✿A Complicated Piece❀
It's happening again. The feeling of loneliness, where you feel like no one needs you, how useless you feel. The feeling where you experience a sudden wave of sadness crash over you like how the waves collide with the stone walls of the pier. It's like a sudden plot twist after turning a page from a book. I feel... I don't know what I'm feeling. Never been diagnosed, never given the answers to what I'm going through. First, an episode of pure happiness, then in the blink of an eye, sorrowful. How my mood changes oh so quickly like flipping a switch to a lightbulb. It's only that... my lightbulb explodes. I feel like a burden to everyone I meet. It's like an empty feeling in your chest you can't explain, the racing thoughts in your head that you just can't seem to stop no matter how much you try to distract yourself. Spirits, guiding your hand to something you weren't even supposed to touch, something you weren't supposed to drag on your skin and watch how new, red "tattoos" appear on your flesh. The little demons whispering into your ear how you'd be better off dead.
It won't be long til my body turns cold to the touch, my eyes glazed over, my once happy smile wiped off my face, bringing it to my grave, burying it with me in the dirt.