survivor of the black mesa

INDIE HALF LIFE RP BLOG FOR OC FAITH (written by blue-zurbagan). Please read rules and about page before interacting ♥

[sneckoil]

testing stuff out

[hi-host]

hello darkness my old friend.. 

[xhavefaithx]

Bluezurbagan is gone. And it might never come back.

@support many thanks for taking away my blog, everything that was in it and my followers you bastards.

[goodolsheevy-blog]

Rise and shine, Mr Freeman. Rise and shine.

[roleplayers-ink]

A quick and easy plotting guide

Send me ✔ and I will bold my preferences for your muse!

My muse(s):

Do I know your muse(s):  yes | no | a little | tell me about your muse

Setting: our verse | my verse | your verse | modern | alternate universe | other

Pre-established relationships? yes | no | depends on the relationship

Possible relationships: friends | classmate | co-worker | roommate | family, real or adopted | dating or blind date | married | friends with benefits | unrequited love | lending a hand | teacher - student | rivals | allies | partner-in-crime | enemies | protecter - guarded | business partners | spy - infiltrated | manipulator - manipulated | star-crossed | first meeting | other 

I’m in the mood for: fluff | angst | horror | romance | humor | crime | hurt / comfort | action | supernatural | slice of life | crack | dark threads | light threads | any genre | multi-para | shorter para | one-line | any length | plotted threads | unplotted threads | other

Feel free to: message me ooc | message me ic | tell me your ideas | write a starter | answer one of my opens | send a meme | reblog this with your preferences - let’s find common interests!

[fratricidium]

me: I have so many drafts to do. How am I ever going to reply to them all?

also me: *likes another starter call*

[xhavefaithx]

I really am doing a Daniel Lazarski rp blog and boy do I want a promo to it???? But I can’t do photoshop???? meh

I think my blog will be ready tomorrow’s night and boy howdy Im doing this insteed of my finals :)))))

I may not have promo too, cause eyy, Observer have a small community and it might know about my blog really quickly but I still wanna promo cause promos are fucking beautiful

[rpmemesupreme-blog]

send me a ⚡️and I'll fill out for you/your muse:

my first impression of your muse: my first impression of you: my favorite thing about your muse: my favorite thing about you: would I ever consider shipping our muses: a plot I’d like to see between our muses: an AU I think would be interesting for our muses:

[xhavefaithx]

❛ How was I supposed to know that? ❜

“Shush, you!..-”

Her voice was actually louder than his, so she quickly fell silent, afraid of being heard. But the dark surrounds were quite… suspousilsy quiet.

“ I’m sorry. What I meant to say was… Uh, never mind. Of course there’s no way for you to know that. But it is what it is - we ran out of medical supplies and I need your help. There’s a hospital nearby and I’m pretty sure it will have some stuff in it. Will you go with me?”

[xhavefaithx]

I updated my “About” page because I finaly came up with a voice headcanon for Faith! It’s Meredith Godreau aka  “Gregory and the Hawk”. You’ve probably know her by the song “Boats and Birds”.

I love both song and voice and I think it matches Faith’s personality quite well and can also sound very resonating when she is mad angry. So here’s that! :D

[xhavefaithx]

me: *19 years old*

Faith: *almost fucking 40 years old*

me: my child, my little girl, my babe, kid, kiddo, my baboo-

[smutxmemes]

Send "You belong to me." to see how my muse reacts.

               requested by imaragequitter

[xhavefaithx]

@misunderstood–servant​ continued from x

Faith almost took a step back as if trying to keep a distance between them. She was lost in the emotions - a bittersweet mix of fear, curiousity… and something else. Something that made her listening to him. Was it because she waited so long to finally talk to him? Was it hate and anger? Was it hope that this mysterious man is actually on her side?

She looked him in the eyes and almost immediately looked away, trying not to show a slitest bit of her confusion,

“An observer, then? B-but… that doesn’t make any sense. If you are meant to just observe, then why do you keep me alive did you saved me?”

She remembers it. Remembers every single second of pure agony. The memories are haunting at night and the scar on the chest won’t ever let her forget. The knife of the soldier was stuck between ribs, ripping through lungs, almost touching the heart. The blood was leaving her body, flowing like a wine red river from her pale lips. Before the darkness took her away, Faith saw a hand stretched out and heard words - but she couldn’t understand them as she used the last of her strenght to take the hand… and then there was nothing. Nothing for so, so long.

Until she woke up.

“I was meant to die back there… in Black Mesa. There was no way for me to survive . And yet… here I am. Why?”

[misunderstood--servant-deactiva]

He stayed in place as he noticed her walking back. It wasn’t something to be unexpected when it came to actually speaking with his ‘survivors’. She acted confused, even showed it in the smallest glimpse of her eyes, but he could tell that her full attention was on him.

During the incident at the facility, he would notice a red headed woman, wondering around with a minimal set of weapons. She wasn’t a fragile woman, he would often notice her taking a blow to the head or stomach, and endure the pain enough to strike back. She had fine aim, and because of her medical background, she knew how to heal her own wounds. She was a fighter, he never had a doubt about it. However, her luck didn’t come at the right moment as expected. In that moment, he already made his permanent decision; she was to live, and he was to watch over her.

He let her have this moment, seeing how she has always noticeably suffered because of these past issues. He knew she would not mention a word of this. She was a quiet individual, and she was one to be too frightened to let out any secrets.

“Worth is an item, never meant, to be wasted.. Your, skills, and management, have been a fragment I have, never, encountered… To you, it may serve as, nothing… But… to me-“

He closed a bit of the gap between their feet, and leaned in again to attempt good eye contact.

“You’re… different, Doctor. And well… I enjoy, different perspectives..“

[xhavefaithx]

“Do not. Call me. Doctor.”

Faith’s expression suddenly changed. Now she was starring right into his eyes, fists clenched, cheat rapidly rising and falling. It was almost like she was ready to hit the strange man without any second thought.

It was a long, long time ago since anyone called her like that and Faith got used to be called... well, nothing. At Black Mesa, yes, she was a Doctor Zimmermann - much to her surprise, everyone seemed to be nervous calling the offspring of another Zimmermann by this title. He was The Doctor Zimmermann. 

And she is just Faith.

Snaping back to her normal state, Faith realised that she was standing on her toes - like a small kid reaching for something. Embarrassed, she quickly stood back on full feet, eyes down on the floor once again.

“I’m sorry, umm...”

The young woman hesitated for a second. After all, she didn’t even knew his name. Did he had one, actually? How she should call him?

“Sir, I’m gonna be honest with you. I’m thankful for saving me, I truly am, but...”

but my grandparents oh my dear grandpa and grandma are gone my coworkers my friends everyone I’ve ever known has died in the fire I never had a chance to say goodbye I couldn’t save them I couldn’t take them with me they are dead dead dead 

DEAD.

“Doesn’t that mean... I owe you? I’m more than sure it’s true.”

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[vosh-daemon]

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[thedovahcat]

MMYES

[baazlbub-deactivated20181203]

Why is there no option for no hair back hhhh oh well, have my old hairstyle as opposed to my current one

[zomblequeen-deactivated20181123]

This is the expression I constantly have on this blue hellsite

[queennawee]

Have a me!

[synonimp]

pretty accurate

[baltoth-deactivated20200707]

I mean.

[maar-gan-deactivated20180716]

well this was fun

[ariasune]

[05637-deactivated20190328]

here i am

[djkalis]

!!!

[liselicanis]

[blackthunder-chan]

[oninatsumi]

[vince-mcmuffin]

BOYS CAN PARTICIPATE TOO

[spiacylis]

[the-x-button]

[middida]

[bunny-heels]

[xhavefaithx]

[misunderstood--servant-deactiva]

9 (G-man is the best anime girl)

////does escaping the vortigaunts in ep 2 to get to gordon and alyx count

[fdtdsource]

— santanico pandemonium