for all you can say about it as an adaptation, i think it's still absolutely wild that the untamed made xiyao canon. like you read the book and you're like "what the fuck is wrong with lan xichen" and the show answers: he was head over heels for the guy. first time meeting him he's rubbing his hands in front of everyone's salad. and don't get me started on zhu zanjin's interview that's like "you know how lwj and wwx are VERY GOOD FRIENDS well lxc and jgy are VERY GOOD FRIENDS also". deranged. incredible. fantastic. the best thing that's ever happened to me
It's been a hot second since I last wrote anything MDZS/CQL related, mainly because I have had other hyperfixations, and I do not control the hyperfixation.
But this is special š
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The sound of a xiao can be heard from a distance within the borders of the Gusu Lan area. Those who know, they sigh softly, those who don't just rolls their eyes, and the one who knows the most sits still within the walls of his seclusion.
Lan Xichen has not really done any progress since he's entered seclusion. His very soul seems to be petrified in grief, and many other emotions he's not able to define.
Is he angry?
Is he sad?
Is he regretful?
He doesn't know anymore. Perhaps that is how Wangji felt when Wei Wuxian died, he thinks, perhaps now he understands a little better the lengths his brother wnt and is still going for his beloved.
But Lan Xichen does not have a beloved anymore.
Perhaps he doesn't deserve to have one, considering that he himself stabbed him and condemned him.
And Nie Huaisang's face, and his 'I don't know' still burn in his mind, making him doubt his own actions.
And now he can't even bring himself to pronounce his name.
So he plays, he plays as Wangji had played the guqin so many times, perhaps hoping to find answers, or closure. Or, if all else fails, at least a sliver of comfort in the solitude he had closed himself into.
Such is the destiny of a Lan, to love fiercely, and be destroyed by that same love.
So he plays 'Inquiry', his questions endless, was he wrong in doubting him, was he fooled by him all the time, were all the countless little moments they had spent just an act?
He doesn't know anymore.
And it is in the moment that he is about to finish playing, that he hears someone responding to Inquiry.
No, not someone, it is him. His spirit lingers there, in the space between Lan Xichen and the window, his dimpled face showing that smile, the one he always had reserved for him.
"Sect Leader Jin." Lan Xichen calls him, fearing that if he calls him any other name he might crumble to dust.
The ghost does not reply. Lan Xichen tries again.
"Jin Guangyao." And he hopes that the trembling of his voice is not showing, as he feels tears prick the corner of his eyes. The ghost does not reply, once again.
"Meng Yao." His appearance was needed for him to pronounce his name once again. The ghost stays still.
"A-Yao." And he sees the ghost move, finally, sitting quietly in front of him. A-Yao reaches out to cup Lan Xichen's cheek with a ghostly hand, and his voice, a little distorted, as if coming from far away, reaches Lan Xichen's ears. "Er-ge. Let us talk."
And the soft sound of the xiao slowly fades, leaving only the sound of Lan Xichen, quietly sobbing in front of the ghost of his beloved, his own heart, frozen in time, finally starting to beat again.
Ready to read an extra for Like a Virus in a Lullaby? Here you go!
Summary:
It was during this charming summerās day, with the air lightly fragranced with newly cut grass peppered with the tumultuous smog of fear and celebration that Jin Guangyao forced himself away from his self-pitying thoughts. It was pathetic to ponder about his situation before those he was to kill. Lamenting his situation when he, at least, knew how to survive it.
But he had had allowed himself to rot; fresh innocence turned to sin dripping white from the cunt, without even an alpha to bite his neck and prove his purity. A prostituteās son he was indeed. How Niang would despise the person heād become.
OR: Jin Guangyao and Xue Yang 'celebrate' their success in the demonic cultivation experiments.
Ready to read an extra for Like a Virus in a Lullaby? Here you go!
Summary:
It was during this charming summerās day, with the air lightly fragranced with newly cut grass peppered with the tumultuous smog of fear and celebration that Jin Guangyao forced himself away from his self-pitying thoughts. It was pathetic to ponder about his situation before those he was to kill. Lamenting his situation when he, at least, knew how to survive it.
But he had had allowed himself to rot; fresh innocence turned to sin dripping white from the cunt, without even an alpha to bite his neck and prove his purity. A prostituteās son he was indeed. How Niang would despise the person heād become.
OR: Jin Guangyao and Xue Yang 'celebrate' their success in the demonic cultivation experiments.
I feel like not enough people play with the fact that Lan Xichen knew Nie Mingjue from before he ever received Baxia, while Meng Yao has only ever known Nie Mingjue while he was under Baxia's influence. A lot of Lan Xichen's insistence that Nie Mingjue just has a bad day and isn't really like this might have to do with the fact that he genuinely used to know a Nie Mingjue who wasn't anything at all like this. While Meng Yao has always seen the anger and paranoia that is now turned on him somewhere in Nie Mingjue's eyes and his way of dealing with things. To Lan Xichen, a different da-ge just genuinely exists, while to Meng Yao, this idea is just a hypothetical.
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: ééē„åø - å¢Øé¦éč | MĆ³dĆ o ZĒshÄ« - MĆ²xiÄng TĆ³ngxiĆ¹
Rating: Mature
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Lan Huan | Lan Xichen/Meng Yao | Jin Guangyao
Characters: Meng Yao | Jin Guangyao, Lan Huan | Lan Xichen
Additional Tags: brief mentions of Nie Mingjue and Wen Ruohan, Mpreg | Male Pregnancy, Miscarriage, Trans Meng Yao | Jin Guangyao, End of Sunshot Campaign, Hurt No Comfort
Summary:
A pain grows within him, and even without the knowledge, newly named Jin Guangyao knows there is now an emptiness inside him.
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Chapters: 4/?
Fandom: ééē„åø - å¢Øé¦éč | MĆ³dĆ o ZĒshÄ« - MĆ²xiÄng TĆ³ngxiĆ¹, ééē„åø | MĆ³dĆ o ZĒshÄ« (Cartoon), ééē„åø | MĆ³dĆ o ZĒshÄ« (Webcomic), ééē„åø | MĆ³dĆ o ZĒshÄ« (Audio Drama)
Rating: Mature
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings, Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death
Relationships: Meng Yao | Jin Guangyao/Nie Mingjue
Characters: Nie Mingjue, Meng Yao | Jin Guangyao, Jin Rusong
Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Alternate Universe, Parallel Universes, Beating, Abusive Relationships, Established Relationship, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, Mpreg | Male Pregnancy, Dom/sub Undertones, Kidnapping, Jin Rusong Lives, Meng Yao | Jin Guangyao-centric, Meng Yao | Jin Guangyao Needs a Hug, Bottom Meng Yao | Jin Guangyao, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Angst, Falling In Love
Summary:
Jin Guangyao was going to die there.
Beatings from Nie Mingjue and the kick down Carp Tower had been bad enough that it took a while to return to his room. It wasnāt until he collapsed that Jin Guangyao realized he needed help.
When he wakes, heās back in the Unclean, and he is addressed as Nie Furen. Shocked and confused, Jin Guangyao insists he never married Nie Mingjue, but everyone insists that not only is he Nie Furen, but that his son, now called Nie Rusong, is alive as well. This isnāt his world, and he has to get back home before everything goes south.
