gods are stubborn. so am i.

a strong bone in the crypt of meat I am. - hel . 30 . they/he

[witchoil]

hello! i’m a long-time tumblr user who kind of never left! here’s a quick run-down of my deal for those who don’t know me:

fandom, broadly

fiber arts

i write fic which you can read on ao3 and frequently participate in fic exchanges

i love dead doves and tag somewhat inconsistently. PROCEED ACCORDINGLY.

fulltime hetjoshi with a minor in butch4butch studies

obsessed with making playlists

i enjoy the format and vibe of tumblr, especially long-form posting and tag novels

enjoy your stay!

also if you’re ever feeling really really really bad here are some things to remember

[sarahcosico]

the kissy kissy <3

www.sarahcosico.bigcartel.com

[villainwithacrush]

[questionablyfictional]

[ID: A venn diagram with three circles: kink, whump, and psychological horror

Where they intersect, "THE GOOD SHIT!!!" is written in all caps /End ID.]

[irenthel]

I can't believe Armand killed Larry.

[epiphainie]

slow burn where they're already having sex. such a beautiful combination i cannot put it into words

[waytoohigh63]

thing that pisses me off most about adhd advice from neurotypicals... the 'doing something for 30 days forms a habit.' bitch nothing in my life is a habit i would be ripping bong and jacking off all day if it was a matter of choice. never underestimate my ability to be super invested in something for like 2 weeks and then forget to do it one day and never go back to it

[househunting]

$560,000/2 br/3 ba

Philadelphia, PA

Built in 2020 [househunting on substack which is free]

[sleepygaymerdisease]

[european-love-hotel]

Chris Pontius in Jackass (2000)

[challengersdvd]

random ass poll but i love random ass polls and i’ve been having convos about this lately so! i’m aware fic length has a lot to do with this, but imagine your fic has around the word count of one of the longer ones you’ve written. if you rb this please rb with the amount of words it is!

how long does it take you to write and finish a fic?

1 week

2-3 weeks

a month (and change)

2-3 months

6+ months

over a year

results button!

Remaining time: 3 days 4 hours

for context: my longest fic is just over 15k and it took me a year to write, my second longest that i’ve published so far is 6.7k and it took me a few days shy of two months.

[beardedmrbean]

[theman]

I GOT A FUCKING RAISE THE POTATO WORKED WTF

[tattooedzombigirl]

This potato works. Every. Fucking. Time.

[imanutcase-10]

Then bring me luck

[thirddeadlysin]

the day after I posted this last time I was notified that I was selected for a really cool mentorship gig and got an unrelated glowing review at work

[icantbearsedtothinkofone]

Hey Potato, cure my -ing cold so I can have a good time while away.

[dduane]

Here's the potato. Make what use of it you will. :)

[trollkatt]

Big Jack

Pet Foolery, #93

[dykeselfcest]

baru cormorant somehow some of the best and most gratifying lesbianism ever put to page even though at ~300 pages in she is still strictly celibate and barely even allows herself to acknowledge when she's in a homoerotic situation except to note that it's "risky"...baru I'm obsessed with you

[dykeselfcest]

like could definitely be considered a form of repressed lesbianism, but in fiction I'm better acquainted with the variety in which the character is actively lying to themself, refusing to acknowledge it internally, etc. and I really enjoy this variant of like. she's making a conscious, strategic, calculated decision, but part of that involves maintaining a careful, intellectual distance from her own desires.

from a writing perspective I am also really impressed by the ability to get this across in the aforementioned homoerotic situations without resorting to what is a go-to shorthand for myself and many other writers, descriptions of bodily responses that the character attempts to ignore/resist. it communicates that level of detachment soooo well and I think it takes a lot of skill to create these fraught situations and have what is actually fraught about them be expressed almost tacitly.

also just personally I feel very Seen by her visceral reaction to considering actually being with a man, even for purely strategic reasons. the bit about her body rejecting the concept. in that I know a lot of other lesbians who are in the realm of like "I could do it for a while if necessary even if it's not what I actually want out of life" but for me it has always been an instant discomfort that I can't overcome, which was present in various forms even when I thought I wanted a boyfriend etc.

[dykeselfcest]

I also think it's very successful at communicating lesbianism that is both relational and individual, which I think is how many/most people experience it! fictional narratives frequently focus on falling in love with a single person as the locus of Awakening, which I think is partly just because it's easy to write—and if you have a ready-made partner you can accelerate the timeline a bit because either you have someone to guide you or you have someone to take the journey with. but for many people it's not about being interested in a single person at all; it's about your own responses and desires, an internal understanding of yourself that is about who and what you want, but not in the sense of a specific person.

[keymintt]

all the pulse and solitude of a self-burning sun

[loveridden1999]

would u rather england or argentina win?

i'd rather the stadium blows up

[witchoil]

i haaaaaate hate hate hate celebrity interview podcasts. like unless you are telling a REALLY compelling personal narrative with an arc AND are the funniest person alive i DO NOT WANT TO HEAR IT!!!!!! IT’S CHEAP CONTENT!!!!!

[hmslusitania]

When you’re writing science fiction, THE most important thing to ask yourself isn’t how soft or hard you want the science to be, but to ask yourself “who would Shohreh Aghdashloo play in this story” and if you do not have an answer, re-evaluate