LAPIS💧LAZULI

INDIE LAPIS LAZULI FROM STEVEN UNIVERSE

[wxterwitchlapis]

"Go away!" petalsxfallen

[ ::💧:: ]   “Wow. I’ve never met such a bitchy pearl before. What an honor it is to be spoken to with such sass.”

[ ::💧:: ]  “No but, really. This barn is kinda mine? You’re welcome to leave at any time though.”

[wxterwitchlapis]

petalsxfallen:

“I don’t give a shit about your shitty barn! Take your shack of wood and get off this planet! I wanna rest and you’re getting in the way of that.”

[ ::💧:: ]  “Wow you’re even whinier than the pearl I’m used to seeing here.”

[ ::💧:: ]  “If you want to rest so badly why can’t YOU just leave. It takes a lot less effort for you to move than for me to uproot my entire life just so you’ll be here alone.

[wxterwitchlapis]

Any Stevens wanna interact with Li’l Lappy?

[wxterwitchlapis]

"Oh look it's Lapis Loser-li" ((totally not crack ;3))

[ ::💧:: ]  “DON’T FUCK WITH ME!”

[ ::💧:: ]  “I HAVE THE POWER OF GOD AND ANIME ON MY SIDE!”

[ ::💧:: ]  “AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHH!”

((Definitely not crack, nope.))

[wxterwitchlapis]

petalsxfallen:

“Suck a dick! Dumb shits!” She shouts flipping them off with both hands.

[ ::💧:: ]  “Mm, no thanks, I’m already full. Of boredom. Pick up some better insults will ya?”

[wxterwitchlapis]

"Go away!" petalsxfallen

[ ::💧:: ]   “Wow. I’ve never met such a bitchy pearl before. What an honor it is to be spoken to with such sass.”

[ ::💧:: ]  “No but, really. This barn is kinda mine? You’re welcome to leave at any time though.”

[wxterwitchlapis]

jasperial:

Jasper instead held Lapis’ shoulders with both hands, anchoring her where she stood. And within the agonizing conversation.

“It wasn’t trouble! We were everything… something so much better than both of us apart!”

Her form shook, as if the small chance that Lapis may fuse with her was also Jasper truly had on this wretched planet. In her mind… she was nothing without that immense power.

“We won’t be like that again, I’m better now. I can help you! I can!”

Lapis let out a tiny gasp as the larger gem gripped her shoulders, her hold admittedly rather painful for her. She should have expected Jasper to keep trying after she attempted to shut her down. But her reaction only managed to upset Lapis further, which she assumed wasn’t all that surprising. 

She reached up to roughly grab Jasper’s wrists, digging the ends of her fingers into her bronze skin.

[ ::💧:: ]  “Don’t you get it? I don’t need to be with you. I don’t WANT to be with you anymore! You can’t disappear for a few months and suddenly show up and say you’re completely fixed! Something is... Wrong, with you.... And with me. Being together isn’t good for either of us. You CAN’T help me. No one can.”

[ ::💧:: ]  “All you gems keep acting like you know me... You DON’T know me! Not at ALL.”

[wxterwitchlapis]

skinny-malachite:

*They can help a chuckle at their reaction, more than used to it.

Mmhmmm, she had had a bad fusion experience. Mal could see it on her face. *

“Heh, that’s like me asking you what it’s like being a non-fusion Lapis Lazuli. I’m, just, me. I emerged out of a Homeworld Kindergarten like any other Gem, other Malachites around me.”

[ ::💧:: ]  “Hm.”

Was what Lapis could say as she debated how to respond to the statement. It was clear this gem got mistaken for a fusion rather often, or at LEAST had been a few times before. 

She supposed that even if she didn’t understand it, there was no call to judge the other gem just for how she was made.

[ ::💧:: ]  “I guess I can’t really argue with that. Even if it’s still pretty confusing to me... So how long have you been on Earth?”

[wxterwitchlapis]

[ ::💧:: ]  “WILL YOU PLEASE SHUT YOUR GEMHOLE! BELIEVE IT OR NOT YOUR SPONTANEOUS UNDERSTANDING OF EARTH IS GETTING PRETTY OLD NOW, NAVY!”

[ ::💧:: ]  “WHY DON’T YOU JUST MARRY THE PLANET SINCE YOU’RE SO EASILY ADJUSTED!”

[wxterwitchlapis]

skinny-malachite:

“I’m not a fusion gem.”

*They explain calmly, almost every other Gem they ran into thought they were a fusion….. They point to their single, navel mounted gemstone. *

“I am Malachite. No one else.”

“I assume you had a bad fusion experience…?”

...Well that was confusing. A malachite who wasn’t made up of two other gems? That didn’t make any sense to Lapis. The other gem’s response left her dumbfounded as she tried to think of something reasonable to respond with.

[ ::💧:: ]  “O-Oh... Uh, okay.” 

Was what she settled with, rather displeased that that was all she could manage to say at the moment.

A dry laugh left her when the other gem asked if she’d had a bad experience while fused.

[ ::💧:: ]  “Bad is... An understatement.” 

She mumbled, averting her gaze. 

[ ::💧:: ]  “So, how does that work... Exactly? You being a malachite and you... Not being a fusion.

[wxterwitchlapis]

@skinny-malachite

Lapis knew... She KNEW she shouldn’t associate this fusion with her past experiences.

...But she couldn’t help it. Everything about this gem’s appearance practically drilled in her memories of being fused with Jasper. Holding her down at the bottom of the ocean, struggling to keep from separating but also silently begging to be split apart. The constant struggle of deciding whether she wanted to continue the torment that was their union, or whether she wanted to partially free herself and remain trapped on Earth.

With the way things had worked out, she was pretty angry with herself for how things had unfolded once they had unfused. Sure she met Peridot and her life had a hint of joy for once, but their bond was almost instantly severed when she stole the barn... When she gave up the place and the person she loved.

Still, being here with this Malachite reminded her of, proving just how little control she had over her own mental state.

[ ::💧:: ]  “Don’t you... Don’t you get tired? Staying together like that for so long? Don’t you ever miss being your own separate gems? How can you stay so calmly together like this...?” 

[wxterwitchlapis]

jasperial:

She couldn’t believe it. She found… her.

Jasper has lost her trail for awhile, but she never stopped searching. She yearned for that same strength she felt as Malachite with Lapis. Nothing felt right anymore… she felt so small.

So worthless.

When she finally spotted that blue silhouette, she approached quickly with all the words she wanted to say whirling around her mind. All of Jasper’s silent contemplation seemed to have amounted to nothing in this moment. And when Lapis recognized her, she just…

Stared.

She hardly heard what the smaller gem was saying before roughly grabbing Lapis’ wrist, and pulling it closer. Jasper cut off her last statement in a loud, desperate tone.

“Lapis! I… we need to be close again. You don’t need to deal with this planet anymore,” She felt her grip tighten on the last part.

“We can be strong again!”

Her terror started to subside leaving her stunned for a moment after Jasper pleaded with her to fuse once again... 

Well this was awfully familiar.

[ ::💧:: ]  “Jasper... I don’t need you to feel strong. And you... You don’t need me either. I was just as horrible to you as you were to me. I don’t want to put either of us through that again.”

Lapis’ hands started to shake before she wrenched her hand out of Jasper’s tight grasp.

[ ::💧:: ]  “I don’t need you so just... Just get out of here! You’ve caused both of us enough trouble. I can’t put myself through that again... Not now.”

She turned her gaze away, baring her teeth. Of course, of all times Jasper could have chosen to come crashing into her life again it HAD to be now. When she was the least mentally stable she ever could be.

[wxterwitchlapis]

@jasperial

It really did feel bad coming back here... Lapis didn’t know why she would subject herself to such misery, yet here she was. It felt wrong. So much was missing from the place she once called home. It didn’t even seem like a safe place anymore. Just a large scar across her conscience. It was like looking at a faded photograph... You can’t quite see exactly what happened, but the memory is still there somewhere, the shattered fragments of the glass that once held it together letting the whole thing fall to pieces. The barn was gone, thanks to her, Peridot, Pumpkin as well as the happy life they’d managed to snag for a few moments. 

Of course Lapis blamed herself, how could she not? The life she could have had with Peridot and Steven was ruined all because panic overtook her so many times. She didn’t know why she thought she could ever be happy. Her paranoia and fear kept her from what she wanted repeatedly before, why did she expect anything different now? 

Returning to Earth was a mistake, and she knew it. It was like toying with a cracked gem, even if she knew it would hurt her she continued to do it over and over, as if she was addicted to making herself feel terrible for what happened. She wanted to feel guilty. She knew she deserved it.

As she knelt by what had been the small lake Peridot once created to make her feel at home, she brushed her fingertips against the grass. Even with how long ago it had happened, there were still large patches where the blades had been ripped from the earth. A visual scar to match the one she felt inside.

Hearing heavy footsteps she turned to look over her shoulder, instantly getting to her feet as she met the gaze of-

[ ::💧:: ]   “JASPER?”

She tried to keep her voice from wavering, her physical form instantly trembling as just SEEING the large gem brought forth images and emotions of the past.

[ ::💧:: ]   “What are you even doing here? Why are you still on Earth?!” 

Lapis demanded, trying to force herself to fly away, knowing this could only end badly, but finding her feet stuck to the ground. She was paralyzed, unable to move from where she stood right before Jasper.

[ ::💧:: ]   “What-Whatever you want I’m not... I can’t help you! I don’t know what you’re looking for but I can’t-I won’t...” 

She found herself unable to get out the words she wanted to say. But what could she even say to change her fate. With the soldier before her now there was only so much she could do. Even just meeting the gaze of the large quartz was about to cause her to break down... What could she do? She had to get away but she was frozen!

[wxterwitchlapis]

This is such a Lapis song omf.

[wxterwitchlapis]

Any Jaspers/Malachites wanna come mess with Lappy?

I live for that angst man...

[wxterwitchlapis]

@jxspxrgxms

Lapis knew it was bad to be wandering Beach City like this. There was a very high chance that at any given moment she could run into Peridot, or any of the Crystal Gems. She knew she wasn’t ready to face that kind of situation... Yet that didn’t stop her from lingering in the familiar town. She tried to convince herself it was the nostalgia she felt for this place that kept her here even after everything that had happened... But she knew that likely wasn’t the case. 

It was like letting your fingers hover above a flame. There’s the ever present sense of danger that you’re going to get burned, but you keep your fingers there anyway, curious what might happen when the obvious answer is right in front of you. She found herself following a human into the large restaurant closest to the temple. Steven had told him it was a donut shop of some sort, which didn’t mean anything to her but was in the back of her mind as she entered. She didn’t know what she expected. But what she did NOT expect is to see the gem who’d caused her the most grief in her entire existence. 

[ :: 💧 :: ] “ J-Jasper! ” 

She stammered, backing up.

[ :: 💧 :: ] “ Oh of course, of COURSE you just HAPPEN to be here. As if it isn’t enough that I ran away and lost everyone important to me, now I’m not even TRYING to live normally and here you are again! “

She couldn’t think of a single reason why Jasper would be here other than to mock her and what had become of her sad life since leaving Peridot. 

[wxterwitchlapis]

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