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One of my favorite songs by them, Right Back At It Again 2013.

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Please don’t look too long at the displays

1/16/19

Hey, it’s me. It has been awhile since we talked, hasn’t it. I feel guilty for saying goodbye the way I did. Makes me feel like it was all my fault. But I know that what was done, was probably for the best. Telling you goodbye face to face, would leave a image in my head I would never forget.

I’ve learned to look forward instead of back, but I still get little glimpses when songs come on the radio. They still echo a faint call with your name in them. Its okay, it really is. Because some days I smile and am thankful for the time we had. Other days when the music really fits the mood, I feel regretful for a second, but remind myself that it’s okay to feel the pain. But just don’t let it overcome you.

Right now, I’m thinking about how you are, because I do still care to some extent. I hope you’re well, living life the best you can. It’s what I want for you, and I wish I could tell you that to your face.

I’m looking for an outlet to express my emotions right now, not having someone to talk to about inner struggle feels like a massive weight on me mentally, but I also feel like it never gets anything done. All it is, is just talk. Never any action.

So here I am, wondering if this is what I needed. Or maybe, I should truly say goodbye. You’ll probably punch me though.

I go through friends like its normal. It hurts because I miss them.

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If a wolf disappears from a pack without a trace, the absolutely biggest chance is that it has died. The reason your dog loses its shit every time you get home is because as far as they’re concerned, you keep coming back from the dead over and over again.

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If you tell someone they’re eating “fish,” they won’t question it. If you tell someone they’re eating “mammal” or “bird,” they’re probably going to have some serious follow up questions

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The Exos are a race that was created by the Clovis Bray corporation during the Golden Age for a long forgotten conflict, perhaps against the Vex. During the Golden Age, they were led in part by the Warmind Rasputin, but after the Collapse and Exos went through more and more reboots, they eventually forgot their original purpose and joined alongside humanity and the awoken in the rebuilding of society, with some even being reforged in the Traveler’s Light.

They possess all the humanly functions typical humans have, they can eat and drink, although they do not need to, they have unique personalities and consciousness, and were even created with the ability to have sexual intercourse with each other and other human beings if they so desired. Exos even go through a sort of “death” process called “rebooting,” where most of their memories are wiped and they are sort of reset. The number attached to the end of an Exo’s name indicated how many times they have gone through this rebooting process, so Cayde-6 has been rebooted 6 times and Banshee-44 44 times. (Even though new documents and transcripts recovered from the Hellas Basin indicate they should only be rebooted about 20 times)

There is one thing that does set them apart, however, and that is the Deepstone Crypt. The Deepstone Crypt is the subroutine that first seeded the Exo’s consciousness, and is described by many as the birthplace of the Exos. On occasion, the Exos visit the Deepstone Crypt in their dreams, and their experiences at this mysterious location vary greatly. In their dreams, a tower rests on black planes, and the Exos must somehow reach and climb the tower for whatever reason. Some Exos reach the tower in peace, but others have to fight an army of every person they have ever seen in their current life and their lives from their past reboots. It is unknown what the Exos see when they reach the tower, however, as if they even remember it at all after waking they seldom wish to speak about it.

Some notable exos include Cayde-6, current Hunter Vanguard, Banshee-44, Tower Gunsmith, Saint-14, legendary Titan and the Speaker’s “son,” and the Exo Stranger, who may in fact be Elise Bray.

whatsupfuturewife

Dear Future Wife,

One day, you’ll wake up in the middle of the night, and get up to get a glass of water. It’ll be the start of winter – just beginning to get chilly, and I’ll be asleep in bed, beside you. You’ll come back to bed, and I’ll sleepily reach for you. I’ll press my body against yours, and mumble, half-asleep, about how cold you are.

And then, I’ll flip you around and spoon you until you’re warm enough again, and I’m satisfied with the fact that I’ve done my duty. When you’re here, love, I’ll do my very best to ensure that you don’t ever fall asleep alone, or cold. Not as long as we love each other, and as long as I’m around.

Hurry up and find me; winter’s almost here.

Love, Me

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It was very late. A small lamp provided just enough glow to light up the small corner where Leia sat at her desk. Her long hair was loose and she was in her night robes, an endless amount of documents and folders stacked in front of her. She sighed, leaning back in her chair, exhausted from the never ending work load. The floor creaked.

Leia turned around in her chair as she noticed the small boy who had crept up behind her. “Ben?” she spoke. She sat her pen on the desk, frowning when he wouldn’t meet her gaze. Instead he looked down at his feet, at the floor, awkward as he stood before her, tiny hands at his side. “Ben, you’re supposed to be in bed,” she scolded, “Mom’s still got a lot of work to do.” Leia was frustrated. The boy had been in a bad mood all day. It was hard, feeling like a single parent when Han wasn’t around, not that he was ever fully involved anyways. It irritated her sometimes. And Ben had thrown such a horrible tantrum earlier in the day over something so small. She was at the end of her patience.

The child rubbed the back of his arm against his nose and face, sniffling as he still wouldn’t look at her. “Ben?” she asked again, her expression and voice slowly changing from irritation to concern.

The boy looked up then and she saw his face, his nose and eyes pink, swollen. Dried tears stained his red cheeks as he bit his lip to keep from crying. Leia forgot everything in that instant, dropping out of her chair and kneeling in front of him. Nothing else mattered now but her son. “Oh, sweetie,” she spoke gently, taking the frightened child into her arms.

It was his nightmares again. Leia just knew it. It caused him not only emotional torment, but physical. It was awful. But there was little she could do every time it happened. It pained her to see her baby boy like this, sometimes for nights on end. But all she could do was be with him, hold him in her arms and tell him that everything would be all right.

Leia placed a hand over his heart, feeling it beat rapidly. “Sweetie, it’s ok.” she breathed, attempting to calm him with her soothing tone. She placed her other hand behind his neck and shoulders, pulling him into her.

“Mommy…” he choked, unable to hold back his tears any longer. He grasped onto her tightly, completely falling into her embrace. His body became wracked with sobs.

Leia pressed her forehead to his, her fingers gently stroking his soft skin and dark curls. “It’s all right, sweetheart. I’m right here.” she spoke assuredly.

“I miss Dad,” he managed to say through his cries.

“Oh Ben,” Leia was fighting back the tears herself now as she could feel his pain through the force, through their bond as mother and child. His grief resembled her own.

“I know sweetie,” she bit her lip, “I know.”

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~Happy Mother’s Day~

Also, I’m sorry for the angst. But if you do have a mother, go hug her and tell her that you love her. Not everyone is so blessed in this manner. Appreciate what you have, because you’ll regret these missed opportunities when they’re gone.

Much love ~ <3