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[xypherllyles]

I'ma break you off, let me be your motivation To stay and give it tonight And, baby, turn around, let me give you innovation, hey 'Cause I do it so right https://www.instagram.com/p/B2mmSWrFQ-x/?igshid=1c5cpj0v0fdds

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They won't do I need a girl thats kinda frisky Drinking with the fellas Takin shots and gettin tipsy Always wanna party cause she sexy as hell And if i ever get in trouble bailin me outta jail Cause she a stone cold stunna Hotta than the summer When she step up into the club every man and woman want her She make me wanna get a stripper pole up in my home Cause her porn star dancin' got me in the zone! https://www.instagram.com/p/B117Ya5hcWe/?igshid=ttqvd0ztq8ze

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Today in Spoils from the Streets, I was on my way to the bodega for my usual purchase of Lifesaver Gummies. I decided not to go my regular route opting to go the scenic route. However, upon arrival to the Bodega I came across a heap of books discarded. I came to find that I lived next to a middle school (hurray for being aware of my environment). Now most people might ignore many of these textbooks but I say HELL 'NAW. Although I couldnt tell you what I need all these books for. I see them as blessings from Jupiter who has blessed me with treasures to expand my library. Someone needs to buy a new bookcase. #spoilsfromthestreets #books #student #lifelonglearner #wtfamigoingtodowithallthisshit (at Bronx, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/B111sYqBias/?igshid=10al6qpibd2ok

[xypherllyles]

So I was had finished hanging with a friend earlier yesterday and was feeling very as my grandmother would say "peckish" for something. As I walking back to the train to go home I saw a @pokebowlnyc location and was immediately drawn in. I'm really trying all sorts of things to find my way back to my Hawaiian roots. I left at 8 and I feel at 8 years old you dont really get to appreciate what you have going for you. In addition, it kinda makes transitioning to everywhere else a little odd considering that eveyone wants to go to @gohawaii because its some luxury paradise vacation area that I kinda grew up thinking "Well everyone I know is from Hawaii so obviously this is what is normal." Tl;dr 8-year-old Xypher, it's not, but that's fine, it makes you unique I guess. Moving on. I find @Instagram to be great because the #hashtag system suggests hashtags geared towards the content you're already putting out so, eventually mine led me to #pokebowls, which I could totally be butchering this but it's like Hawaiian sushi (any native Hawaiians or anyone who knows more than me, please feel free to correct me). So I had to indulge. Cant remember everything I put in here, but I do remember I wanted to make it as colorful and healthy as possible, and saw Masago and Seaweed Salad on there which I never had before so I definately threw them in my bowl. Consensus, I wholeheartedly approve. I'll definitely be going back one day. Even brought home a couple of chopsticks because everything tastes better with chopsticks. I may not know much about Hawaii but everytime I learn something new about Hawaii I'm always very fascinated. Considering relearning the native mythos (I can only remember the ones about Pele and Umi, but I remember I was taught 4 before I left), and some native chants (I only remember E Ho Mai, and E Ala E). #pokebowls #pokelover #sushibowl #meokbang #mukbang #hawaiianfood #hawaii #hawaiian #thirdculturekids #thirdculturekid (at Poke Bowl-Canal) https://www.instagram.com/p/B1ss4T_FSnn/?igshid=1l6xpaxd8tcf0

[xypherllyles]

First and foremost, I want to give a shoutout to @maxidamian_dj. The fan used in this cover was from his White Party Birthday Party a few weeks back. It was LIT AF!!! If you weren’t there, you definitely should’ve been! Now this is Bobby Doll by Song JiEun of Secret. It’s her second and final solo comeback from TS Entertainment before Secret disbanded ad she left the company. I was really trying to figure out which fan dance cover I wanted to do, it was between this, Brown Eyed Girls “Sign”, and VIXX “Shang-Gri La.” All are awesome songs and dances and if you’re into this sorta thing definitely check them out! I definitely had fun. #bobbydoll #songjieun #Kpop #dance #dancecover #gay #gaylife #gayman gaydude #gaystagram #gayhot #gayguy #gaytwink #gayboy #gaycute #gays #gayfollow #twink #twinks #hottwink #instagay #gayentertainer #gaysinger #malemodelsofcolor #singers #musician #gayvocalist #popmusic #entertainment #pop musician #popsinger #newbeats #song #freebeats #buybeats #gaymusician #gaymusic #gaysinger #entertainer #gayvocalist #topvocalist #vocalist #musiccover (at Bronx, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/B1ckbuClPys/?igshid=furds1iz6rkd

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Recently added to the Xypher Llyles library (I've been super naughty I know, please show mercy). A testiment to how much Saturn has struck fear in my soul. I've already started reading the "Palmistry bible" by Jane Struthers (Lemme tell you Palm reading is intense, I got half way through it and put it down, I'm going to have to read that one and take notes). I previously owned "The Only Astrology Book You'll Ever Need," by Joanna Martine Woolfolk and gave it away to a friend (the title isnt a lie). I started reading "Llewellyn's Complete Book of Divination" by Richard Webster on the train in the morning now. Very early in the book still but I have come to find out that Occlumency is a real occult art of divination and not something that JK Rowling made up as I thought (divine study of the eyes). My uncle previously owned Harish Johari's "Numerology" book which, but when I saw "The Big Book of Numerology," by Shirley Blackwell Lawrence, I had to pick it up because numerology is pretty intense. I picked up "The Complete Guide to Chinese Horoscopes" as the Chinese Zodiac is technically the first zodiac cycle I became aware of at 7 at Queen Lydia Lili'uokalani Elementary School in Honolulu, HI (I was born in the year of the horse). I spoke previously about "D'aulaires Book of Greek Myths" before, and that book will always have a special place in my life from when I first read it in Roosevelt Middle School, but what's absent from this picture is "D'aulaires Book Norse Myths" which I have lent to a friend. One of the things I've always been thankful of from my father was his open mindedness about having an openmind to alternative faiths (Zen Buddhism isnt a religion but way of life, but he definately took his time finding it). I wanted to really look at "The Complete Gods and Goddesses of Ancient Egypt because I dunno #black #fortheculture? Ancient Egypt was a very advanced civilization for it's time and I know very VERY little about the society despite Mr. Miskimon really giving great detail about it. I'm really excited about these new additions!!! (at Bronx, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/B1M58TtlGnM/?igshid=er7psqdd76pz

[xypherllyles]

Who are you to change this world? Silly boy! No one needs to hear your words. Let it go. -Starset #gay #gayfit #gaystagram #gaydude #gayselfie #gayhot #gayguy #gaytwink #gayboy #twink #twinks #model #gayselfie #instagay #gayentertainer #gaysinger #malemodel #malemodelsofcolor (at Bronx, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/B1MnxrVlbZl/?igshid=1lmx3311kov2

[xypherllyles]

'Cause there's no excuses This is who I'm meant to be There's no regrets, I don't care if you believe There's no excuses This is who I choose to be I don't look for trouble, trouble looks for me! Raarghhhh (at New York, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/B0XYxOMlYSw/?igshid=1lync1k1ikmzq

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I think I just died and went to Hades 😂😂😂😂 @astro.matrix tells me my daily transits and readings on a day to day basis! I totally dont have to go online, make a daily transit chart, read it, figure out aspect interpretations etc anymore. I just entered my birth information like you would for any other Natal or Transit Chart Reading and the application does the rest! At the low low cost of "Free" you can receive your personal daily horoscope! Today Is looking super gloomy. Mars OPPOSITE Natal Moon, Sun SQUARE Natal Mars and Venus OPPOSITE Natal Saturn, but at least Venus is CONJUNCT Natal Jupiter! So I'll be working on dealing with these placements (Somehow true to my real life conflicts currently 😏😏😏) #astrology #astromatrix #horoscope #natalchart #transitreading #saturnreturn (at New York, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/B0TPl4lF7Fj/?igshid=k6ij6o1k4jfm

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I don't think of myself a competitive person, HOWEVER, every time log into @duolingo and look the leadership board and see my dad with 0 xp, it always hurts a little. 😖😖😖 #duolingo #language #languages #competition #competitive #sorewinner #victorious (at New York, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/B0Nt6KElCNk/?igshid=1fkgqnlg2p91m

[xypherllyles]

A couple days late but important to me nonetheless. This is my Star Chart. This was (in theory) the universes prophecy of my life on July 9th, 1990, in Honolulu, HI at 5:08 pm. And the purpose of this is because I just had a birthday recently. I turned 29-years-old, and those within the astrology community know that roughly between the ages of 28-32 (different people say different things so I just used all 4 years I've heard) Saturn makes it's a full revolution around the sun back to the natal position it held the day you were born. Saturn (Roman name for Cronos on my Greek mythology family tree post, God of Time) is one of the most feared (or respected) planets in astrology, for Saturn is like a stern father and a karmic teacher all made into one. Wherever he/she she is on your chart (house or sign) and what he/she is aspects (their relation to the other planets) is indicative of the lessons Saturn wants you to learn.After about 2.5 years Saturn leaves the house its inhabiting to the next house in your chart. The major part I've left out was that Saturn reaches you the lesson you're supposed to learn by turning your life to complete shit! The phrase appropriate here would be from 1 Corinthians 13:11 "When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put childish things away." Basically the tricks you used to get by before will not work anymore, and one must grow up and with the lessons Saturn has taught you up to that point, work to reap the rewards of that house and placement. As such when Saturn leaves, he/she lifts the hold and restrictions he/she placed on your house allowing you the ability be prosperous having "learned" the lesson. However be mindful Saturn returns in another 29.5 years, and he/she will test you again! #zodiac #astrology #occult #occultism #mythology #Greekmythology #saturn #saturnreturn #natalstarchart #Karma #cronos #prophecy #destiny #pseudoscience (at Bronx, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/BzyuAyClarU/?igshid=yqq3uu5ihfew

[xypherllyles]

I found this on Facebook in the Science Memes community page. So I'm not going to take credit for it. I don't know what my posting pattern is becoming and how it will affect my "brand" but it'll work itself out. I feel that I am not any one particular thing, and I love to learn and explore new ideas and concepts and better myself. So often we place people in boxes and force them to limit themselves and their potential (See Rick & Morty "You Butter Toast.") At times I have felt that what's the point to living, that whole nihilism thing. I came to an odd sorta conclusion that I was "A Slave To Life," and romanticized death in a way that it would free me from the pains of life. However, I've also had some... how you say BDSM type relationships as well and have learned that part of a dom/sub relationship involves the growth through pain. Where the sub becomes dom and the dom becomes dependent on the sub. By that logic I concluded that obviously life was hard. Yes, very hard! I was already search for things to understand, and why, and how to better myself. And then I began to realize, being enslaved to life was a blessing. For one day, if I was a good enough slave to life, life would be mine. So I'm not concerned with how odd my brand is right now. It will work itself out. I like what I like, and it's my Instagram page, and nobody's dropping dollars so i can do what i want. I should be getting back to making music covers super soon. I order some bluetooth speakers in the mail the other day, as my old one just died out of nowhere 😢. So to ensure that if it happened again I got a back up. And more importantly I am looking at trying to buy a new acoustic guitar. I stated this already on Facebook. I've actually reassessed its priority to number one on my tasks and goals. (I know someone might mention my sibling, but I learned from him how to play, I can never be as good as him. I just left him a message on his video of him doing an acoustic cover of Avenged Sevenfolds "Unholy Confessions" on his Instagram page @ slavetogreatness). Peace, Love, Prosperity (at New York, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/BzyhwJ-lQ_p/?igshid=17drquvl8cit2

[xypherllyles]

Been making this for hours. Hungry as holy hell but totally worth it! #bibimbap #rice #bellpeppers #cucumber #spinaich #carrots #chicken #mukbang #meokbang #Foodie (at New York, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/BzxOnh1FySG/?igshid=1hv142emi3uu

[xypherllyles]

Because the world keeps turning And all people do is complain They love the drama Reality is they don't care a God damn bit about anything you're telling me It's just as simple as that (at New York, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/BzkqOrJFutE/?igshid=14vj2qqylk7vk

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The rest of my artwork. Not as good as the original set, but I made it so Instagram is the place for this kinda crap! 😂😂😂 #drawing #artwork (at Bronx, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/BzjPtB5ldsQ/?igshid=sxhnlbmzwjjh

[xypherllyles]

So, most of my life I have been suicidal. I started visiting a therapist as early a 7-years-old in my memory. At 10, I expressed to a teacher that I hated myself, she responded by telling me that I had the individual assignment of making a list of 10 things I liked about myself and turn it in to her (I never actually completed this assignment)I was taken out of school at 12, because in like a health class we had an assignment where we had to write 3 questions about thoughts we had in our heads (the assignment was in regards to puberty, hormonal changes, etc). I wrote "I wonder what it'd be like if I were dead." Suicidal thoughts have always been with me. I never thought I was good enough. And when I became homeless for about 2 years, I made it a personal point to do massive amounts of work to ensure that I would never be in as bad of shape I was in then. Furthermore, i consider myself to be an artist. I wanted to be a famous singer as a kid and popular. As an adult now, I'm very conflicted about this path I've chosen to excel at as it perpetuates the conditions and insecurities that made me suicidal in the first place. So heres the deal, I know people rarely contribute to these things. I know I dont cuz I dont have money. But this year, if you can donate something to the @national_suicide_prevention . Not everyone has access to the time or resources I had to fight my battle. Many lose. And who knows, that suicide can lead someone else to theirs. Listed below is the link to the fundraiser: https://m.facebook.com/nt/screen/?params=%7B%22fundraiser_campaign_id%22%3A427063271215967%2C%22source%22%3A%22feed%22%7D&path=%2Ffundraiser%2F Alright theres the sales pitch *Leaves* (at New York, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/BzfQJwsFSyO/?igshid=jpgk0bbgl2zk

[xypherllyles]

I was going back through some of my old notebooks and found some of my old artwork. I thought I'd share. #drawing #artwork (at New York, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/BzH1yK8lKGD/?igshid=8ab3hrr0eqjx