Jan 16, 2021
has it always been this bad?
have I always felt this crushing emptiness in my chest
this breath that I’ve held on to
for the longest time
I constantly feel this warmth behind my eyes
a dam ready to burst at the slightest intrusion
if it has always been this bad
how long can I keep going on for
how long can I grind my teeth into oblivion
how long until I am free
I once dreamed of being a writer
an artist
a lover
a friend
i am none of these
is this what life is
is this what’s normal
to wait with baited breath
to seek oblivion
is this how everyone feels
or is it just me
am I just too weak?
