whoisrebeccaj?

Impulsive, creative & itching to do something. I'm extreme & not too great at answering the phone. Sweep me off my feet & make my heart race (because chances are I won't remember it by morning).

[wormsoup]

This is my attempt to start writing again.

I’ve travelled the world since my last posts yet somehow I feel I have LESS to say

[guerrillatech]

[jv]

This is akin all those hot takes about the 2k bug being an hoax:

"Remember when they told us every computer was going to crash on 1/1/01 and there would be chaos and then nothing happened?"

Yeah, I remember. And I'm sure every programmer and sysadmin that contributed the billion person/hour global effort to prevent it also remembers.

[alarajrogers]

No one talks about acid rain anymore, either. And that's a very good thing.

[oligopspispopd-deactivated20221]

see also START and START II, which significantly reduced nuclear stockpiles

[cop-disliker69]

International cooperation is actually so effective that most people don’t even notice it happening, and then erroneously believe it can’t solve anything.

[silly-jellyghoty]

Fixing issues before they develop into actual disasters is such an underappreciated thing it hurts at all levels.

We don't talk about acid rain because there isn't any more acid rain because when acid rain started happening and we learned that the cause was mainly sulphur oxide and carbon monooxide from car exhausts, countries all over the world made it a law that car companies had to produce cars that produced less exhaust with better effectivenes (burning the fuel all the way to CO2 instead of the halfassed CO) and oil rafineries to remove the sulphur from the gasoline in the first place.

We don't talk about computers crashing because of the turn of the century, because thousands of programmers worked very hard to write updates and patches for Every Single Program humanity as a whole used back in 1999 and then somehow managed to failtest, distribute, and update every single device and system, be it an online or offline one before the midnight of the 1st january of 2000.

On a much smaller scale, no one ever commenta or notices cleaners and housekeepers doing their job - be it at home or at whole buildings - because they always make sure that there's nothing to notice. But don't be fooled - at any point of your life you are one week of them not doing away from swimming in trash and filth with nothing to eat and nothing clean to wear. Only then you would notice.

Now it's time to do that thing again and make sure that we don't kill our whole planetary ecosystem within the next century.

[silver-tongues-blog]

[wormsoup]

Everything! In one little picture ❤️

[wormsoup]

so so strange

in my dreams I find

I recognise no people,

that was until you

[wormsoup]

Think of you often -

dizzy colours colliding.

The fawn that flatlined

[wormsoup]

At home in the decay

[against-stars]

my father said to me once that one of the things he deeply regretted was not putting music on for his father while he was fading away. he told me that grandpa would just sit in his old armchair in the quiet, and not until after he’d passed did my dad think of how he could have played of his favorite classical music tapes for him so grandpa could listen to something while he still could. i was very young when this happened and not much older when my dad told me this, but it always stuck with me as something important.

my mother died at home in a hospice cot, slowly shutting down over the course of about a week. when she had stopped responding, i remembered what dad told me about wishing he’d played music for grandpa, and i put the radio on her favorite country music station and kept it on for her until she died.

daddy died in hospital. no cassette players, no decent radios. the day after he was brought in, i thought again of what he told me, and i bought a little portable bluetooth speaker. even though he never woke up, was never aware, i played music for him too.

there’s no real significance to sharing this, not really. my motivation is selfish, again: i just want to hope that someone might think of this when their loved one is stuck in silence somehow, and maybe they’ll play music for them, and they won’t have to regret not doing so. i want to hope it helps someone. and i want to hope that someone will remember my dad with me, even in just a “story i read on the internet” way.

[eirianerisdar]

Hey, OP, you actually might have done a very significant thing for your parents indeed. Hearing is the last sense to go when someone is passing away. It’s why palliative care doctors tell patients’ relatives to continue speaking even if the patient stops responding. So even if your mother and father could not wake or respond to you or those around you, they perhaps could have heard the music they so loved, and perhaps were comforted. So what you did wasn’t selfish at all, and I’m sorry for jumping on to your post, but it’s likely that playing music for your parents as they passed away did much more for them than you might have known at the time.

[wormsoup]

I held my mums hand & spoke & quietly sang to her for the 16 hours between her last speaking & passing. It just seemed like the right thing to do at the time & now I’m so so glad that I did

[wormsoup]

raise your hand if you’re ready to ditch your body & become a sentient cloud of cosmic gas

[wormsoup]

17.08.18 // a low

feel like i’m drowning

too much meat covering the

girl i’m meant to be

think i’d have some more

confidence if my bones were 

just more prominent 

[wormsoup]

Please let me switch my thoughts off, just for a while.

[wormsoup]

As much as it’d delightful for a few hours,

I am more ready for some sunshine & going out without coats on.

sNOw more, thank you.

[wormsoup]

this one time I was dreaming

that the world was ending,

the stars were shining so brightly

as they fell from the sky

(like snow falling from telegraph wires

slowly then all at once)

[wormsoup]

with all the good &

bad decisions, I trust that

life is leading me.

I am at peace with

everything that has happened

I am not sorry

[gotinstarblog-deactivated201512]

[half-black-phillip]

I’m so mad because this worked

[britney2007spears]

help me roger

[telanu]

Reblogging myself because

Originally posted by gifs-for-the-masses

[luthienebonyx]

Reblogging myself because… what was that? Five minutes?

O_O

[riskpig]

………my friend has made me curious

[maryburgers]

help me roger

[maryburgers]

Update: after I reblogged this someone messaged me offering me tickets to the sold out Hausu screening with a Q&A and autograph session with the director

[hermes-whore-deactivated2019021]

let’s do it, roger

[spitefulreality-deactivated2015]

Roger helppppp

[curvycorinneranga]

I need you Roger!

[thaebae]

ROGER PLEASE

[wormsoup]

I need some time to write down all the thoughts that are taking up too much space in my head

[wormsoup]

Sometimes I find myself alone in the middle of nowhere.

[wormsoup]

don't be like the rest of them darling