setting: chaesol preparing for holiday’s christmas ballad ver.
word count: 659
notes: n/a
oh... the preparations for the sbs gayo daejeon. just mentioning it to chaesol makes her quiver from head to toe.
it all started when etoile’s manager told the members that they would be meeting in the next day to discuss their performances on the end of year music festivals: sbs gayo daejeon and mbc gayo daejejeon. chaesol went to sleep on her merry way, not thinking too much about it since that wasn’t the first time that the group was participating in those kinds of events and so far all of them were just fine.
in the next morning, she woke up as per usual, no worries in her head, enjoyed a nice breakfast and got ready whilst imagining that what awaited her later that day was nothing different than her usual routine. given that, she headed to the conference room and waited peacefully until the girls and the staff arrived.
when they got there, the manager started to give them a run down of how things would be and there was nothing out of the ordinary about it at first. they started by talking about mbc gayo daejejeon, in which they’d have to perform MAGO, I’m so sick and Bon Bon Chocolat, you know... the usual. but then, as soon as they wrapped the first event’s schedule and moved on to sbs gayo daejeon, chaewon’s chin dropped and her heart sank. they’d have to sing a christmas ballad version of holiday?
it had been a really long time since chaesol had to do something like that and she started to panick a little bit upon hearing the announcement, despite trying not to give away how distressed those news were making her. the thing is, she wasn’t the biggest fan of just singing while sitting down and doing nothing else. that’s right, the “singing live” part didn’t bother her at all, even though she was only the group’s sub vocalist, but not being able to express her charisma and performance through dancing like she was used to did.
although it was unecessary to worry over such thing, considering how chaewon displayed a natural, eye-catching charisma no matter what she did, she wasn’t really aware of that herself and so she spent the following days without being able to sleep properly because of that performance. she spent countless hours in the practice room, sitting in a chair and staring at herself in the mirror while she sang and tried to look as captivating as humanly possible so she wouldn’t lose her charm. she even sought out help from other idols at the company and asked for opinions on whether her stage presence was good enough or not. it was quite hellish, truthfully.
although it felt like months, the days until the festival quickly went by and chaesol suddenly found herself in sbs’s backstage, getting dolled up to go on stage and still feeling anxious about it. she even had to take painkillers for headaches in the morning from how severely desperate she was. she genuinely wanted to give it all for her fans, especially since it was to celebrate christmas. when it finally got to etoile’s turn to go up, the leader tried her best to pretend she was calm so she wouldn’t ruin everything she had prepared and began to sing alongside the other members.
to be frank, the girl barely remembers how the performance went, perhaps due to adrenaline, but when she tries to look back on it, the memory’s quite blurry. at least, she searched herself up online on the next day and there were no negative articles about her, so that was enough to make her relieved. looking back on it, chaewon did realize that her panick was a little out of hand and there was no reason to have gone through so much stress, but oh well... that’s just how she is.