ANOSHE

I went from tragic to anti. Soft Chaotic/Bubblegrunge. WIMS. 27 yo. PRO FUCKING CHOICE SHE/THEY, GREYROMANTIC, GREY-ASEXUAL. QUEER OF COLOR Lonely Creature Born Without a Place Diagnosed Autism/ADHD 🏳️🙃🏳️‍🌈 Agnostic

[caramelised-vampling]

Wanted to start a tag game of sorts! I've created a playlist that I'll link below and everyone who wants to participate can list songs and their artist, (1-10 songs, no more lmao) and I'll add them to the playlist! Once you've done that, tag people to pass it on and make the playlist grow It should be fun to see everyone's taste combined so give whatever you like atm <3

My songs are: The Hand- Anabelle Dinda The Woods- Lydia the Bard & Ben Tomalin Queen & Poet- John Michael Howell Fifty-One Fifty- Musithical Hunter- Paris Paloma

Tagging people to pass it one, (no pressure) @shemightbefantastic @cityofangeisislying @jaybirdsboxofchaos @bykerbitch16 @ineedhalp @wonderinqrache @knightsofnicola @xx-forest-of-stars-xx @pipsev @handstotheskye @thislentillikesreading1 @allhailgoldenchicken @friendshapedbeing @peachesyt @lady-mordem @lavender-bonbon @stupidocornetto @indigodreams109

[indigodreams109]

Choices, choices…

Counting Sheep by The Crane Wives

Wildfire (Gone, Gone, Gone) by Rabbitology

Hand On The Bible by Grace Power

Pure as a Lamb by Baby Bugs

Vulture Culture by Fangclub

@zaylinadventures @valleyshrike @lavenderhazeleyes @lavandergemini if you want to join!

(Why do so many of my mutuals have purple flowers in their pfp??)

[valleyshrike]

(idk man they look pretty. I like wisteria it smells very nice)

Curses by The Crane Wives

Language of the Lost by RIProducer

Butcher Vanity by Flavor Foley

Laplace’s Angel by Will Wood

Out Of The Rain by TheFatRat & Shiah Maisel

I think this a good cross-section of my music taste! I like some of RIProducer’s other songs a lot but they tend to be uhhh very dark and maybe not suitable for a shared playlist. 

@that-truant-heart if you’re interested!

And sure @mandragora-metalloidal go put FIRE4FUN on there or smth (why are we still not mutuals. we live in the same apartment. Mean to me. /j)

[that-truant-heart]

Sure! I've got:

Sweet Tooth by Scott Helman

Sweet Tooth by Cavetown

Sweet Tooth by Destroy Boys

Sour Times by Portishead

Bitter Medicine by The Crane Wives

@allsoulnocoal @fairymousse @mytoomanybookstoread @morionette413 @djpurple3 if you feel like it

[mytoomanybookstoread]

Why not? Let's go with

Plástico by Willie Colón and Ruben Blades

Deciciones by Ruben Blades

The Wolf from SIAMÉS

Gekkou Survive 激昂サバイブ from fictional band Franchouchou (Composer KOMU and lyricist ma-saya)

and for a full wildcard NEATH! by The Stupendium

@glass-not-a-girl05 @mistystarshine if you feel up for it here's a thing!

[glass-not-a-girl05]

It's my moment! I'll go with:

- I, Carrion (Icarian) by Hozier

- BOGOTÁ by ISA O

- Mariel y el Capitán by Sui Generis

- Fable by Gigi Perez

I'll go with @writeinmysoul, @thought-u-said-dragon-queen and @musyke

[writeinmysoul]

This was actually so hard to keep it at the max lol.

But I’ll go with:

Crumbling - Brodie Barclay

No Complaints - Noah Kahan

Outgrown - Dermot Kennedy

Somewhere in the Silence - ryman leon, Sam Vendig

Fine - Kyle Hume

Empty Room - Jamie Miller

Five Stars - Faceless Strangers

Options - Cameron Whitcomb

Mistake - NF

Only Time Will Tell - Shaya Zamora

I’m tapping in @bookish-blob @foxholecore @veritybee @foxhole118lasso @dolores-hazy @quote-thy-me @wimsreblog if anyone feels like it. :)

[writeinmysoul]

I’m between hyperfixations right now, so life is meaningless. Lmao. 🙃

[eymurn]

Being kept around and being fully chosen are two very different things.

[writeinmysoul]

I literally cannot listen to Noah Kahan often. Because every time I start listening to him, other music stops existing. And he’s all I listen to for weeks if not months. The last quarter of last year was nothing but him. And now I’m back in it again.

[writeinmysoul]

I want to go to New York to see broadway shows. 🙃

[writeinmysoul]

I need it to not be impossible to get Noah Kahan tickets. Between the pricing and just the general difficulty to get access to tickets at all, I’m a little frustrated.

[writeinmysoul]

Therapy got canceled Tuesday due to weather. So I’m sitting in feelings that would be best shared there. Didn’t want to trauma dump on main, so I thought I’d try writing something for the first time in years. I’ve been wanting a tattoo that said “lonely creature born without a place” for years now, and I thought I’d try to expand on that. Since it’s part of how I’m feeling. Not loving this so far, but it’s something.

This feels both so close and so far from what I want it to sound like. And I can’t find the line of cohesion I want. Feels like I’m different directions with this and am missing the lane that merges. So it’s frustrating me. I miss when I was a better writer and wrote more. But anyway. Here’s this so far.

Lonely creature

Born without a place

Aching for a home

But fearing the intent

Of not being chosen

Creature

Where are you

Abandoned creature

Left without a trace

Longing to be kept

And hating the silence

Of being forgotten

Creature

Take my hand

Watching for a kindness

That doesn't leave a bruise

Searching for a doorway

It doesn't have to lose

[writeinmysoul]

As a queer, it really be non-queer people that make me wanna be homophobic, cause highkey, they be gay asf.

Just kidding, but only partially.

[writeinmysoul]

Actually. That might just be my heterophobia. Forgot about that. Lmao.

[writeinmysoul]

As a queer, it really be non-queer people that make me wanna be homophobic, cause highkey, they be gay asf.

Just kidding, but only partially.

[writeinmysoul]

Sometimes the lack of like, in real life friendships, especially in person able to hang out with someone, kind of friendships, really puts me in a depressive mood. I enjoy being alone more often than not, but I also enjoy being with people I enjoy. And it makes me sad when I realize I don’t really have too many people I can just call up, especially indiscriminately, and even fewer people to actually do things with and get out the house with.

[writeinmysoul]

“The girls are fighting.” And it’s literally just my autism and ADHD.

[writeinmysoul]

Something I really hate reading, especially in fics, is when someone is talking and says maybe one sentence or even two and then it’ll say “he/she rambles/rambled” or something along those lines. Like bro. Rambled where. Stop that.

[writeinmysoul]

Latest tattoo. Inspired by St Jude for the boat as well as lyrics from the song by Florence + the Machine, the bird in reference to St Francis. Both st Jude and st Francis in part because of Jude St Francis from A Little Life.

[writeinmysoul]

Trying so hard to follow a normal conversation routine. It’s hard.

[writeinmysoul]

Sometimes, well often actually, I wish I were better at being a person. I wish I knew how to not only feel but also understand and express emotions. I wish I knew how to exist and interact with people and feel the friendships you see on tv. I’ve almost always accepted and taken pride in my ace and potential aro identities, but sometimes I wish I could feel the kind of affection and give the kind of affection you see given so easily in movies and books and shows, and I understand that it doesn’t have to be a romantic thing, but it so often feels like that’s the only option, and I’m comfortable with the knowledgeable that a romantic relationship, let alone a sexual one, may never be the kind of thing I want, but then I feel like I’m going to be missing out on all these things that people act like are the end all be all. And tho most of the time all I want is probably a qpr, or even just to live with a friend and get to have actual time with that friend, most people I’ve met still prioritize a relationship to their friendships 100% of the time. I don’t even know what I’m trying to say anymore honestly.

Just, a good 95% of the time, I’m so happy with my ace/aro identities, but then every once in a while, it feels like I’m lacking something. But I can’t even say it’s just the ace/aro, I think it also has to do with the autism/adhd and all of it combined. With not always understanding social cues and social situations. With not understanding feelings more often than not. With hyperfixating or having absolutely no interest in anything. And so much of it. And idk. I’m constantly losing the point.

I just want to be a person who can feel things and understand those feelings and know how to exist and interact with other people in a way that doesn’t leave me lonely and with a vague undertone of sadness and invisibility afterwards.

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Lonely creature born without a place

[writeinmysoul]

I want an iron man edit to Jericho by Iniko.

[writeinmysoul]

Good Anthropocene Reviewed tattoo ideas?