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[habken]

me and the spectral form of manifested guilt that haunts my boss after she sent me off to space to die

[thottistani-deactivated20220220]

No gay has all 5:

- A job

- Good relationship with father

- Neurotypical brain

- Ability to top

- Driver’s license

[garbage-empress]

this is a fun post because people will say how many they have in the tags then you get to figure out which ones.

[projectorthus]

Grace sends this off as a "fuck you" to Stratt and unintentionally eases 40+ years of horrific guilt.

(40+ factoring in the Hail Mary mission, then the time it would take to get back to Erid and the time it would take for the message to get to Earth. Probably closer to 50+ actually).

(I do think Stratt felt bad. She did a lot of terrible things to save the planet, and obviously felt guilt for sending Grace off. I imagine the time waiting to hear back from the Hail Mary was torture for everyone, but she essentially sent three people off to their deaths, one unwillingly. Hearing that Grace made it out alive would be a huge weight off her shoulders.)

[absolutejamer]

grace is not rocky's dog

grace is kept in a clear, airtight container filled with a completely different environment with a carefully maintained life-support system that, should it fail, he will quickly die.

grace is erid's fish.

[xirine13]

guess what, another post about music connected to my current fixation 🎉

thinking bout a certain Ryland Grace with the song Castaway by Derivakat (who, fun fact, i first started listening to ‘cause her banger dsmp songs, anyway-) because jesus fuck i need this song injected into my veins, and i need every body else to understand.

the title gives away what the songs about, for starters. i imagine its set specifically during that period of time after he wakes up on the hail mary, but before finding Rocky, where he’s still terrified and questioning everything. that weird mix of panic, loneliness, and desperation all wrapped up into one song. here’s some of my favorites, and the lyrics i feel fit phm the best:

“keep orbiting in circles, but nothing ever pulls me in / keep on searching for my purpose, cause i cant find it ‘neath my skin” <— about graces life on earth. distant from others, no immediate family or relationships, just as stratt said. he’s always been a bit disconnected from people, but never before on this scale where he’s physically thousands of miles away.

“scream my feelings to the night / can you hear me?” and “why am i so far away? is this how i’m meant to stay? / can somebody find me, feeling disconnected from reality” <— that realization of just how far away from his planet he is, and a foreshadowing of rocky lolol. the chorus is where that desperation is really felt seeping through the words

“stars aren’t made for lasting / fate that stays condemned” <— astrophage problem, dealing with the dimming of stars, and all the fun feelings that come with realizing you’re meant to die in space!! yay!!

connecting music to my current fixation has been something i’ve done for like, the past 4 years now. the fact that i get to do it with an artist i’ve been listening to for even longer than that makes it even more fun. i’m sure i could ramble even longer about this dang song, how the fast paced drums are the backbone of that feeling of panic and desperation like i’ve mentioned so much, the overlapping lyrics of the outro that resembles grace overthinking and spiraling over his situation, the fact that the whole album is themed around space and stars and- yeah. you get it. hopefully.

(here’s the link to my playlist w/ many other songs i might yap about some other time. sue me, i like promoting my own playlists LOL)

[itsnicsalad]

me when i have to kill my favourite scientist but i feel bad bc he was my closest almost-friend idk,,

[habken]

angsty request : grace reacting to colts accident

sure thing

[habken]

Request: Rocky in a full human disguise

he got adrian to help him out (grace for scale)

[cabinette]

Armando wants to know about the Blip-A....

[chernozemm]

I feel like we (well, I) need to dig deeper into "it's been a while since I've taken pills from a stranger" Ryland Grace. Yes, he gets easily embarrassed, but only by compliments and genuine affection. this man has Seen Stuff at parties. Arguing with academics by day and maniacally seeking human connection and closeness in the form of crowded dorm room parties by night. Running on 3 hours of sleep and the high of someone touching his shoulder while placing a pill on his tongue. Disappearing into the crowd if things get too intimate. Rinse and repeat.

[tea-and-violence]

heres the thing. in no universe whatsoever does ryland grace agree to go on the hail mary. and in no universe would stratt let him refuse. it is fundamental to both characters that grace goes to space; grace is not grace and stratt is not stratt if it doesn't happen.

[jadewestwriter]

and if I say they're slowly driving me insane with their secret third thing then what

[hauntedhowlett]

so the project hail mary ground team probably had communication with the ship for a little bit before it traveled out of range, right?

i’m talking video feed, microphone, and remote access to the care robot.

stratt watched the ISS crew assist yao and ilyukhina and a sedated grace prepare for their induced coma. she heard ilyukhina make a joke about waking up the most well rested she’s ever been in her life. she watched yao shake hands with the crew captain and thank them for their help. she watched the fate of humanity drift off to sleep, watched as the ISS crew wrote “good luck!” on the sleep pods, watched the hail mary detach from the ISS.

stratt checked the feeds almost obsessively. she would pull up the cameras and tap into the microphone, even though she saw no movement and heard no sound. she scrolled through health reports that she couldn’t understand. it became part of her routine. despite all her bravado, all her efforts to remain distant and detached, these people had become her friends.

and she had betrayed them all, in some way. grace most of all, yes, she had forced him on a mission he didn’t want to go on, had signed his life away to the stars for the sake of a dying star and a suffering planet, but she had also betrayed yao and ilyukhina, sending them on a mission without knowing that grace had said no. a lie of omission, but a lie nonetheless.

once the ship had cleared the requisite distance from the ISS and any satellites, the astrophage engines kicked on. the speed increased and with it the distance, which eventually led to delays in communication with the ship. the reports began to slow, delayed by a few hours, then days, then weeks. the video feed became glitchy before going dark. the mic feedback was nothing but static.

the hail mary became a ghost — something that was there but could not be seen or reached.

but perhaps most haunting of all was the last report ground control was able to receive:

STATUS

YAO - DECEASED

ILYUKHINA - DECEASED

GRACE - ALIVE; Vitals: WNL

[hylasregilla]

Huge fan of these DIY IR goggles which appear to be made of a smart phone duct-taped to a pair of safety goggles and zip-tied to multiple straps.

[petrova-line]

doctor ryland grace, age 26: what’s wrong with me? what the fuck is wrong with you, you complete and total waste of carbon—

captain-doctor-teacher-savior-mated^(rocky-adrian-closed)-mr ryland grace, age 112: ♯ . i’ve been getting really into pickles lately :) 𝄐

[pixiecaps]

aromanticism

[0sbrain]

Tumblr added a bunch of tracking shit to share urls, so now ill teach you how to get rid of them

if you copy a url by sharing on the website, the link will look like this

getting rid of tracking in these is easy, just delete everything after the question mark and you are golden

in the case for the app, its slightly more complicated

first you have to delete at. that appears before tumblr(.)com the other tracking shit on this one has a lot more info, so please, clean app urls. after the first set of numbers, there's a / you have to delete everything after it

a clean Tumblr url should look like this

blog safely

[big-papa-huge-time]

Removing this garbage makes posts embed on discord btw