Congratulations, you are all alone

I know you want to leave but Friend, please don't take your life away from me.

[wontyousaveus]

She was firece and spirited And I was not She was independent and full of courage And I was not She was impetuous and impulsive And I was not She was eloquent and literate And I was not She was intimidating and irritating And I was not She was emotional and sensitive And I was not She was interesting and fascinating And I was not She was everything to me And I was not

c. t. - She

[wontyousaveus]

I need to get something off my chest about skam. I’m probably the only one who thinks Isak and Even are not getting back together. I mean I really want them to but I think that the whole season 3 is not exactly about them. It’s Isaks season. It’s about him getting his shit together and Even has been a huge help. He’s himself again when he’s with the boys, he started writing with his parents again. He told them about him being with a boy. He told his friends. He seems happier now. And he probably will be okay with mental illnesses (hopefully). So I don’t know if there is place now for Even. Life’s not always easy and skam is not a series that shows what we want to see. They portray everything as real as possible. The thing is it actually could be real. But it is not. And I’m just wondering what will happen to Isaks and Evens relationship. I want them to be okay. To be happy.

[wontyousaveus]

Sometimes, out of curiosity, there are some people I really like You are one of them

[wontyousaveus]

I haven’t written in a long time Words are bottled up My brain is so full It’s almost exploding I need to get rid Of all the sadness Of all the unnecessary self doubt Of all my the numbness Let me feel something Happiness Power Love It’s time to change To stop my self pity I need to start thinking differently Let’s start with: I can do this

c. t. - Possibility

[wontyousaveus]

Doctor, doctor Tell me what is wrong I promise I will eat a bit If you're gonna keep me company

c.t. - excerpt of a poem in my head

[wontyousaveus]

I totally didn't try to be artsy today but my room just looked so Tumblr

[wontyousaveus]

Alcohol is never a good idea But every time it is It numbs you Makes you less timid It lets you talk And be comfortable with strangers You are not like you are And still you are you Your new sides And characteristics Are more you than ever Because of your new self-confidence You learn new things and people You learn yourself and others better The next day? You try to forget it all Just to repeat it next weekend Just to become someone new again A version you feel better in A version of yourself that has excuses A version of yourself who finally can be the real yourself

- c.t - I'm emotional and drunk and it's 4am

[wontyousaveus]

You asked me if there was a song that reminded me of you Oh honey If you only knew That in every song there is a bit of you Maybe I see you in everything I listen Because I am looking for you Because you are to me What music is to my ears

c. t. - some song

[wontyousaveus]

It seems so unreal So surreal to me Like I’m in a dream Soon to be woken up That’s what life is to me A dream I don’t believe that this happens I can’t believe it How How does it all work? I’m too confused to be like myself these days I’m afraid I haven’ been like myself for ages Maybe that’s who I am Not myself and still I can’t be anyone else Can I?

c. t. - another 2am thoughts I turned into a little kina poem

[wontyousaveus]

Circumstances change Just like we all do Once there was only you and me It isn't any longer It's you and me and him and her and them It isn't us against the world anymore It's too little time Too much going on And too many things to care about It isn't happy any longer It's "I can't do this anymore" "I'm done with everything" And "I don't want to exist for a few moments" It isn't us laughing and cuddling It isn't us blocking everyone and everything out It isn't us and the music It isn't us obsessing Like it all used to be One thing although didn't change I still wouldn't be me without you I couldn't Could you?

c. t. - Is it still us? Us together?

[wontyousaveus]

When the smoke touched my lungs They fell in love Oh, it was such a wild Bittersweet love But as soon as the smoke disappeared My lungs felt alone And sad Nothing could help except the liquor Running down my throat To set me on fire Let me burn My lungs, my throat, my heart Let me burn down To ashes Smoke and liquor Set me on fire Burn me alive

c. t. - a late night poem about being high and drunk

[wontyousaveus]

I miss you I miss you so fucking much When you went away You took something with you a piece of me You left a hole instead And the longer you are not here the bigger it gets The longer we don't see each other the more it hurts Oh, it hurts so much It hurts so fucking much I don't feel anything Except the pain It's consuming me Eating up my insides To leave me empty To leave me alone I miss you I need you

c. t. - for my soulmate. because yesterday late at night I couldn’t stand the thougt to be 700 km away form you

[wontyousaveus]

The world around us is burning Just like you and me Oh, just like us

[wontyousaveus]

Black dressed and golden hair Sadness on your sheets And in your eyes But hoping for love Music in the ears Lyrics in your mind Quotes on the phone Happiness seems nowhere near Where did your laughter go? When did your empty look appear? Hearts and hearts and hearts Everywhere Your quotes, your sheets, your mind Your chest Beating Hoping Laughing Loving

c. t. - my friend had a bad day and I couldn’t help so I wrote this little something

[wontyousaveus]

Can you hear me singing? I'm not using my voice It's not made for it But all my words have so much Melody

c. t. - excerpt of a poem in my mind

[wontyousaveus]

now I’m sick of losing soul mates so where do we begin I can finally see you’re as fucked up as me so how do we win?

Dodie Clark - doddleoddle “Sick of losing soulmates”

[wontyousaveus]

I look stupid when I grin. But I like how my face feels when it has this weird muscle action because it's nothing I want to do. My body just has to do it because it can't keep that little flame of happiness inside it.

c. t. - a text message I wrote to my best friend