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it’s just me, myself, and my never ending pile of unfulfilled art projects

#this brain can just keep coming up with animatic ideas that i don’t follow through on #winter yaps #i have so many. they’re all in my head. they could be so cool if some of them were on my tablet

valtsv

basically the best thing any character can do is decide they don't want to be afraid anymore - in fact they never want to be afraid of anything ever again - and take action so drastic they fail to realise that this too is a decision motivated by fear. or to account for the Consequences of that.

valtsv

[with obvious perverted intent] hey. don't you want to release the safety catches on that character. don't you want to flip off all the switches holding them back and let the control rods go.

funny-tik-toks

#is it insane to tag this as my blorbo #jc ophiucus #i’m not kidding

vetchtibbles

despite everything, it’s still you (derogatory)

vetchtibbles

wait hey man wait whoah hey

#and yet you’ve changed so much and you don’t even realize it #because the one thing that hasn’t changed is the way that you see yourself #jc ophiucus

incandescent-creativity

Do you ever write a sentence and then realize “Nah, that’s too self aware for you” and backspace a bunch of times.

incandescent-creativity

#me thinking SO hard about what my characters would think about things before games #because every single time i ultimately come out of a game going ‘damn i shoulda said smth else as the character’#unfortunately improv is hard to keep up with and my brain is not very geared for it #i like analysis and having a lot of time to think about how to write interactions #which basically means i should be a writer more than a player lmao #but i also like acting so here we are

But, did you forget?

We are neither of these, dragon.

closeups and process under the cut because tumblr EATS the quality

#jc ophiucus #dnd oc #winteriine #digital art #dungeons and dragons #procreate #strixhaven #artists on tumblr #original character #my art #transgender

tfw you realize the blorbo has been vicariously living out her missing girlhood through her friends by hosting girls’ night for everyone

#cupping her in my hands #we’ll make a cute girl out of you yet #jc ophiucus #winter yaps

kayvsworld

most tragic thing about wanting to see more stuff of your oc is that the c is o and YOU have to make the stuff. devastating. why can’t art of my beautiful baby just appear in my hands. just materialize under my pillow, like from the tooth fairy

comikbook

“how do you get people online to care about your ocs” you have to be soooooooo annoying like really annoying

comikbook

everyone get more annoying NOW

#I CAN’T I’M BUSY #you have to understand i would love to be the most irritating about my blorbos ever #the problem is that i am constantly at risk of spoiling things for my party mates #and also i have too much work to do outside of blorbos #all the thoughts stay in my head sadly

splattergutz

i feel like i’m cursed forever but other than that i’m doing alright

turnipfritters

dogwoodbite

[ID: tweet by @/castingahex "The Curse, which i famously have" /End ID]

#jc ophiucus

biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist

as a younger person I'd sometimes get overwhelmed with the violence of the world, not just human violence but the violence done to animals and by animals, the innate violence of being an animal. because an animal is, by definition, an organism that must consume other organisms to live. and this would lodge in my spiraling young adult mind, the tragedy that to live, to be a creature, is to cause harm. that life is sustained by consuming life.

eventually I got older (and medicated), but in the meantime spending time in woodland really helped. it comforted me to be around plantlife, which feeds not on life but on sunlight, and therefore causes no harm.

anyway now I'm reading The Hidden Life Of Trees by Peter Wohlleben (incredible book) and it turns out that was a big fat LIE. forests are violent as FUCK

biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist

life as a tree is fucking BRUTAL. ok no they don't actually eat each other (well, not until they've been broken down and digested by microorganisms first) but competition is FIERCE. sunlight and water are finite resources. survival rates are dismal. a tree can release a million seeds in a lifetime and have only one offspring live to maturity. some species evolved ways of stealing sunlight from trees who got there first, bidding their time as a sapling then shooting out from under older canopies to hog as as much light as possible. next-door neighbors? fuck em, let em starve.

then you get shit like epiphytes that decided to just grow on top of other plants. strangler fig vines, for instance, which decided well fuck, im just gonna cling to this tree trunk and let it do the support work. maybe entangle our roots and envelope my host completely over time. oopsie my host died? that's ok I'll just cling to its corpse for eternity

equally horrifying is the honeysuckle, which preys on young trees boa-constrictor style, squeezing the life out of saplings, which grow with permanent deformities before dying prematurely (makes for a neat walking stick though)

then you get out and proud parasites like mistletoe who are happy to attach themselves to tree canopies and suck their blood extract water and nutrients. so yeah some plants do eat each other actually. gives ya some perspective on the old christmas tradition of hunting mistletoe with guns (yes that's a thing, shooting them down out of trees like squirrels. yes, unlike squirrels they deserve it). as for the romance angle, who doesn't want to kiss a lover beneath the dying corpse of a parasitic trophy kill? sexy as heck.

in conclusion, PLANTS ARE VIOLENT AS FUCK, and that's not even getting into the eternal chemical warfare they are forced to wage against insects, fungi, microbes and other enemies.

one day soon the forests will turn on us, and when that day comes I'm cheerfully betraying humanity and skipping away to cross enemy lines 🫡

kofi

biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist

to those who thought this post was heading in a heartwarming direction, i do NOT apologize and i DO hope the forest and its creeping mycelium tendrils crawl their way into your nightmares

#what if i associated one of my blorbos with honeysuckle. as a treat #mara

tpwrtrmnky

Sometimes "estrogen would save her" means literally just going on HRT would resolve her issues, but other times it means "a radical act of self-determination would reframe so much of how she views herself and the world around her, she'd come out of it a changed, better person. But also she's a girl and needs to realize that."

#jc ophiucus

they’re making a fool out of me on blorbo tv

#my therapist told me today that i have to work with the mental illness instead of trying to outpace it. and then i realized #jc ophiucus #dnd oc #winteriine #digital art #dungeons and dragons #procreate #strixhaven #winter yaps #artists on tumblr #original character #sona

i love you blorbos that want to die extremely badly but can’t. this says nothing about the state of my psyche

#tw suicide mention #sometimes i go out of my way to make the oc the most justified in wanting to die possible #so that you cannot possibly argue that killing themselves is a wrong and selfish thing to do #and yet they’re still not allowed to go. and they still get no sympathy for wanting so badly to just stop hurting #i don’t know. i’m mad about suicide stigma but i also think that killing yourself is bad #i just wish people would look at that pain with sympathy instead of vicious judgement #instead of going ‘fix it yourself you’re the only one who can get over it’ i’m asking for your help. i’m asking you to understand.#im begging you to see me without having to die to do it. help me #everything hurts and i need you to understand that i am in pain #please don’t leave me to survive this alone #winter yaps

valtsv

kind of love it when someone is given a position of power they don't want and instead of being all reluctantly noble and stepping up to bravely bear the burden they're an immature cunt about it

valtsv

i don't mean competently evil. i don't mean they get tragically and sexily corrupted into becoming a suave, sensual dominator. i mean they recognise the illusion of choice and privelege that they've been collared with and regress to crying and throwing fits and sulking and indulging in petty cruelty like an overgrown child in the hope that someone "better" will decide they're unfit to rule and take it all away from them.

#jc ophiucus #i never asked for this.

sycamorality

"woah this is such a unique take on the character i wonder why is the character like that" >look inside character >it's the author's subconscious attempt to love themself

#yeah

strawberrycircuits

sometimes the moral of the story really is just "you cannot go back and what happened to you is going to be with you for the rest of your life. but it's still going to be okay" huh

#jc ophiucus #this is the crux of jc’s story arc rn #because so much of jc’s self loathing and anxious attitude towards anything is rooted in one idea #that because there was no one to save her when all the awful things happened to her #she became damaged in some way. irreversibly changed and unable to be fixed #and so much of her story is her struggle with this idea that no matter what happens now she will always be this way #and she is no longer capable of being rescued or fixed or loved in a way that matters #i think it’s very much a story about trauma and abuse and the horror of becoming someone you never wanted to be #and learning to accept that even though it was awful and the things you experienced will never leave you #there is still always tomorrow and you are still always changing and there is still a chance at living a better life no matter what #and you can still be saved and you can still be loved #damaged or not

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