Fucking hell I’m so angry.
i don’t even know what to say anymore.
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Fucking hell I’m so angry.
i don’t even know what to say anymore.
not to toot my own horn but im an okay person sometimes
not to brag but some people like me and tell me i am their friend
not to be that guy but i can adequately perform several mundane, marginally important tasks
okay to reblog if you want to show off that you too are a person who is barely competent in possibly more than one way
rb if you made it out of bed after less than an hour of snoozing your alarm
What a beautiful smile 🐶🐶
that is not a “smile”, that dog is stressed af. the ears, the licking, the pulling back the chaps ...
La présidente du Front national va faire du « Brexit » un argument électoral pour la présidentielle de 2017.
TA GUUUUUUUUUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEUUUUUUUUUUUUUUULE FERME LA, TAIS-TOI, ASSIEDS-TOI, CALME-TOI, PRENDS TOI UNE P’TITE INFUSION NUIT TRANQUILLE DES FAMILLES, FERME TOUT, FERME TA GUEULE, FERME LA PORTE
Oh please, fuck off. The whole EU started because France and Germany couldn’t get along. You know that France will be EVEN more screwed over than the UK has been. Silly Woman.
Ah putain...
i have a memory of you and coffee too hot, a hiss sliding through your teeth. you are fighting so hard against anything that glimmers in the shadows, throwing your body into the mud and the ash and the frenzied anger ripping through you. ‘i have to burn it all,’ you say, and i know. i know. my fingers flutter over your cut-up, tired heart – and for a moment i feel miraculous because we are the same. i want the words to stay behind my teeth, but they are falling out of my mouth; i am not strong enough to keep them in. (already i feel your absence nesting inside of me.) ‘you are not the monster they say you are.’ your traumatized muscles shudder against the truth of it, too heavy to hold, even with both hands. ‘you’re not.’
both hands v. 2, cassandra litten, 26 may 2016
(or, i accidentally posted the wrong version of this yesterday and did not realize until midnight!!!!)
Oh.
So if I understand correctly
A Neo-Nazi Party Founded by Members of the Nazi Regime was about to win the elections in Austria but then the Ecologists/Green Party won… and now everyone is sighing with relief (like wow we are not that intolerant) only like this is not reassuring at all?!??!
(Does this mean that they are the official opposition party)?
it’s not reassuring at all. but the president doesn’t hold any power (almost), the position is more representative (he could, if he wanted to, fire the government, though …). this election has nothing to do with the general elections, when government and general assembly are elected (i fear the worst for the next general elections in 2018 tbh)
and seeing the development in europe in general and particularly in the countries surrounding austria (and, of course, austria itself, let’s not forget about that) i don’t feel too confident …
also let’s not forget that 49.65% of the votes went to an actual fascist whose right-wing fraternity doesn’t recognise austria as a sovereign nation (because they feel german) and who actually said he wanted to reintegrate south tyrol into austria.
So if I understand correctly
A Neo-Nazi Party Founded by Members of the Nazi Regime was about to win the elections in Austria but then the Ecologists/Green Party won… and now everyone is sighing with relief (like wow we are not that intolerant) only like this is not reassuring at all?!??!
(Does this mean that they are the official opposition party)?
it’s not reassuring at all. but the president doesn’t hold any power (almost), the position is more representative (he could, if he wanted to, fire the government, though ...). this election has nothing to do with the general elections, when government and general assembly are elected (i fear the worst for the next general elections in 2018 tbh)
and seeing the development in europe in general and particularly in the countries surrounding austria (and, of course, austria itself, let’s not forget about that) i don’t feel too confident ...
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dead serious, 6 ft is a totally arbitrary number, and most women who talk down to men who are shorter than 6ft and who call them manlets and all that would not know if someone was really 6 ft or if he was lying. most people woldn’t know unless they were around that height, really, i mean, at 1m72/1m73, can you tell the difference between 1m82 and 1m86?
(*Nods)
Seriously tho.
Like people who are 165 cm (and that’s pushing it) saying “If he is not 6 ft then I won’t date him.” Why? Why?
I feel that with age these types of standards can shift. I remember when I was really young, I had rigid standards like this but once I started dating I saw the benefit of dating guys closer to my height (not that I would say no to a tall guy, but I wouldn’t say no to a guy that is 1m74 - like my ex or 1m77).
But I don’t really get the appeal of height difference culture (you know really big differences between the guy and the girl). Like, if your bf is 190 cm and you are 165 cm, wouldn’t you get cricks in your neck everytime you try to kiss or put your head on their shoulder?
i’m 165cm and my ex was 195cm ^^
anyway, i didn’t date him for his height or despite it. he just happened to be a lot taller than me (it did come in handy sometimes, though. now i own a ladder ^^)
Lol, I guess I should watch what I am saying online :P Didn’t mean to sound like I was hating on those heights (I apologize for any possible subsequent offense)
I just found it bizarre when people were fixated on a particular un-changeable aspect of someone.
That said, it is pretty cute that you happened to have the exact height differences I mentioned. And tbqh I had never considered the ladder thing (as in,the taller person can reach for higher things).
oh no, i didn’t take it that way, no worries :) just wanted to reply because the difference was exactly the one you mentioned. also, i don’t mind being reminded of the wonderful time we had together.
i just remembered that everyone around us seemed to find it weirder than us. i started wearing a lot of heels during that time, actually.
i completely agree with you on the “i could never date a person with [insert weird arbitrary physical stuff like height, weight, etc.]”
(ok, for full disclosure, i am completely superficial when it comes to cellists with nice hair, no matter the gender or height ^^)
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dead serious, 6 ft is a totally arbitrary number, and most women who talk down to men who are shorter than 6ft and who call them manlets and all that would not know if someone was really 6 ft or if he was lying. most people woldn’t know unless they were around that height, really, i mean, at 1m72/1m73, can you tell the difference between 1m82 and 1m86?
(*Nods)
Seriously tho.
Like people who are 165 cm (and that’s pushing it) saying “If he is not 6 ft then I won’t date him.” Why? Why?
I feel that with age these types of standards can shift. I remember when I was really young, I had rigid standards like this but once I started dating I saw the benefit of dating guys closer to my height (not that I would say no to a tall guy, but I wouldn’t say no to a guy that is 1m74 - like my ex or 1m77).
But I don’t really get the appeal of height difference culture (you know really big differences between the guy and the girl). Like, if your bf is 190 cm and you are 165 cm, wouldn’t you get cricks in your neck everytime you try to kiss or put your head on their shoulder?
i’m 165cm and my ex was 195cm ^^
anyway, i didn’t date him for his height or despite it. he just happened to be a lot taller than me (it did come in handy sometimes, though. now i own a ladder ^^)
ah yes, my favourite foreign language feel, “I know what all of those words mean individually but not together like that”
not to forget its twin “i know (roughly) what you’re saying, but what are those words?”
Wait til you graduate to the next level: “I understand everything they’re saying until they ask me a question”
And finally, near-native competence!: “I know exactly what that means, except not coming from this person in this context”
my favourite by far is: i understand everything, but my active vocabulary has not quite caught on yet.
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my orchestra is currently playing the saint-saëns cello concerto with her and she is just so so so beautiful and cute and her sound is so fantastic. i can’t even
my 2016 goals plummeted all the way down to “survive” really quick
ok listen… you r literally the only person i’m telling this. just.. don’t tell anybody bud, but
i couldn’t sleep, so I decided to just start flicking through some internet TV things, like Netflix, Crunchyroll, etc.
and I found
{{ VOICE QUIVERING }}
this ANIME~~~~
called “SHE AND HER CAT”.
and it’s just it’s about
this girl and her cat.
but… it’s from the perspective of the cat. who LOVES HER.
SO MUCH.
and… the whole show is just about how happy he is to be her cat and how he thinks she’s amazing and the best ever
it’s a whole SHOW ABOUT HOW MUCH THIS CAT AND HUMAN LOVE EACH OTHER
AND HOW HAPPY HE IS TO ALWAYS BE THERE FOR HER
AND, AND, AND THE SECOND EPISODE IS JUST THEM REMINISCING ABOUT THE FIRST day they met…
and i SWEAR ON MY LIFE, I am a grown 30-year-old man with a successful business
reduced to literal tears
because it made me miss having a cat SO MUCH that I just cannot deal without ranting on Tumblr!!!
I mean come on…
She always comes home exhausted.
She brings the smell of a faraway town I don’t know.
I live in my own time, and she lives in her own time.
So these moments when my time and hers intersect
are more precious to me than anything
it’s SO MELODRAMATIC AND SO SWEET AND IT MAKES ME SO HAPPY
FULL ON TEARS.
OUGHH MY HEART…
WELL IM CRYING NOW I HOPE YOU’RE HAPPY
i’M GONNA !!!!! watch this!!!!!!
this is the saddest, most beautiful thing i have seen in a long time
On Camus
There are two clear reasons for why I hate Camus 1) Whenever he mentioned Algerians in his writings, he wrote about them with this contempt and racism (practically calling them barbaric at times) 2) His fake-ass, self-centered defense of the continuation of French colonialism in Algeria. In that light, it is horrible that schools can teach Camus’ writings and philosophies without pointing out the problematic nature of his attitudes towards Algerians.
My dislike for Camus is especially reinforced now that I am researching about the Algerian Independence War (for reasons) because there are many pied-noirs (this is how they called French Colonial Settlers in Algeria), who speak of Algeria with the same nostalgia and hyper-romanticization. And it is easy for them to do so. The French State ensured full citizenry and human rights for the pieds-noirs (from my understanding). They were the ones who got access to education and services. They were the ones for whom France could still be seen as “un pays des droits de l’homme.”
Meanwhile, estimates say that at the time of independence only 5% of children in Algeria had gotten formal education. There was a complete lack of investment in improving the managerial skills of Algerians. Infrastructure was lacking.
In a sense, these pieds-noirs remind me a lot of current Europeans. There is this idealization of colonialism– which is only possible because of the constant erasure of the sheer violence imposed on local, indigenous populations. There is … an entitlement that makes one uneasy – particularly, if they, themselves, are the product of colonialism/imperialism (as is my case). This idea that Algeria is Camus and that Camus desperately needed Algeria to remain static– an Algeria that naturally, without much thought, would prioritize the needs of Camus.
The words fail me and I can’t quite pinpoint how to explain the deep unease at witnessing a colonial settler centering their needs above those of the local population. Alas, perhaps, these words shan’t come to me before I post this note. At the same time I feel this great bitterness at the way Camus was taught to me. As I hinted previously, teachers and schools are perfectly capable at handing you The Stranger (L’Etranger), without ever discussing the Western gaze and the subsequent disdain towards the local population.
Looking back, The Stranger seems strangely ridiculous to me (for personal reasons but yes, strangely ridiculous). Starting with the philosophy of … what was it…nihilism? existentialism? Yes that philosophy. That life is just a series of repeated actions with no rhyme or reason. Is there anyone who feels this more than the colonized? Your opportunities depend on this state that does not even truly see you as human. Your children, as far as you can tell, will also be affected. And yet, if you do not wake up every morning and put one foot in front of the other, then your existence… you are no longer fighting for your existence. Everyone is in the same situation as you. So you fighting to exist is your way to push back against the colonizer’s gaze. Either way, I am getting muddled with this point. The short of it is that it seems ridiculous to have this White French Settler write an entire philosophy that perfectly describes the condition of the colonized while simultaneously showing a lack of total empathy and awareness towards their plight. It is ridiculous and laughable.
Don’t ask me to like Camus. I can’t. I shall not. I refuse to invest my time in singing his praises.
I’m about Camus, but I know after first defending French Algeria, he gave money to and wrote in favor of one of the parties involved in the struggle. Because it was the PPA and not the FLN, it’s forgotten sometimes. Many anarchists had ties to Messali Hadj and the PPA until the FLN took over.
Also, pretty sure it’s deliberate that in The Stranger, the main character is a white guy who shoots an Arab, attention is constantly drawn to how he doesn’t even care, and the colonial courts find him innocent despite his being obviously guilty. Pretty sure that’s a deliberate condemnation of colonial courts as inhuman and absurd. I mean, part of the thing is precisely that western teachers evacuate all political meaning from the book in favor of things being “just absurd” when Camus was a committed anarchist, and anarchists were involved in anti colonial struggles at the time, though Camus shied away from that.
I don’t really doubt that there’s a lot of truth to the OP; from what I know about Camus he was from a settler family in a highly segregated area and largely ignored the reality of most Algerians. He argued for equal rights between pieds-noirs and Algerians but rarely recognized their desire for actual independence, and when he spoke fondly about Algeria it was a white settler’s colonial Algeria, and that’s all indefensible. So I don’t oppose a negative appraisal of Camus from an anti-colonial perspective, he basically deserves it. Still seems like the OP is missing some bits in order to make the most negative possible reading. Maybe some of it boils down to Camus being taught as nothing but apolitical, philosophical absurdism.
So first I wanted to reblog this because I thought you put in a lot of interesting and important commentary.
Indeed, part of me wonders if my distaste for Camus does come from the fact that people and the ways people commemorate his works tend to erase colonialism and the context within, which he was working. To me, he was presented solely as an Existential philosopher and then as a master of the French language. As I mentioned in the original post, that really disturbed me because existentialism and absurdism really works to describe the condition of the colonized – the removal of choice, freedom, agency and the need to just go through the motions. It felt misleading that people just say “isn’t he a genius — look at existentialism.” Then there are the yearly/ periodical Francophone celebration of Camus– as a true Algerian– while you know, the Francophonie in general remains pretty colonial.
That said, I also do feel uneasy about giving him the credit of ever being a great ally (or just waiting for Algerians to gain their freedom). I truly believe that he wanted deep down Algeria to remain French and perhaps he wanted more liberties or civilities for Algerians … alas, I would be conjecturing and I would need to read up more.
Thank you for your thoughts though. I really appreciated learning it.
IIRC by the end of his life he supported some sort of managed independence where pied noirs would still have a place in it, a position that was basically completely behind the times
yeah, basically. The ties he had to Algerian independence were through revolutionary syndicalist groups which were active in favour of actual complete Algerian independence, whereas Camus himself presented himself as a revolutionary syndicalist but never quite a supporter of Algerian independence. I think that’s pretty distinct from actually supporting colonial Algeria and not realizing its injustices, but it’s not really an excusable position anyway, especially since he himself moved in political circles that were very much anti-colonialist, so he had no excuse not to know his position was pretty backwards.
“Also, pretty sure it’s deliberate that in The Stranger, the main character is a white guy who shoots an Arab, attention is constantly drawn to how he doesn’t even care, and the colonial courts find him innocent despite his being obviously guilty. Pretty sure that’s a deliberate condemnation of colonial courts as inhuman and absurd.”
yeah uh….. no
you can’t go from “a white coloniser wrote a book in which a white coloniser shoots and kills a colonial subject and the courts don’t care about that murder” to “this is CLEARLY a condemnation of colonial courts” because to do so would require you to posit that Camus believed that the lives of colonial subjects are worth something. you can’t base your argument on the thing that you’re trying to prove.
i’m reading it right now (because the class i’m working with atm are starting with it next week) and it feels like the essence of french colonialism.
just ordered “meursault - contre-enquête” by kamel daoud though. not sure what to expect, but i’m quite excited.
where’s the lie
amazing
wow. also “a study with rats” i’m dead
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