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x52784    :    a    selective    ,    very    low    activity    ,    and    mutually    exclusive    sideblog    to    x55055    for    KEVIN    ATWATER    from    nbc's    chicago    pd    .    this    will    be    a    canon    divergent    portrayal    with    dark    themes    present    .    please    refrain    from    following    before    reading    my    guidelines    &&    if    you    don't    follow    x55055    .

001    :    don't    be    fucking    gross    .    no    homophobia    ,    transphobia    ,    racism    ,    sexism    ,    ableism    ,    etc    .    NO    BIGOTRY    OR    HARASSMENT    WHATSOEVER    .    this    is    a    safe    space    for    myself    and    my    mutuals    so    miss    with    that    shit.    <3 

002    :    this    is    a    mutuals    only    blog    and    i    will    only    be    following    those    i    see    myself    writing    with.    if    we    aren't    writing    or    communicating    in    any    way    ,    i    will    softblock    .    it's    nothing    personal    ,    i'm    just    not    here    to    collect    followers    . 

003    :    this    blog    will    include    triggering    material    .    blood    ,    gore    ,    law    enforcement    ,    guns    ,    murder    ,    trauma    ,    drugs    ,    violence    ,    nsfw    ,    etc    .    if    you    need    anything    tagged    please    don't    hesitate    to    let    me    know    !    everything    will    be    tagged    as    trigger    //    my    only    triggers    are    imagery    of    spiders    and    animal    abuse    /    cruelty    . 

004    :    i'm    ship    trash    !!    so    ,    i    am    willing    to    discuss    any    ships    from    romantic    to    platonic    to    familial    ???    like    pls    gimme.     i'm    also    open    to    mains    ,    exclusives    ,    etc.    as    mentioned    above    ,    this    will    be    a    very    low    activity    page    ,    so    be    patient    with    me. 

 NOTE    :    I    TYPICALLY    RELY    ON    MEMES    TO    GET    THE    BALL    ROLLING    BC    I    AM    NOTORIOUSLY    BAD    AT    PLOTTING.    I    GET    NERVOUS    AND    FEEL    LIKE    ALL    MY    IDEAS    ARE    AWFUL    AND    ???    IT'S    A    ME    PROBLEM    ,    BUT    IT'S    SOMETHING    I'M    TRYING    TO    GET    BETTER    AT    ,    SO    PLEASE    JUST    BE    PATIENT    WITH    ME .

[x52784]

THIS ACCOUNT IS CLOSED . MOVING HIM TO MY MULTI . LIKE FOR THE LINK OR SOMETHING .

[x52784]

[nightprompts]

&. 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐫𝐭 𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐬𝐭 𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬.

❛ i didn’t know where else to go. ❜

❛ i’ll never be that me again. ❜

❛ you can still be good. ❜

❛ i thought you’d be here. ❜

❛ don’t act like you know me. ❜

❛ because i care about you, okay? ❜

❛ it wasn’t supposed to end like this. ❜

❛ i was scared. i thought you had lost your way. ❜

❛ am i supposed to just let you go? ❜

❛ you deserve better than me. ❜

❛ don’t make me do this. ❜

❛ i’m not who you think i am. ❜

❛ you don’t mean that. ❜

❛ please just hold me. ❜

❛ i don’t want to understand, i want you to stay. ❜

❛ and why should i care? ❜

❛ you look awful. ❜

❛ i can’t do this without you. ❜

❛ don’t let me lose you too. ❜

❛ for what it’s worth, i really am sorry. ❜

❛ it’s not your fault. ❜

❛ i don’t know who i am anymore. ❜

❛ is this the part where you kick me out? ❜

❛ don’t we deserve to be happy? ❜

❛ promise me you’ll still be here when i wake up. ❜

❛ you can’t save everyone. ❜

❛ it was a nightmare, that’s all. ❜

❛ it’s just a scratch, don’t worry. ❜

❛ you know me better than i know myself. ❜

❛ don’t go where i can’t follow. ❜

❛ you’re better off without me. ❜

❛ we all die alone. ❜

❛ people get hurt if they get too close to me. ❜

❛ i hate what i’ve become. ❜

❛ i’m not going anywhere. ❜

❛ is there anything i can do to help? ❜

❛ i don’t even recognize you anymore. ❜

❛ who did this to you? ❜

❛ please don’t leave me. ❜

❛ oh, now you care? ❜

❛ don’t come any closer! ❜

❛ i missed you so much. ❜

❛ you don’t have to say anything. ❜

❛ do you want me to leave? ❜

❛ why are you avoiding me? ❜

❛ you could have died, you know. ❜

❛ i wish you were here. ❜

❛ you’re not alone. i’m staying right here. ❜

❛ i can be your family. ❜

❛ of course i’m here. where else would i be? ❜

❛ we just can’t seem to get it right, huh? ❜

❛ don’t look at me like that. ❜

❛ don’t push me away again. ❜

❛ this wasn’t how it was supposed to go. ❜

❛ you’re leaving already? ❜

❛ this was a mistake. ❜

❛ can’t sleep? ❜

[x52784]

idk if this was ever specified on the show ??? but in my canon , kevin atwater is a fantastic cook. if you’re dating him , you can bet he will bring u breakfast in bed and cook you dinner every chance he gets.

[thishaileyupton]

Black Lives Matter.  Kevin Atwater in Silence Of The Night.

[x55055]

i    will    be    on    vacation    from    friday    ,    6/20    through    monday    ,    6/23    !    which    means    i    will    not    be    active    on    the    dash    at    all    until    probably    tuesday    . 

[x55055]

i    will    be    on    vacation    from    friday    ,    6/20    through    monday    ,    6/23    !    which    means    i    will    not    be    active    on    the    dash    at    all    until    probably    tuesday    . 

[x52784]

fill my inbox !!! tbh , kevin or hailey . i’m going to the zoo with my brother , sister - in - law , and nephew soon . but i will write when i get back . yes , this is a threat . 🙃

[xbcaptain]

requested by @sunshine-seb

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okay    ,    y’all    …..    my    kevin    muse    is    soaring    over    my    hailey    muse    rn    ,    and    i’m    (((    only    slightly    )))    mad    abt    it    .    🙃    but    maybeee    like    this    and    i’ll    send    memes    ?! 

[x52784]

guys …. jsyk , i already reached my ask limit bc tumblr is a bitch , but i will send more tomorrow. ily. 😭

[x52784]

okay    ,    y’all    …..    my    kevin    muse    is    soaring    over    my    hailey    muse    rn    ,    and    i’m    (((    only    slightly    )))    mad    abt    it    .    🙃    but    maybeee    like    this    and    i’ll    send    memes    ?! 

[vhsmeme]

* dark matter starters

dark matter is a novel by blake crouch. tw: self-harm and suicidal ideation.

‘ how does that feel? ’  

‘ you should eat something. ’ 

‘ is everything okay? ’ 

‘ you have cuts all over your face. ’ 

‘ we’ll go someplace safe. ’

‘ you’re in no condition – ’

‘ there’s a car following us. ’ 

‘ you’re burning up, __. ’ 

‘ i can’t sleep. ’ 

‘ we’re all real proud of you. ’

‘ don’t touch me! ’  

‘ i should take you to the ER. ’

‘ you’ll be right here? ’

‘ i hope you’ll be more comfortable here. ’

‘ what does your gut tell you? ’ 

‘ let me take you to the hospital. ’

‘ stay with me. ’

‘ i told you. we’re a family. ’ 

‘ keep your voice down. ’

‘ what about me? ’ 

‘ last night, you asked me how we fix this. ’ 

‘ turn around. ’ 

‘ i don’t need you doing something heroic. ’

‘ you’ve been following me? ’ 

‘ by the way, this is going to stay locked. ’ 

‘ they carried you in here a little while ago. ’

‘ i’m scared too. ’ 

‘ just fucking do it. ’

‘ can’t you see it’s me? can’t you tell? ’

‘ you don’t look fine. ’ 

‘ bullshit. ’ 

‘ is something wrong, and you’re not telling me? ’ 

‘ so how serious is it? ’ 

‘ what’s in the bag? ’

‘ i just need you to listen for a minute. ’  

‘ __, are you having any thoughts of hurting yourself? ’ 

‘ you don’t get to – ’ 

‘ i really miss you. ’

‘ my phone’s dead, so i borrowed one off this woman on the train. ’ 

‘ because i didn’t sign up for this shit. ’ 

‘ i know. i just didn’t want to wake you. ’

‘ i’m not suicidal. ’  

‘ you live with your choices and learn. ’ 

‘ i feel like i’m caught in a nightmare and i can’t wake myself up. ’

‘ go to hell. ’    

‘ you don’t remember? ’ 

[vhsmeme]

* creepy location meme

send a number for our muses to interact at the following! 

an uncomfortably quiet gas station 

a bustling diner that never closes

an old tree with trunks like knives 

a video store with a sign titled ‘ JOIN US ’

the back of a stolen car

a twisting forest that beckons you

an antique shop that smells of death and decay

the lot behind a somber hotel

a forgotten graveyard on the outskirts of town

an abandoned church where the choir continue their song 

a grocery store where no one smiles  

a bar where everyone hums the same song

end of the road

an undisclosed government facility

a howling bonfire where shadows betray you

a police station on edge during a blizzard 

an uncanny farmhouse with a ‘ ROOM FOR RENT ’ sign

[vhsmeme]

* creepy location meme: part 2

send a number for our muses to interact at the following!

a cornfield guarded by a scarecrow

a classroom floor buried under shards of glass

the place where hope dies 

the inside of a ransacked cabin

decrepit train tracks

a sleepy town where shrieks trail every step

the bathtub overflowing with blood

a babbling brook where bone white hands slice through the water  

returning nightmare

an attic full of mannequins

a storage room stocked with food

the four walls of a waiting room 

a congested subway filled with troubled whispers

a room of gore and terror

top of a mountain

[nikosasakis]

BURGESS & ATWATER

⤷ S5E12 - CAPTIVE

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an empty chair with bloody hand prints / erin .

rigid    edges    of    canines    penetrate    granny    -    smith    held    in    palm    ,           ‘tween    digits    ,      like    a    savior    .          and    maybe    it    is    .          after    all    ,         it    is    conquering    the    hunger    pang    in    your    gut    .          it’s    a    welcome    distraction    from    loss    ,         from    casualties    :      the    worst    kind    .          kids  ,      songbird    -    innocent    ,         perished    too    soon    .          there    is    a    silence    that    lingers    ,      shift    in    the    atmosphere    ,         tension    -    heavy    .          precinct    is    desolate    ,         a    ghost    town    .          you    are    alone    here     …     or    ,      so    you    thought    .

‘    erin    ?    ’          brows    furrow    ,         frame    elevating    from    swivel    chair    to    approach    .          ‘    thought    you    went    home    .    ’          but    ,      maybe    she’s    still    as    haunted    as    he    is    .          the    images    of    blood    -    stained    sheets    .          crimson    handprints    on    chairs    with    bounds    nearby    .          ‘    truth    be    told    ,    don’t    think    i    could    sleep    tonight    .    ’          not    after    that    .          not    after    images    engulfing    his    mind    prompt    him    to    toss    remainder    of    apple    into    the    waste    bin    beside    :      appetite    lost    .