An Endless Universe

"I think I'm nostalgic for a time I never experienced." twenty-two. california .

[julaibib]

[girl-looking-out-window-deactiv]

Persepolis Grandma Quote!

[khadlja]

there’s a poem by hafiz someone shared on this site and i just can’t stop thinking about these words: “this place where you are right now / God circled on a map for you”.

so whoever needs to hear this as the end of the year and decade approaches...this place where you are right now, God circled on a map for you.

[juliastiles]

Your hands are cold.

Pride & Prejudice (2005) dir. Joe Wright

[barkangel-deactivated20140124]

you son of a mumford

[parkistan]

them: u can’t just cut away ppl like that

me: snip snip

[joli--coeur]

reminder: what’s yours will be yours. no need to rush. no need to feel anxious. all good things take time. and when it does come, your heart will be so grateful. give it time. rest your mind. and enjoy the present moments.

[aidashakur]

Becoming less reactive is a big part of growth & decreasing stress. Sometimes this type of avoidance can be looked at as lack of interest or uncaring, but it isn’t. If you let everything get you worked up, you’re damaging your mind, body & soul

[jigglypuffsvevo]

my kink is closing doors so that i am in complete solitude

[kaijuno]

The real college experience

- Depression nap at noon - “I haven’t been to that class in 2 weeks lmao” - sometimes ya just see ppl crying and that’s okay - sometimes ya just see ppl napping and that’s okay - DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG SOMEONE IS WALKING THEIR DOG ON CAMPUS THIS IS NOT A DRILL - “Is it free?” - “will there be free food?” - profs walking in late, hungover in pajamas - profs saying the fuck word and the freshies being surprised - *prof walks in 15 minutes late* “y'all want some milk duds” - a second Depression nap - finding a lost temple in the middle of the campus gardens and using it as a study and napping spot - seriously why has no one else found this spot - accidentally getting locked into a building because you studied until 3am and you have to escape through a fire escape on the second floor - Hammock Squad™ - witnessing a mental breakdown at least once a semester - IHOP at 2am with the squad - having to throw away your favorite water bottle because it smells like the alcohol you drank that one time you almost died on homecoming week - the apartment 2 doors down is having a party and they saw you walking to get your mail and invited you and now you’re drunk and sitting on the floor with their dog - The Weed Smell - The First Crossfaded Experience - everyone’s gay - that one prof you become best friends with and ppl wonder if y'all are fuckin but in reality y'all are probably just chillin and watchin cowboy bebop or some shit

[theonlybrunetteweasley]

Today I saw a nipple pasty chillin on the ground in the rain

[kaijuno]

God what a mood

[hotboyproblems]

someone: i love you

me internally: prove it prove it prove it prove it prove it prove it

also me internally: please dont love me i dont want to hurt you this is terrifying please dont love me

yet also me internally: good, everyone should love me. get on your fucking knees and worship the fucking ground i walk on.

somehow also me internally: THEY LOVE ME THEY LOVE ME THEY LOVE ME THEY LOVE ME THEY LOVE ME THEY LOVE ME THEY LOVE ME!!!!!

me externally: aww i love you too!!

[wontedquiet]

“I’m trying to get over you”

*me in my head*

YOU’Re tryna get over ME??

[ahmdba]

Downtown, Cairo

[fuckyeahvidyabalan]

[scotzch]

“I wasn't actually in love, but I felt a sort of tender curiosity.”

—F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Great Gatsby

well, I guess sometimes curiosity should stay just that.

[bullee]

[wontedquiet]

reanalyzing the choices I make and the energy I give to certain people. I’m always driven by nostalgia and this fear of losing people, things and experiences and for that I tend to carry on friendships and relationships that can be damaging to me in the longer run. This friendship I had with this individual was one I never wanted in the first place but with time I came to realize I enjoyed spending time with him and unfortunately as I become close to people my expectations for them rise because I expect them to carry the friendship with the same energy and passion they started off with. I’m always let down. And this friendship I had with this person has been no different. With time true colors have started to shine and he has this tendency of unconsciously (or consciously?) making me jealous by doing things he knows would make me question things. I’m so exhausted and it’s always a cyclical process. I just feel so used at times even though I never show it; I never express how I truly feel for that very reason and to be honest I think I’ve finally come to realize there are better people out there for me and like any experience people are not meant to last in your life forever. Use them as experiences and move on. I know there are better things out there waiting for me and I can decide when I want to stop.