personal diary

Occassional poet / this is like a journal

[wtfsharvari]

Quiet my fears with the touch of your hand paper cuts sting from my paper thin plans

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Saying goodbye is death by a thousand cuts

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God I'm miserable

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Who am i supposed to talk to what am I supposed to do if there's no you

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Catastrophic blues moving on was always easy for me to do but it hits different, hits different cause it's you

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That's the kinda heartbreak time could never mend

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I'll be getting over you my whole life

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Life would be good if I could tell between my delusions and reality

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Pain

There's so much I wanna say but I'm so scared of jinxing it

Life would be better if I wasn't too lazy of fixing it

My pain is getting unbearable but I'm the one inflicting it

The wound deep inside could heal if I stop picking it

My delusion is going to destroy me if I keep feeding it

But maybe the weight of reality would also kill me if I start accepting it

Nothing would disappoint me if I just stop predicting it

My downfall will be inevitable if I don't stop manifesting it

My heart would stop bleeding if I by myself just stop piercing it

I just keep swinging between accepting the demon inside me and dismissing it

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Utopia

"Saw you from beyond

Met you under the stars,

Chose the darkest night

So you wouldn't see my scars"

"From you, I can never stay apart,

as you're the moon and I'm the star"

"But then again,

eventually, I will evanesce,

fade into nothing,

so don't get too close, stay afar"

"Don't relate to me as I'm wistful,

I'm long gone, keep your eunoia

I don't live in real world honey,

I live in utopia"

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The 13th day of fall

It's the way you look into these dead eyes

Blossoms my withered garden of a heart

It's the way you stare at me

As if I am a work of art

It's the way you hear me out

Just sit in silence and listen

It's the way you describe

Makes my shattered soul glisten

It's the way you tell me everything

And then say I'm your answer to all

I still remember the day we met

The 13th day of fall

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13 reasons why

But to live

Not to die

Deep breath

Let out a sigh

Weak moments are meant to be

Keep your head high

Friends will be your first

Everything else last

But one of your

13 reasons why

Headphones in public

Oh she's shy

Sad music and ceiling

Guess I'm too tough to cry

Life's hard

But it's worth a try

He is first

Everyone else last

But one of your

13 reasons why

Close my eyes

Everything will be fine

Your arrival was a fantasy of mine

13 reasons

You are all of them

You're my 13 reasons why.

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Love of theft

I am on the ground

Scared of heights

Cause everytime I fly

I crash and burn out of sights

Nothing but darkness here

Never seen the light of the day

"It'll be alright"

That's all they ever say

All I ever wanted was to be held

All I ever got was left

Now there's a void in my heart

So please fill it in with love

Even if it's love of theft.

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A hug

Is it sad? That I was never happy

Not even in the past

Is it concerning?

That any day could be my last

Is it scary?

How times moves too fast

Is it all real? Cause at any moment now

My head could blast

Is it unanswered?

The question I never asked

Is it still there? The beautiful flower

I once glanced

Is it true? That everything I say

All of it is aghast

Cause all I ask for is warmth

A hug that could everlast

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Forbidden fruit

My heart screams your name

But you're the forbidden fruit

I'd love to be yours

But would that even suit?

I am sane enough to know

That I am insane

Insane enough to know

Without you it's all vain

And it pierces my heart

In your direction

Every arrow I shoot

But still I'll bleed to death

In your pursuit.

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I want to let it out

I want to cry

But there's nothing left in me

As if my soul is dry

I'm still grieving

For the past me

I burned her down

And immersed her ashes in the sea

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Hell

I live in hell of my own making

It turns into heaven when you come in

But you're too good to be true

And I can see the end coming

This Sagittarius fire inside me

It can burn down the whole world

You're no good for me

I can engulf you in flames

But I'll still keep you warm