tfishisNOTgoingon

cooked in the head please put me down

[wtfishisgoingon]

every time I post art I get those stupid ass things that are like DM me for commissions and the account has no posts and doesn’t follow anyone so uhh yeah I’m just gonna put all my commission stuff here if real people want to commission me :)

Hi! I’m Alex and I am both a traditional and digital artist who mostly draws humanoid characters. I’m also left taught lol. I have commissions open, and the prices are listed further down this page. I will draw humanoid characters, and I’m happy to draw ships but I will not draw anything NSFW just because it makes me uncomfortable. This also includes OCs and Fanart, but with OCs I will require some sort of reference (eg. an in depth description or reference artwork).

Prices (AUD):

Headshot - $8

Torso and head - $15

Full body - $20

For backgrounds I’ll pretty much do something basic, but if there’s something specific u want just include it in commission requests and I’ll try to do it to the best of my ability.

But there are a couple of things that might cause me to decline commissions:

- workload - I’m a student and academics suck

- complexity of the piece - I’m fully self taught and if you’re commissioning me I want to make sure it’s something worth your money, so if I don’t think I can execute the outcome you want I,L decline your commission request

- it contains content I’m uncomfortable with drawing - this is mostly just NSFW or if it involves a fandom that has discourse I don’t want to be involved in lol

If you want to commission me please include this 🐳 emoji in your request so I know ur not some sort of scammer sorry haha

However, if commissions don’t float your boat because we are not made of money I also have requests open, so I’ll put the info for those on another post :)

[wtfishisgoingon]

My requests are almost always open, and if you’re commissioning me want to request something just DM with me with your requests :)

Because I’m rlly busy with work, I might not be able to do requests immediately, and they’ll probably won’t be super polished because I’m mostly taking them to learn more things abt art and make new friends. So yeah I’d be super happy if u sent any requests. They follow the same rules as my commissions.

Also almost all of my art is tagged with #wtfish draws (included in the tags below) so if u wanna skip all my reblogs and ramblings you can filter them out with that tag

[itsgotgills]

It’s impossible to convince everyone to retroactively use the tag system properly but as a fix-it I’m going to start tagging all my non-crossover Iron Lung posts with #just blood if anyone wants to join me?

(no hate to hail mary but the shipping has eaten the smaller fandom alive & it’s legitimately impossible to search for anything else atp)

[itsgotgills]

what a great idea!

[beanswithbones]

what PHM fans see

what iron lung fans see

BROWSER ADDONS MADE TO HID FILTERD POSTS WILL CUASE YOUR SHIT TO LAG SO HARD BCS OF THIS!!! THUS WHY WE HAD TO MAKE A NEW ADDON TAG!!!

[divviren]

[citrusmorning]

he’s cold! he needs his cardigan!

[wtfishisgoingon]

homo

Probably

[edgycarr0t]

I don't think he is going to leave

[luren-away]

first meeting

[hhfdyjn]

28/100

[mteverestaaaaahh]

if the airlock (or just any of this) looks inaccurate, excuse me, I’m an idiot

warning: blood, and Grace frying the ever-loving heck out of his arm

[noodles-and-tea]

Dude that’s crazy

[dcartcorner]

and nothing at all bad happened

[ID: Project Hail Mary fanart of Grace and Stratt working together, Stratt lying on the couch and using her laptop while Grace sits on the floor below her while reading a report and eating Twizzlers, a stack of papers beside him. Stratt is sticking a post-it on Grace's forehead that says "dinner soon," and there are more post-its scattered around the room and on Grace's body. End ID]

ID provided by @nebulations! thank you!

[questionablelightyagami]

doomsday clock ticks closer to midnight

[puncertainty]

okkkk intergalactic meet cute..

[hjartasalt]

Mods are asleep post forbidden tits

[hjartasalt]

Huh

[hjartasalt]

Huh

[hjartasalt]

Huh

[hjartasalt]

Hhhhhhh

[anothermarkiplierfan]

Perfectly balanced as all things should be…

[0v9]

[lexeirikrleif]

[fruitloopghosty]

[offbrandbeethoven-blog]

i

[immortalcheesewedge]

balance

[wtfishisgoingon]

Just decided to restart my whole animation assignment so I could make it about project Hail Mary I’m feeling good rn

[mo0nrune]

shrimp

[annabelle--cane]

yknow I'm feeling a bit brave so I will venture to say what this blighted essay's pitch actually is: reading project hail mary (novel and film) as a ravishment fantasy. in both main threads of the narrative grace is brought wildly out of his element and pulled into the orbit of a mysterious foreign stranger who is significantly stronger / richer / more powerful than him, forced to accept unsolicited lavish gifts and personal praise despite protests and discomfort, and made to live in isolated locations in extremely close proximity to these people with no say in the matter, all of which are common motifs in ravishment fantasies. on her own, stratt also brings in other common motifs of restraints, drugging, being above the law, multiple kidnappings (I'm doing crazy things with the classical definition of "rape" as in "abduction" and its shared etymology with "rapture" as in "being taken to the heavens"), and the very specific yet still common motif of "otherwise trustworthy partner goes too far and doesn't take 'no' for an answer." rocky on his own brings in the overprotective flavor common to a lot of dark romance novel heroes, i.e. "I make sure you sleep and I like to watch you while you do it, I make sure you eat enough even if you've got baggage about it, I make inhuman displays of strength when you're injured, and as long as I'm around I'll make sure nothing bad ever happens to you ever again."

the issue I was running into with researching this a few weeks ago is that almost all of the scholarly writing on the content of people's forced-sex fantasies focuses solely on women's fantasies and starts with the research question of "why would women enjoy imagining such a horrible misogynistic thing?" despite surveys often showing that men have force-fantasies (where they are the one being forced) at very comparable rates to women. my hypothesis for a bit was "either men's fantasies are exactly the same as women's or they're completely different in [x] way," which was disproven interestingly when I did finally find something about men's force-fantasies: in content they are almost exactly the same as women's fantasies but the emotional motivations are often different in [y] way, which I hadn't expected. and [y] also super applies to my buddy ryland, perhaps even more than my original [x] hypothesis.

my hopes for writing this are twofold: a) to address the question I sometimes see phm audience members come away with of "if grace likes his life by the end and doesn't seem that mad about all of that, is the message supposed to be 'violation of bodily autonomy is good, actually?'", and b) to lightly resist one of the prevailing notions in the study of forced-sex fantasies, that ravishment fantasies are solely abstracted and fantastical and pleasurable and are completely 100% separate from fearful paranoid imaginings of / flashbacks to realistic sexual violence.

[annabelle--cane]

oh also: the most common interpretation of why people have ravishment fantasies is that it allows the fantasist to disavow a desire they feel ashamed of because, in the fiction of the forcing, they don't *want* it at all, they're being made to do whatever it is and can't be considered at fault. as I allude to in my final paragraph of the original post, I think it's a tad more nuanced, but there's definitely a lot of truth to that. grace can tell stratt that he's not smart or important or capable or brave or selfless enough to do what she wants, but she'll ignore it, make him do it anyway, and kit him out with skilled staff members and expensive lab equipment and coffee just the way he likes it. it's a fantasy of being respected and heroic and good whether he likes it or not.

with rocky, the fantasy is of being forced to be loved and protected. rocky decides to initiate contact, he decides that he's moving into the hail mary, he decides that he's always going to watch grace sleep even if grace says he doesn't need it, he decides to gift grace the fuel to get home even when grace pretends he doesn't want it, and he decides he's not going to let grace die to save him even when grace says he's made his choice. the two scenarios allow grace to experience the rewards of being selfless without needing to be so gauche as to ever say he thinks he's that good of a person AND to experience the rewards of being selfish without saying he thinks he deserves to be cared for.

[kyuurius]

that’s savior grace guys. Let him be