just a box of rain

wind and water--believe it if you need it, if you don't just pass it on Ang. Thirtysomething. New York City, originally DC area Maryland. She/her. Gray ace/aroace. Photographer, traveler, eternal multi-fandom trash. The cool mushroom Gotham deserves. I don't think DNIs are worth much, but I will note that if you do not support queer rights and most specifically trans rights, this blog is not the right place for you. Please don't remove captions of photo posts. If the photo isn't mine and you like it that much, go to the source (which I always link) and make your own post. I won't care! improbable-rainbows | flickr | pillowfort | ao3 | buy prints on redbubble

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Fukuoka, Japan: Mitoma Beach at Sunset

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"oh damn this would make people cry at my funeral" type song

^^ is something I thought on the subway while going through my music on the train but this is also absolutely not a joke, I've helped with 2 funerals now where we had to guess what song the person would like to have played, and it was a rough decision. make a death plan and include what song would make people cry at your funeral, please.

mine is Wildflowers by Wailin' Jennys, it's a cover of the Tom Petty song and yes I also have this written down somewhere that is not this dumb website.

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putting some thoughts on AI in one place

I AM NOT MAD at any individual about this so please please don't start yelling at my family to me but I did have to have a conversation of "I am only going to put real photos in the folder & album I'm saving for the funeral, I am not going to put anything fake." this was partially based on a misunderstanding (someone sent me a video that was not intended to be saved for this purpose) but as a result I did need to get out ahead of it and tell people, you need to tell me if you send me AI, so I don't include it. and like I said: I am. not. angry. about this. but it did make me feel very tired and sad that I even had to clarify that at all.

asking AI about my grandmother's health prognosis and then sending it to the family? ... that person is doing a lot of good work and means well and is putting in the time and effort and not relying on stuff like this to make decisions. however. for that one. I am working very hard not to get angry about it. ... still no one talk shit about this person to me. only I get to talk shit about this situation. but oh my god what the fuck.

switching from personal to work: even the people developing AI tools don't want to be developing AI tools. spoke to someone who is like "I used to make things people wanted, now I'm being asked by upper management who is only interested in saving money, to make something that literally no one who is going to use it wants, and I don't even know if it will work, or save money." and I'm just. holy shit. no one wants this!

^^ you do have my full permission talk shit about my company. or any company. fuck companies.

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Licorice ferns

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taking a walk was the right call, thank you to the two people who bullied encouraged me. new york did new york at me and it was weird and chaotic and occasionally uncomfortable but it also smelled like honeysuckle near the park (instead of pee) and I saw a fat dog who waddled everywhere and refused to walk in a straight line. so. I am not done crying or worrying but it is at least still an okayish world to live in.

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do I need to get out of this house and take a walk or do I need some time to sit inside and cry. have I already cried too much for the last 24 hours and if so do I give a shit. am I freaking out because of unknowable existential dread or because my family is on a call making decisions and I can't be on the call because of fucking work. is "I have been crying nonstop for the last two days and dreading this moment for two weeks" a good reason to not come in to work. should I go take a walk or a nap about it. what the fuck are you supposed to do when the things you care about are completely outside of your control, but you have to constantly be engaged with all the shit that you know means absolutely nothing.

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Germany, Black Forest

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got an update. the doctors are giving her (my grandmother) 2 weeks to 3 months. it's exactly as bad as I thought it would be, when this all started.

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sitting at work crying for an hour then hastily cleaning my face and jumping on a call like it's 2023 or something

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Germany, Black Forest: Mushrooms

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In light of the no.1 trending topic on this site, I'd like to inform youse that Kitty Kendall, one of the survivors who bravely spoke out against Neil Gaiman and accused him of rape in 2025, has said here and here that if you are looking to support her and other survivors, you can make a donation to OurVOICE (the counselling service Kendall herself used) or your local rape crisis centre. If you can't make a donation, you can help to ensure people do not forget what Kendall and other survivors have gone through and continue to go through as they pursue legal action, and that Gaiman has already spent a lot of money in the attempt to sue these women for speaking out.

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Germany: Black Forest

This is the location of Stalag VC, a Nazi POW camp in Malschbach near Baden-Baden. It was built in 1939 and closed in 1944. Information at the site notes that of the forced laborers, Soviet & Eastern European prisoners were treated much worse than the American and French POWs. At least 205 people died there.

It's very quiet there now. Quiet, and beautiful. I've heard there are places where the land remembers what happened there, where the feeling of evil lingers. That was not my experience here. It's on us to remember.

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Germany: Black Forest Mountains

We drove from the Black Forest back to Frankfurt the scenic way and took lots of stops, so I don't have any more specific location details. All I can say is that it was a really nice drive.

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Ponyo (2008)

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Germany, Black Forest

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work stressing me out like a motherfucker while it becomes more and more clear that my grandmother is dying. fucking perfect.

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Blueberry Lake...

Warren, Vermont