trying to change that.โ
โWhyโs that?โ
โBecause. Itโs illogical for me to think Iโll always have you or Caleb or grandma around. I know a lot of it stems from losing my parents. But I canโt be this way every time I have to be away from you guys.โ You stab the spoon into the mound of whipped cream at the top of the ice cream. โWeโre all going to college next year, and we might go months without seeing each other. Iโm trying to be more independent and in control of my feelings. Otherwise, how am I supposed to survive?โ
Zayne nods emphatically as you speak. โThatโs a very rational way of thinking. However, I donโt think I can fault you for not wanting any of us to move away.โ
โReally?โ You carefully fish out a cherry from the top of one of the ice cream scoops.ย
โOf course. Itโs natural to want to stay close to the people who have been a constant in your life.โ Zayne glances away from you before continuing. โMy parents are doctors. Theyโre busy most of the time. I work around their schedule. But Iโm always more relaxed when one of them is at home. Itโs natural to want to be around oneโs family. Your feelings are completely natural.โ
You let out a breath and laugh. โWell geez Dr. Zayne,โ you tease. โThank you for the psychological assessment.โย
โAnytime.โ He offers you a wry smile. โBut I think itโs good youโre taking the initiative to adapt. The most successful people arenโt the smartest, but the most adaptable.โ
โOh? So am I smarter than you?โ
โHardly,โ Zayne smirks as you pout, โI happen to be both.โ
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Now here you were, senior year finished, the summer that you had hoped would take its time in arriving sitting at your doorstep like a lost puppy begging to be let in. You had opened a window and a cool breeze was blowing past your face. You look out at the neighborhood of Bloomshore, remembering how intimidating it had looked when you first moved here, and now how you could never imagine leaving.
Zayne had returned from his road trip the past summer with a million photos and tales from each city he had visited with his parents. Heโd brought back snacks and small trinkets from each place, and every few days, youโd find a postcard from him in the mailbox. Youโd saved each one and put them away into a little keepsake box. When he had finally come over after his trip, Josephine had almost giggled herself silly because Zayne had tanned so much during his absence; a lighter ring had formed around his eyes like a raccoon where the sunglasses had perched. Youโd laughed when you saw him, and Zayne had merely shook his head in exasperation.ย
Caleb had returned from camp with a whole new attitude towards his future. He seemed more confident, and couldnโt stop talking about engines and how being in a cockpit felt.ย Being the extrovert he was, heโd also come back with many new friends, some of whom lived just a few blocks from your house. You had initially disliked these new friends because it intensified the feeling that you had been replaced. Until one of them had mentioned that Caleb always looked at your picture before he fell asleep at night. Caleb had acted nonchalant but a dusting of pink had appeared on his face at the remark.ย
As you had predicted, Zayne had settled on and formally accepted an offer from one of the colleges. He had decided to attend a prestigious medical university at Snowcrest, a city that you knew was near the Arctic, frigidly cold, with short and mild summers. Although not impossibly far, it was still a long journey to reach Snowcrest, and you had felt some of the hope that was in your chest being crushed. Reminding yourself that you were trying to become a more assertive, independent woman, you had heartily congratulated Zayne while Caleb had teased that it was because Zayne would melt if he continued living in the temperate climate of Linkon City.ย
Caleb had immediately applied for the program at Deepspace Aviation Administration after coming back and was accepted into their engineering program, news he had received over winter break. You could still remember him dancing around his pajamas early in the morning after reading the email on his phone. Heโd barged into your room, startling you from your deep slumber, and scooped you out of bed, spinning you around in his arms as he exuberantly announced his acceptance. Josephine had woken up from the ruckus, making her way up the stairs to investigate, and when she had reached your room, Caleb had tossed you back on your bed before picking up Josephine too, giving a quick circle that lifted her off her feet before carefully putting her back down. They found him baking shortly after; Caleb baked when he was happy.ย
Although you had applied to your fair share of colleges, you didnโt hear back until spring, and you had sighed in relief when you saw the acceptance letter from Linkon University. It was exactly as youโd hoped. Even though Caleb would need to move to Skyhaven, it was still closer than Snowcrest, meaning you could see him every month if you wanted to.ย
There was still time before everyone went their separate ways. You knew that yet it felt like time had fallen into a strange vacuum where nothing was happening yet everything was happening all at once. Sometimes your pulse started to skyrocket for no reason at all. Thinking about college made you anxious just as it made you excited. New people, new challenges, the classes, getting lost on campus, all these thoughts swirled in your head like a snow globe being violently shaken.ย
You knew youโd make friends but there was a pang at the thought of not seeing your best friends. Suddenly it felt like you had taken all these past years for granted. You found yourself reminiscing over small aspects of your friendships with both boys. Like the time youโd turned down Zayne to go to the movies because it was a documentary, or when Caleb had asked for help to paint a model airplane and youโd refused because it was the third model that week. These minor indiscretions now felt like heavy bags of guilt weighing on your conscious.ย
Perhaps this is why you were all being separated now, you think self-deprecatingly. You had always thought you had forever with them and hadnโt spent enough time with them when theyโd asked you. Now you didnโt know when youโd see them next.ย
A knock on your door disrupts your thoughts and you turn to see Caleb standing there.ย
โReady to go?โ
โWhere?โ you ask blankly.
Caleb gives you a questioning look. โTo Zayneโs house. He got that new game and asked us to come over remember?โ
It takes you a moment to recall, then you put a hand to your forehead. โYeah, thatโs right. I forgot.โ You look down at your clothes and decide itโs not worth changing. It was hot outside, and it was Zayneโs house; heโd seen you in rattier things than the denim shorts and T-shirt you were currently wearing. You follow Caleb out of the house, the summer breeze whipping your faces as you walk. Caleb seemed content to walk in silence and after a few yards, you catch hold of his wrist, slowing down his pace.
โEverything ok?โ He peers down at you and you nod yes.ย
โCaleb. Iโm sorry for all those times I refused to paint model airplanes with you.โ
โWhat?โ Thereโs levity in Calebโs voice. โWhat are you talking about?โ
โIโm talking about those model airplanes you built. You asked me to paint them with you and I always found excuses to avoid it. And now I donโt know when weโll do something like that again.โ
Understanding fills Calebโs expression and he frees his wrist so he can drape his arm over your shoulders. โYouโre thinking too much again.โ
โAm not.โ
โSure you are. Weโre officially done with high school. Youโve been tweaking out about this since last year. How many times do I have to tell you, itโs going to be ok. And itโs not like weโre depending on carrier pigeons to communicate. Text me, call me, a million times a day if you want to. Iโll always reply.โ
The feeling of his warm arm on the back of your neck makes you want to pull him into a hug right now. Caleb and Zayne were so different than most boys their age. Neither of them made you regret expressing vulnerability in front of them. You wondered if they would meet someone when they went to college. Zayne would probably get swept off his feet by another medical student. And CalebโฆCaleb exuded such candid energy that girls were always drawn to him. The thought made you uncomfortable for some reason and you push it out of your head.
โIf this apologizing thing is gonna continue, then please donโt apologize to Zayne for that day I used my evol to hurl snowballs at him through his window.โย
You burst out laughing at the memory, Calebโs gravity control effortlessly pitching snowballs into Zayneโs room while you kept watch for the grown-ups. โWe ended up drenching his sheets that day,โ you say in a sober voice. โI do feel kind of bad now.โ
โWhatโs a little prank between friends hmm pipsqueak? Like that time Zayne and I let that possum into your room.โ
โThat was you two?!โ You jerk back and Caleb doubles over, cackling. โI screamed so loudly that the poor possum keeled over playing dead! But I thought it had really died and I had killed it! Grandma had to put it outside and then showed me how it got up before I stopped crying!โย
Caleb had tears in his eyes as you indignantly frowned at him. โI hate you,โ you muttered and continued down the road towards Zayneโs house. Caleb jogs to catch up with you.
โYou donโt hate us pipsqueak. Youโre going to remember all of this and be reminded that, despite everything, you had a good childhood.โ Caleb puts his hand on your head. โI know I will.โ
You roll your eyes and keep quiet but know that he was right.ย
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Several rounds of Mario Kart later, the three of you are sprawled out on the floor in Zayneโs room. Both his parents were on-call that night and were working at the hospital.ย
โThereโs pizza for dinner,โ Zayne says lazily as he gazes at the last few rays of the disappearing sun. Although it was well past dinner time, none of you felt hungry. There was something sweet about the calmness of this moment, and no one seemed willing to break it to go down to the kitchen. Youโre in between both boys staring at the ceiling fan which was rotating in a hypnotizingly soothing way. The soft whir of the blades was making you drowsy.ย
โWhen I was at camp, there were helicopters with blades like 50 times that size. The military choppers are huge.โ Caleb says in a relaxed voice. โCanโt believe Iโm going to be piloting those things in my third year.โ
โThird year? Not after you graduate?โ Zayne asks as the sunlight reflects in his amber-green eyes.ย
โNah. They start showing us flight basics in the third year. That way we can take the exam in the final year and weโre good to fly right after graduation.โ
Zayne hums contemplatingly at the explanation.
โIโm guessing you wonโt perform your first operation for another 10 years or so right?โ you ask, enjoying the camaraderie.ย
โThey start you off with simple procedures that are low risk. But I want to be a cardiologist. Ten years might not be a bad estimate.โ Zayne turns onto his side so that he can look at you. โDo you know what you want to do after graduating college?โ
โI just graduated high school. Iโll figure it out along the way. Not everyone has answers about their long-term careers like you guys do.โ Zayne gives you a small smile and you chuckle.ย
โDo you guys remember the summer right after I first moved in?โ
โYeah. We were 6 years old. Why?โ Zayne asks.ย
โRemember I wanted it to snow because it was too hot at the time?โ
โOh yeah. Zayne and I came up with a little trick there didnโt we?โ Caleb also rolls to his side and props himself on his elbow. Fondness is etched all over his face at the memory.
โI think Iโll tell that story everywhere I go.โ You gaze nostalgically at the ceiling. โMy two best friends literally made it snow for me.โ
โIt was the first time we tested our evols together,โ Zayne says reminiscingly. He looks over at Caleb. โWant to do it again?โ
โWhat do you think pipsqueak? Will it make you happy?โ
You close your eyes. โIt would. If you donโt mind snowflakes falling all over your carpet Zayne.โ
โThe heat should melt them before they touch the floor.โ
The two boys look at each other, and then Zayne extends his palms toward the ceiling. Soft flakes of snow start to form on his palms, and then Caleb points a finger toward Zayne. The snowflakes lose their gravity, delicately floating into the air, and dancing near the ceiling. Both of them hold their evol until the air is filled with them.
โReady?โ Caleb asks, and you can feel joy radiating from him.ย
โReady!โ
Caleb disengages his evol and the snowflakes make their way back to earth, melting away as they do so. Even at this age, it was still magical, and you feel a sudden constriction in your throat.
โIโll miss you guys,โ you murmur, then hold their hands as the remaining snow starts to fall around the three of you.ย
โWeโll do this for you whenever we meet,โ Zayne says solemnly, observing your expression. You sniff and smile, your eyes overbright. You turn and find yourself face-to-face with Zayne. You hadnโt realized he was so close, and you can see the surprise in his eyes. The world seems to stop spinning, frozen in the moment. In the blink of an eye, without thinking, you lean forward and clumsily press your lips to Zayneโs.ย
You werenโt sure what you were thinking, but all you knew was that words werenโt enough to describe how much youโd miss him. When you lean back, Zayneโs eyes are wide but he doesnโt look displeased. You reach out to pat his cheek.
โIโll miss you.โ
You hear shuffling on the carpet and suddenly feel warmth against your back as Caleb presses his body against yours. This wasnโt an alien reaction to you; You and Caleb cuddled all the time, even slept in the same bed from time to time since you were kids. But somehow, his breath on the back of your neck was telling you this was different. You feel Calebโs lips press a soft kiss to your nape and you jerk at the sensation, trying to look at him over your shoulder.
โIโll miss you too my little one,โ Caleb whispers, tipping your face to his by your chin. Enamored by the tenderness of his gaze, you allow him to give you a chaste kiss, your eyes fluttering closed at the feeling.
Your heart races as you become aware that you are sandwiched between Caleb and Zayne, and neither one is moving away. Instead, strong arms, one from each of them, come over your waist, effectively holding you into place.
โAre you ok with this?โ Zayne murmurs into your ear. โUs showing you that weโll miss you?โ Your eyes squeeze closed as you realize you have just experienced your first kiss. Correction. Kisses. Your face turns red under their watchful gazes but right now, you were consumed with the idea of being in this moment for as long as you could.
โYes.โ You whisper the word out loud.ย
Hearing your breathless consent, both of them move impossibly closer, and you gasp as you feel Caleb softly kiss your ear. โTell us if you want to stop.โ His warm breath tickles the sensitive skin and you squirm.ย
ย Zayne strokes your arm and it sends tingles down your spine. You feel yourself going light-headed at their touch. They feel safe, and your mind enters into a state of connection. You can hear their heartbeats, the low, masculine sighs welling up from their throats as their hands gently explore the contours of your body over your clothes.ย
Your legs were the most exposed part of you, the shorts having ridden up from all the movement playing video games, and rolling around on the carpet. Itโs Zayne who boldly touches your knee first, sending a jitter of electricity up into your core. The blood rushes to your ears, and you almost jump as Caleb chuckles before sinking his teeth into one of the lobes. The little nip was unfamiliar, but it felt good and your hand grips the front of Zayneโs T-shirt as the minor sting passes.
โAre you feeling hot?โ Caleb moves some hair away from your shoulder to kiss and lick the crook of your neck. โYour ears are so red right now.โ His words cause you to flush. Your skin felt uncomfortably warm, and your heart was pounding inside your chest as their hands stroked every inch of you. A strange throb was beginning to make itself present between your legs now; it was in time to your heartbeat, as though your sex had developed a rapid pulse of its own. You move to try and get comfortable and your panties chafe against your folds.ย
โWhat is it? Zayne sneaks his hand over your waist and onto your back, his head leaning forward to press a kiss to your forehead.
โI feelโฆโ your voice trails as you struggle to find words to describe it. โLight. But alsoโฆstrained? Like Iโm hot everywhere. And tingly.โ You knew you must have sounded ridiculous but Zayne gives a comforting pat on the small of your back.ย
โArousal,โ he murmurs, pushing your hair away from your face. โAll the signs point to that. According to my pre-med textbooks anyway.โย
โOhโฆโย
Arousal.ย
Youโd learned that word in biology but you had never thought about what the implications of it would be in the real world. Zayne peppers your face with small kisses and your eyes flutter shut as they reach your cheeks, your chin, the tip of your nose, and then finally your lips. He hovers uncertainly for a second before he does so, and it feels like a little light has been ignited inside of you. His lips were soft, warm, and unparted. Gaining courage, and your curiosity getting the better of you, you open your mouth and hear a groan issue from Zayne. Experimentally you give him your tongue, exploring the crevices of his mouth, and feel a delicious, liquidy pull, in your lower abdomen. Excitement pulses through your body as Zayneโs tongue timidly touches yours, participating in the erotic dance as you kiss.ย
Caleb has now left kisses all over your neck and shoulders, and you can feel his hands starting to grow mischievous and he walks them along the front of your collarbone, starting to stroke down on the swells of flesh under your Tshirt but not daring to cup them completely.
You and Zayne part and his eyes are smoldering, green embers growing in the irises. โI donโt want to continue this on the floor.โย
Your brain is in a haze and it takes a second for you to register what he had said, and you hasten to move, but are prevented from doing so as Caleb hooks his arms under your upper body, and Zayne gently cradles your legs from the knees below. They lovingly move you to the bed and resume their positions on either side of you.
The softness of the bed is alluring, and all of you sink into it, you feel their hands flirting with the edge of your T-shirt. Feeling shy, you glance up at them and raise your arms. Taking your cue, Zayne pulls off the garment, then he and Caleb follow suit, discarding their shirts with yours. You drink in the sight of their bare upper bodies. You had seen them half-naked before when youโd gone to the pool and the beach with them, seen their bodies wet with water and sweat. But the longing and hunger in their eyes as they looked at you made it feel like you were seeing them differently; now as men rather than childhood companions.ย
Goosebumps form over your skin as your upper half is exposed to them, and you tentatively reach out to put a hand on each of their chests. They tremble at your touch, and the knowledge emboldens you, knowing they were as affected by you as you were by them. The direct skin-on-skin contact was soothing, their warm, firm bodies pressing up against your softness. Caleb traces a finger along the inner crease of your cleavage, then looks at you for permission. You nod, curving towards him so he can unhook your bra. A mixture of nervous excitement fills you as the small piece of fabric slips off your body and you quickly cling to Caleb, hiding your breasts from view.ย
He strokes your hair, pressing a kiss to your temple. โItโs ok my little one. Iโm sure youโre beautiful.โย
You feel a persistent ache in your breasts and press up against Calebโs hard chest, surprised at how the ache lessens as you do so. Caleb lets out a low, guttural groan, and at the same time, Zayne closes in to kiss down your back, licking random little lines on your skin that have you pressing deeper into Calebโs body. You gasp and wriggle in surprise as Zayne bites down on the curve of your waist, then soothes the bite with his thumb.
โWonโt you let us see you?โ Zayneโs deep voice requests you, and feeling like youโd burst into flames from the embarrassment, you finally let go of Caleb and lie back on the bed, covering your eyes with your hands as you do so. You hear their collective breaths being drawn as they take in the view of your soft breasts, the nipples hard from their affections.ย
โHow cute,โ you hear Caleb growl. Your breath catches in your throat as you feel your breasts being cupped and squeezed, and then suddenly, light floods your vision as Caleb tugs your hand away from your eyes.
โAw look at you. Youโre blushing.โ He teases but itโs said with gentleness. Zayne watches your expressions intently, and you let out a moan of pleasure as they continue to play with your breasts.ย
โAre you enjoying it?โ Zayneโs voice cuts through the buzz in your head and you nod, a heady twirl of sensation shooting up your spine. Your toes curl into the mattress as they mindfully pull your nipples, feeling your arousal grow as they do so. You nod breathlessly at Zayneโs question and feel an urgent pulsing between your legs. Youโre desperate to touch and relieve yourself. You were no stranger to pleasuring yourself after all but could you do it with these two watching?
The thought sends an arrow of lust straight into the deepest depths of your core. Youโre about to speak up but all that comes out is a noise of desire as Caleb licks your nipple, savoring the taste of your skin before suckling the little bud into his mouth. Zayne repeats the action on the other side and you feel like you canโt catch your breath, each soft suck sending you into a dizzying spiral. You feel like nothing is solid under you like youโre floating on a cloud, where the only thing that existed was the sweet stimulation of their mouths on your body. You try to discreetly rub your aching clit against your panties, the barely there friction making you feel like you might go insane.ย
You shiver as Caleb releases your moistened peak, caressing your hair and kissing his way down to your navel. Both their large hands stroke the length of your legs, intensifying the need building inside your core. Your nails sink into the covers as you quiver under their touch.ย
โFeeling ok?โ Zayne cups your cheek as he notices your tension. You crack your eyes open and nod.
โI feel hot. I needโฆI need toโฆโ You blush as you try to form the words.
โWhat?โ Caleb prompts you and moves back up to take your hands, stroking your palms. โTell us.โ
I needโฆmoreโฆโ you manage to say, then gasp as Zayne ghosts your belly button before his hand dips below the waistband of your shorts. Your breath hitches as he strokes the soaked gusset of your panties, just a few inches shy of your clit.
โShow us.โ Caleb catches your lips in an unexpected kiss.ย
Zayneโs hand withdraws and he slides down your shorts over your legs, little ripples of electricity running through your body as he does so.ย
โYouโre so wet.โ Calebโs voice is laced with arousal as he moves toward your feet and sees the patch of moisture on your panties.
โItโs natural,โ Zayne reassures you and squeezes your hand and you nod, your embarrassment giving away to your instincts. Your hips raise slightly as Caleb removes your panties, displaying your swollen sex to their eyes. Zayne moves next to Caleb as you part your legs, and take a finger into your leaking core, drawing up the slick towards your clit. Whimpers leave you as you stroke light circles onto the swollen bud.ย
โThatโs so hot,โ Caleb says as he watches the erotic view in front of him. Zayne quietly observes you for a few minutes, then you feel a jolt burst through you as he reaches his fingers into your drenched folds and copies your moves.
โLike this?โย
โY-Yesโฆโ you whisper breathlessly, your legs parting shamelessly to allow him better access. The pads of his fingertips were gentle, and the sensation of someone else touching you was so starkly different from when you did it. The air becomes balmy, and you writhe passionately under his gentle ministrations.
โSuch a good girl for us.โ Caleb strokes your thighs and you moan as your hips roll, trying to reap all the pleasure you can get. Your feet plant into the mattress and suddenly, you feel a different set of fingers, a little thicker than Zayneโs, softly probing at the wetness of your core.ย
โBreathe for me baby girl.โ You hear Calebโs encouragement and breathe deeply as he inserts his fingers into you. It was done carefully but you were already lucidly wet and his fingers sink in with ease. Your moans start to keen as Caleb slowly strokes your inner walls, his movements uncertain but soft as he watches your face for discomfort. Zayne continues circling your clit and the sensations from both of them were driving you mad.
You feel yourself clench, your body tensing under their tender ministrations, pleasurable mewls filling the air as they work your body to the edge. The separate sensations were unlike anything you could have ever imagined in your wildest fantasies. Even when youโd touched yourself before, youโd imagined a faceless stranger. But now with these two, it was even more heady than you could imagine.
โDonโt stop.โ You pant as you feel your body tip into the abyss. They donโt relent and keep up the pace and your eyes squeeze closed in ecstasy as an orgasm builds and explodes inside you. Your body quakes from the pulses of delight flowing through you and your sobs fill the quiet bedroom as you fall apart, a puddle of tangled, sensual desire.
โHow was it?โ Your chest rises and falls as you try to catch your breath and you see Caleb curiously lick at his fingers, tasting the fluid collected from your body. The sight was so lewd and yet arousing, and you canโt help but stare as he cleans up his digits.
โGood it wasโฆgood.โย
Caleb turns away and you see him fiddling with the fabric of his sweats and something clicks in your head. โAre you bothโฆ?โ
You glance down and Zayne doesnโt try to hide it, but he averts his eyes shyly as you see the hard bulge in his shorts. Slowly, you roll over and crawl over to them. โCan I see?โ you ask curiously, and a nervous glance flashes over their faces before they oblige. Your eyes widen as their cocks spring free of their confines, thick, veiny, and pulsing with heat.ย
Your hands move automatically, reaching out to stroke them, and both of them hiss at your touch, your small, soft hands already pushing their inexperienced bodies toward the edge of bliss. Youโre surprised at the firmness, and the velvety the skin was stretched over their arousals. Growing bold, you give a slight squeeze, and both of them groan, the noises heavy with want.
It emboldens you, hearing the desperation in their voices, seeing the way drops of pearlescent fluid start to form in their slits. Your mind craved to know what they tasted like, how their desire might feel on your tongue. Leaning forward, you cautiously taste Caleb first. His abdomen tightens, a low moan escaping from him and he grips the covers.
โCa-carefulโฆโ he says in a trembling voice. You hear the thin restraint in his words and repeat the action on Zayne, tongue darting out to sample him. Zayne lets out a huff followed by what sounded like a snarl.ย
Drunk with the power you held over them, you continued to test their boundaries, sampling, sucking, giving soft kitten licks, never taking more than a few inches of them into your mouth at a time. Their patience was wearing thin and their eyes had a primal haze to them when you dared to look up.
Caleb jerks you away from him, momentarily stunning you before youโre wrapped up in his strong arms, and he pins you underneath him, his erection grazing your thigh as he does so. His body was like a furnace and you nuzzle your face into his chest, his heart beating like a caged bird in his chest. He moans as he pushes his hips against you, trying to soothe the ache in his cock.ย
Zayne shifts towards your head, his facade of control slipping as lust pours into his system. You reach out a hand to stroke him again and he bites his lip, eyes fluttering closed.ย
โI thinkโฆIโm ready,โ you say quietly and 2 pairs of eyes fixate on you.
โAre you sure?โ Calebโs tone is ragged as he tries to control himself from being selfish.ย
You nod and stroke his hair with your free hand. โIโm positive. With you twoโฆIโm not scared.โ
Caleb laughs nervously. โGot us all wired up here baby girl. You think this is something I have practice with?โ
You sense his insecurity and murmur, โIt doesnโt really matter.โย
Caleb takes a deep breath, then moves, your legs spreading apart as he adjusts, grabbing his cock and probing around near your entrance. You tense slightly and feel Zayne move so that he can put your head on his lap. He strokes your face, then leans down to kiss you, easing your worries, and you feel your core flutter in anticipation.
Caleb finally notches in, and he pushes with care, pausing as he hears a muffled gasp escape from you, spilling into Zayneโs mouth. The sensation was strange, it didnโt hurt nearly as bad as you thought it would, but it wasnโt the most comfortable either. It felt like unused muscles were being stretched inside you, then suddenlyโฆyou were split apart and he was there, filling an unfamiliar cavern that had been untouched all these years.
โFuckโฆโ he hisses as he feels the tightness of your walls, the wet clench of them around his cock. Calebโs movements are shaky as he soaks in the glorious feeling of your body, not daring to push too far in for fear of losing control. Your eyes are clouding over as you gaze up at Zayneโs face, your body rocking with each of Calebโs thrusts. You moan loudly as he dares to bottom out once, then he quickly pulls out, his breathing shallow.ย
โI canโtโฆNot in youโฆโ he mumbles, then starts to pump himself in his hand. You cup Zayneโs cheek, and understanding, he moves carefully between your legs. He kisses your pubic bone, and like Caleb, strokes himself before using his hand to guide himself inside you. You were prepared for the sensation this time but marveled at how different Zayne felt inside you compared to Caleb. Your pussy stretches and accommodates him easily, the muscles relaxed and loose as he enters.ย
Zayne brushes away hair from your face, his movements tender like Calebโs and just as inexperienced. To you, however, they felt amazing, and youโre in awe of the human body, the way it could feel and bask in these sweet feelings and touches. Zayneโs breath grows ragged with each passing thrust and all too soon, heโs pulling out as well.
The sight of both them pumping their lengths, of knowing you put them in this frenzied sexual haze, stroked your ego. Caleb lets go first, his nose scrunching up in pleasure as he releases his load, the warm sticky fluid splattering on your belly as it happens. Zayne follows not too long after, jets of seed spilling out of his swollen tip to join Calebโs.
The rest of the night was a blur. You remember being carried to the shower, by which one, you couldn't remember. They had washed you, murmuring how youโd be their girl forever. After helping you dry off, Zayne had lent you a change of clothes, and you fallen asleep wearing his hoodie and shorts, both of which were baggy and loose. It was past midnight when Caleb had roused you, reminding you that you needed to get back to Grandmaโs house. He packed your clothes into a plastic bag, and after you had hugged and kissed Zayne goodnight one more time, heโd held your hand on the way home. Once back at your own home, Caleb had led you to his bed, and held you snugly against him as you fell asleep once more.
It was the perfect ending to the summer. You felt deeply content and sighed against Calebโs chest. It was rare to find one person that loved you so wholly but two? That was nothing short of a miracle.
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The group of women were gazing at you in wonder, their cheeks flushed as the wine theyโd been sipping intoxicated their system. Taraโs eyes were as wide as dinner plates.ย
โAnd?โ she prompts in an awed hush as you conclude your story.
โAnd what?โ
โDonโt play dumb!โ Tara pouts. โWhere are they? Are you guysโฆin a poly situation?โ Shr grins slyly.
Her question makes your heart twist painfully. Trying to keep your composure, you finish the rest of your wine. Taking a deep breath, you say the final, painful, part of the story.ย
โMy grandmaโs house was blown up during the attack on Bloomshore district last year.โ
Taraโs eyes change from teasing to horrified. โIโm so sorry!โ She covers her mouth as the rest of the group becomes somber at your admission.ย
โMy grandma and Caleb didnโt survive the blast.โ Your voice trembles.
โAndโฆZayne?โ Taraโs voice is hushed.
โZayne and I lost touch. He used to send letters regularly then, his last one to me, stated that heโd been asked to be part of a research program for developing a cure for Protocore Syndrome. It was some sort of high-clearance project, privately funded. He stopped writing after that.โ
โNo!โ Tara looks absolutely beside herself. โSo Zayne is aliveโฆbut you donโt know where he is?โ
You shake your head no and excuse yourself, escaping to the balcony. None of the women follow you and youโre grateful for the moment of privacy. The night wind whips your hair and you breathe it in, the air feeling fortifying despite the chill.ย
The seasons might change, but to you, theyโre all the same. In your mind, youโre stuck in a perpetual state of summer, the memories of your two lovers echoing through your mind.ย
ยฉ nanamiscocksleeve original work | no copying, plagiarizing or translating
beating hearts - smut, fluff (4.1k)
โณ following the aftermath of his match, sylus shows you how much he adores you.
close to you - smut, fluff, fwb 2 lovers (4.9k)
โณ a sleepy morning with sylus results in unravelled feelings.
red tape - smut, mma!sylus (8.8k)
โณ the man you're in charge of is somewhat of a handful (...and a mouthful).
sweet summer breeze - smut (5k)
โณ date night with sylus gets out of hand.
stardust (series)
resonance | part one - smut, fluff (4.5k)
โณ with the aether core's auction quickly approaching, you're growing desperate to resonate with sylus. fortunately for you, he has a suggestion... even if it is less conventional.
a lust for love | part two - smut, fluff (5.7k)
โณ ever since you've left the N109 zone, you find yourself missing a certain white-haired man.
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headcanons/drabbles
ex-husband!sylus
cockwarming with sylus
mma!sylus
๊ชเง LI SHEN | ZAYNE
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in every life - mild smut, fluff (1.3k)
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the emperor's affection (series) - historical au
the first fall of snow | part one - smut (7.7k)
โณ the emperor isn't interested in his concubines, but an encounter with you is enough to change his mind.
keep my hand in yours | part two - smut, fluff (6.9k)
โณ the emperor is intent on convincing you that you are worthy enough to be his empress.
โณ The amount of links and mentions on my fic recommendation list has officially broken the post, so I have decided to create seperate posts for all of the respective fandoms from my fic recommendation list! โฅ๏ธ
โณ I am so incredibly sorry for having to tag everyone again, I promise this is hopefully the last time I'll have to mass tag everyone :,) โฅ๏ธ
โณ Creators who are tagged on this list more than once, will only be tagged once as to not clog up their inbox with mentions โฅ๏ธ
โณ If you wish to have your fic removed fom this list, please don't hesitate to send me an ask โฅ๏ธ เซฎ หถแต แต แตหถ แ
โณ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ : Just because a certain character is on this list, DOES NOT automatically mean I simp for them. They might just be on this list because I liked the fic itself and not the character โฅ๏ธ
๐๐๐๐๐๐!๐๐๐๐๐ - Sylus x Reader / By : @/kisstrela
๐๐๐'๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ - Zayne / Sylus / Xavier / Rafayel x Reader / By : @luvzayne
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ - Sylus / Xavier / Rafayel x Reader / By : @daosies
๐๐๐ + ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ - Zayne x Reader / By : @deusfoundry
๐๐๐๐'๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ - Zayne / Sylus / Xavier / Rafayel x Reader / By : @odoraful
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ (๐๐)๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ - Sylus x Reader / By : @chuluoyi
๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ - Sylus x Reader / By : @/chuluoyi
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ - Sylus x Reader / By : @/chuluoyi
๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ - Sylus x Reader / By : @/chuluoyi
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ - Zayne x Reader / By : @/chuluoyi
๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐ - Zayne / Sylus / Xavier / Rafayel x Reader / By : @shomatoriashi
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ - Xavier x Reader / By : @manikas-whims
๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ - Xavier x Reader / By : @mephisto-reporting
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ - Rafayel x Reader / By : @/mephisto-reporting
๐๐๐๐๐ - Zayne x Reader / By : @winterstelltales
๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ - Zayne x Reader / By : @sylusdoll
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ - Sylus x Reader / By : @misswynters
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ - Zayne x Reader / By : @rumeras
๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ - Zayne x Reader / By : @plutotheplum
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ - Zayne / Sylus / Xavier / Rafayel x Reader / By : @ollyissleppy
๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ - Sylus x Reader / By : @softieyuume
c.w. should I label this as improper use of medicine? ๐, very suggestive, fluffy, MDNI, 1k+ words, fem reader
In the softest hour before dawn, when the town of Linkon lay wrapped in the hush of a blue so tender it felt almost sacred, Zayne sat at the edge of your bed, the early light casting his form in gentle shades of indigo and sapphire. Shadows stretched long as as he carefully buttoned his shirt, his fingers moving with a deliberate rhythm, hoping not to disturb you.
In that quiet intimacy, your arms, weighted with sleep, reached for him. He startled, the tension in his shoulders easing when he turned to find you awake, your eyes carrying the gentleness of lingering dreams. โGo back to sleep,โ he whispered, his voice a lullaby. His hand slid softly over your hair, and then he gently adjusted the blanket around your frame.
"Mmm, so you're the type of guy to see yourself out after spending the night with a woman?" you murmured, a playful edge laced with drowsiness.
Zayne let out a soft hmph, the sound warm and tinged with a hint of amusement. "I'm the type of man who has a very busy day ahead of him," he replied, the corners of his mouth twitching into a smile.
His hands moved to work on his tie, his fingers maneuvering the silk with skilled efficiency. "You," he added, pausing for a moment to look down at his work, "have the luxury of staying in bed, asleep, for another couple of hours."
You raised, the blanket slipping and pooling at your waist and exposing the erotic canvas of your skin in the hues of healing.
Mauve hickies adorned the column of your neck like a necklace. Plum love bites, puffy and tender, marred the smooth swells of your breasts, peeking out from your white lace bra. On your waist, a ghostly imprint of a possessive hand lingered.
Zayne froze, his hands clutching his loosened tie as his jaw tensed almost unseen. His eyes, however, remained thawed and warm to shift with such frequentness to drink you in.
He blinked rapidly before resuming his motion, loosening the tie around his throat as if it was the reason behind his loss of breath. He inhaled before he gently beckoned you to lay back down and attempted to tuck the covers back over you.
"Don't sit up. You need your sleep," he said softly, his voice slightly deeper than usual. Despite his words, there was a hint of guilt and tenderness in his tone, betraying his concern.
You pushed aside the covers and leaned into his shoulder, your fingers curling into the hem of his shirt. โLemme... Lemme iron your shirt.โ
Zayneโs resolve faltered as you pressed closer, your warmth seeping through the fabric of his sleeve. The scent of your love making still lingered on you.
โYou expect me to think you can hold an iron when you can barely hold your eyes open," he said, a smile tugging at the corners of his lips. His hand found your cheek, his thumb brushing gently over your skin. โYou'll have me hurrying up the process so I could rush you to the ER.โ
You blinked up at him, your eyes heavy but earnest. โCan I have some water?โ
He sighed but rose without complaint, returning moments later with a glass of cold water in one hand and a couple of pills in the other. Setting the water on the nightstand, he sank back onto the edge of the bed. His gaze swept over you, taking in the exhaustion etched across your featuresโthe faint lines of fatigue, the dark shadows under your eyes. He knew how much your work as a hunter drained you, though he also knew now wasnโt the time for a lecture.
Which, of course, didnโt stop him.
"The first one is ibuprofen for pain relief," his eyes flickering to the bruise blooming on your throat, "and the other one is a multivitamin, which, by the looks of the full capsule in your medicine cabinet, is one you should've been taking daily, prescribed by your doctor."
You pouted, your voice soft. โI just forgot. And they taste weird.โ
"You forget a lot of things," he said, his tone half-chiding, half-concerned. His fingers deftly cracked open the vitamin capsule, holding the pill up between you. "They're medicine, not candy. They're not supposed to taste delicious."
โWhat are youโ?โ
โMaking sure you actually take it.โ His hand tipped your chin upward, thumb and forefinger firm but careful. His voice dipped into something commanding. โOpen.โ
Your lips parted, your eyes meeting his as he leaned closer. He placed the pill on your tongue, but the flick of your it against his fingertip drew an audible hitch from him.
Zayne froze for a heartbeat, his eyes darkening with something unreadable, something heated. His thumb lingered on your lower lip, tracing its curve as his gaze held yours.
โSwallow,โ he murmured, his voice rougher now, his breath brushing against your skin.
You obeyed, your throat working as the pill went down. His eyes tracked the movement, a flicker of satisfaction crossing his face. His thumb stayed at your lip a moment longer before he pulled back and handed you the water.
โGood girl,โ he said softly, the words laced with a low, almost teasing warmth.
You drained the glass in one go, setting it back on the nightstand with a faint clink. Your eyes met his again, the weariness in them replaced with a spark of something else entirely.
โNow Iโm really not tired,โ you said, your voice breaking the quiet tension in the room.
Zayne leaned back, a chuckle rumbling in his chest. He was aware of the drowsiness that was about to settle in soon, thanks to the ingredient in the pills named Diphenhydramine.
Zayne pulled the covers up to your chin, his fingers gently tucking the fabric around you. He took a moment to admire the sight of you, wrapped up in your nest of warmth, the faint warm light of the early morning seeping through the windows, clearing the chillness of the blue. He should have left a while ago.
"It'll hit you soon," he said. "You'll be dozing off before you know it."
"Rest," he murmured. His hand lingered, squeezing your shoulder gently before pulling away. "I have to go."
"Wait," you said, tugging lightly on his sleeve. "Have a nice day at work."
"I will."
"And donโt eat too many sweets. Remember, your dentist said sugar-free," you added, smiling softly.
"Iโm sure one pastry wonโt hurt," he teased.
"Your lunch is in the fridge... donโt forget it," you murmured through a yawn. Zayne has been deliberately leaving his lunch behind for weeks now, a thin excuse for you to stop by later and see you again.
"I wonโt," he lied smoothly.
Your breathing slowed, the weight of sleep pulling you under.
Zayne feigned a glance at his watch --and God, he really should've left by now-- pretending he had important duties that needed tending to, but secretly reveled in the extra few minutes of banter and banter with you.
Then it happened.
"I love you," you whispered, the words tumbling out mid-yawn, the 'you' stretching softly as your eyelids drifted shut. It was the first time youโd said it, the confession slipping free without a second thought.
Zayne froze, his heart stuttering in his chest. For a moment, he just stood there, watching you as you surrendered to sleep. It's the medication talking, he silently told himself, even as the words echoed in his mind, sending a warmth spreading through his veins.
He gently placed his hand on your head, his fingers carding through your hair in a soothing manner as he watched your eyes flutter closed.
Zayne watched as your breathing slowed into the soft, even rhythm of sleep, your face relaxed and peaceful. He lingered for a few more seconds, his gaze tracing the lines of your face, committing them to memory. He bent down to kiss your forehead. "I love you, too. I'll see you in the afternoon."
As gently as possible, Zayne removed his hand from your head, the touch light as he slowly made his way to the door.
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