All The Things I Wish I Could Say To You.

This blog is raw and honest, everything I post is very close to my heart and is taken from my real feelings and experiences. This blog is for the broken hearted, the people tired of being second choice, the people in the friend zone. I see you. I love you and I hope this blog helps you get through what ever you are going through. I know it’s really helped me 💜

[writingforthesad]

I’ve been having dreams

About leaving it all behind

I’d pack a bag, book a flight

I’d be gone tonight

I’d throw out my phone

And just be alone

No one could reach me from back home

I’d get a small place, I’d die my hair

And no one would notice, no one would care.

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All I do is pretend I’m fine

Hide my feelings

Lie lie lie.

I tell no one I’m so sad inside,

They want me to fix theirs but who fixes mine?

I give and I give

It’s somehow not enough

The took the water from my cup then got mad it wasn’t filled up.

When I was 11 I remember thinking “How can I fix me when I’m constantly fixing you?”

All the screaming and the fighting what’s a little girl to do?

So I pushed it all inside and I guess it never came out.

So now I’m 22 with a head full of self doubt.

Luckily I’m a shape shifter so I’ll never show my pain,

I can be any shape you want I can shift any way,

I’ll bend and snap and break in two

If you want me too

“ good girls don’t complain” that’s what you used to say.

So I lie “It doesn’t hurt” and “I’m ok”

[writingforthesad]

We live in the same town

And I haven’t run into you once

What are the chances?

The universe is cruel

And harsh

Almost as if she’s screaming

“You were never star crossed lovers

And your paths will never cross again

You just couldn’t accept

He was only meant to be a lesson

and not your friend

Or your lover

Or forever”

And I wonder

Have I learnt it yet?

- the lesson

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Song: Liars like you by Sarah close

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I’m terrified that you will fall out of love with me

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Now that I have a love so golden, I’m not sure why I settled for less, why I settled for greys and a dark blue mess. Now that I have a love so fulfilling I can’t believe I used to beg for rations, I used to think that love was me begging for compassion. Now that I have a love so amazing I wonder why I let myself be hurt in that way not once not twice but every single day. My love is a reminder, he will never let me forget. That love isn’t a game, you don’t have to place your bets.

[writingforthesad]

Am I being unreasonable? So I've been in love with my best friend for the past 5 years. She was straight when we met and had a boyfriend. During the 5 years , we slept together and had a on and off relationship. Her relationship ended with the boy in 2019. Now she's just dropped the bomb that she likes this girl that isn't me. I feel like everytime I tried to move on she pulled me back. But now I'm feeling used, like I was never good enough for her and I was just something she should pick up and put down whenever she felt like it. I'm really annoyed and keep crying over it. I don't know what to do.

It’s a hard situation to be in, I think you have a right to be upset. But also no one owes you a relationship, she probably should have been much clearer with what her intentions were because you have obviously been hurt by her actions. However it’s probably not worth ending a friendship over, as a queer woman myself id say she was probably experimenting with you to try and figure out if she really did like girls. Try not to take it personally, I know it’s hard. But to be honest I would be super upset if that happened to me, so I don’t think your being upset is unreasonable, it might be a good idea to speak to her about it and tell her how she’s made you feel so you can move on from the situation and get closure

[writingforthesad]

Sometimes it feels like I take up too much space

Like my presence annoys others, like I don’t quite fit into place

I’m either too loud or to soft

I don’t talk enough or I talk to much

No matter what I do I can’t seem to please you

It gets so exhausting trying to be

Something for everybody, I just want to be me

But I’m stretched too thin and I work to much

I keep giving away parts of myself and it’s never enough.

[isntitlovelybeinginlove]

Have you ever met someone that made you question life in every way? Like you look at them and think, “what was I even doing before I met you?”

[whendidmythoughtsgocrazy]

“Your gaze. The way you look at me. I can’t concentrate.”

— k.b. // your eyes are so beautiful

[writingforthesad]

You say forever but forever has been said before

And I really want to believe it this time

Because it feels so real

You took my broken heart and made it heal

But many have promised forever

And none have ever stayed

So forgive me if I’m still scared

Of you walking away

-writingforthesad

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he broke up with me because i won’t send him nudes because i’m ashamed of my body. i’m still crying over him.

When I was 15, my boyfriend broke up with me because I wouldn’t have sex with him. Looking back now I’m so happy I didn’t give in just to make him happy. It’s going to be ok, if you don’t want to send him nudes he shouldn’t be forcing you to or making you feel guilty. You also shouldn’t be ashamed of your body but self love takes ages and I’m sure you will find it one day. Honestly it sounds like a blessing in disguise, if he can’t respect you and your boundaries he is not the one for you. You deserve someone that will love you no matter if you send him nudes or not. He sounds very immature and toxic I think you dodged a bullet! 

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I look at you and for a moment forgot about the whole world. In that moment it’s just us and nothing else matters. And I knew that if you ever left, that would be the death of me.

[romanticnihilists]

[writingforthesad]

Don’t look at me like that

I’m already falling way too fast

Don’t smile at me like that

I’m already way to attached

[mocha-latte]