I went to sleep a poet, and I woke up a fraud @xpoisonedyouthx - Tumblr Blog

me: gets on tumblr after 2 years just to see old messages from friends in high school who dumped me because I'm human garbage and they can't stand the thought of me

me: cool bye

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Did I ever tell you guys about the time I bribed a security guard at a Panic! at the Disco concert to let me hug Ryan Ross?

There were about 40 of us waiting around in the parking lot after the show, because we knew they’d come out to meet us (this was when they were touring with Dresden Dolls and The Hush Sound, right after A Fever You Can’t Sweat Out got big, so very early on). Their security guy, Zack, said we were only allowed to high five them. If we tried to touch them beyond that we would get escorted away. I was 16, and Ryan was My Favorite. I was literally joking and just trying to get on Memorable Terms with the security guard (pro-tip, get in good with security, folks), so I told Zack I would give him a fruit-by-the-foot if he let me hug Ryan. He looked me dead in the face and said, “You have one on you?” So I pulled a fruit-by-the-foot out of my purse (because I never went anywhere without them at the time). I handed it over, and the guys came out one by one about an hour later. When Ryan got to me, I looked at Zack questioningly. He nodded and said “This one’s allowed to hug you.”

And that’s the story of how I bribed P!atD’s security guard with a fruit-by-the-foot to let me hug Ryan Ross.

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i cant breathe

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this guy was the only member of this club at my alma mater for like 3 years in the 80s. Love him

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lonely gays should reblog for gay perseverance

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ive never been naked and if you have you’re disgusting

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Welcome to the sound of Pretty. Odd.

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I will never forget the time I asked a little girl how old she was and she said “6 but I’ve been alive like 30 years”

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My touch is black and poisonous

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30 things I wish I knew before I started cutting:

1. Razors are a pain in the ass to get out. 2. Don’t ever let something get to the point where you can’t control it. 3. Shaving will never be the same. 3. Cuts hurt way longer than just when you’re in the shower. 4. Sleeves move around, and they won’t always be covered. 5. The fabric from your jeans will make your skin feel like it’s burning alive. 6. One cut will never be enough. 7. Every line, mark, scrape you see turns into a trigger. 8. Blood smells really, really gross. 9. The scars will constantly remind you, even on the good days. 10. You’re not sure why it feels good, it just does. 11. ^^ Sometimes it doesn’t feel good at all and it will make you cry. 12. You’ll start to see yourself as disgusting. 13. Sometimes the blood won’t stop and you swear it’s your last time, but it never will be. 14. Bandaids, Neosporin, and razors cost a lot of money. 15. Sex becomes very awkward with the lights on. 16. Cuts itch. 17. Then people ask why you’re itching. 18. You’re too hot to wear that hoodie? Too bad. 19. You’ll throw away your razors and the next day feel like a psycho when you’re digging through the trash. 20. No matter how many excuses you make up for doing it that day, none of them will be valid. Ever. 21. People will think you do it for attention, so you’ll start to believe them. 22. You’ll want to stop, you just won’t know how. 23. It will tear your heart out when your best friend does it once. 24. Some places feel better to cut than others. 25. Skin doesn’t always grow back the way you want. 26. You’ll feel like a charity case. 27. Some people will treat you like you are one, too. 28. You’ll start to think more about your back up plan for if you start to bleed out rather than college. 29. You’ll get angry if you forgot your razors. 30. Your mom’s going to cry really hard when she finally sees them.